Catching Up: Guides, Practice, and Encounters (Oh, My!)

OK, I know I’m still going to have to go back and fill in some blanks, but here’s a primer on the overview of the past 6 months…

Angel/Spirit Guides
Energy, Healing, and Spiritual Work (thus far)
A Note About People, Animals, and Beings I’ve Encountered – and Who You Will, Too (I PROMISE)!

Angel/Spirit Guides
My Guides, with whom I have become acquainted:

My Unnamed Elohim
Ezekiel
Maia
Ascended Master Mary Magdalene
Ascended Master St. Germain

My Unnamed Elohim
My Elohim (which is what I call it – I want to say “him,” but I don’t think the elohim are either) is the first “voice” that came through to me, and is probably who I would say has always been my primary guide, because now that I’m aware and have reflected back, it’s the “outside voice” I’ve heard for a long time.

It’s the voice that came through in my first autotyping sessions (see the post about my first autotyping experiences), and was the first “constant presence” I felt over my shoulder. There are no facial features I can distinguish; mostly because I just see a figure with wings and a golden glow around it that is simply there. Sort of floating, very soothing. Just very there.

I’d never even HEARD of the term Elohim before I was told, when I’d already gotten Ezekiel and Maia’s names. I asked, and was told, “I have no name.” Before I could focus in on that, in that particular meditation (which was part of a worldwide teleconference meditation on January 15th, 2010 with a channeler named Selacia – she channels what she calls “The Council of 12”; I’ve found that the guided meditations she holds through those teleconferences are particularly powerful; here’s her Website: http://www.selacia.com/), my Elohim took me through the memory of 5 different past lives; when I said I didn’t understand at first, I was shown that it was lives in which I’d been with my husband, in one form or another (sometimes I was the woman, sometimes he – in fact, I joked with him about what a beautiful woman he was! LOL). In asking about it, I was told we were together this time because we had one more thing to work out with each other – and I got the feeling it was a biggie.

And when I was told about it, Elohim took me to Lemuria/Mu, and told me it had to do with that life.

Anyway, the next morning, I woke up and had a strange word repeating itself over the over in my head. Elohim, elohim, elohim, elohim…and I knew it was from that Guide. I remember asking my husband if he knew the word, and he didn’t.

So again, I did some research, and found out several meanings of Elohim… the one that most resonated with this Guide being was one of the higher level angels who don’t have a name that we would understand.

The day after this meditation I mention, I asked as part of the next day’s meditation:

Is Elohim your name?
It is what I am called. I have no no formal name, but I am your Guide, of that be sure.

You are getting better at focusing your energy and meditation. That is good.

Were those past lives you were showing me last night?
Yes. You have many more. You have have much experience on this plane. You will begin to remember more soon. Be patient…

You will continue to get a lot very quickly. You will have to sort a lot out. The …[animals?] are starting to get sick. There is a  lot more wrong with your food than you realize. It will be harder and harder to find the REAL truth. But you must! The people will start to get sick next. Really sick; not like now. This is just a precursor. It needs to be cleansed. Pyramids cleanse. You must remember how to use their energy to do so.

How many dimensions are there?
There are many; many more than you’d think. But they’re just layers that make up the holistic picture. When you remember, you will understand naturally.You have been around for a long time; we know you can be trusted to carry out the help that needs to be given. Learn, remember, and teach. There will soon be many others who are [Awakening]…you will all awaken the fastest because we need you to.

Won’t many followers of some churches think this is of the Devil?
Love and light could never be a devil; the devil is in their hearts, and it is called fear. There is none otherwise. One at a time, if you must. They are more ready than you think, just not aware.

I have a “secret signal” set up with my Elohim, as with the others… this way, if I get “a message” along with the signal, I know where it’s coming from.

My 41st birthday present  to myself was a tattoo with complex meaning that I designed myself; watching over the rest of the tattoo is the upper half of my Elohim, because I know my Guides are always with me.


Ezekiel

Yep, that’s right. He was the first one to pop up and introduce himself face-to-face in one of my meditations, when I specifically asked for my guide to introduce themselves. Then *POP* – there he was.I believe I explained in an earlier post that though I’m really good at recalling stories, I really stink at recalling names. SO, when he said his name, I knew the name, but not what he was attached to.So, before I even knew any relational history/mythology specific to him (meaning, connect his name with the stories I knew), our initial direct discussion went like this (via autotyping; see my earlier post):

[I saw him sitting in a European courtyard, on a stone bench around a water fountain. Very laid back in attitude – kind, wise, happy to “see” me face-to-face – but yet a little sad. Longish black hair, VERY ANCIENT WORLD kind of clothing, and yes, wings.]

It’s Ezekiel; we have been friends for a long time. [Note: Though there was no “memory” of this, I knew it to be true when he said it… we have known each other]….

..There will be much unrest. The world has been through this before; everyone must know how to take care of themselves, because nothing bought [meaning food and medicine] will be trusted soon. There’s less than 100 years until this all goes to rubble again. Many earthquakes and floods, and much else. There is a good chance this time, part of the world will evolve; the others, well… yes, it is true…but not the same as literally depicted [meaning in the Bible]…I say 100 years, but for many, it’s less.

Some will deny until the very last moment; those Awakening will understand all the beings. Those who fight it won’t; they will be too scared, and will follow anyone who can help them believe it’s not real, or that of a “false devil.” HA! It [the “false devil”] is within themselves… Help them open up to what is really real; this is just the beginning. There is much yet to learn [meaning “remember”] in very little time.

[In the interim, while he was talking, this is where he showed me what I equate to snapshots in my head: towns in rubble, floods, cities in a mess.]. It will be very ugly in their eyes; they won’t see the real beauty of the Universe and all of us in all our forms. A great many, though, will be ready. If we could only get everyone there  and lock down this dimension, there will be only higher ones from there that are much, much better…

I am with you always. Go friend; we will talk again later. Much love and light.

Follow-up research. So, in doing Google research afterwards, had to chuckle to find that Ezekiel is the Archangel of Death and Transformation – how fitting, I thought, considering the conversation and the imagery! There are many, many stories about Ezekiel throughout many of the world’s major religions.

Something else that I found fascinating doing this research – and it gave me THE BUZZ when I found out – was the story of Ezekiel and the Merkabah in the Bible. This was a story I actually hadn’t known (or had missed somewhere along the line)!

Anyway, previous to this first meeting, and previous to my research – in fact, for several months beforehand – I had suddenly become purely entranced by sacred geometry; even more specifically, the star tetrahedron, or Merkabah. In fact, as I did the research, I had been absent-mindedly playing with the clear quartz crystal merkabah I had bought and wore around my neck.

Also, what was really interesting: This introduction was on January 10th; the Haiti earthquake: January 13th. And how many have there been ever since? Food for thought…

Maia
It wasn’t more than a week or so after Ezekiel introduced himself to me when I was meditating one morning and I met Maia.I was actually working on astral projection – something I know I’d done “by accident” a few times over the years – and I was having problems lifting myself out of my body. My base chakra wouldn’t detach, and in my meditative state, I was trying to pull myself out, when I looked up and there was this hole in the ceiling……. and a woman was reaching down to offer me an arm up.That particular effort was unsuccessful. However, this woman was offering me encouragement, telling me it was alright –  that it would probably take a little work – but still offering me help during my effort.When I’d put that effort to rest for that day, and she realized that I had stopped, she soon appeared in front of me.

She was an average build, had wavy, shoulder length, strawberry blonde hair – and she was dressed in a thin armor metal of sorts (yet she looked comfortable wearing it).

At that point, I had my laptop at the ready. Here’s part of the first autotype session I had with her:

I am Maya. I am of the light; some of the highest light in the center of us One.

You will remember; we will get better at this.  What’s most important right now is that you remember to call for me when you meditate, and I will be the one to show you how to use your awakening abilities. You have much to learn, and not much time! There are many who will need you to teach them; you and the others awakening now will lead. You will show them the ways I show you, along with their guides! However, they will trust a human in the flesh more… The early Awakened listen to us, but many others will ignore our voices as a thought or fleeting idea …

You still have some to learn to fulfill your final contract in this dimension, but you will achieve your goals much more easily now. They will seem petty to you in comparison to what we’re doing…

We will talk much shortly! My love and light.

Maia had me stumped. When she’d told me she was from  “some of the highest light in the center of us one,” in my mind, she’d showed me an infinitely bright glowing ball in layers of sorts – like the petals of a flower. And when apparently showing me where she was, it was definitely close to protecting the core.

