Reminiscent of Close Encounters… (NM Road Trip Revelations I)

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From the movie "Close Encounters of the Third Kind"

There’s just SO MUCH to cover about my road trip to New Mexico, that I COULDN’T WAIT to get started! This topic is VERY important for many, soooo, here I go; but first, a couple of things that are relevant to this posting, so bear with me…

Throughout my life, I have had cumulative but gradual experiences of opening up spiritually and intuitively… while I was working in the very left-brained corporate world, and then developing my own business. It was much like the exponential curve on a graph… a new type of “ability” here, a new one there…wait for it… wait for it…and then BAM! In 2009, I fell open like a book. Seriously! I tried to keep it separate from my professional life, but the more I went on and explored it… the further I opened up… and the more keeping those two parts of my life separate clashed and caused conflict. Consequently, I’ve finally accepted the inevitability… and this is now the focus and calling to which I’ve submitted, and enjoy it very much!

When I say opened up, it’s really an understatement. I started “hearing” thoughts, knowing the complex line of events to be in a moment’s contemplation, found it very easy to learn and practice energy healing, and also connected very easily to ascended masters, angels, archangels, and others of the Light (and then directly with Creator, especially once I learned ThetaHealing). About 6 months ago, I also started “connecting in” with other Beings – those who many might call “aliens”… but I simply call them Star Beings or Beings.  Those with whom I’ve connected are truly of some of purest love I have ever experienced. Regardless, here’s the thing: No matter how fantastic or out there something seemed when I was “told” it was highest Truth, it has always come to pass, in one way or the other.

Then, though I honestly never asked, last year I started receiving images and snip its of things to come, not only regarding the role I “signed up” to play, but also regarding Earth-level humanity.

Contrary to what many of the fatalists seem to want everyone to believe, it’s not about Doomsday at all…it’s absolutely phenomenal and beautiful! Is there drastic change involved? Absolutely… but change is how you want to perceive it; it can be your personal hardship or it can be your liberation! Much is very foreign as to how we’re living today… so I’ve been very reticent to share much of the insight I’ve received, except with those closest to me (though I admit, I’ve even held back some of the information from my husband – one of the most open-minded people I know – and I’m just finally feeling comfortable to share it with him NOW) . It was because of this that regardless of the amount of self clearing and healing I did, the fear of being considered a freak or judged obviously remained.

It also seems that often when I’m speaking with someone about this, and tell them that EVERYONE can do this, EVERYONE has the same ability, it just needs to be remembered… that I feel the person’s retraction, that the smile they give me is empty (“Yeah, sure…”).

So, it’s been only very, very recently that I’ve started becoming more comfortable openly discussing and utilizing my uncovered “abilities”… though there has still been some reticence unless it’s in discussion with those I know are already comfortable with the topic. However, in regards to some of the “bigger ticket” items – the humanity stuff, how I’ve “seen” the world in 1 year, 2 years, 5 years… I’m still very hesitant to share some of the details.

I was introduced to the messages of Kiesha Crowther (aka “Little Grandmother) in early 2010; hers was one set of many different visionaries and metaphysical presentations to which I had become exposed. Though I absolutely agreed with much of what she said, I never felt much of a “pull” to meet her in person or anything… until I kept on getting guidance in meditation (and then my friend got the same message to give to me) that I was to meet her. Without more of the story, all ended up pointing  right now to this workshop/retreat last week that ultimately decided my road trip to New Mexico.

Besides it feeling right, I had no idea why I was going. I was assured in meditation that it was important for me to go to this; I had to trust and accept it. I was also guided into deciding to drive the trip… because I was assured that it was all as much in the journey as the destination.

I figured, “OK, then. I guess I’m going.”

Though all of this processing happened three weeks before the event, and seemed impossible to pull off, it was amazing how easily and relatively perfectly everything fell into place, how the pavement in the road just became laid out before me. I was assured that if I just jumped off the cliff and TRUSTED, I would fly.

And so I did.

There were just so many things that worked out perfectly: when the 2-day retreat fit in, how long it would take me to go and get back… and how that fit in to the only week that I could possibly have done this in the entire month, how the weather was PERFECT the entire trip (sandwiched into difficult weather patterns and issues around the country right up until the week right before I left), how all the plans that I almost made blindly worked out perfectly in synchronicity. Too much to explain here, but you get the idea…

I had NO idea what to expect when I got to that 2-day retreat in Santa Fe… but I was definitely in for the ride!

So. To the point: It was fabulous. Beyond belief. First of all, for all of my neutrality about her beforehand, I will say this: Kiesha Crowther is the most heart-centered person I have met. She is completely, 100% dedicated and authentic to what she’s doing… and she FEELS it completely. As soon as I was in the same room as her, my heart chakra just naturally spread wide open, beyond measure!

Also, what was absolutely amazing: She covered topics that connected the dots to much of the “further out” information I have received and didn’t quite understand previously. The funny thing: I didn’t even realize that was happening until the end of the 2 days; then it was like a barely audible “click, click, click, click…” going on, and I was amazed… because this was information I had barely shared with more than one or two people. Yet it seemed to come out of her mouth so naturally, and confidently. And suddenly, so much I had seen and had previously been puzzling over made sense…. just from her filling in some of the gaps.

In discussing all of this, she felt it important to impress upon us that it’s time to be brave; to overcome your fears about what other people think about you. Let that go; be your authentic self, proudly, 100%… because it is time to spread the news of good tidings and love in contrast to so much of the doom and gloom that’s out there. If your calling is to help others on their spiritual path, then embrace it boldly, fulfill your heart’s purpose… and don’t worry about others; because (as her tribal grandfather would tell her), “It’s none of your business what other people think about you.”

In attendance was somewhere between 80-100 people – it was definitely a full room! What was absolutely amazing, and the ultimate purpose of this post: In talking to those around me, during breaks and during lunch, I found that my co-attendees had traveled from Canada, Europe, Hawaii, Japan and the four corners of the country to attend! Many had the same “pull” as I had – and had allowed the journey to flow, as I had, as well. I met one man who had left his job in Quebec and had been traveling around the country, visiting and exploring, for about a month, figuring out where he was going to settle. I met another woman who packed a tent – like me – and had camped her way from southern California. Yet another had just gotten to the United States from Sweden – by herself – and after the retreat, was going on to spend 2 weeks exploring… and playing it all by ear.

