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A Reflection from the Morning After (Elections)

reflectionsI know this morning that a majority of my awakened and intelligent soul tribe will be/are upset by the results the US elections. I was initially somewhat surprised myself…and yet, I understand; before projecting on to something “out there” (whether or not you voted for the elects), here’s a higher perspective on all of this to consider:

There was no “easy choice” on the presidential front… my understanding was that the easiest choice we had at doing this next phase of collective evolution was electing Bernie, and we threw that out the window in June. At that point, I knew that regardless of our choice moving forward, none of it would be what the ego considers “easy.” It was clear that whomever would prevail would be the one to allow the “tower” of our false reality to crumble. HRC really sort of did that when the DNC forced her in to the candidacy, and blatantly showed the public the manipulation and entitlement that goes on behind the curtain. And yet… so many went into an immediate case of amnesia about the whole thing,

For our accelerated rate of evolution, it was clear that we’ve decided to rip off the Band-Aid… and via the president elect (and a majority of Congress elects), collectively look directly into that which we deny still exists within ourselves, into the heart of the darkness we’ve been pretending for so long isn’t there anymore, bring up what remains of our collective self-loathing into the light, face it, to (hopefully) resolve it, once and for all.

No more hiding from ourselves; we’ve turned the mirror around, and there’s nothing there but us.

One part of this – and it’s a really crucial part – is whatever’s left of a continued and skillfully hidden and repressed resentment and fear of the power of Divine Feminine… including in some women themselves, who, though embodying the power of creation, are still ok with allowing themselves to be punished, martyred, and/or minimized into subordination for doing so. This would have been cleanly masked with the election of HRC (even though it was truly Bernie who represents that energy, moreso than HRC). So how to bring the remainder up to the surface and out in the open? Elect someone who appears to be a misogynist along with others who basically love to focus on efforts at controlling women and their bodies, who love the idea of controlling the half of the population (and the part within themselves) that scares them.

We have a long broken system that does NOT address ALL OF US as equally Divine individuals who are part of a unified whole – whether we’re from the US or elsewhere, male, female, black, white, orange, purple, green, LGBT, short, tall, big, small, rich, poor, and everything in between – so what better way to smack ourselves in the face around that but elect someone who appears to be openly exclusionist and biased?

In spiritual development, we recognize that we’re triggered (as in triggering fear, anger, etc.) by someone who in some way reflects something we judge about ourselves back to us. If we hide it from ourselves, we won’t look at it. Therefore, what this election says is that we’re apparently ready to look at all of this straight on, too. That’s been apparent from the beginning of when Trump made it to the forefront as a candidate.

In spiritual terms, many use the term “dark night of the soul” when referring to the journey of self-realization. In many ways, that’s what it might seem we’ve chosen as our next steps. However, how “dark” it is really only depends on how much we judge and are resistant to seeing what exists of this within ourselves. It’s when we can see this part of ourselves with acceptance and from a place of love that we don’t need to have it shown to us anymore… and/or when it’s reflected back to us, we have no reaction but acceptance and love.

No one can take our power away from us but what we allow; no one can take our happiness and peace from us but what we allow. It’s our Divine Right. We choose every day, every moment, in our reality… whether we live it in love, unity, and peace… or in anything else.

As for me, I choose love, unity, peace… laughter and fun… and from that, power. Not just with others in my community, state, and country… but around the entirety of the Earth/Gaia organism and the Multiverse of which we’re a part.

I know that many of us who do all kinds of spiritual work have been accelerated in such remembrance to now stand as a lighthouse during what can potentially be quite a “dark” period of realization for many. This is the message I’ve received for years now of the importance of evolving to be able to remain being “the calm in the storm.” Now’s not the time to disappear… but to shine brighter than ever before!

Guidance has also been for years to remember how to be fully “in-dependent” – to be completely dependent on and trusting inner guidance, REGARDLESS of what the eyes see – because that’s the way to navigate and FLOW through it all! This is what I devote my time to living and teaching(/reminding)… and where we have come to is exactly why.

So, the anticipation of our path of choice is done with; now, let’s regain our centeredness, peace, and love… and proceed. Time to consciously choose where we are vibrationally in EVERY MOMENT, and BE THE CHANGE… regardless of what it looks like around you.

  

Beyond the Misnomer of “Being Happy vs. Being Right”

RightWrongIn the 5-minute drive on the way home from the gym early this morning, I was listening to a conversation between two radio personalities; it was a man and a woman talking about how important it is to get to the place of “being happy vs. being right” in a relationship. I’ve recently seen a lot of quotes around this on social media, too.

I know it’s well meant – finding a way to get from a place of battling and competition to a place of peace in a relationship – however, from a higher consciousness perspective, such a strategy is only partially productive, and it can often shift our limitations to a completely different and just as self-limiting of an angle instead of liberating us from them, to truly allow ourselves to exist in happiness, both individually and together.

Let’s shift this… just… a… little… bit… by considering a few points that are often overlooked in this context:

  • “Right” and “wrong” are judgments created and held by the ego via separation/duality and the filter of one’s individual journey. Thus, the perception of such is different from individual to individual. When we base any decision on “who’s right” or “who’s wrong,” we’re doing so on a very personal, filtered, judgmental basis. In actuality, it’s comparing apples to oranges!When looking at it from this perspective, it’s exclusionary and limiting to judge someone else’s truth (and thus, their “right” and “wrong”) based on our own! No matter what the relationship, if we’re doing that, we’re holding the other individual to a standard that we hold based on a sum of experiences that they haven’t had (even if you’ve been married for 50 years); we’re also expecting them to make our truth more important than their own! Ultimately, it’s not the job of anyone else to hold the truth of our journey… only their own.We’ve fully saturated ourselves in this separation-based power struggle; in doing so, we’ve decided that we value ourselves based on others following what we personally believe to be “right” and “wrong,” and what “battles” we’ve won… or often, how we’ve managed to assert our truth onto someone else.

    One of the biggest limiting habits we hold in this context is that we often

    a) force our own belief/experience of what is “right” onto someone else, in the effort to make them accept it as their own, or

    b) allow someone else to project and enforce their own belief/experience of what is “right” onto ourselves, essentially giving up that piece of our own truth and journey as not as important or valuable as the other person’s.