Yet I’d never heard the name in Biblical discussion, nor did I specifically recall the name in other mythologies I’d encountered. Yet I knew about the Mayan civilization, and I knew the month of May had to do with a Maia/Maya, so I figured there was something Roman, Greek, or Pagan associated with it. And, since the Maia/Maya I saw was fair-skinned and fair-haired, I figured Roman, Greek, of Pagan would be the closest relation.

And so, I set to Google yet again, and I had to dig a bit.

In the meantime, while I had been puzzling over this, I had shot off an email to an acquaintance I had made via the Internet, and who had proven to be knowledgeable in these matters. She was the first site I came across when I was having my odd Awakening symptoms, and was looking for people to talk to about it; she’s a clairvoyant in Australia (see Willow Bodo) who had early on posted a section to her Website offering “Lightworker Discussion” – for people who needed some place to talk about new abilities that were arising. I went to her board and posted about the Guides I had been meeting, including my puzzle about Maia, hoping that Willow would have some insight to steer me the right way.

Somehow, I’d missed that Maya or Maia was the name for a goddess or central figure of sorts in many ancient societies; my efforts brought up a variety of different histories, obviously the ancient civilization of Maya, but also Maya, the Virgin mother of Buddha; Hindu, as the Goddess of the mystical; Pagan, as the Goddess of Fertility and Spring (thus, May); and also Greek, as the Goddess Maia, mother of Hermes and eldest daughter of Pleiades.

The last one seemed close (even some pictures I saw weren’t far off from who I’d seen in the meditation); plus, the tie-in to Pleiades gave me THE BUZZ, even though I wasn’t sure why.

About a day later, I received a response from Willow, which was VERY confirming, and came through to me just as I was really spending my time looking into Maia/Maya. This isn’t verbatim (Willow has since taken down her posting board), but this is close to the response she posted:

I was given specific information to share with you; I’ve been told to guide you to a book called The Pleiadian Agenda, the author is Barbara Crow. Funny, I’ve had the book on a stack for years, so when I got this message, I picked it up, dusted it off, and now I’m plowing right through it, and don’t want to put it down!

I remember when I read that message; it was late at night on a Saturday, and everyone else in my house had gone to bed. First of all, the Pleiadian connection confirmed my earlier thoughts. But EVEN FUNNIER was a FLASHBACK that occurred right after I read it…

… to about a year before, prior to these experiences (back to when I guess life just seemed “normal,” whatever that was). I had gone with my husband and children to Barnes & Noble bookstore – a huge toy store for me! I was randomly browsing through different section of books by myself, and had come across the New Age section. After browsing a little more individually through that section, I completely randomly picked up two books on topics in which I’d never even really had more than a passing interest – a book on the Mayan prophecies regarding 2012, and a book on what was being claimed to be a “sister” race with whom those of us on Earth had some supposedly ancient connections – the Pleiadians. The funny thing: I brought those books home, sifted through them a little, then put them on the bookshelf and forgot about them…

As I thought about it, I couldn’t remember what the specific name of the book about the Pleiadians had been. As I looked up to think about it, I glanced straight across the livingroom from where I was sitting – to a bookshelf. As I was wondering if I should even get up to look on the bookshelf (and whether that was the bookshelf where I would have had that book), my eyes rested on the book I was wondering about…

The Pleiadian Agenda, by Barbara Crow.

I laughed!

The more I “connect in” to our collective Universe, the more I realize that having someone clear on the other side of the planet get a message relayed back to me (since I apparently wasn’t open enough to receive it without question at the time) that the information I was looking for was sitting right in my living room – about 15 feet away from me – is far from bizarre. Because to the Universe in it’s vastness, it was like Willow was just sitting in my livingroom, got up, walked over to the bookshelf, and handed me the book… “Here you go, Dummy! Right here!”

Anyway, though I’ve really never figured her out in entirety (good grief, look up Maya/Maia online sometime, the name really has been revered through different societies through the ages); in fact, the picture I used above is a painting of Joan of Arc (associated with Ascended Lady Master Lotus… though there’s never a mention of connection to her), because she really looks a lot like the way Joan is depicted in this picture! I guess I’ll just have to piece that one together (also that the lotus symbolizes Ascended Lady Master Lotus, and before I ever knew that, I’d in a spur of the moment thing incorporated a blue lotus into a tattoo I recently got). Regardless, she is a constant, supportive, Guide who is always there when I call on her, and she has opened my consciousness to quite mind-expanding information when I’ve needed it.

See my page on Maia/Maya to read more about our interactions, as well as some of the other autotyped conversations we’ve had.

Ascended Master Mary Magdalene
One day, I was actually in on another of those world teleconference guided meditations. I was going one way with it, when *POP*! There stood a woman, stately, and in ancient garb. Though for awhile she said nothing, I could “feel” her right away – kind, but emanating power. She kept her distance, and just… observed me. It was a little distracting, but at the same time comforting.

I had no idea who she was, so I asked her. She moved forward a took over the meditation (but in a good way)!

I am Mary Magdalene. I am your Guide.

It is important to spread the word about the truth. Most people really need to learn what it is to live in a higher frequency and do not. They blindly shut it out. But this must be taught. You can teach; you are a good teacher. You must be patient, innovative. The world is going to crash; no one looks in the mirror and sees themselves anymore. No one – almost no one – takes care of themselves, their sacred vessel. How can you ascend if you don’t know how to care for yourself, your body, the vessel you’ve chosen to have in this plane? Many are going through life unaware of themselves. When you do that, you learn nothing. Learning is why we embody ourselves in this form experiencing.

I know you worry about the connection – about helping them make the connection – but little pieces will help with the big puzzle. You can help wake them up a little at a time; it’s much less of a fight than throwing water on them. You must also be true. There is much healing to go on. Much to learn about, to remember. Ascension is not a right; it’s a graduation. The time for this experience is over. Time for the next, but many have become lazy; bound themselves into a box, into a duty. Bathing in their pain and sorrows, how sad!

Bathe in the light; in love, and in our One. That is true existence. We can be One yet still be our one; that is the lesson here. It’s not either/or – not just collective or just me. It’s both. Ego has become too important. So much so that instead of being able to experience, many are without and cannot even get past their focus on basic physical survival. What a waste! There’s so much to do, yet little time. There’s been a lot of time on this wasted.

Humans must kill the ego and experience the One. It is so much more fulfilling, you’re just starting to understand that. You will understand a lot more in a short time. You’re learning, remembering  very quickly. The interdependence is being ignored around the planet, on this level. Such potential for extreme beauty, yet so much time spent on ego and greed without regards to the big picture. Misuse of natural laws. Think of what better things we could do; civilization has toppled more than once before because of this idiocy. There’s so much more potential because you lose so much time worrying about what is unimportant.

Create the world. Don’t let it dictate you or who you are and what you do. Create, I mean remember your abilities to better it, and you will better yourself and not have to worry about the things you think are so important right now but are not in the big picture. The earth provides you with what you need; yet the earth is being killed. People cannot wait until it’s too late, or it will happen yet again. Enough is enough; the ascended levels are much, much more  and better than the dimension n which you live. Focus. Ascend above limitations. They are not limitations, you will soon discover, they help you be creative, and they help you remember how to do the real things. Listen; we will help you. And then you must help others…Balance is something the humans have forgotten in this form. It must be reattained. So, think on that, we will show you much, so you must listen, and you must do. We are always here with you, you can always ask. We are all but one, and we are all love.

More on my Mary Magdalene page.

St. Germain

I discovered Saint Germain awhile back, and have been interested in him for various reasons. However, I never had any “direct contact” with him until several weeks back, and now I’ve seen/spoken with him several times.

There are three lives that I have been told (by my Guides) I need to remember to fulfill my purpose (and what I signed up to do). Two were easily remembered via directed meditation by myself. However, the 3rd – the one that I felt was MOST important (from the Guides pressing me to remember it over the past several months) – was one I had intentionally blocked from myself; I could tell it was a painful one to recover… the first time I attempted to get there on my own, I had a big red encasement around it (like a womb) – I tried to break a hole in several places, but the hole would just close back up quickly. So I edged around it piece by piece, until I felt I had somewhat of a grip on it that I could possibly handle the rest. I know now I also had a lot of other things I needed to learn first, too.