I felt like almost everyone I met was in one form or another a reflection of me.

Another woman I met had been in the same career as me – corporate marketing – for 20 years, and had just quit “that world,” because she’d felt this one pulling at her. Right now, she was looking to move, to start a new life, and move over into the spiritual realm because it had been a growing part of her life. It was funny I had just randomly decided to sit down next to her, in a small circle of people, during lunch one day! Yet another was still coming to grips with her “Awakening,” because she had been a Math teacher, and a very black-and-white person… until she started “knowing things” that just came to her, along with a huge slew of abilities at once. She still had a challenging time talking about it without tears coming to her eyes… she’d tried to ignore it until a car accident put her out of commission for a short period of time, during which she started seeing a psychotherapist… who, after several months of therapy, told her that she was simply going through a spiritual Awakening.

Another woman, from Long Island, NY, was going through a transition period and deciding her direction. Several men I met were still trying to figure all of this out in their lives, too.

Many, many had been getting guidance to move to another location, including specific areas on where to move… coincidentally (though there are no coincidences), Kiesha had mentioned several times during the 2 days that if you learn to put the ego aside and truly listen to your I AM self, that it will always steer you in the highest and best direction… because it’s there for YOU. So, the point she made specifically: All of your answers are within YOU. If you’re guided to move elsewhere, then do it. If you’re guided to change your vocation, do it. Even if it might seem surreal and out there, if you’re sure it’s from your higher self, then TRUST in yourself. You will understand the rest as it plays out. Now is the time… follow your guidance!

See the pattern?

When we talked to each other, we just started blurting out things that many of us had largely kept to ourselves… because we were getting the same messages, seeing the same things. I found by the second day that I was speaking comfortably and openly about topics that I hadn’t been able to even approach with most closest to me.

It reminded me of the movie Close Encounters of the Third Kind… with so many people getting the same message, heading in the same direction (though no one I met – to my knowledge – had been sculpting landmarks in their mashed potatoes or sculpting mountains out of mud in their living room… but then, I never did ask! LOL).

I felt more comforted and supported – and felt the most camaraderie – with this group of people I met in 2 days, halfway across the country, than I have with many of those I’ve known and who have been in my life since what I call my “Grand Awakening,” in 2009.

I finally found my footing.

Upon the closure of the retreat, many of us chatted and hugged… and surprisingly few of us shared contact information. You might think it’s strange, with us all having so much in common, but it didn’t feel that way in the least… because it truly felt like we would find each other again, at the right time… and we knew we filled the purpose we were supposed to with each other, for the moment.

Times are changing… more and more quickly. This world is morphing into something even more phenomenal than it is… and now I’m FINALLY in full acceptance of me and how I can help.

If you’re reading this, and have felt uncomfortable with remembrance of your natural abilities, of your Divinity, and your calling during this awesome time in the history of our world, then here’s my message to you: You’re not alone; far from it! In fact, you’re in great company…there are many of us, in rapidly increasing numbers, stepping out, remembering who we are, accepting a “new” reality, a “new” way of doing things, around the world. I promise! I’ve seen it; I now see it happening, all around us.

So, let’s go! Geronimo! 🙂

Reflections at the Fishing Pond (aka, Returning Home from my Cross-Country Road Trip)

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My campsite by the pond in Crossville, TN...

Here I am, in Crossville, Tennessee, listening to the bullfrogs talk to each other, the tree frogs chirp, and various insects and even birds in song as the moon comes out  over the fishing pond in one of the most beautiful campgrounds I have ever visited.

It’s the last night of the phenomenal solo road trip that I took from North Carolina to New Mexico and back.

Now, I have a LOT of blogging topics that will be covered from this trip, but tonight… well, one thing stands out as I reflect on the past week.

Many people I know and have met were surprised that I would venture to drive 2/3 of the way across the country by myself, camp by myself… and enjoy it all the way.

Every time, my question back to them was, “Why?”

Besides the typical, “Aren’t you scared to camp by yourself?” (No) “What if something happens to the car?” (I have a cell phone and AAA, and I’m not afraid to use them) and those other menial questions, there were the ones that perturbed me a bit, like, “What are you going to do with all of that time?” and “Don’t you think you’ll get bored?”

Every time, though I didn’t reply this way, what I WANTED to say was, “Are you KIDDING me? Me, all to myself, for a WEEK?! Hallelujah!”

Today, we are so overwhelmed with electronics, with being connected 24/7/365 – having to check email every 5 minutes, having to have the cell phone on all the time – that part of the challenge is that it’s like we don’t know how to be alone with ourselves anymore.

The campgrounds just after sunrise the morning after I wrote this… gorgeous!

I have embraced this trip like the highly treasured gift it is… because instead of going straight from A to B in the shortest and quickest way possible (which is what I usually do), and inserting work somewhere along the way, instead I’ve truly stopped to smell the roses, figuratively and literally (though the literal part would more likely be that I stopped to smell the honeysuckle… fully in bloom in many places this time of year). I can’t tell you how many times in the past week I simply pulled over to the side of the road to get out of the car to soak in every bit of a view or a place… whenever and wherever I felt the need!

Besides the 2-day retreat I attended in Santa Fe, New Mexico, I also visited friends and relatives along the way, and I got to see, experience, and celebrate parts of the country I have previously only flown over or through without taking the time to celebrate the nuances of each area.

I checked in once a day with my husband and family at home, but the rest of the time… well, I was exploring me, without distraction. I only checked Facebook last thing before bed and first thing in the morning, and I didn’t even look at email at all. Instead, I really looked around me, connecting with and marveling at the absolutely magnificent beauty our planet provides for us every day (which we very often ignore) …and most importantly, I looked inward, at myself.

It was the most enjoyable week I’ve had in I don’t know how long… and the most enlightening. I can’t even begin to tell you how many synchronicities I’ve realized, and how many dots have connected that I didn’t even know were supposed to connect… and the funny part is, I know they’re not done connecting yet! The after effects of this trip will continue on well after I return home tomorrow, of that I’m sure.