    It’s a constant swing of the pendulum in many traditional relationships, in any presentation via this existence of duality. Mine, yours, yours, mine, etc. Change of power, change of situation, change of individual filters… and it swings yet again, often off in a different direction.

  • What “being happy” in a relationship actually means. We often focus so much effort and energy on making another person happy in a relationship that we forget the primary importance of our own happiness. I can’t tell you how many clients I’ve seen who, when I ask what makes them happy, they reply, “Making my ______ (spouse, kids, family, etc.) happy.” (And make no assumptions here; I’ve heard this from men just as often as I’ve heard it from women!)Energetically speaking, putting the importance of someone else’s happiness above our own  energetically says that our own happiness – and thus, our own journey – isn’t as important as someone else’s. This is also most often well-meant, with the belief that this shows how much we care or love them; however, it’s still exclusionary and limiting to at least one person in the party! This might be fine for a few weeks, a few months, a few decades… however, at some point, the pile of self-sacrifice will get so big – even built on what often starts out as small – that it will create a personal crisis, and/or a crisis in the relationship, because the relationship becomes so emotionally imbalanced that something breaks. This manifests in a variety of ways, for one or both parties involved: It can lead to depression, adultery, anger/animosity, heightened self-esteem issues, and on the other end, toddler-like entitlement (at the expense of the other) and overdominance. These are the points at which many of my clients come in to see me; they often have a long, built up resentment of the partner, of themselves, of the relationship, or any/all of the above!

HoldinghandsSo, what would be the higher perspective of this? How would we evolve our relationships beyond this, for a truly enjoyable, high vibrational experience?

  1. Find, know, and continuously cultivate your own happiness, first and foremost. So often, I start with asking someone, “What brings you pure joy – without dependence on another person to give it to you (like a child, spouse, etc.)?” There are a surprising amount of people I’ve encountered who don’t even know the answer to that simple question! I often have to refrain the question to, “If you were all by yourself, and you could do anything you wanted to be happy with the exception of having other people around you, what would you do?”And still, sometimes I get a blank look and, after a pause, the guilty confession: “I don’t know.”When we board an airplane, we have to listen to the safety guidelines at the beginning of the flight. What does the flight attendant say about those oxygen masks, should they fall from the ceiling? “Secure the oxygen mask on yourself first, before helping anyone sitting next to you…” 

    This is a GREAT analogy about finding our own happiness; the kind that comes from within. Another one is that eventually, a well runs dry when it’s not nourished and rejuvenated regularly. How can we give a true outpouring of love to others if we only have a limited amount of love within ourselves?

    Also, as much as it’s important to know what makes you happy… it’s just as important to DO what makes you happy! Do you like sunrises? The ocean? Going for a walk around a lake? Stopping in a flower garden to admire the flowers? Do you have a hobby or anything you like to do that stills the mind and opens the heart? When was the last time you did anything of the sort to immerse yourself in the experience? It’s only important that YOU do it (and completely optional for anyone else to do it with you); expecting a partner to like everything you do is, again, projecting your “truth” onto them. Likewise for them; it’s only important that they take time to do the things that bring them joy, as well… free of expectation that you have to do it with them!

    Of course, part of a relationship is sharing, so experiencing together is great; maybe you both have many commonalities in what brings you joy… and you can of course explore that together, too!

    Overall, remember the sense of self-love (which means honoring your own journey) is the heightened vibration with which to come to a relationship; if we make it a priority to nurture, nourish, and grow our own happiness, we come to a relationship with the vibration of purely enjoying the other person, vs. needing them to fill some gap we believe we have, and vice versa.

  2. Honor each other’s journey and each other’s truth, without judging what’s “right” and “wrong.” Sounds easy, right? Yet, it can be one of the most limiting dances we play with each other in a relationship! Can we disagree? Absolutely! It’s actually very healthy for both in a relationship to stand in their truth, even when it’s different from each other. When we honor each other as having the perfect journey for our purposes, we come to the table respecting each other and in partnership – equally – while respecting ourselves (which comes from a strong sense of self-love; thus, see number 1, above!). The key is to know our own truth, be confident in it, and still consider and honor the truth of someone else, even if it’s different.That’s when we really begin to listen – and hear – to each other.When we come to the relationship from a conscious perspective of self-love and mutual respect, we’re actually more open to disagreement and seeing things from a higher perspective, to more easily come to a middle ground where each individual still gets to maintain their truth while functioning together to agree upon what’s highest and best in that situation that plays out together.
  3. Shifting the focus of our negative emotions from projecting/blaming another to taking responsibility for our own trigger points and negative emotions. No one makes us feel a certain emotion – regardless of what they do – except for ourselves! So ultimately, it goes back to self-awareness and self-love: If we’re good with ourselves and where we are, the other person can leave the toothpaste cap all they want, they can leave their dirty clothes anywhere, and it will all be just fine!Try this next time you get irritated at someone else: Ask yourself, “Why do I care?” Keep on asking that question (questions to the questions) until you get to a place of full self-responsibility; it often comes down to beliefs around self-worthiness (self-love, or lack of) in some way, shape, or form!

These are some very basic ways we can fundamentally change our relationships, away from the separation-based version to the unity-based version. Instead of considering relationships – all of them – as a battle of some sort, a hierarchy of some sort, what if we came to the table in a place of love, unity, and mutual respect? Then instead of spending so much energy asserting or sacrificing, we allow ourselves and each other to be the best each of us can be in the reflection of our relationship!

If you’re looking for help with any of this, whether for yourself only or in a relationship, contact me for some sessions! I’ve worked with a number of individuals and couples to help them navigate through the relationship matrix in a very different manner than is traditional; away from a place of limitation and lower vibration to a place of joy, collaboration, and higher spiritual consciousness.

Flowing Through to Your Spiritual Freedom

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(From Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Doug Adams, 1978)

Welcome to this amazing phase of transformation!

The end-of-year holidays were VERY different for me and in perceiving those around me in 2015; I felt like our HUGE shift came in November, and December was us “taking care of business” that became front and center, whether the ego wanted it to or would have rather let it go until after the holidays (and then diverted from something else).