SOOO… with everything else going on, I’d dropped the effort for a couple of months, until a few weeks ago, when St. Germain interrupted a perfectly good meditation to take me back there and show me more. Funny, too – he still allowed what I called “purple outs” (like whiteout) still hiding some things from me. Very important was his message. Very important to remember this life. (FYI, I finally did go through a past life regression with a trusted colleague, Rev. Phran Gacher, who did a phenominal job; I’ll be covering that story soon enough!)

Also, there have been things that have started popping up with my husband’s path that has to do with St. Germain. Though it’s my husband’s story to tell, right now I’m the one who is much more comfortable simply appealing to an Ascended Master to get an answer to a question. So I did; and he answered. Like I said, that’s my husband’s story to tell, but it does involve me, so I’m sure I’ll share it later on – especially when I talk about that past life regression to Lemuria!!!

For more information about my involvement with St. Germain, see the St. Germain page.

Energy, Healing, and Other Spiritual Work
I could try to explain my point of view as to why learning energy and healing work is so important; however, Ascended Master Mary Magdalene did a perfect job of it when she stood over my left shoulder and spoke to me during my Reiki II attunement!

To open to our Oneness, we must all become healers to begin to tap into our existence. The more you heal yourself and others, the more you will be able to access it.

This is how we learned; every study is another step of the way.

After I realized how to follow the “pull” of my higher self, guides, or whatever (aka “The Buzz”), it became quite easy for me to distinguish what bouncing ball I was supposed to follow. Therefore, I embarked on a series of different types of healing, energy, and spiritual work, following my natural abilities to enhance my awareness and hone my capabilities.

A little note I’d like to make: A relation listens about some of the work I’ve been doing; I’m of the opinion that everyone has to decide their path and development, and if they want to know about it, they’ll talk about it! So, this particular person wants to hear what I’ve been doing every now and then, but then has said to me – unprompted – on multiple occasions, “You know, a psychic told me once that I was a natural shaman, and I was supposed to be one this time around, but I chose not to.” Yet, every time I’ve asked her to come with me to something related, I either get a no, or – worse yet – she comes with me, and then has something negative to comment about it the entire time! For example, once she came with me at a gem and crystal show, and the whole time we were there, she kept on saying – in a condescending manner – “You know, I just never ‘felt’ anything with most crystals. I guess they’re  just not for me.” My response: “I guess not.” My unspoken response: “So, then why did you come with me – just to remind me a hundred times that the crystals do nothing for you?”

I love this person, and understand how she is and her motivations. However, I do want to make one thing clear: By nature, we’re all shamans. We’re all magicians. We’re all healers. However, because we’ve put in so many veils over ourselves to dampen our knowledge and to limit our power via Separateness, right now, we’re just all at different levels of Awakening. Some of us have volunteered to do it on the early side, so we can go through “our stuff” and be prepared to help everyone else as their veils are torn away, because (take it from me – and I’ve always been on the liberal spiritual side, that’s for sure) it’s a lot of stuff. A lot of awesome, powerful, positive stuff… but to get to that, first we all must clear out the closets, air out the house, and get rid of the muck that’s built up inside of us!

Because we’re all a part of God/Spirit/whatever you want to call the Supreme Being of All, and we have the full power of that Supreme Being in every one of us. It’s really who we are! We’ve just decided to perceive that we’ve separated ourselves from that Being; we’ve done so again and again and again, layer after layer after layer – down the pyramid – so we THINK we’ve forgotten it. We THINK we’re somehow separate, and that God/Spirit/Grand Puba of Grand Pubas is outside of us, instead of within.

I assure you, the Supreme Being? It’s Me. It’s Us. Because we all are One. THE One.

But we – the ego – thinks way too much. We most often use thinking as a mask, instead of a possibility. We don’t feel enough… and that’s what’s gotten us into our predicament again and again throughout our Feeling of Separation… what we call our existence. But we’ve always existed, and we always will.

Once you realize that (and believe me, my Spirit Guides remind me again and again about these very same things), you begin to remember and Awaken… realizing how fun, exciting, and magical we all are while also realizing that much of what we call “supernatural” is actually “natural” – we’ve just been denying it for a very long time!

Anyway, this is what types of spiritual, healing, and energy work I’ve done thus far – whether in classes, naturally/on my own, or any combination of both. Oh, and then there are about a THOUSAND books (which I’ll list later on)! I feel like a sponge, and can’t absorb enough!!! There’s much, much more to come – I’m sure of it!  🙂

  • Reiki (I and II)
    (from Rev. Phran Gacher, an AWESOME Reiki Master/Teacher!)
  • Crystal Work
    (experiential, from books, plus I’ve also taken classes from Shaman Vicki Penninger, multi-modality instructor extraordinaire, as well as attend an occasional local Crystal Meetup Group – run by Vicki P. and William Young – when I can!)
  • Intuitive Development
    (experiential, TONS of books, plus lectures and classes such as this Spiritual Awakenings Meetup, run by the awesome Clairvoyant/Spiritual Coach Jeannie Whyte)
  • Martial Arts – Tae Kwon Do, Kung Fu, and Tai Chi
    (multiple Masters)
  • Munay-Ki Rites
    (via Shaman Vicki Penninger)
  • Arcing Radial Light Healing
    (OK, I’m cheating on this one… I’m taking the weekend class in 1 week from posting from Shaman Vickie Penninger!)
  • Collective/Group Guided Meditations
    (experiential; various)
  • Past Life Regressions
    (experiential, both self and via Rev. Phran Gacher)
  • Spiritual Journeys/Trips
    (upcoming)

To start, I’m skipping extended explanation of what I’ve gotten from these – I’ve actually had draft pages sitting in here for quite awhile on Reiki and Munay-Ki themselves (they might make to get published here… we’ll see)! I really just wanted to start sharing my day-to-day experiences, and without some of this as a background, instead being a bit baffling, a reader would be completely lost.

Same goes for serendipitous events that happen more and more. I’d never get to today if I spent all the time trying to recount everything over the past six months that I’ve even gotten so used to that I usually just shrug and laugh at how easy it can be for us to take control of our own realities!

A Note About People, Animals, and Beings I’ve Encountered – and Who You Will, Too (I PROMISE)!

OK, I keep on saying “I’M DONE with this post, already!” …and then I think of something else that’s really important to point out!!! But I promise, this is it… because it’s midday on a Saturday, I’ve spent the past FIVE HOURS trying to get this site to where I can at least start here and continue on this journey with you, and I DO still have plenty of work and wordly things I have to do… 🙂

I remember, years ago, feeling so separated from people who had heightened abilities. They were somebody different – and special (and maybe a little weird, spooky, or crazy?). Yet, really, deep down, I wanted to know how to BE like them. Little did I know that I already was (see my About Me section for more details)! Back then, there WAS quite the separatist – almost elitist – attitude about it all, from both ends of the spectrum.

Not anymore… or at least, those who are pure are completely open and accepting of everyone else. I think as we go along, this will become even more mainstream and accepted.  Because the time is now for us to start waking up, being who we are, and remembering that we all are One. This transcends race, gender, culture, religion, class, and anything material in our world. We created our barriers; it’s up to us to eliminate them, because it’s only when we’ve eliminated them that we will ALL be the most powerful.

The more you practice your development with courage, a pure heart, an open mind, and positive intentions, the sooner everyone will transcend all of that junk. It’s contagious! Also, I’ve found that the more you ask questions and the more you seek out the answers to those questions with the above, the more you will find the right people, the right animals, and the right beings in your path for you at the right time – no, scratch that – at the PERFECT time.

When we find that the source for All is within us and not separate from us, it’s easy to understand that it’s not even a matter of faith; it’s expectation. Like when my knee has an itch, it can depend on my hand to scratch it (or if either hand cannot, the body will find a way to get rid of the itch, whether it’s by rubbing up against something or simply the brain/heart willing the itch to go away). If you have a need, and you expect it, with no self limitations – truly expect it in your heart  and NOT your egoit will happen. Simple as that.

It’s all a matter of remembering our connectedness.

OK, enough blahdy blahdy blah! My point here is this: The more you become comfortable exploring all of this within you, the more you will reach out, and the more there will be someone or something there to take your hand to boost you up. I PROMISE!! Today, our innate Universal abilities are no longer what’s considered the dark, mysterious powers of a gypsy storyteller in a dark room in a back alley! “Supernatural” is really “natural,” and no matter how much you might doubt yourself right this second, my goal with this Website is to plant this seed for you, and even help you germinate it and let this reality grow – you are far from alone! We’re all here together, with you.