And for those of you who will read this and say, “I just don’t have the time to do something like that…” “I don’t have the money…” or a hundred other similar reasons NOT to do something along these lines for you… guess what? Neither did I… but I CREATED it (and actually was Guided to). It was the best thing I ever did.

Part of the purpose of this blog is to help people unfold what’s within them, to rediscover themselves and realize how fully powerful and divine each and every one of us is. However, if we can’t just turn off the computer and put the cell phone on vibrate or turn it off completely… and if we can’t take a few days on our own, while also trusting ourselves to be capable enough to take care of ourselves, no matter where we are… then how can we know, love, and explore ourselves and what’s inside of us?

The 2-day retreat I attended in New Mexico was with a woman called “Little Grandmother”; her name is Kiesha Crowther, and as much as I’ve “seen” in terms of visions, I was amazed at how much of what she said was exactly what I needed to fill in some gaps and tie some of those pieces together. However, one of the many areas in which she and I already seem to be very synchronized is the importance of all of us remembering how to live from the heart and from love instead of from fear and anger. And where that all starts: By fully accepting and loving ourselves…as we are, as we are happy within ourselves, and not by dependence on others, including the opinion of others. Kiesha had a great quote she used on this topic that she attributed to her “tribal grandfather”: “It’s none of your business what other people think of you!” I LOVED that, because how true it is! Let people think what they think; all that matters is that YOU are defining yourself, without judgment and with full acceptance and love.

I can’t even remember the last time I had a FULL WEEK to myself… to plan as I wished, to go with the flow, to explore new places and people. In the process, I had a wonderful time… and as much self-work as I have done, I actually learned a LOT about myself, as I am today, right now. And I have come to terms with some parts of me that I didn’t even know I still needed to come to terms with.

In return for my exuberance about the entire trip, like attracts like: I have met only the friendliest and most helpful people throughout the duration, regardless of where I have been (more on THAT later…). Also, in one week, I have driven through, seen, and stopped at amazing and absolutely breathtaking places in our country, including Hot Springs Mountain in Arkansas, the cattle ranch plains of Texas, the various types of mountains from Western North Carolina and Tennessee to those in New Mexico abd Colorado (including the AWESOME Great Sand Dunes in southern Colorado), the grassy plains of Kansas, and a mixture of everything in between. I have felt the distinctly different energy in different towns and different areas… and I have enjoyed every single moment as a moment in itself.

So, tonight, as I sit in the quickly encompassing darkness while gleefully listening to the symphony of nature going on right outside of my tent, at the pond, I realize I’m simultaneously a little sad and happy to be returning home tomorrow… but of everything, I realize that this week’s experience has been the perfect exercise in living moment to moment, completely in the now, and taking time out to enjoy every bit of it… and every bit of me. In preparation of returning to the “every day” life, I am bound and determined to remember to enjoy and savor every moment as I have done in this past week, because it’s those joys that allow us to fully blossom into all of who we really are… which is what the Road to Awakening is all about.

 

 

 

 

When the Walls Come Tumbling Down…

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I’m a movie nut… and a bookworm. Generally, all kinds, depending on my mood. I’ve seen movie after movie, read book after book… so, when I say that one or the other has truly moved me and left an impression on my life… believe me, it’s an impressive thing.

The term “pay it forward” became popular from a movie of the same name that was released in 2000, with Kevin Spacey, Helen Hunt, and Haley Joel Osment (think, “I see dead people…” from another great one). It’s about a boy’s social studies project that quickly starts to change the lives of the others around him… and beyond.

The assignment: Think of something to change the world and put it into action. The boy presents the idea of paying a favor not back, but forward – repaying good deeds not with payback, but with new good deeds done to three new people.

I remember in the movie, that the boy explains that time to actually do something for someone else – to do this “favor” – is when you feel it the most… when it’s most difficult within the giver to do it.

The changes that start to fall into play – with people who have never even met him – are astounding.

This is such an awesome idea… so simple, yet so profound. However, it often seems that some of the simplest, most profound changes we can make to our world – and some that will simply tumble the facades we have built ourselves – are the ones we find the hardest to carry out. Why? I don’t know; probably because we’ve spent thousands of years in many different cultures building them up.

If you follow the belief (which I do) that we’re evolving back towards remembering our interrelation as One, I’m reminded repeatedly how simple – yet profound – this evolution is.

“Tearing Down Walls,” by Gwen MeHarg, accessed at the heART gallery: http://www.drawneartogod.com

Here’s the simplest in description: Eliminate the walls.

Easy, right?

Several weeks back, my 9th grade daughter and I were talking in the car while I was driving her to school one morning. I have a great interest in the reiteration of some of the conversations she’s had with her friends; it surprises me how the teens and kids are evolving right under everyone’s noses, yet many don’t seem to notice!

Anyway, it seems she and her friends have had quite a few open discussions about different belief systems, and different religions. (This alone is amazing – when I was in 9th grade, most of our conversations centered around what was going on in the entertainment world, our visions for the future… what was in style, whether we were going to the mall over the weekend, stuff like that!). So, I wasn’t overly surprised when she said, “So, what are we, anyway? Are we Christian? Something else? What do I say when someone asks me?”

I was a little bit at a loss; since I don’t think of myself as any designation – and my husband and I have been insistent on teaching our children about all types of beliefs, all types of religions – we’ve purposely not limited ourselves to “being” something.

I didn’t know how to explain that in twenty words or less – which is pretty much the limit for a 9th grader.

However, as things tend to go, this topic has come up again and again over the past several weeks. And it came to me when I was enjoying the quick read The Third Coming, by Jim Rosemergy. There was a portion talking about Gandhi; once, when a reporter was interviewing him in his home, it was noted that even though he is purported Hindu, there was a picture of Christ on his wall. When asked about that, Gandhi responded, “I am a Christian, and a Hindu, and a Moslem, and a Jew.”

It also  reminds me of a message I received in meditation once, not too long ago: Watch the children and how they play.