Here’s the good news/bad news (because there is no difference): There is NO GIVE from the higher self anymore. Those of us who have been doing continuous self-focus and expansion – just as those of us who haven’t done anything – are all being hit with what’s the biggest, most pervasive and limiting behaviors, situations, and beliefs we’ve had left. These are the things that the ego has become MASTERFUL at hiding… these are the things that are so embedded into our identity (ego) that we often don’t even see them within ourselves because they’re like gravity – so there that they’re invisible. And we scratch our heads in consciousness, because we “think” we’ve taken care of “it” – we claim we have – but it persists, or often comes screaming out of nowhere, where we feel like we get blindsided upside the head… with a cast iron skillet.

However, it’s because of how deeply embedded in ourselves that these limitations exist that we can’t simply say “Shazam!” or wave our magic wand and they’ll go away… or ignore it anymore and blame our shortfalls on something else. This causes HUGE frustration and expectation by the ego, because the ego is now backed into the corner, with no way out, and it MUST at this point open its eyes and look in the mirror to move out of that corner… which is falling away… so time is short!

NO MORE, says the higher self. It’s game time; we’ve been screwing around with this long enough. Want to really hike up in vibration? THIS is how.

Time to go through than to try to circumvent (which we only do when it feels extremely uncomfortable, and it’s a HUGE HONKING NEON SIGN for us to look at straight on!)… the test for our self is, can we go THROUGH it, straight on, in FLOW? This is the muckiest part of who we are.

I’m not saying it has to be hard – nothing “has to be” anything, it’s the ego’s perception of something being hard that creates it – except that the ego most typically PERCEIVES it to be hard… because this is “the thing” that causes it to kick and scream and PANIC.

In the very, very wise words of Doug Adams: DON’T PANIC!

Flow.

Yet, whatever transpires is the last place that it seems to flow… and that’s why it’s so, so, SO important for us to allow that.

For some, it’s practiced now… I did it, and the present to myself for it? Seeing a bigger piece of the bigger, most out-of-this-reality vision than ever… because I could now look at it without fear, or with so little that I could mop it up easily as I go.

For many – even some of the most advanced practitioners I know – in denial (and there’s a LOT of denial, especially right before this) – the higher self is saying ENOUGH. TIME TO MOVE ON. And guess what? The very “explosion” – and often ensuing chaos – is put in place to FORCE us to let go of it. Our fingers are essentially being peeled back from the edge of the cliff… so we can finally allow ourselves not just to remember to fly… but to DO IT.

Here are some examples I’ve seen via friends, family, clients, and students:

  • Someone with deep, deep self-loathing issues that have been habitually masked throughout life via the attention gained from others finds themselves in a situation that pushes them to finally be on their own, with plenty of time for the mirror, to finally learn/remember how to love themselves;
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  • Someone with lifetime (and beyond) issues with self-sacrifice and an identity around over-responsibility crashing through a situation where no matter what they try to do to remedy a situation for others (having to do with spouse and children)… it all seems to get more and more mucked up, until they yell, “UNCLE” and have to fess up to the whole situation to allow everyone to help take their own responsibility in the situation, to free the person up to pursue their own true soul purpose;
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  • Someone with a lifetime (at least) of an identity and self-esteem built around being the leader in “knowing what to do” and counseling others… in a situation that is so uncomfortable because it shows their insecurity on actually standing on their own, in their own truth, until they can’t divert the attention of others away from it anymore… and are pushed to admit their own issues and do something about it, and even asking for assistance themselves;
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  • Someone stuck in a pattern of self-validation through sacrificing the self and instead distracting themselves with helping others to an extreme degree becomes inflicted with a chronic illness that prevents them from helping others at all, and in fact has to ask others to help them…

And it goes on from there (quite a number I could recount from conversations/sessions in the past month alone)… these situations cause us to feel as if our hand’s been forced to finally deal with these core parts of ourselves, because it all breaks and falls down around us… leaving us with our Truth, to look at, to accept, embrace, and love, once and for all.

 

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck.

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck: As everything that doesn’t serve the individual falls away, the True self is free to emanate.

It’s powerfully transformational… and the equivalent of The Tower card in the tarot deck: All that doesn’t serve us is falling away… and it’s ALL that doesn’t serve us, whether the ego likes it or not, once and for all.

Through this process – leading up to the explosion (whatever it is for the individual) – there’s this preparation process, like the ego sees the huge, mammoth waterfall and realizes “I must let go of everything unnecessary to survive this” – so it starts letting go of stuff that it previously clung to, but is NOT actually the big cahuna. “See? I can throw this overboard… I don’t need this anymore… SEE? I’m better now… why can’t I steer away from that waterfall?!?!?! Here, I’ll look at these things now… throw THEM overboard, I didn’t really need them… How about now? Wait, WHAT? Am I going to survive? Wha…. AAAAAGGGGHHHH!”

SPLASH (or explosion)

And then – believe it or not – RELIEF.

So, some have already gone through that… many are going through the “lightening up the load” period… some are flat out in the freefall of the waterfall. My advice is to BECOME the waterfall. Surrender. Breathe. Stay centered. DO YOUR SELF-FOCUS (meditation and energy healing on yourself) EVERY DAY… There are so many AWESOME tools of remembrance to allow us to flow through it… learn how to use them, if you haven’t already… you deserve it!!*

There’s nothing to fear with this process; in fact, as difficult as it may seem when the ego is involved… it’s something for us to celebrate, individually and collectively! After the waterfall, we’re in a pool of beautiful, clear, calm water, where we can just flow with the current expertly and begin to remember how to enjoy the ride, even in new terrain. SO much easier!