Stay aware; every single thing you encounter along the way will have some tidbit of information or another that you need to help on your journey. Are some of them wacky? Crazy? Plain out bizarre? Absolutely! But you’ll be surprised at how quickly you’ll start to perceive things differently – and the more you press ahead, how someone or something’s appearance becomes more and more irrelevant, and what’s in their heart becomes so much more apparent (and how much more easily you’ll be able to identify the differences between ego-based and heart-based communications)!

We’re all going to teach each other something, regardless of the amount of training, schooling, or practice we have. I have intentionally gathered (and continue to gather) quite a growing network of others at various levels of Awareness – throughout the world (thanks in part to the Internet and social media)! Was I a little intimidated when I actively started exploring this level of reality? Definitely! However, the more I interacted with the right people who had the right intentions, too, the more I realized that as much as I learn from them, in one way or another, they usually learn from me, too.

This might just seem like a kum-ba-yah, rah, rah, type of thing, but it’s just something I wanted to share, because I’ve been really active in this arena for 8-9 months… and I’ve advanced in ability on a breathtaking rollercoaster journey! So, look at that: 8-9 months! Even if you’re just starting on this path today, you’ll be amazed that soon you too will be telling others right behind you about how crazy and wonderful it is, and how everyone will discover their own THING.

Just food for thought…

More to come, but :::phew::: at least I’ve started here… NOW I can start writing about the REALLY fun thoughts, feelings, and experiences that have been going on… buckle your seatbelt, because we’re ALL going for the ride!  🙂

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From the Rabbit Hole to the Matrix (A Side Note)

Maybe I have waited too long to start writing about all of this, because I just feel like I have SO much to share at once that I don’t know in what order I should bring up a lot of this stuff!! I guess I just need to plug away, and I’ll eventually catch up… right? 🙂

One of my favorite movie series of all time is The Matrix series; not just because of the awesome action (f0rmidable in itself), but because if you extract many of the philosophies presented as quippy quotes through the three movies, they’re actually pretty thought-provoking in terms of ourselves… and many reflect philosophies I’ve felt were simply intuitive, and have always rang true with me.

One in particular: That reality is based on individual perception.

Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That’s impossible. Instead… only try to realize the truth.
Neo
: What truth?
Spoon boy: There is no spoon.
Neo: There is no spoon?
Spoon boy: Then you’ll see that it is not the spoon that bends; it is only yourself.

I remember at some point in the distant past – possibly Physics (in college) and/or Astronomy (in  high school) – when we talked about matter and density and how our terminology and reference was based on a matter of perception.

The conversation was based around the density of matter on our planet; depending on different situations, how on other planets in other galaxies, density could be exponentially higher or exponentially lower – meaning that to a living being from a planet with a much higher density, we’d be almost ethereal or disjointed, and vice versa in the opposite situation.

A simple, contemporary example the teacher/professor gave (please spare me the details I miss here, it’s the big idea I’m explaining) was Superman. Krypton had a much higher density and gravity levels than earth. Therefore, to us, he would seem virtually invincible – only because his body was built for Krypton, and he lived here on Earth. Since our “solids” are much less dense than the “solids” on Krypton, he could easily break, push, or see through objects we couldn’t. Same thing with “flying” – similar to when humans visit the moon – because of the gravitational differences. Think about it!

I remember it was that discussion that really made me think about the fact that reality is actually based on perception. And, in essence, reality could easily be different – or change – from different perspectives.

In a completely different course in college, I had an awesome History professor who based what he taught on the same premise. On the first day of class, he wrote the word history on the board and asked us what was significant to us about the word.

After a few guesses, one student nailed it – the word breaks down to “his story”... which led the professor off into an  explanation on how the basics of history that we learn in school here in the United States today is actually told mainly from the perspective of the Anglo-Saxon male, and that many parts of what we’ve learned since Day 1 in school were actually biased from that perspective – a good part of what we’d learned to date was actually the Anglo-Saxon male’s story through the centuries.

I was never hot on history classes – but I loved the two semesters of history I took with that professor! He did his best to talk about what happened more from the perspective of the non-Anglo-Saxon male… and I started seeing things from a completely new perspective.

Both of these examples changed my reality, and my perception of it.

At some point, I realized I was seeing the same pattern throughout all aspects of life. As I’ve worked in marketing and communications for more than 20 years now, I know I quickly learned about the power of communication, and how sometimes even changing just one word – especially if it’s the right word – can alter the entire belief about a topic, person, or civilization.

See how I just did that, right there? I changed the original word I intended to use – perception – and used belief instead. Do they mean the same thing? Not exactly; they’re actually not synonyms! However, they’re very close, because individual perceptions tend to influence personal beliefs. And it was very subtle, but I’ve now shifted your thinking from the topic of perceptions to the topic of beliefs.

The media does it all the time – sadly, more and more so every day. I find it pretty pathetic that the exact same news story could be told by two different TV networks, and you’d never know it was the same thing because of the way the story was told – and the personal/network bias that gets inserted into the telling. The absolutely worst area for this is politics and news from the world level (which is why I absolutely love Jon Stewart’s The Daily Show on the Comedy Channel, because Jon not only pokes fun at this, but he actually shows the inconsistencies daily by playing clips on a given subject across networks, politicians, and/or any other aspect of the news. Funny; in 2009, when Americans were polled as to who they felt was the most trusted news source in America, the answer was a resounding Jon Stewart!).

Isn’t that what essentially dictates everyone’s story? Governments do it all the time (I know it’s a shocker to you, but that includes the United States, as well) to keep things under control, and/or to keep control of its consistuents, depending on how you look at it. Good grief; in my experience in large corporate over the years (and typically being a managing part of the messaging being conveyed by companies – or at least privvy to it), I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen public “reality” created because of a desired attribute, perception, or belief. There were times when it was harmless; however, there were times when I thought it was ridiculous that there would be information withheld or skewed just to manipulate perception and beliefs. Yet I was bound by my job and the umpteen amount of forms I had to sign when I’d been hired by the company that prevented me from saying anything to anyone outside of the “inner circle” at the company. It’s the main reason why I got fed up with all of it and left the corporate world in early 2006.

I’ll bet that the firm establishment of my early thought process on all of this had to do with my day in, day out involvement with the “creation” or perceptions, beliefs, and realities in corporate America. Often, people don’t understand what I mean when I tell them that a true marketing professional is really a psychologist – but due to this topic alone, can you see why by what I’m saying?

I promise you, there’s not one industry or government out there that doesn’t do this. And OK, and now I’m going to plow right into the murky waters, so hold on – nor is there one organized religion out there that doesn’t do this, either.

I always cringe when someone cites from their Bible or other religious book, and I’m almost blantantly intolerant of people who rationalize their judgments and/or prejudice by quoting something from it that fits their momentary needs. Why? Here’s my simple point of reference: the Telephone game.

Have you ever played Telephone? To explain it briefly, a bunch of people sit in a circle, and the first person says something in the ear of the person sitting to one side of them. Then, that person passes it on the same way to the next, and so on, until it reaches the last person, who speaks what they were told to the group.

Whether it’s 3 people or 30, it’s never exactly the same statement as what the first person said. In fact, more often than not, it’s a completely different statement altogether!

Now, keeping that in mind, think about the Bible and its history. The Bible, in itself, is a series of “Books” that have been compiled to tell a story about the Word of God. These books were originally communicated by different people in different cultures, with different languages, in different generations. Most were communicated well before there was any formal process to mass produce the written word – and before many of the “commonfolk” could actually read. So often, the stories were passed down via verbal communications for sometimes generations and across cultures before written down and/or passed on in a formal, mass sense; and by that time, there was typically no way for an editor to go back and “fact check” what was written.

Oh, wait, and let me also not forget another very important, salient point – that due to the need for certain sociopolitical controls of the time – and due to the need for those in power to stick with “mainstreaming” to retain control, there were many Books that were deleted. Though some cite 7, when the Catholic Church first got together to create a formal Church Bible, they supposedly weeded through more than 1,000 spiritual writings to create the 46-book Bible that became THE Christian book. Then later, the Protestants pulled out more… back and forth, back and forth.

So, at the end of the day – to quote yet another movie – I’ve always looked at it a lot like the Pirate’s Code is described in Pirates of the Caribbean – “… for it’s more of what you call guidelines than actual rules...”

Or ideals/guides vs. actual details/quotations.

Savvy?

1st Contact: Autotyping (FORGET Autowriting!) and “Meeting” a New… Friend?

So, I started my regular meditation again. As is usual for me, I looked into all kinds of it, and was still looking for some insight on what was going on. I was seeing some interesting stuff in my meditations, too (more on that later).