Finally, in answer to my daughter, I came back to her and said, “You remember that discussion we had the other day? On how we’re not anything particular? I was thinking about it, and I think it’s best to just say we’re Universal.” She thought about it and nodded her head. “I like that, Mom…thanks.” and that was that.

It’s great seeing the rash of bumper stickers (I have one myself), t-shirts, and other paraphernalia with the term “Coexist” on it, made up of the symbols of many of the world’s major religions.

Is it really practiced, though?

How often do you think or say something along the lines of “Those people…” “They should…” “They can’t…” ? How many times have you said, “I don’t know… I’m not ______”?

It’s easy to lend a friend, a neighbor, a relative a hand… but what about a stranger? How many times do we come up with excuses on why we shouldn’t help someone we don’t know?

We put up walls, and more walls…

How many times someone is “afraid” to go to a different church than their own, because they’re afraid they’ll “get punished”? Why would that be… because the semantics are different from one denomination of church to the next, or even from one religion to the next?

If you stop listening to the politics of all of the walls that create differences between religions and spiritual practices – and instead, traverse the wall and listen from the heart about what they all mean, and then compare notes – guess what you’ll find for the vast majority? Semantics, cultural (yes, cultural) rituals somewhat different… but the meaning, pretty much all the same.

This is the same with _________ – you name it: gender, race, culture, religion, politics. Under the microscope, our genetic makeup is pretty identical, in terms of science. It’s like I always say – everyone has a different flavor of ice cream that is their favorite, yet most ice cream is really 99% identical in make up… with just the minor differences making up the different flavors and colors.

Yet, it’s still ice cream. One flavor isn’t “evil” (though I’ve tasted some quadruple chocolate flavors that would be close LOL), one isn’t innately “better” than the other, and one person isn’t better or worse than the next because of a particular flavor they enjoy the most – it’s simply a matter of personal preference, based on individual taste.

That’s the point of the “Coexist” campaign. We are all the same family, we are all a part of this organism we call Earth; all that separates us are the politics and cultural practices in our day-to-day lives. Underneath, we all have hearts, minds, and souls. These differences are what make us “different flavors,” and individual. Yet, we can’t lose sight that we are one and the same.

Another way I used to explain this to my children is via anatomy: Our bodies are made up of approximately 10 trillion cells at any given point in time. Every cell has its own function, there are some basic differences between different types of cells, BUT each cell has the full body’s blueprint embedded within it. Every single one. And every single one knows what job it’s chosen, what its function is. Though each cell might not have conscious knowledge of that, or of the comparatively huge Being of which it’s a part, if that type of cell is needed in a different part of the body, that’s where the cell goes. If a person cuts his/her left foot, and some harmful bacteria enter the wound, the cells at the wound site send out signals for phagocytes (white blood cells that specifically ingest and neutralize potentially harmful invaders). Say there are some of those cells up in the right shoulder… do they say, “Well, it’s just so FAR to that foot… and the kids have a soccer game tonight…”  or “Well, it’s the FOOT that needs our type of job; we’re SHOULDER type of cells…” ???  No; they go and do their job; whatever it is that is beneficial to the entire organism.

To “get to the next level” – or even get back to whence we came, to restore the Earth and humanity – it’s time to remember that we ARE all a part of the same organism – whether we are in North America, Australia, or Asia; whether we are Christian, Muslim, Hindu, Wiccan, or tribal; whether we are male, female, or in between; whether we are proverbially the shoulder, the elbow, or the nose. It is only then – once we’ve taken down all of these walls, labels, and separations that we’ve put up OURSELVES – that we will be able to truly function to our optimal potential as the whole of what we’re a part.

So, to circle back around, the reason I started this post with the mention of the movie Pay It Forward is because it is a perfect example of my point here: The idea has no boundaries, no limitations. It includes everyone… and it forces us outside of our comfort zone, makes us take down our walls, and to see each other – everyone – as equally important as the other, equally worthy, without prejudice and without  limitation.

And when we can do that… we’ll be able to accomplish anything, across the world!

Feeling Boxed In… and Remembering the Racehorse!

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When I was a child, growing up on Long Island, my mother worked in the horse racing industry, and her significant other’s family was really in the industry… they bred and trained race horses.

I’ve always loved horses… and though I’m not a gambler in the least bit, I’ve always LOVED watching a horse race. What excitement!!!

However, I will say that they’re not topmost in my attention these days… until just recently.

Several weeks back, we watched the movie “Secretariat,” which brought back my memory of why I loved those races! But I watched the movie, enjoyed it, then put it away in the movie memory storage of my mind.

(I know, you’re wondering, “How the heck does this relate to the spiritual world?” Patience, patience… I’m getting there…)

A few days after I watched that movie, my friend Linda sent me an email with a bunch of releasing that came to her for me relating to a racehorse (this is a daily occurrence back and forth for both of us – sending releasing and clearing information back and forth, that is). How odd, I thought… it’s not something I talk about in conversation – I don’t use horses in metaphors much – so I found it particularly funny that she had termed the clearing “racehorses”… especially since she had no idea that I’d just watched “Secretariat.”

I did the clearing, but I remember I felt a little perplexed as to the relevance of what was on my mind that day.

Fast forward to this week: I had HUGE upheaval in the way I saw things. It’s hard to explain, so I won’t try to here, because it really did have to do with an “argument” I had with my Guides and C (my affectionate nickname for Creator/Spirit/Source/God).  Or, I should say, sort of a spiritual crisis… where I got very, very angry with them, and “turned off the faucet” most of the way for the day (now, THAT is a funny story for a blog in itself… but for another day).

Though I kept on clearing and releasing, I didn’t understand why I couldn’t get past a little bit of a funk… and it usually hit me in the morning.

So, this morning was exactly the same; I pondered on that, and through some further internal digging, I realized that all of it – even the little personal crisis I had this week – stems from the paradigm of being “shown” what is to be here on Earth on a large scale… and allowing it to unfold on its own. I’m excited for the awesome parts to begin; and I’m getting rather tired of waiting for it.