Through the “throwing stuff out of the boat” period, many will often go through any or all of the following (thanks to Laurel Ley of Dragonfly Unleashed for the list):

  • Uninspired and disillusioned/sick/loathing of the 3D
  • Judgmental of self and others (which, of course, is from self-judgment… all back to the self LOL)
  • Physically exhausted… OR having trouble sleeping – one extreme, the other, or one to the other
  • Rehashing and bashing the self for “past” issues
  • Sad, deflated, defeated
  • Trapped (again, around having to “be here”)
  • Hopeless
  • Ugly, fat, ________ (physical loathing)
  • Useless

For me, the last three weeks of 2015 was my “self test” of the waterfall, and I was flowing in it with/for the collective as well as for my self… for here and now and across the Universe, across dimensions, across many iterations. It was deeper and I peered directly into and sat in more darkness than anything I’d felt before, with no words, and yet was pushed to remember love there; I did. I followed my guidance, and for most of that period, I existed outside of space and time and just let it flow. It was a great time for my husband and kids to be home on vacation, because they kept me anchored here while I was predominantly “out there”… and I’m SO thankful, because with that, it was the only way so much could pass through for me in such an intensely short period, so I could see what I can see and am preparing for today. Every time I allowed my feet to “touch ground” here, I might experience a piece of the above, but only in moments… and then I’d take off, be in a place of observation again, and float through just fine. I finally “hit ground” on New Year’s Eve… in time for this next wave of visions to start. And thus, an ever bigger flow – because that’s part of my purpose – of this information coming in. My bandwidth has increased exponentially (including in the 3D changing our Internet provider and upgrading our connection on January 4th… how representative!), and now I’m figuring out how to allow it all in and still function here in what’s left of the 3/4D.

I feel like many may not have gotten there yet and will be getting there shortly, but I know for sure time here on this plane is SHORT for resolution! So, if it hits you upside the head – or rather the heart – like a cast iron frying pan… Surrender. Breathe. Allow. If all you do is sit and BE in meditation/self-focus time, that’s fine… and even if you don’t see or feel anything, YOU’RE DOING SOMETHING. I promise you, if you continue it consistently (by the way, the ego sometimes “turns off” or “blocks” feeling to then convince us that nothing is “happening”… so that we stop doing the self-focus, with the ulterior motive of continued avoidance, which ultimately makes it worse).

Why all of this? You might ask. So we can fully step up into WHO WE ARE and WHO WE CAME HERE TO BE, and truly SHINE! Because it’s time. There are some unbelievable things coming into play that I had visions about 3-4 years ago… I mean, really, truly unbelievable and just completely out of this reality. I thought at the time my mind was trying to decorate… I was working regularly together with a friend and we saw some really, really out there things. What came to me starting on New Year’s Eve was the realization that what we saw 3-4 years ago is in play; and what we saw – especially one truly, unbelievable thing – has literally shown up at my doorstep (no need to go looking for it), right under my nose. Never in a million years would I have really believed it to play out as we saw it, but I’ve been having very, very 3D experiences combined with non-3D that are just… incredible, for lack of better words. And like I said earlier, had I not gone through all of this with such tremendous fluidity over the holiday weeks preceding… I may have easily been paralyzed by the realization (yes, even a month ago). It’s THAT big. And now… since I’ve been the darkness with the collective, as the higher consciousness, and seen it all resolve there and within me, I’m accepting of it.

So… flow on. REALLY. Do SELF-FOCUS, EVERY DAY. Nourish yourself; love yourself. LET YOURSELF SEE – straight on – AND LOVE THE DARKNESS WITHIN (simply separation personified) AS PART OF THE WHOLE DIVINE YOU, because it’s only then that we can dissolve it in our embrace. You know all of these “special classes” with “activations” so many are talking about? Essentially, it’s already a natural part of this process, and it’s already inside of you, already accessible by you… however YOU let it play out. Let yourself come first; and realize that you’re worthy of that, just as you are! Things are changing, and it is SUCH a beautiful symphony playing out! Learn to really listen to your higher self… and to TRUST your own guidance, above all else.

Game on, everyone… I love you all! We’re being actively called on to a completely new playing field now, as leaders in the center of all of it! So OBVIOUSLY, is serves us to be as clear as possible, to best be able to flow through to help move to a completely new game! Boo-yah!

In love, laughter, magic, and the remembrance of ascension,
Angela

*There’s a 6-hour class I’m teaching ONLINE over three weeks (Monday, February 8, Monday, February 15, and Monday, February 22, 7:30-9:30ET each night), called Self-Development via Divine Consciousness, which gives you a number of useful tools to help you with all of this, and fully conscious creation of your reality. Follow the link for more information and sign up today! 

 

On Shopping on Thanksgiving and PresenCE

PresentsIn many ways, my 19-year-old is just like I was at her age: strong-willed, precocious, and opinionated! She’s a VERY active and passionate participant in conversations and actions around equality and rights across the board, including gender, sexual preference, race… you name it. She’s also knowledgeable and very much an advocate of the environment, living in an integrated, healthy way. Basically, for quite awhile now, she’s verbally been ready to “right all of the wrongs of the world”! Sometimes, her limitation is that she can even be oversensitive to such topics, to the point that she’ll shut down in judgment and righteousness in the middle of a conversation because she’s so ignited and passionate about what’s being discussed (vs. being a productive contribution to the discussion).

She has quite the spark and fire! My husband and I have always had great conversations around these topics in our household, striving always to share a perspective on the bigger picture; overall, it’s great to know that our children are both such advocates in support of many of the things we also support… save for some maturity, temperance, and acceptance with a view of the larger picture that will naturally develop over time and experience and further assist in their clarity and motivation in a productive way.

This introduction to my daughter is to share with you her overall temperament before I talk about the actual topic at hand. It’s because she’s such a blatantly verbal advocate of such things that this created such a perfect scenario for discussion… and it’s not just a great lesson for her, but for everyone else, as well.

Part of our evolution and spiritual development – sometimes, what’s seemingly the most challenging part – is getting past the habits that we’ve repeated so many times over the eons that we’re often blind to them within ourselves. This is the fine print of consciousness, remembrance, and spiritual development – it’s truly “walking the walk” – remembering the whole picture in every choice that we make; remembering the interconnectedness of everything we do, that we, expressed as ourselves, have a plethora of individual lessons that are intertwined with the lessons of many others and of our collective, larger consciousness, as well.