My client – who has since become a good friend – told me I should try autowriting or autotyping, to start “a conversation” with my “spirit guides.”

It felt a bit surreal to me. Autowriting? Are you kidding me? I’d seen it on TV, and always wondered how real it could be… and thought it a bit bizarre. It was always a little creepy to me, too, because it seemed that whenever I saw it shown, it was shown on some scratchy old film or with an air of the mysterious and ghostly. Like the pen would write of its own accord? Really?

So, when this was first brought up – and it turned out that several others I found online suggested it, too – I guess you could say I was a bit, um, skeptical, hesitant, doubtful… and a little nervous about it. Here’s why: When I was in my mid- to late-teen years, a few friends of mine and I played around a little bit with a Ouija board – yep, run-of-the-mill Ouija board, by Hasbro, maybe even from Toys R Us (I’m not kidding… you can get them there!). Anyway, we had no problem with it… what fun! Something a little creepy! Plus, since I was always a bit of a skeptic, I wanted to see if they really worked; surely you’d feel if someone else were pushing on it, wouldn’t you?

Well, we started using it, and it was odd… the hand piece didn’t feel pushed (after a couple of tries), and it did provide some information we might not otherwise have had. Anyway, it wasn’t long before any time we sat down to play with it (which was the typical sleepover entertainment), the hand piece would almost be flying over the board, anxious to spell out words for us. Really! One time, it told us it was the spirit of some boy who had just gotten hit by a car a few states away, and it gave us all the information about the accident – including the boy’s name. It gave us some message, too, but I can’t remember what it was. We actually checked it out over the next week (via the library – this was way before the Internet)… and the accident had actually happened in exactly the same way the boy had described, on the day we did the Ouija board… and the name and place were dead on (no pun intended). I have to say, we were a little creeped out!

We had a couple more goes at it, but soon stopped using it altogether, because we found that the messages became increasingly belligerent. So that was that.

So, you see what I’m saying here, about being hesitant about the autowriting thing? I was skeptical… but I think I was just as wary of it actually working!

However, the information just came to me, via article, Internet research, someone telling me – I’m not quite sure – but it was also something covered with me when talking about meditation – the basics:

  • Always protect yourself with The White Light (here’s a great article with the basics about it);
  • Always set a specific intention in the beginning of the meditation (such as “My intention is to communicate directly with my spirit guide via autowriting/autotyping about….”)
  • When directly communicating with the other dimensions and other realms, make sure to be very specific about the “level” of entity with whom you wish to speak, along the lines of “My intention is to communicate directly with my spirit guide of the highest level of light possible, who would only have the intention of communicating with me for my highest good, via autowriting/autotyping about….”

Why is all of this ceremony important? Well, let’s see – even scientists have proven the existence of multiple dimensions. When you go into meditation, you expand your awareness, quite possibly expanding the ability to communicate more freely with other dimensions. The way I look at it is, if you count the spirit world/afterlife as a dimension, as well as dimensions with other, more advanced forms of life that might not quite have your best interests at heart, well… you’re probably not going to connect to your target entity! Apparently (so I found out), this is an unwaverable law of the Universe, and if you specifically state these type of intentions, then they cannot be disobeyed or misrepresented. Here’s another one I’ve learned: If you don’t want to communicate with an entity, and you tell it to go away, it will do so. Period. So, does that take the fear and anxiety out of trying this out for you? It did for me. I thought, “What’s the worst that can happen – nothing?”

SO…. After researching quite a bit and finding new online communities and friends “in the know” on this stuff, I decided to try it early one morning during meditation. I figured I’d go with the writing thing first and see if that did anything; if not, I’d try autotyping, which to me just seemed easier and more efficient!

Early one morning, I started my meditation with a pen and pad, did everything I was supposed to do, kept my eyes closed, purposely turned off the brain, stayed far off, and this is what I got:

A bunch of scribble.

Now, to be fair, I should really preface that with a few things:

  1. My hand did actually sort of take off. OK, sorta weird, right? I felt a little bit like Thing from the Addams Family!
  2. After a page or two of jibberish, it started writing random words with scribbles in it. I was told that would happen
  3. I stopped at that point, because that’s when my brain engaged, and I freaked out a little bit.

So, the next day, I tried autotyping on my laptop. Now, you want to feel something bizarre? Try that. The first time, I lasted all of several minutes, because I was so weirded out that my fingers started flying over the keys – without my even being engaged at all.  However, when I opened my eyes and looked at the typing, I had a page full of an extended version of this:

Riwoess;dlkl ri hgt4u3969wor tgjgiy4ie9epq[e  gj4ri496yurotig hj3qr[olergi40egt4r56y7rgewk tyugbrogy95g gj40rgjhhjt5lrlwld,49tu rorkg r gyuig rhjtjfkeolyt95nveitiyepoirpoimge9n4ieofkd’;lk rohjhyq’s;doigj trlkd gioirjldfioermlekjgioer fl;kg a;ewiojg

After that, I wrote it off for about a week. I couldn’t deny the weirdness of my fingers just flying over the keys, but unless I was typing some decipherable code, it was sort of a waste of my time!

However, I kept on feeling a compulsion to get back to it, and when I did allow myself to consider it, I’d get THE BUZZ, and this nagging feeling.

So I tried it again. This time, in my intention, I made sure to include that I would not be afraid, and I would not freak out in consciously connecting with my spirit guide. I also decided that I would see if I could “see” any thoughts moving in the direction of my fingers. OK, that sounds weird, right? If you’re going to be reading this, get used to it! It’s difficult to describe stuff like this when it’s not mainstream in vocabulary!!!

This time, I stayed distant, but it was like in my head I was keeping one eye squinted and open to peek….but just a little bit! And here was the funny thing: when I did that, while still in a meditative state, it was like I felt someone talking to my brain, and I was watching words feed through my brain as I typed them, for lack of a better explanation. Like I was transcribing something. I stayed meditative, didn’t allow myself to freak out – which would essentially pull me out of it. I guess you’d say I let it flow. This time, here’s what came through:

You must be awake and conscious for me to give you messages. I do not [need to] know your [written] language to write it myself. So I translate through you.

This is your path. You know it now. You will not understand all now, but in time you will. Your body will feel different as will your soul. The light is your work… Be patient, there is much to learn, much to teach… We love all, as we are one… Your hands know. Use them. Remember. We will help you. This existence is beautiful, the next will be indescribable to you as you understand now.

I am done today… Much love.

How cool! Boy, that was like the first hit of a very addictive drug. I was hooked!

Step 1/2: Figuring Out What’s Going Ohm, and a Meditation Primer

So, I would say that waking up feeling like my entire body was vibrating at 4am that morning in November 2009 was my “rude awakening” – pun intended! LOL  That was probably the day that I would call my “point of no return” – or rather, the moment I was apparently meant to be vibrated (vs. shaken) Awake. It was electrical, and there was only one other circumstance in my life that had ever produced that current… but that’s just not the story for today. So bookmark it, and I’ll come back to it, when it’s important to tell. Not yet.

Anyway, as I lay there in the dark, wondering, “What the heck???” I was also needing to shake off the last night of one of my several day inter-dimensional episodes – which, by the way, I had no idea was exactly that. So, as I lay there considering that and the vibrations while I was laying there in the dark, I was thinking, “Am I going a little crazy or something?” I was wondering what to do; though my husband had always been kept in the loop about my various abilities, I didn’t want to talk to him about this. First I had to consider what this was.

While I was doing that, I heard a voice in my head tell me (very distinctly) to talk to a woman I really only knew predominantly as a client (though we’d had some good conversations on metaphysics). I considered it, thinking it was funny that we’d already had a meeting set up a few days afterwards. Since I couldn’t get back to sleep – internal vibrating is a little distracting – I crawled out of bed, went to my computer, did a little research, and then yes, I actually did send her an email.

Here’s the funny thing – I know I had done research on a lot of this stuff during previous multi-day episodes of those “alternate reality dreams,” – yet I’d always had trouble finding anything about it on the Internet. However, this time, I hit jackpot… and more! It was like I got the message, “OK, it’s time. Here’s the information you need!”

I spent a majority of the next day reading stuff, mostly online. It was later in the day when I got an email back from the woman I’d been told to talk to, and she said, “Just write it all down. We’ll talk about it when we meet.”

And so I did. The next couple of days worked out to be a great time of throwing up my life in an anonymous blog out on the Internet, so I could go back and read it… and start to make some sense of stuff I’d completely missed before. I guess I also felt that if someone came across the blog, they obviously needed to see it. But otherwise, I wasn’t sharing that… too many things that were too deep inside, and I’m VERY uncomfortable with things like that.