Don’t get me wrong; I haven’t continued on just WAITING; in fact, I have tried to move things forward in many parts of my life. However, it seems that the more I’ve been trying to move things forward, the more I feel like I’m banging up against a rubber wall. My whole household and my whole life feels like it’s at a standstill that I’m pushing to get out of: I’m trying to pull my husband by the hand through this exciting glimpse via the spiritual world (he nibbles, but as he terms it, I devour); I’m trying to counsel him through his dead standstill in his career at work; I’m trying to birth him out of his womblike “keep everything as it is” mode… and quite frankly, for a number of reasons, I’ve had the problems getting my non-spiritual work (I do have THAT business) done, so I’ve been stuck there, too, bouncing off the rubber wall I’m trying to circumvent and/or get past. And it seems that many people I know feel the same way, and have turned to me to help counsel them forward… which I do, and my counsel is rarely acted upon.

That in itself is all fine… but this big picture feeling – that I’m bouncing off a rubber wall, and can’t get out – makes me edgier and edgier…not just irritable; it makes me CRAZY.

And while I’ve been at this standstill, I’ve been getting in more and more information from our etheric brethren and C… more and more of the big picture. And yet, here I sit, in the rubber box.

I realized I’m getting tired because I don’t LIKE holding modes; I like moving forward. I DON’T want to be able to think that I will be doing the same thing, day in, day out, for every day, every week, every year. I love the excitement of the game, I love rollercoasters… that’s why I understand I’ve liked it here, through this existence on 3D Earth.

I was writing an email to my above-mentioned friend Linda… and before I knew it, I realized I was using the racehorse analogy! Funny, I thought… I haven’t even thought about horses much until suddenly over these past several weeks. Here’s what I wrote, barely even realizing what I was writing at the moment:

I’m like the racehorse at the starting gate. I can see the track; I’m pumped up to run, but I’m in the @#$#@ gate, just waiting for the bell to ring. And I’m getting really, really antsy, because I JUST WANT THAT @#$@ BELL TO RING AND THE GATES TO OPEN, ALREADY!!!

I stopped, my fingers paused over the keys, while I read that back to myself… and suddenly, everything started to gel together, to form a picture.

Then came that nudge… and so I just tuned in, and asked what it was I was trying to see. In C’s perfect, loving way, I saw the whole thing in a flash; here’s the translation, in the way I heard it:

This is the last stretch of wait for you; you’re in the gate, and the bell IS going to ring – at any moment, or you wouldn’t be in the gate. The race is taking you to the next existence – the trophy (for all to receive) – but it is so comparatively minute to the rest of the Earth existence that it will feel like the wind as it flies by.

The racehorse spends its whole life preparing for the race. It is fed the right foods; it is groomed a particular way; it practices and practices, exercising and running – on different kinds of tracks, in different types of weather, with different riders. The rider does the same – eats a certain way, exercises, rides different horses, learns the horse and how to merge with it. It’s all practice, so when that gate opens, the horse and the rider, as one, know EXACTLY what they need to do together to run the race. The race is merely seconds or minutes… but preparation for those seconds or minutes have taken the entire life of both… and when sitting in that gate, the horse is just raring to go, to let its body be the master of the wind as it has learned – practiced – to be, and its rider is strategizing the course, feeling the turns, considering the weather conditions, the track conditions, and many, many other considerations. This isn’t second nature – it IS their nature.

You have spent lifetimes upon lifetimes upon lifetimes – and versions of that through different planes, as well – through this existence. You have gathered such experience just for the last part of it all – the climax of the story, and opening the doorway to the next existence. You have been at the gate, remembering (after you made yourself forget) all you have done to prepare for these mere moments, the moments of the race. Yes, you love this part; you know it is worth it through every existence in which you partake, regardless of how many lifetimes, iterations, or whatever is the deciding measurement of the existence. You love the race; you are in the gate and want to utilize it all – all the preparation – for the thrill of those moments on the track, on the final stretch.

This is why you are antsy, irritable at what you perceive is your limitation – the gate – and you literally feel boxed in. You need to remember that it is because you are in that box that you are the most on edge… you know the exhilarating freedom – the run – all that you have been working for, is about to begin. You feel the anticipation in the air; the moments before the bell and before the gates open.

Instead of letting this take hold of you, you must take hold of it. You are in the final moments of remembering what you’ve done, and why you’ve done it. Instead of skipping through the gate, utilize it to the best and highest way. Make the gate – the holding period – an experience in itself. You can do that without laying down and going to sleep – without losing your focus and your drive – but while the anticipation grows and grows – just a bit more in these final moments – feel all of you. Feel your connection to it all; feel all – from your perception – that you have behind you and all that you have before you, above you and below you, inside and outside of you, as you perceive the apex of the moment it all melds together, to the moment when the gate opens through the moment when you cross the finish line – actually yet another starting line – to the next existence. And that will make the experience even that much more fuller, much more fulfilling.

What a beautiful – and perfect – picture! And it just feels right… enough so I can get my butt out of bed, go work out, and get on with my day!

Enjoy every moment, and appreciate the magnificence of it all today, every day. The bell is going to ring soon, and then the REAL fun is going to begin… and this next, awesome part is ready because of all of the preparation we have all done!  🙂

Take Two: SHOOTING through the door to an expanded reality on Pilot Mountain!

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Lots of faces... since we didn't get much in pics (it obviously wasn't what we needed that day), these are pics from my 1st trip.

My second trip to Pilot Mountain was scheduled (read about the first trip in my previous post) right on the heels of finishing a 3-day class in Advanced Theta Healing. Needless to say, I was wide open to the Universe, that’s for sure! Throughout the weekend, had repeatedly questioned whether or not I’d really feel like going on the jaunt with my friend Phran after I was finished. I wanted to go, but fully knew how tired I typically am at the end of 3 solid days of energy and clearing work!

Midway through Saturday, in Theta mode, I asked if I should really go on this trip; without hesitation, and clear as day, I heard back YES! When I asked why, the response was, “Because NOW is the time for you to go.” (Nothing like having Creator say, “Because I said so!”)

So, I guess that set up my expectations!