While she’s in college, she’s been working a retail job part-time, and has been an exemplary employee. Last year, she had to work on Christmas Eve, and she was really upset about it since we have a multitude of Christmas Eve traditions we’ve developed over the years as a family. Being newly conscious of the choice between work and fun/nurturing with her family, she was very vocal about having to work on a holiday… and became hyper-aware of those having to do the same. She’s been a great support to those she works with ever since, being part of the coverage when something personal has come up for them (and vice versa).

Last night, after our Thanksgiving dinner and gathering was mostly concluded, she excused herself to go to a friend’s house with her boyfriend because it was the friend’s birthday. Later on, she texted me that they’d decided to go and “try out the shopping.”

When she got home later in the evening, I half-jokingly mentioned to her my disappointment that after all of her campaigning against retail having to work on holidays because of corporate greed and cultural manipulation… that she would essentially participate as part of the issue. Even though I was purposefully gentle in the pronouncement (because I knew it would hit home with her), she looked at me as if I’d slapped her, and her face immediately got red. She defended, “Oh, come on… you’ve participated in Black Friday shopping before…” To which I replied, “Yes, BLACK FRIDAY… which has been ‘a thing’ for a long time. However, TODAY is Thanksgiving… a day that we take a break, enjoy each other, and have gratitude for what’s in our lives. It’s not a shopping day; it’s a together day. You’ve now fed into what you so passionately speak against just by going to the stores and participating… because those people manning the stores are working instead of enjoying the day, enjoying the moment and enjoying themselves and others around them in a breath of presence as part of the holiday.”

Her response to that, “I had no choice.” (Implying that it’s what her friend wanted to do.)

My response: “You ALWAYS have a choice.” 

That ended the conversation; she got up and left the room. I wasn’t abrupt or condescending about it; I was simply pointing out to her what she so righteously and readily points out in others all the time. Her defensive reaction was definitely a trigger to her being aware of her own inauthenticity in the situation; I was guided to even gently bring it up as I did because this is a valuable lesson at this juncture in her life, at the brink of adulthood and being in conscious awareness of her own impact on the world – of the Universe – around her.

My daughter is an intuitive, intelligent, beautiful, caring, and passionate person… and 95% of the time, she’s there. Most of the time she gets it; that’s the point of me telling you all of this, because it’s an important interchange, an important experience that shows how easy it is to just be unconscious – even if just for one act, one moment – and follow others and what’s outside of the Self because it’s convenient… even for someone who is typically very conscious of what goes on around them and that interconnectedness. And how, in that one act, what the ego might rationalize as relatively unimportant (and convenient in the moment), when fed into by numerous others via the same “little” act, causes it to become part of a much bigger message that affects (and limits) the many vs. the few.

I’m not judging her; it was, in fact, her choice. However, I know that it’s not aligned with her authentic self and what she believes (the next time she mentions such injustices… I might very well remind her that she’s fed the fire herself!  😉 ). And, as with all interactions, it causes me to look in the mirror to see where this might be a reminder to be and stay fully conscious of my own actions, in all ways, at all times!

It’s a great reminder of how even the most conscious of us will ourselves to go “on automatic” or lock our consciousness – and sometimes our vigilance – in the closet temporarily often in the effort of a) the convenience of being exclusionary – “It’s not alright for me, but it’s OK for others, and/or b) being accepted by others, because of the individual belief that we need acceptance of others to be worthy, and that we have to have shared experiences to be accepted. It’s the same set of beliefs around the well-known adage of “misery loves company.”

We’ve all done it as part of this exclusionary existence; it’s been part of the lessons of separation and duality.

We’re not victim to others; we’re not victim to corporations… or institutions… or governments… it’s all our creation. Therefore, it’s also our choice to feed the frenzy… or not. It’s our choice to exist in a higher consciousness, aware of our interconnectivity… or not. And ultimately, it’s all OK… as long as we accept and take responsibility for creating that… ALL of it. We create it; we can change it. If we’re going to feed a creation… then we can’t claim to be victim to it; and we can’t be surprised when the reflection of whatever it brings to you later hits home to you in another, typically unexpected way.

The more conscious we are, the more in remembrance we exist, the more we realize that every single action we take reflects back to us; this is the former perception of, “what goes around comes around”… but instead of “being victim to” karma, it’s simply remembering that what we create in a Universe around us simply reflects what’s within us back to ourselves, and it will get louder and louder until we look at it straight on in the mirror.

As we embark on the end-of-year holiday season – regardless of individual practices and beliefs – let’s try something different than what’s typically “the norm”: Instead of being panicked about finances, panicked about having the “perfect gift” or an “expensive enough gift” to ensure someone else thinks highly of us, what if we purely focused on the gentle love and acceptance of ourselves? What if we blessed ourselves and others around us with the gift – worth more than anything in the physical – of being present with our Self, and with others, without expectations or judgment? This is what consciousness, awareness, and remembrance is all about. This is how we “walk the walk,” and do it differently… taking away the need to give away our power to others to gain “love” from outside of us because we don’t hold that within ourselves. If we do that – if we can remember the simple act of self love and authenticity – then everything around us will simultaneously change for the much, much better, as well.. and we’ll realize how powerful each one of us really is.

 

 

Heeding My Own Words on My Journey…Listen, Listen, Listen!

magicalbookSMDoing what I’ve volunteered to do as my life’s work is quite the incredible and magnificent journey! And yet… as magical as it is, as well beyond the day-to-day 3D, I still find I’ve had some very 3D fears, resistance, and experiences with which I’ve limited myself at some very crucial points.

One of my fortes is writing and communication; I find it easy and flowing… and I also know how to consciously incorporate the telepathic meaning/information well beyond the words I use. My calling to “write the books” about all of this – all of what I discuss, teach, experience in relation to helping others to remember the Universe in some ways very differently than we have previously – has been continuously pushing at me via Higher Consciousness for several years; I have far, far more to share than what I’ve even portrayed in many public forums!

However, I’ve procrastinated.

“Too much to do!” I would proclaim, again and again, every time it came through in meditation, or via message through others. Or, “It will be out of date as soon as it’s published!” Or innumerous other excuses! I would put time aside to write… and write something else (like a blog LOL), update my Website, make a few calls… well, you get the idea. I’ve written much of it in drawers full of journals, and… nothing yet has made it to the light of day beyond smatterings and discussion and verbal teaching.