Things started to take shape.

I did a lot of digging online, and was able to find a handful of different Websites that offered discussion boards for Awakening Lightworkers (which is apparently a common term for those of us who are Awakening right now). The funny thing: Every single time I found one of those boards, I really hestitated to write something on them, because I wasn’t sure it meant me! But I did, and I read even more.

So, when I met with the woman to whom I’d sent the email at 4:30am-ish, it made a world of difference. She knew what was going on, with relatively little explanation from me. She explained about being able to move between dimensions, and told me that I’d obviously figured out how to do that… and that she did it quite often. She explained vibrational changes, and a bunch of other stuff.

I told her that several people online had told me to autowrite with my spirit/angel guides; she said that was a really good idea. Then she told me how to do it, and that I could probably even try “autotyping” too.

I had to digest that.

Before I’d even attempt anything, I needed to re-start meditating, from which I’d gotten away for several years. That seemed “right,” first and foremost. So I went online – great place to find lots of stuff, wouldn’t you say? – and found various different sites with some simple guided meditations. I had that “AUTOTYPE” thing hanging over my head, but I really felt I needed to introspect first.

Meditation – Basic (and Important) Steps
I’m going to stop here for a minute and talk a bit about meditating, because that’s important. It’s REALLY important, for everyone. I’d actually really started meditating back around 2001-2002, when I started using alternative therapies to treat migraines. Here’s the key: It’s different for everyone, because our minds are wired differently, with a ton of variable factors. So, for example, I like guided meditation every once in awhile, but I’ve found that I’m much better with some drum, angelic, or similar music in headphones, which actually keep me focused. Some people need absolute quiet. And jumping ahead a little here, now that my husband meditates, too, we’ve found that for the time being, guided Theta Wave meditation is the best thing for him (by the way, I LOVE unguided Theta Wave meditation, myself, for different reasons than my husband – mostly because it dramatically cuts the time it takes to get really focused – and allows me for even deeper meditation and quicker understanding with my guides). Some people use candles, crystals, a glass of water, or something else – but the important point is that you’re meditating, whether it’s five minutes or two hours. Even the Wii Fit video game has a meditation exercise, where you sit on the balance board and focus on a lit candle on the screen; the goal is to sit completely still for three minutes without flickering the candle out from movement. The game even attempts distraction! It’s a GREAT starter – the exercise is 3 minutes. I started at 3 minutes, and then worked my way up to do it three times in a row; it’s a fun and easy way to start on meditation.

Why, you ask, is this so important?

It’s simple: In today’s overpowering chatter, meditation quiets the incessant voice in your head, and allows you to stop and really look inside of yourself. It helps you stop thinking and allows you to feel. Then, once you make that shift, you can delve into the other aspects of the Universe, without the interference of your mind. And then you can realize that what’s in your mind is really just that – chatter!

So, try a few different types of meditation – guided, unguided, to music, to silence, theta/alpha/beta waves, group meditation, even yoga and/or Tai Chi (which is called a moving meditation), or any combination thereof. There are many choices out there, and more every day! You’ll know when you find the right way for you! Note: If you want to simply download something to use for meditation, http://www.itunes.com actually has a really nice variety; plus it’s reasonable, and you can get it immediately via download. All you need to do then is either a) download it to your iPod, or b) plug those headphones right into your computer, and just float away!

Also, there’s a huge misperception that you should meditate for  a set period of time – like a half hour or an hour. You know what? It’s a lot like exercise – every little bit counts! Any time when you can escape from our 3D world and just be, you’re moving in the right direction, even if it’s ten or fifteen minutes.

On Behalf of My Husband (Who Had Some Really Frustrating Meditation Beginnings), Some BASICS.
As I’ve been practicing one form of meditation or another for 25 or so years, I’ve developed a custom style that works really well for me – and I’m continuing to investigate different kinds and try them out, to further refine my practice. This will just naturally happen over time for anyone. However, my husband got really frustrated when he started the effort, because I forgot to explain to him some of what I would call the basics. I guess I assumed since we’ve been through 5.5 years of martial arts practice together, that he would at least know something about it.

You know that saying, about the word assume? Yeah, well, you got it. SOOO…. I guess it would be a good idea for me to put some basics on here, for the beginner. Anyone reading, please feel free to chime in under the Comments section! 🙂

  • Wear what makes you most comfortable. When you meditate, you’re completely leaving your bodily concerns behind. You can’t really do that if you’re wearing clothing that doesn’t fit well! Anything that is going to distract you isn’t good. So… pajamas, sweats, workout clothes, heck your birthday suit, if you prefer.
  • Pick a time to meditate when you’ll be able to relax, but not fall asleep. Depending on the type of person you are, pick the time of day when you’ll be able to zone out and focus without dozing off completely. For example, I’m definitely a morning person, so meditating is much more effective for me if I do it early in the morning, right after I wake up. If I do it later in the evening, it’s hard for me to relax without falling asleep. However, sometimes, a lunch break meditation works really well, too! Try out different times, get to know your body’s rhythms, so you can pick the best time possible for you.In my opinion, the goal to a good meditation is to clear the mind, quiet the voice, and just exist, so you can let the Universe flow…. I call that the “twilight” zone, in between being awake and falling asleep. If it’s done right, you come out of meditation completely refreshed and ready to take on the world! It’s difficult to find that zone at first, but once you get there a few times, it becomes exponentially easier. Don’t feel bad if it takes a few tries – it still happens to me every once in awhile! However, when you first start out, it’s easy to accidentally take that extra half-step and fall asleep. If you have insomnia and it’s the primary purpose of your meditation, that’s fine. However, if you are introspecting, working to calm physical functions, visualizing, manifesting, working on your non-physical/psychic abilities, or connecting with your guides, your higher self,or just connecting, the most effective zone is that “twilight zone”!
  • Sit someplace that makes you comfortable but not so comfortable that you’ll fall asleep. This was my husband’s toughest obstacle in the beginning of his meditation efforts. He’d sit in a plushy chair or lay down on the sofa. Guaranteed, within 15 minutes, he’d be snoring away!Some people can lay down all the way and meditate without falling asleep – I usually can’t do that, but I’ve found that I can – for some meditative purposes – incline myself back about 45 degrees and still stay awake. For me,the best position is sitting straight up in a comfortable (but not too comfortable) chair, with my feet flat on the floor or cross legged on the floor with my back up against the front of a chair or sofa.When I can, I love meditating outside – there’s nothing better than fresh air and smells surrounding you, especially at the ocean, in the woods, or some other inspiring scenery! However, most of don’t actually live in or near places like that, so we have to make do inside our home (or at some studio) when we can’t do that.
  • Make sure you won’t be interrupted during the time you’ve blocked off to meditate. If someone barges in on you, the phone rings, or the dog or cat decides to nuzzle or snuggle you while you’re meditating, it can blow the whole effort. I also find that I get really irritable when that happens – which again, defeats the purpose of meditating! So, wherever you decide to meditate, strategize about where you’ll be. I’ve literally gone into my bedroom and posted a paper sign on my bedroom door that says in big letters: “MEDITATING UNTIL ____; DO NOT DISTURB!” And when I do go in my room, I throw the cat out, shut the door, made sure my cell phone was either in another room or had the ring turned off, and and I’ve even pulled out the phone plug from the answering machine – because no one’s going to need you that badly that they can’t wait an extra half hour or hour to call you back (do you remember the days without answering machines or cell phones? People actually somehow survived back then!)
  • If you get distracted easily, use headphones, guided meditation, and/or at least some relaxing music or nature sounds to prevent noises that will cause you to lose your focus. At first, you might even prefer to do guided meditation, which is when someone else actually guides you through the meditation. This allows you to focus on the practice of not getting distracted until you get used to getting into your “zone.” Plus, guided meditation is great when you’re learning the basic rhythm of meditation, and how to go about it. Try different people/guides, either in groups, classes, and/or DVDs/downloads! I’ve included some great resources to use at the bottom of this blog.Since I do get distracted easily – and because I have a noisy household, with 2 tween/teen kids, a husband, 2 dogs, and 2 cats – I usually listen to meditative music of some sort, with stereo headphones on my head, plugged into my laptop or iPod. Earplugs don’t do it for me – I’ve yet to find a pair that don’t always feel like they’re falling out of my head!Another great tool I’ve recently discovered is Theta wave meditation. When we meditate, we typically aspire to reach theta waves for optimal results (here’s a good basic explanation of the different brain waves we have). After you’ve been meditating for awhile, you know how to get there; however, until you mapped the route, it helps to have a guide! Theta wave meditation gets you to the optimal brainwave level for the best results from your meditation. Even when you’re more practiced, this is helpful – I love it because it gets me there very quickly, and I can get down to business – and get to the focus of my meditation.
  • Sit with your back straight, unemcumbered. Whether you’re inclined or sitting up, you need to keep your nerve and energy flow pathways as clear as possible when meditating: no slouching, crossed legs (though cross legged is fine), crossed arms, or twisted body.
  • Starting the meditation.
  1. Close your eyes and take 7-10 deep, intentional, cleansing breaths. This helps the process of slowing your heart rate, “centering” you, and it also helps you to clear your head and take your focus away from the outside world. Do it in sets that are easy for you – 5 breaths to a count of 5 (breathe in for a slow count of 5, hold it for a count of 5, let it out for a count of 5, hold it for a count of five, and repeat it 5 times), 7 breaths to a count of 7, etc. Usually, it’s best to do at least 5 repetitions of this type of breath. Also, if you can do “heart breathing,” even better – imagine your heart had a nose, and the air you breathe is being inhaled and exhaled from a “nose” in your chest. You can also do diaphragm breathing.
  2. Focus. For some, all you need to do is close your eyes and think of a blank, black wall, or some method to think of “nothing.” Others can’t clear their mind that way; in that case, you can use a piece of paper with a dot in the middle, light a candle and focus on the flame, or another similar method.
  3. Evoke the White Light of positive energy. That’s what I call it, though others use different terms, such as White Light of protection (I’m trying not to use words that would imply an negativity), White Light of Christ Consciousness, and other similar terms. Here’s an easy, quick way to do that (extracted from Inspiring Energy):Step one: As you take in your next breath, imagine that you are drawing in energy from from the heavens, from the sky, through your 7th chakra, on the crown of your head.Step two: As that powerful energy enters you, imagine on your exhale that the energy, the breath comes out from your heart.