On the Road Again!
The Voice…
The Earth…
The Water…
The Air (and I guess a little bit of Fire, too!)…
Post Scripts (Follow-up Notes and Explanations)

On the Road Again!
We drove up on Sunday evening; on Monday, we got up and were ready to go early in the morning. In getting ready, I realized something odd – the night before, when I’d gone to bed, my phone had been just about fully charged, so I hadn’t bothered to pull out my charger plug. However, in the morning, it was pretty much completely dead; pretty odd, since I’d turned the phone off altogether! I figured I could at least get a few hours of charging in before we left, but when I went into my bag, I couldn’t find the charger. I searched and searched – even went out to the car – because I remembered wrapping the charger cord up and packing it the night before, but it wasn’t there. Bummer, I thought – I was going to take pictures with it! After I’d been searching for 5 minutes or so, in my head I heard, “No pictures or phones today.” So I thought, “Well, OK, then.” I told Phran, and she had her digital camera with her, but she decided to bring it, anyway.

It was a brisk morning – when we left for breakfast, it was still in the 30s. However, by the time we got to the parking point on the mountain, it was about 40 – not too bad! Plus, the temperature was expected to go up to the 60s during the day, and we knew that once we started moving, we’d warm up.

Part of a BIG face… (again, from my previous trip)

So we went up to Little Pinnacle first, and then completed the trek to the Big Pinnacle – and that’s where the fun began!

The Voice…
When we found first rock face area we decided to climb, I had to laugh – when I’d been there several weeks before with the family, I really hadn’t seen clear climbing patterns to get to some of the shelf areas. Yet, as I walked up this time, it was like there were clear and obvious footholds and steps to the ledge for us! So, we climbed up, and then I could suddenly feel a vibration. I had the urge to put my hand on the rock, and when I did, the vibration surged through my body, and then all I wanted to do was put my cheek on the rock and, for lack of a better explanation, give the mountain a hug! So I did rest my cheek on the rock, and closed my eyes, and the most peculiar thing happened: I felt like I was actually getting a hug from the mountain! Since it was so chilly, I’d fully expected the rock to just feel hard and cold to my cheek and touch; however, I felt nothing but the inner warmth of being loved. How strange, I thought! Something so hard and stark, yet so comforting and nurturing! I opened my eyes to see Phran actually doing the same thing… and from the look on her face, realized it wasn’t just me who could feel that. Suddenly, in my head, I heard, “This is just the beginning; do not doubt yourself, but step with faith.” I told Phran what I’d heard; at the same time, she was getting “Just BE.” (Note: We were thinking these comments were simply literal – because we’d been talking about getting down the rocks, then I got the “Step with faith” statement – but now I get it… much more to it than that! The same goes for the “Just BE” statement to Phran – such simple statements, yet so significant!)

It wasn’t too long afterward that we both felt like it was time to move on to our next destination around the Big Pinnacle… wherever that was going to be. Soon we came to another area that looked primed to climb… so we did, again finding “steps” in the rock to make our ascent pretty simple, even though on first glance, it would seem otherwise!>

This second stop was life-changing.

The Earth…
Phran told me she was getting we were supposed to stand at this particular shelf that we hadn’t even been able to see from the trail; it showed up to us  as we were climbing to another point we’d originally been attracted to. So, we climbed over, and she pointed for me to sit at one particular spot (so she was guided). She was quiet for a moment (listening), then said, “The student surpasses the teacher; the student is the one to receive…”

Side note…in case you missed it in the previous post, Phran is the fabulous soul who has helped me out since Day One of what I call my “Grand Awakening,” in 2009; not only has she been a great source of information and support – and has become a good friend – but as a Reiki Master, she’s the one who introduced me to focused energy work through teaching me Reiki, I and II so far. I remember her saying that and thinking, “I doubt surpassing is the right word… she’s been doing this for YEARS!” See her Website about some of the awesome work she does!

I just looked at her blankly for a moment, and she said, “I’m just supposed to be the antennae here; you’re supposed to get the message.” She held out her hand. “Chakra to chakra to connect…” I took her hand and closed my eyes.

Immediately, the MOST AMAZING feeling came over me. Without really having the words to describe it, it was the BIGGEST feeling I’ve ever felt! If you’ve seen the movie Hook, with Robin Williams (with Julia Roberts as Tinkerbell, plus an all-star cast), there’s a moment when Tinkerbell blows up to be a full-sized person; she just looks incredulous for a few moments, then says, “…this is the BIGGEST thought I’ve ever had…”  It was a lot like that… and that thought actually popped into my head for a moment, before I really sank in to the experience.

What I “saw” when I was being shown Awakening energy points around us (I doctored a pic so you could see it!)

It was like my whole being was plugged in… not just to the mountain, but also the entire valley around it! I didn’t just hear or see a message; I became A PART of it!!! I could feel and hear the consciousness, but I could also FEEL the rock as a part of me; I could feel the trees growing from me, but I also felt like my heart was beating AS Mother Earth, all at the same time. To say it was HUGE doesn’t even begin to cover it!!

At the same time, before one word started coming to me, I could see this column of violet light beaming down on Phran and me while we were standing there.

The consciousness from the mountain started showing me the movements of the earth, the ground moving, the faces in the mountain, the consciousness Awakening inside of the Earth, and then also the plants and trees, the dirt, the animals, and the other beings (devas, I fleetingly thought). I didn’t just see or feel them separately – I BECAME all of them at the same time, as if each part were my heart, my leg, my arm, my finger! I could simultaneously feel me on that ledge, but then I could also feel vague thoughts and feelings as all of those parts… one big, complex and wondrous network!

All of this came to me before one word popped into my head… but it wasn’t long until I heard a majestic but soothing voice, as well! As I’ve explained it since, it was the MOST balanced feeling of masculine and feminine that  I’ve ever experienced, and it was just beautiful (though that word really doesn’t reach the magnitude of how I felt).

“We are all waking up again…not just parts of us, but all of the Earth…

…here I could suddenly see energy points/ley points shooting up to/from the sky, and then I WAS up in the sky, looking down on the entire Southeast, at one of what I knew was many circles of those energy points…

“… those who survive and succeed will again remember how to use the Magic of the Earth; because together, as One, we are _________.”