I KNOW better; listening to guidance is what I teach as the CORE!

However, I’ve been putting off guidance, time and again… continuously on this for years. This is so funny, because I look back over it now, and laugh at myself (one the best tools for accepting ourselves).

What I continuously talk about and teach, all the time, is how when we ignore true guidance – that which comes from the Higher Self (vs. the ego) – it always starts with a little nudge – a little message, reminder, whatever you want to call it. The more we ignore those nudged, the little messages… the bigger they get. “Can you hear me now?” The Higher Self asks… and it doesn’t stop turning up the volume until the guidance/knowing is followed.

This is why we eventually manifest crises into our lives; we’ve ignored a nudge and the messages so much (typically because in some way, shape, or form the ego is uncomfortabe because of SOME resistance-based belief that it holds) that the Higher Self, the Universe, the Divine, however you want to term it, FINALLY has to kick you in the butt in a way that you CAN’T. DO. ANYTHING. ELSE.

Again, I know better.

I’ve gotten through gobs and gobs… and my experiences are truly miraculous and magical. I’ve started an amazing practice and modality around this – in accordance to HUGE guidance (see more about Trinity Energy Progression here); it never steers me wrong! All in all, I trust my guidance fully; it’s the waning ego’s moments of control that cause me to not DO something when I’m guided to do it.

And yet… here I am.

A pattern of limitation and blockades has turned up in my reality, regardless of all efforts to circumvent them. What started happening defies an explanation…. EXCEPT that I’ve finally gotten to a level of denial that I’ve been kicked in the butt! My ego… has been kicking and screaming and looking every which way but at the white elephant in the room, until now.

Enough screwing around with this, says the Higher Consciousness. Time to write, and REALLY share this Remembrance!

I had to look long and deeply at myself, and also simultaneously zoom out to the larger picture at the entire pattern. In doing that, I realized that this is ALMOST EXACTLY what happened when my guidance kept pushing me to close down my former business and do this work – my higher calling – in 2010. How could I have been so blind to it? I’m one of the most adept at seeing the messages, putting together the jigsaw puzzle! (Actually, I do already know that answer, and it’s a three-letter word: E-G-O.)

This is SO my heart; why would I deny this? Again, I had to look at whatever was left… because there really wasn’t much! And what was left was… this is the final layer; this is what’s completely inside. This is completely opening in full Truth, full vulnerability, full acceptance of me and my Remembrance. ALL of it! That’s the ONLY WAY for me to write this series of books that I’m to write, with a completely open, completely Divine heart. Put whatever excuse to it I want, this is IT.

Sounds simple, right?

So, last week I surrendered, after a number of fits and frustrations.

Whatever shifted caused me to look at this and say to myself, “WHY have I let this go so long? This is my heart…” And then I realized that the reason I did was BECAUSE this is my heart!

I’ve now blocked time to do it. Three days so far, one hour/day, 3,500 words. And, I have a LOT more time blocked to write this week… and moving forward.

I started four days ago.

I found my writing spot… at a lake near my home, quiet and a very, very nice vibration! For some reason, it all feels effortless there.

As I should have known, as soon as I started writing, I would receive such a show of support in multiple ways from the Universe and my Higher Self (in some very humorous ways, I might add).

Day 1:

The lake is about 2 miles around, and it’s rather cut off right now because there’s some extreme road construction going on right around it, so not a lot of car traffic goes in; I parked in the “far parking lot” (on the opposite side from the clubhouse/center), and made my way in. So, laptop in my backpack, off I went!

I found the PERFECT SPOT, in the shade of a bush at just the right angle at the waterside, with dragonflies dancing around me, about 1 mile from the parking lot.

It was SO EASY! (Again, more wondering on the way out as to why it had taken me so long to get to this point!)

Day 2:

On that morning, my intention was to go back to that same spot, because it was SO flowing and SO easy! As I came around the bend, there was a man in that EXACT SPOT (and I hadn’t seen anyone else until that point)… FISHING. Not only fishing, but JUST pulling up a fish as I walked up!

He was in scrubby clothing, sort of scrubby (as was I)… there was something different about him…and he looked me in the eyes, with a sparkle smiled and greeted me as I walked up. I returned the hello… however, in those first moments, I was pouting inside a little, with the thought, “REALLY? In the whole of 2 miles around the lake, this guy picked THIS EXACT SPOT from which to FISH?”

I kept going, trying to be a little bit irritated… but I felt this push to look at… something.

As I found another spot, just around the next bend, I was putting my little pillow on the ground to sit on when I GOT IT…

He was FISHING… and he’d CAUGHT A FISH. RIGHT in the spot from where I started my “official writing.”

One of the sayings I use ALL the time, repeatedly, with my students and clients is that my goal is to “teach one to fish instead of giving them the fish.” Full Divine self-empowerment! If I had a dollar for every time I’ve said it over the past five years… well, I could probably give the 1% a run for it!

SO FUNNY that this was the “support statement” from Higher Consciousness… and just on Day 2!

Day 3: 

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Part 1: When I first sat down, I did a meditation at the water’s edge, in the same place I sat yesterday. The Oneness was effortless; I could feel everything! After awhile, I noticed there was some odd thrumming sound that was unfamiliar to me – not to the left or right (or across the lake), but right in my vicinity. I opened my eyes, and there was a hummingbird, hovering over the water, about 2 feet in front of me and slightly to my left! It was really interested in me! We looked at each other for what seemed like 30 seconds… maybe less… but it was long enough that it was pointed that I notice the oddity of this… and then it flew away, soon to circle around and come back to the jewelweed in bloom around 6 feet from me.

There are SO MANY things about the symbolism of the hummingbird… something that occurred to me about it when we were looking eye to eye is this: Regardless of the flapping of its wings at such a tremendous speed, its head stays pretty centered and still while in flight. Pretty amazing. Staying the center of the storm – its OWN storm! There was far more…

Part 2: After I’d been writing, I packed everything back up in my backpack and was walking one way to leave, when a man who had passed by doubled back from the other direction and called to me. He asked me if I was an author; I smiled and said yes, I was writing a book. He pressed more and I realized he thought I was a published author he’d met in our area; he gave me her name (he said a book she wrote was At the Water’s Edge, which I thought was funny, given that I’d been sitting at the water’s edge when he’d first walked by). We talked for a few minutes, and he said, “I wish you much success and many blessings with the completion of your book…” I thanked him and turned to walk away, laughing to myself… with SO MUCH gratitude for the support… because really, I couldn’t make THAT up any better in my reality!