    Step three:
    As you continue to breathe in through the crown of your head and out through the heart, imagine, visualize that breath, that energy forming a white light bubble around you. See the bubble of energy, of light, of breath completely around you, like you are in a ball of universal energy, where nothing can get through, unless you let it.

    Step four : Sit with that bubble visual for a minute, feel it fully.

  4. Set your intention. State specifically – whether out loud or in your head – what you intend to accomplish in this meditation. Need to focus on health? relaxation? The answer to a problem? Want to use manifestation techniques? Improve self love? Do you want to meet your spirit/angel guide? Do you have a specific question you’d like to have answered? Any of these are good intentions. If you state the intention at the beginning like this, it immediately connects you with your “higher” self, and puts you on a mutual concentrated path. Believe me, it works!

Now you’re on your way! This is a great start… for some good resources, see the section below. And if you have some great resources to add, please do so, in the Comments section!

Meditation Resources

Some of my faves for meditation:

Non-Guided (sound/music only)

Theta/Alpha/Beta Waves (sound/music only)

Guided

In the Rabbit Hole We Go!

Hmmm… Where should I start?

How about that I should have started writing all of this months (maybe even years) ago, but I never did?  At least I’m doing this now, upon the continual nudging of several others… who I will explain in a moment. I know that ultimately, it’s good for everyone here on 3D Earth, because we’re all getting here – and I say ‘here’ as where I am right now – in our own time, whether we want to acknowledge it or not. That’s something I’m just stating as fact, because I know it as so.

Over the past _______ (week, month, 6 months, year, you name it), have you suddenly had experiences you couldn’t explain via the structured boxes dictated by our “normal” society and structured religions? Have things happened to you that were simply extraordinary and belong on a new episode of Unexplained Mysteries, or have you wondered if someone slipped you a psychotropic drug in one of your drinks – even though you haven’t had a drink for months?

If so, STOP right now and take a breather.You’re NOT alone!

Let me start at (sort of) the beginning – at least as close to it as I can.

Hi. I’m Angela. I was born and raised in New York – LAWNG ISLAND, New York, in fact -and this part of my story starts in the middle of the Blizzard of ’69, when I was born. I know this because I’ve been reminded on every single one of my birthdays for as long back as I can remember by my parents. Have you seen that movie City Slickers, with Billy Crystal? I think it was the second one that had this, but how Billy Crystal’s character’s mom would call every year on his birthday to tell him the story of his birth. Let’s just say I completely cringed at that – because I totally relate!

Anyway, besides my mother being a single mom in the ’70s, from the time I was 2.5, I grew up in a pretty “average” household. No weird seances, ceremonies, or anything of the sort – just a lot of females! My mother, my great-grandmother, my grandmother, my grandfather (Bless his Heart, as they say!), my sister, and I all lived in the same middle class house in a middle class town on central Long Island. Typical ails, I’d say, for most families – nothing too great, nothing to terrible. Cranky, absent mom; rebellious teen years; yadda, yadda, yadda.

As for me, I was tagged “extremely intelligent” from an early age; I did well in school, had a gift for music and the performing arts, and had a wide range of different types of friends.

I went out on my own at 18, and moved away from Long Island a year after that. I worked my way through college at the same time I worked my way up the corporate ladder. Worked hard, played hard… met my husband, moved South, had children, settled down and grew a life in North Carolina. How was that in covering almost 23 years?

I really just needed to let you know that my life was fairly normal, with some spiciness thrown in. I’ve always embraced creativity, uniquity, and independent thinking; when it came to religion, I’ve always known people with a wide variety of different beliefs. Though I was brought up very Episcopalian (which I always call “step-down Catholic” LOL), I learned way too much from all different religions and belief systems from early on to think that one “church” or religion had all the answers. I picked up early on that structured religion was mostly about power and politics, and very little about faith and true belief. I’ve processed a lot over the years about the history of different religions, and have always felt that in reality, most have common themes, with the differences really being in the details. I know that, contrary to what many churches preach, science is not completely separate from religion and spirituality, but actually indistinguishable from it. I’ve also felt – especially in the past decade or so – that a lot of what “fantasy” comes out in our movies and books is not so far from reality in the Universe – maybe not in our 3D reality, but beyond that.

I’ve really always loved debating facts, and though I love creativity, I’ve never been “artsy fartsy,” or anything like that. I love facts and figures in conjunction with creativity.  But I’ve ALWAYS REALLY LOVED DEBATING! I did learn at an early age that most people are completely incapable of debating religion and politics in a sane manner, mostly because they couldn’t emotionally separate themselves from the situation. As for me? Not a problem! I have a “gift” of being able to cut myself off emotionally, especially when I need it most.

I also want to let you know that I’m very healthy – no tumors, diseases, etc. to alter my sense of reality (and no drug use – “inhaling” 21  years ago doesn’t count)! In fact, my family and I – as our pediatrician puts it – are “disgustingly healthy” – good variety, organics/naturals, no fast food junk, lots of exercise, lots of intelligent and physical pursuits.

Now, I will say that I’ve had some “extra” little gifts bestowed upon me along the way, but nothing (until today) that was pervasive in every moment of my life.

Luckily, I’ve always had a very open mind. And even luckier that I embrace new experiences… because since November 2009, I’ve suddenly been on the upward tick of the exponential curve in regards to increased spiritual insight and abilities.