…there was a concept I could understand, but there was no word I could summon for it – it was the idea of being “more powerful as an integrated entity than we are separate” – powerful isn’t quite the right word, though… somewhere to the next level? It actually added a piece to the puzzle that I hadn’t previously understood… and for the first time, I could FEEL Oneness…

“Like the birds, who fly by the natural mastery and integration of their wings working with and through the air currents…it is time to fly.”

…I was shown an eagle and a hawk flying together…

“Take this to others; all who remember must teach others about this. The time has come.”

I was so struck by the HUGENESS I was feeling that I was simultaneously processing everything all at once, and I just couldn’t speak much after that. However, at the end of the part about the birds, I suddenly could see two more beams of golden light beam down diagonally onto us, in conjunction with the violet beam that I continued to sense coming from directly above. I told Phran that we were supposed to stand there until the beam was broken, and so we did; but I knew exactly when we were done getting zapped with whatever it was, as did Phran, because we both opened our eyes and broke the connection at the same time.

I told Phran, “We’re done here. I heard, ‘On to your next point.'” She nodded brightly and said, “Yep. Heard that, too!” We just looked at each other for a moment, and I shared some of the visuals I hadn’t shared while they were coming in… I’d had to have them assimilate first! She was marveling at the energy she said she’d felt coursing through her, and how she now understood what she had heard during our first stop: “Just BE.” She was a conduit; she helped “jump start” the receiver and amplify the energy (which, by the way, is phenomenal and powerful in energy healing – and explains about how strong her abilities are in healing altogether)… and was very happy to get that message. I laughed, because I thought about how much of a conduit she’d been in getting me actively started in this world to begin with. How appropriate! “Rabbit ears!” I said to her… thinking of the old TV sets we’d had as a kid.

We realized it was time to move on; it was like we could feel the mountain waiting.

An example of this part of the Big Pinnacle… see how smooth the lines get, and the horizontal ridges. It’s amazing to think about how long ago this mountain would have been up against the ocean!!

The Water…
As we continued our way around Big Pinnacle, we suddenly came to a different feel to the rock altogether. Wavy, much smoother, and watery… we both put our hands on this rock, and could feel… the ocean. I could immediately feel the immensity of it, and it was like I was looking up from beneath the depths out into the sunlight sky, because I could see a large, whale-like creature swimming over me.<

I didn’t even realize I’d closed my eyes, until I heard Phran laugh with glee, and opened them up again. “We were dolphin-like creatures here, very intelligent, and chose to live in the water! How COOL!” I laughed, and then told her what I’d seen.

We got the message that this was another “spot,” so we did the same thing as before; both of us semi-sat on the rock next to each other, and she held out her hand to “connect.” I closed my eyes, and immediately, again I had this great, IMMENSE feeling – but this time, it was of the ocean. I couldn’t just feel the power of it; the power of the water was INSIDE of me.

“Child of Mu…you need to look for your information in the right place…”

…That initial comment jolted me, as I’ve had quite the experience this year recalling an IMPORTANT past life in Lemuria – aka “Mu” – yet something else in which Phran had assisted via hypnotherapy for a past life regression, when I’d tried for several months to get beyond the cocoon I’d wrapped around the memory of that lifetime… more on that one of these days! Anyway, I’ve yet to understand that comment on getting my information… I’m sure I will; it just hasn’t come to me yet.

In the meantime, I was suddenly shown a lot of mathematical and geometrical equations that I didn’t quite understand, drawn in the air, showing relation to geography; like I knew what they were, but their meaning was just beyond my grasp. I explained that to Phran before I continued…

“…the waters will rise again…”

…Below me, I could see water rising up from the valley, from out of the ground. Odd, I thought – especially since we were several hours from the nearest shoreline!

The water soon filled the entire valley, and stopped not too far below where we were standing. In my mind, I was looking down, into the turquoise water, and I saw a golden, circular orb deep down water that was glowing and emanating sparkly golden rays away from itself, out into the water surrounding it, and it had a pinkish “aura”, for lack of a better explanation… that confused me, as I had no idea what it could be. However, I somehow knew that I was supposed to be paying attention to it…

I spoke some of the words I heard, but also told Phran I didn’t understand some of what I was being told. I also told her about the golden circular “thing” that was glowing in the water. (See Post-Script at the bottom of this page to see subsequent information I’ve found in regards to the golden orb I saw here…)

Then, while we were still connected, the MOST BIZARRE thing happened!

The actual air around us at the time was dead still; I could even feel the sun hitting us, against the rock. Suddenly, I felt like I was part of a big, huge wave, welling up and coming in from my right… and just as suddenly as I could feel the wave start coming in, the WIND picked up dramatically to my right, and rustled through the leaves in the trees, in a WAVE, up the mountain towards us. In fact, it was so strong that as it approached from the right, it startled me out of “the zone” into opening my eyes (to make sure a wave wasn’t actually coming – it was that real!)… and it STOPPED DEAD, right in front of us. I broke out of it and asked Phran, “Did you feel that? Did you hear it?” And she said, “Yes… the leaves rustling in a wave up the mountain, and it stopped dead right in front of us!”

Wow. It was immense.

I knew there was something I needed to get from that, but again, I couldn’t quite grasp it yet. I just stored it away for later use, as I usually do – I’ve found that days, weeks, and even months later, I’ll learn something that will allow a bunch of unused pieces to the jigsaw to fit together perfectly. It’s a really, really good reason to journal!!! (See the Post-Script section for more information about “the wave” and what happened later…)

Shortly after that, it was again time to move on.

The Air (and I guess a little bit of Fire, too)…
This was our final resting stop up on Big Pinnacle. Again, we stopped and looked up the column of rocks, and where we’d originally thought we wouldn’t be able to go very far, again, the “steps” came easily, and we actually found a great place… about 50 feet from the very top! We found a thin ledge, and just sat down to soak it all in.

Something similar to what we saw, sitting on the ledge.