AND… things have started flowing again in multiple areas, just three short days of DOING this!

Now, I’m motivated. The writing itself is like a deep release that I didn’t realize I needed… it feels easy and freeing! And again, I ask myself… why was it that I put this off for so long? Could part of it be that I didn’t until now believe that something so profound and vulnerable and core to me could feel so good?

I recognize that it’ll come up to shift any grain of sand that’s left along the way that would allow the ego to block me; that’s why I feel like just three short days in, I’m receiving so much support from the aethers. However… the momentum’s started… and that’s all I really need; I’m READY!

 

Just in the Nick of Time…

Let me start out at the end: It was an AWESOME day… and because of Nick, it was even better.

I love my work; I love helping others to find the power they have within. It’s beyond words – awesome and awe-inspiring – to watch as those with whom I work grow to remember their own Divinity, that they’re worthy, unconditionally loved, unconditionally powerful; and then, that they have all of the answers, they can do everything, see everything, understand everything… and it’s simply a matter of remembering how to do that and clearing out what’s blocking the way.

And then, it’s all even better when it comes to helping someone like Nick… because I could never even plan for something like that!

Now, let me go back to the beginning…

Last weekend, I was in Michigan to do a one-day presentation consisting of three talks pertaining to self-empowerment through energy work. It was hosted by my student, friend, and soul sister Nicole, who has an art and healing center where we were doing the presentation. Recently, she’d expanded her studio, incorporating space that had formerly been occupied by another professional. This was the space we were using for the presentation: comfy cushions and chairs, check; meditation music: check; incense: check; healthy veggies and other food for snacks: check. A group of people who attended with so much light and great energy to further fill the room with awesomeness: check!

As is typical, when I do a presentation, I set up the room energetically in a high vibration of healing, and do what many in the spiritual arena call “hold space.” The intention: To balance and harmonize all of us present throughout the day; also, to provide what is highest and best to help the individual journey of all who attend, with grace and ease, love, and joy (and a lot of humor).

And so, everything was set.

We were about to start, when a young man in his early 20’s walked in with a pile of papers in his hand. He had an unkempt, grungy appearance, and pulled tightly into himself. He came to the doorway where we were convened, and looked confused. I asked him if he was there to join us for the talk; he didn’t know what I was talking about… he said he was looking for the office that had been there before. Several in the group chimed in that they had moved; he half turned to leave. However, he hesitated; in the meantime, I (along with several others in the group) was nudged heavily to have him stay. I called after him, “Come and join us!” Another in the group said to him, “Yes… because if you’re here, you’re supposed to be here!”

He asked what we were doing – what we were talking about – and we told him we were talking about spiritual empowerment and energy work. He said, “Well… actually, it sounds kind of interesting…” He hesitated, then asked, “How much is it?”

I told him it was via love donation, with the recommended donation at $20 per talk. He sighed and shook his head. “I’m dead broke,” he said, and turned away again. Another in the group told him she would cover him; I, too, was feeling that it would really be good for him to stay, so I simply said, “Really… if you feel like you’d like to stay, then simply pay it forward somehow. That’s the ‘love’ part!”

He took a few steps away from the door, then turned back, hesitant. We further coaxed him to join us (obviously, others in the group felt the same pull); he finally said, “OK… why not?” Then he walked across the room, through the circle, and sat down on a cushion next to me.

He stayed the entire day.

Throughout the different talks and during the breaks, we learned that his name was Nick; that he considers himself a recovering drug addict, that he had done a variety of drugs, including heroin. Sitting next to him, I noticed he had scars that looked like cigarette burns up and down his left arm. He talked about wanting to “kick the habit” so he could talk to disadvantaged youths on steering clear of “the nasty stuff.” It was (of course) perfect that one of the participants who attended – close to his age – has been going to AA for several years, and she was able to give him many great suggestions to progress down that road.

He was quiet throughout much of the talks; in fact, in the middle of the first one, he fell asleep and started snoring. I was told to leave him be; that he was getting exactly what he needed. Everyone else understood, as well… and we let him sleep and absorb.

During the breaks, he ate voraciously… and it was wonderful that he was eating raw vegetables, healthy food.

After all the talks were completed and he’d received a Trinity healing session, he thanked everyone and left. He didn’t sign up for any email contact or anything. However, in cleaning up after everyone had gone, I realized Nick had left behind the pile of papers he’d had with him when he arrived. They were discharge papers from the ER that morning, with complaints of acute left shoulder pain from a pre-existing injury. There was also a prescription for Motrin. Nicole and I puzzled over these papers… neither of us had felt anything about shoulder pain; nor had he complained about it or brought it up. We both understood simultaneously that he’d been having a rough morning off the drugs and had gone to the hospital in hopes of getting some pain killers; when they just gave him the Motrin prescription, he went looking elsewhere. Through a whole series of connect the dots that just fell together, we realized he’d shown up at that office on a Saturday morning looking to meet someone there to possibly get some drugs to alleviate the rough patch.

Instead, he found us… to get what he REALLY needed: love, support, acceptance, and healing (and food, too).

The enormity of that synchronicity is simply astounding. The numerous amount of small details that came together just so the group of us could be there – that day, at that exact moment – to not only share and help each other, but to also support him and help him through a really, REALLY rough day… is mind-boggling. However, the heart just knows. It’s all perfect.

I wanted to share this story because often, many of us doing this kind of work question the purpose of certain situations, in certain places, on certain days. We ask, “Why am I here?” And sometimes we never know.


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… and when an awesome situation like this comes together, it feeds another hundred moments or more of never knowing… so we can just trust that we’re ALWAYS in the perfect place, at the perfect time, even if the ego doesn’t see why.