It’s easier to show you a timeline of these abilities through my life:

  • Early/mid-1970s – as a child, I was pretty empathic; as I’ve now meditated on all of this for awhile since I’ve looked back over all of it, I realize it’s why I intuitively put up a wall against a lot of emotion from an early age – because if I don’t block out what comes in, it’s TOO much. It’s really funny, since as I said above, most of my friends and I joke about the fact that I hardly ever get upset or cry about anything (‘the rock,’ as I’ve been called).
  • Late 1980s/Early 1990s (early 20s) – I started getting premonitory dreams; also, being empathic made me very intuitive, because I could feel the strong emotions of others very easily – even if I never acknowledged it consciously. I would know when someone was lying to me, I could pick up the vibes in a crowded room if one person was really upset – even if they were hiding it – etc. I’m sure it has helped how well I’ve naturally done in marketing and psychology over the years.
  • Late 1990s through today (late 20s through 40) – I was having random episodes where I’d continuously “dream” (though it wasn’t a dream) a different reality; I would visit people and have a life with them for sometimes up to 3 or 4 days… and it would be like I fell asleep in this world to wake up in the other world, because it was continuous from day to day. It started getting stressful and confusing… especially since I’d always hear from the people within a week after these episodes, no matter how long it had been since we’d spoken. After discussion and research, I’ve come to understand that it was most likely inter-dimensional movement/visits.
  • Early 2000s to now (early 30s through 40) – I could suddenly communicate with some who had passed over. First it was only when I was dreaming, but they were yet another “different” kind of dream where I knew it was real (and often they would give me information I would otherwise not have had). However, when my grandmother passed away last year, she was with me – and I could see her peripherally in my line of vision and actually “hear” her talking to me, even correctly telling me where things were when I was helping my mother clear out her belongings – for a few days afterwards (of course, that was after a few nights of me waking up gasping for breath because in my dreams I was “experiencing” her last days in the hospital, in the hospital bed, when due to other complications, her lungs filled with liquid and she basically suffocated slowly – even though I hadn’t seen her for several weeks before this happened). Before, my communication was limited to those who I’d known when they were alive; however, in the past several months, I’ve had a few “dreams” where someone I didn’t know wanted me to pass on a message to someone else I knew (even if I didn’t really know that person all that well).
  • Over the past year, I’ve suddenly had clear (though brief) glimpses into past lives. Up until 3 months ago, I only remembered 1; however, in the past 3 months, I’ve been able to remember 7 more (and 5 were purposefully  “shown” to me by my guides in the past few weeks).
  • Over the past several months, I’ve had experiences in a deep meditative state where I’ve “lived” through a scene, only for it to actually happen hours to days later. These are different than the premonitory dreams (which tend to be clear but more symbolic, and I’ve learned to read them over the years); they’re actually “living” scenes. I suspect that they’re the early ability of experiencing time off the linear continuum.
  • In November, when I had the last string of inter-dimensional “dreams,” I woke up and my body was vibrating, which emanated from my 4th (heart) and 5th (neck) chakras. It didn’t stop at all for 4 or 5 days; ever since then, it comes and goes, especially moreso after some meditations… but when it’s strong, it almost tickles and makes me crazy, because it’s my whole body! Also, I get what my friend calls “The Buzz” – typically emanating from the 5th chakra – and whenever some information or occurrence hits me as “true” or “right,” it sends off a jolt from there (similar to hair raising on the neck or goosebumps, but to the 100th power).
  • One of my dogs was diagnosed with lymphoma over the holidays; my husband and I took and finished Reiki I so we can administer Reiki to him. The attunement was a spectacular and very psychic experience.
  • Over the past few weeks, upon counsel from an enlightened friend, I began communicating with my spirit/Angel guides via auto-typing (which I found works much better for me than auto-writing). Once I was able to quiet my mind (i.e. not freak out!), the communications started becoming very clear – at first, I doubted whether it was really not just me, but then I started getting “snapshots” in my head of things I didn’t or wouldn’t have words for. Then I was given a message to give to my husband – which I did – and even though I didn’t even understand it, he did. I would also remember the “conversation” differently than it was typed – especially the use of words, because I’d remember seeing a snapshot in my head and would describe it one way but when I went back over the typing later, it would be much differently worded. Also, a few times I set intentions to speak with my Angels/guides to find out their names; I have now met all three! Now, THAT’S where fascinating stuff starts coming in, but I think I’m going to save those explanations for tomorrow.
  • Since all of this, I’ve had continual epiphanies of “understanding” of the way things are and how they tie together in our Universe… and a lot has just started “falling” together in a multitude of ways, as if to reinforce them.

Needless to say, this is A LOT to assimilate, and it’s still very surreal to me right now!

As you can see by the timelines above, up until 3 months ago, additional “abilities” would present themselves to me pretty well spaced apart, with time for processing and getting used to them. However, since November, it’s like the dam broke, and though I’m thankful and glad to receive the information presented to me, at times it’s very overwhelming – especially because I’m busy running my own business and having a busy life to begin with, and I’ve had to push things around to give myself SOME (though not enough) time to reflect and assimilate the information!

So, I’ve accepted the conclusion that I’m going through an accelerated Spiritual Awakening period. It’s exciting, because I just know it’s not imagination, and it’s positively changing the person I am… very quickly.

If I trust what my Guides have been telling me (and I do – there goes The Buzz), many here will start the process soon, also, or have already started, and those of us on the front end of the bell curve are not only supposed to quickly assimilate and master these abilities for the Greater Good, but we will soon need to teach many others, because all of “this” is nothing that is typically taught to us in day-to-day life or most religions – and that many who will start to experience these different things will not know who to talk to, and as a result internalize it and not talk about it because they’ll think a) they’re crazy, b) everyone else will think they’re crazy, and/or c) it’s the work of “The Devil” or some “unGodly,” malicious identity. I’ve been lucky – at least my husband, who’s known me and my “other” abilities since I’ve known him for the past 17 years – well before this past November – has been very accepting and understanding about it all – once I told him about it.

I’m also grateful that the Universe has provided me with people I could talk to when I needed it most since November – in fact, the first was someone who was first a client of mine; when I was freaking out when I woke up at 4am, vibrating, a voice in my head told me to talk to her about it. Coincidentally, we had a business meeting set up for 2 days afterward already… and we’ve now become fast friends because of how much she understands about all of this!

I’ve also found some of the right people on the Internet with whom to compare notes and get additional guidance… and THAT makes me feel much better, too.

For the past several weeks, I’ve also noticed that people I know – from different backgrounds, different beliefs, and completely different parts of my life –  randomly bring up different “things” that have been going on in their lives that are “unexplainable” by average means. It’s weird – in the middle of a business meeting, this will come up! Then I end up sharing a little of what’s gone on with me, and then they open up and want to talk about it… so a lot of my meetings are going way longer than usual (and they’re highly unusual, as far as business meetings go)! But I realize that if this really is the case and will soon become more the rule than the exception, I’d better get a move on figuring all of this out – at least well on my way – so I can have my wits about me when these things come up!

OK, so this really isn’t the most interesting part, but I needed to get it started. Before moving forward with all I want to share with you, I also needed to explain to you where – and who – all I write about comes from. I’ve not shown outrageous “supernatural” gifts since I was a child. True, I’ve been empathic, but that was never really noticed by anyone but me, because I was a small child with a single mom in the 70s, with one sibling who is almost 7 years older than me. With all those people in the house we lived in, I was easily forgotten many times, so I just learned to take care of myself early on. But, I remember the overwhelming feelings I would get from people who had a lot of pain, anger, or even joy, and I hated having feelings that I knew weren’t my own! How can you understand that as a young child, with no one to talk to about such things?

I’ve had several people tell me that I need to WRITE about everything that’s happening, because I need to share all of this information. They’re right – both the 3D individuals and my Guides, who have been adamant to let me know that it’s one of my “jobs” in this! I’m not a writer per se, but most of my career – more than 20 years – has been marketing and communications, and writing/ communicating has always been my forte and a hobby. So I keep on being told to WRITE ABOUT THIS, and I haven’t had the time… but since yesterday afternoon, it seems they’ve finally decided to throw roadblocks in my way to everything I was supposed to do until I sat down and got this started. So here I am, barely keeping my eyes open to get this first post done. My kids and then my husband went to bed awhile ago; twice I’ve closed my eyes and started dozing while I was typing, and both times, I suddenly had loud noise go off in my head to startle me awake – once singing and once a shout. How about THAT subtlety?

So I guess they mean for me to WRITE ABOUT THIS, huh?  🙂

In closing to this start, many, many global challenges are coming – they’ve shown me. They keep telling me again and again the urgency to awaken, learn, and master these abilities (which, by the way, we all have, but simply haven’t yet remembered) so that I can be one to help others; also, to educate others about the problems with our food.

As my 11-year-old says, “easy-peasy,” right? We’ll see.

One more note before I sign off for now: In the right column of this blog, I’ve set up a number of links for you, and will continue to add to the list as I go along. Besides my other interests and contact information, I’ve also included people who have so far been great to have found in my path during this initial learning period…. and coincidentally, they are really good at what they do! I’ve also included a resource links section, to direct you to information I have uncovered while exploring and feeling the ravenous desire to know/remember MORE, even when I’m at the same time overwhelmed. I highly recommend them to anyone (which is obviously why I’m listing them here); there are a few I’m actually still reading, but have been getting nothing but The Buzz since I opened them, which I learned is a kind of validation.

That’s all for today, folks. More tomorrow… maybe I’ll be “allowed” to go to sleep now?

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