My heart and love goes out to Nick, wherever he may be. And my intention for him… is that he found another perfect situation for himself the following day, to help him through… and that hopefully, every day it gets easier for him. And even if it doesn’t, I’m certain that whatever we provided will ultimately help him along on his path!

 

 

The Explosion of World, Local, & Personal Events… A Note on How This Ties ALL of Us Together (Literally!)

I’ve been observing everything and everyone around me over the past several weeks and wondering about the increased urgency, the increased number of situations – personally and collectively – that have seemed to have exploded, all over the world.  And yes… it’s that a lot is crumbling away that doesn’t serve us (see my post from this last weekend, Traumatized? Downtrodden? Tired? A Love Note to You on What’s Crumbling Away…). It’s felt like some pin was removed this month that just let those snowballs just roll downhill, faster and faster! However… there’s been something else that until yesterday, I couldn’t quite put my finger on.

And then…

I was wondering why over the past few weeks I’ve started “hearing thoughts” again… when I first had my “Grand Awakening” in 2009, that was the first thing I learned how to control and filter out, and haven’t had that issue since. I’ve noticed when I go to sleep at night, I’m being called on by many to do healing work, to give counsel, etc. And then, this past week, in meditation, suddenly the same thing started happening… this layer of the chatter of others… I’m constantly redirecting back to the higher dimensions. Beyond that, several times over the past few weeks, I’ve been in session with someone, written down notes while we were talking, and when I’d read back some of the notes on the intentions we’d be setting for the energy work… my client would say, “Wow… how did you know that? I didn’t talk about that at all…” a few times I’d reply, “Yes, you did…” and they’d repeat they didn’t… and I would then hear “No, they didn’t… but you HEARD it.” I’d put money down that I heard them say such things out loud… it was THAT clear.

So, how are these two things connected?

Yesterday, after continuously “re-setting” to energetically rise above the level of those who were asking for guidance/help in meditation, I finally asked, “What is GOING ON?” Very clearly, I understood that it’s the “expansion of the telepathic frequency.” Just that one understanding brought clarity on all of this. It felt RIGHT – my entire Being felt “Of COURSE!” – and as the day progressed, more and more started making sense.

As we progress, we’re connecting more and more again, remembering our Oneness… that includes telepathic connection. I’d been shown about a year ago that our “telepathic frequencies” would start to become VERY easy to access again, as a natural part of this shift. I’d understood it… but here we are, IN it!

When I realized this yesterday, I understood that I wasn’t to put up any blockades anymore – because shields and blockages are SEPARATION, and that’s what we’re releasing. So, it was simply to find another way to stay clear, without being distracted or negatively affected by it… finding my peace and clarity without separating myself from that connection, at all levels.

As I’m now adept at working and shifting things on a dime energetically… it’s been an adjustment, but with very little effect to me personally. HOWEVER… for many others…

We’ve shifted enough collectively that these “telepathic frequencies,” or some call it “the telepathic channel,” are being accessed by many who’ve been SO separated and in their ego for so long that there are a lot of unconscious repercussions as we adjust… sort of FORCING the process of Awakening for many! First of all, there are MANY who haven’t yet become conscious of/remembered how to exist predominantly from the heart (as the seat of the soul)… many (a great majority) who still have an egoic identity of living in separation and secrecy and hide (or don’t even know) much of their Truth…many who don’t know the importance of changing the habit of their words (and thus, their thoughts), and to change their connections to coming from the MEANING behind the words vs. the words themselves… and, most importantly, many who don’t yet know/remember how to discern the difference between the voice of the Higher Self and the voice of the ego.

Also, many have yet to remember and honor that we’re all on our individual journeys, without a right or a wrong one…. and judgment prevails from their ego.

So suddenly, many, many more are automatically accessing understanding via these telepathic frequencies, even though they may not realize or acknowledge it at a conscious level. It can be quite subtle, even the whisper of what another might be thinking or a glimpse of what’s going on in another’s mind can set the ego off, without listening to the Higher Self about the situation (and not even knowing/remembering how to do so). And thus… what happens, when you’re not in the practice of any of the above? A lot of partial truths are suddenly (mis)understood, a LOT of knee jerking starts occurring, a lot of egoic reactions, a lot of inflammation and MANY misunderstandings, or paying attention to “the shiny” – the thoughts/words vs. the feelings behind them… and a LOT of explosions and falling away, because so much has been “hidden” in our thoughts for so long, there’s been so much lack of authenticity and once those thoughts come to light in our connection, the situation simply corrects itself, very quickly.

Sound familiar?

It’s sort of the equivalent of having the TV or stereo muted, and then unmuting it and realizing that the sound is BLASTING, and you can’t turn the sound down or off anymore.

This is SO disconcerting to MANY… and they don’t even consciously understand what’s going on! So, a LOT is “blowing up” right now because these frequencies have opened up. The good part: Things will correct themselves quickly… and ultimately it will all become far, far easier, because we’re going to HAVE to live in our Truth.

So, what is there to do about this?

Well… if you don’t meditate in some way, shape, or form, it’s really rather pertinent to do so, immediately. Whatever method or practice works for you… because meditation quiets the chatter of the ego and helps us to start living from a higher consciousness, from the Higher Self. It’s the basis of being able to do all kinds of healing and releasing work… and ultimately, it helps us to remember how to consciously connect in together in the Oneness in love and bliss… and THAT’S our Truth. All the rest… illusion. And the more we live from that perspective of connectedness/Oneness, the less the chatter will affect us, the more we’ll start to FEEL the Truth of situations vs. what the ego wants to judge, and the more we’ll live from the perspective that we’re all a part of each other… and that it’s time for us to LIVE that way. That’s the only way things will ultimately work and be productive. Otherwise… it will just fall away, faster and faster.

And, for those of us who are already doing spiritual/metaphysical healing work… many will complain about this sudden amplification of “the noise”… and the protective (aka separation) instinct is to do what we can to “turn it off”; however, THIS lesson is that it’s time for us to release the “fears of being connected” and INSTEAD adapt to being able to press on without shutting it out (my understanding is that those methods will actually become more and more ineffective), and living from our Truth – walking the walk – once and for all.

If you need assistance with or clarity on any of the above… give me a shout… in the physical OR non-physical, whatever your choice!  🙂

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