An interesting thing to note: Just before we stopped at that ledge, while we’d been climbing and stopped on the way at a nice overlook, I had been standing there talking to Phran, I noticed a ladybug on my hand. I hadn’t noticed one insect since we’d been there, and I realized that just as I was thinking how odd it was to suddenly see it. Then, as we were talking for a few more minutes, I suddenly saw two more. When we continued on minutes later and found that ledge, it wasn’t very long before I suddenly realized that more than a dozen ladybugs again appeared, where we were sitting. I decided to make a mental note of that, and check my Animal Speak book when I got home. (See the Post Script section below for the message that ladybugs have for us…)

When we sat down, I didn’t get the feeling there was any message to bring in there; just that we were supposed to sit there and… for lack of a better word, charge. I could feel the sun indirectly slanting in towards us on that spot, and I vaguely noted that it felt much, much warmer than it should’ve felt, knowing the temperature of the day. In my head, I could see the mountain encased in a bubble of sorts – a bubble of energy – and we were inside of that bubble. We had some water and fruit; then I sat back, up against the rock, leaned my head back, and closed my eyes. I think Phran did the same next to me, because we were just quiet for quite awhile. Several times, we heard people coming up the trail beneath us, and I would open my eyes and watch them; only once did anyone even notice we were up there, and that was only because their dog  had sensed us, stopped, and looked up, causing the owners to look up, too. When I closed my eyes, I truly felt encased inside the warm, embryonic, loving bubble of energy on the mountain; in fact, I could see the energy swirling past us, in front of us, in a counterclockwise direction. At one point, in my mind’s eye, I could see a huge bird – resembling a huge phoenix – flying in the “bubble” too, around the Pinnacle; I could feel the shadow, and then it would be gone… and then a few minutes later, I’d feel it again, for it to continue on, etc. I felt like we were in a completely different reality, just on the other side of a veil from our 3D Earth; I felt even more so when people would come by, stop and look up, but never see us.

At some point, I opened my eyes, and my head was tilted up towards the sky. When I did that, I suddenly realized that there were about a half dozen hawks right above us, circling lazily in the geothermal currents. They were so close that we could really see them just ride the current, circle up, down, and back around again.

These are the kinds of birds we saw in flight, right over our heads, just under their nests - the red hawk and the raven.

I brought that up to Phran, and we just sat there and watched; at some point, by watching their flight pattern, we realized that we were almost directly beneath their nesting place! I could feel the beautiful, graceful hawks noting our presence there, but they didn’t seemed alarmed by our presence at all; we were simply “inside” the bubble. (See the Post Script section below for the message that hawks have for us…)

A little further off (not too far), there were some other birds that were large and playing in the air currents in the same fashion as the hawks; we couldn’t quite figure out what they were. I originally thought they were some sort of vulture, but that didn’t feel right; they weren’t quite large enough. Later on, after I was home, I found out that ravens nest there at Pilot Mountain, too, and another light lit up – yep, that’s what they were! (See the Post Script section below for the message that ravens have for us…)

Remember earlier on, in this post, when I said I’d gotten the message back at the hotel that we weren’t supposed to have phones or cameras on this trip? Well, as I said, Phran had brought her digital camera. She’d gotten a few pictures in the beginning of the climb, but here’s the funniest part: While we were sitting up there, on that ledge, probably 50 feet under the hawks nest, with easily a half dozen hawks circling around continuously, Phran tried 4 or 5 times to take a picture – every single one of the pictures she took came out with a beautiful, blank sky!! We laughed about that – I said, “I TOLD you we weren’t supposed to take any pictures!” She replied, “Yep; and what did I hear when we got here? ‘Just BE.’ Well, I tried, anyway…”

It was at some point that a foreign odor suddenly filled my senses; a fresh, lovely smell, but one I’d never sensed before. There was no one around right then besides us, and I could already distinctly smell the pines around, and the crisp, clean air…but this was completely different. I asked Phran if she smelled it; she didn’t (which surprised me!). It came only from my right, in a space that was about wide enough to fit one other person before the cliff face butted up against an endpoint of the ledge. It really felt like there was a person sitting next to me, but not quite…

I shrugged it off, and welcomed the presence, whatever (or whomever) it was. We figured it could only be a positive presence, since it was warm and within the bubble, along with us! (Note: It was just this past week that I’ve come to understand who was sitting next to me; but that’s another important blog, for another day… more to come!)

Shortly after that, we both sensed that we no longer needed to stay. We both experienced the oddest feeling as we climbed down, and started on the trail away from the Big Pinnacle: At one point, we both knew exactly when we’d broken away from that bubble, even though the scenery hadn’t changed in the least – there was nothing distinctly different in the landscape (no more trees, bushes, or shade – in fact, we were directly in the sun), but it was as if we’d walked through a membrane, to the “outside.” Just as I noticed it, Phran stopped, turned to look at me, and said, “Do you feel that? Suddenly, I feel cold and lonely, like we’ve happened upon some forgotten, enchanted forest!”

I laughed and agreed.

There were other parts of the mountain, other parts of the area we were drawn to explore; however, I distinctly heard, “Not today!”

Meaning, of course, that we’d be back there again another time…I’m looking forward to it!  🙂

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Post Scripts (Follow Up Notes and Explanations)

  • The golden, glowing orb in the “water.” Previous to my first trip to Pilot Mountain, I had done a Google search trying to find any information about the mountain being a vortex of any kind. I found a site by a man  named Joseph Robert Jochmans researching and discussing his experience with Reawakening energy points throughout the world, as well as many other very, very interesting and timely topics in the world of energy and metaphysics. Though I had the site bookmarked, I know I had seen a page talking about his experience on Pilot Mountain; however, I somehow missed the page that contained his discussion about the Etheric Gemstone Temples (it’s worth the read, and fascinating!). I came across this other page with information that included Pilot Mountain on his site after the trip, when I went back to read about his experience again, compare notes…and see what else he’d found on his journeys. I was blown away by his report entitled, “A Journey Through the Thirty-Three Etheric Stone Temples,” which includes yet another whole section about Pilot Mountain… and wondered why it was I had totally missed this in the first place! Here’s an excerpt:

“The anchoring in of the TOPAZ Sanctuary will occur above Pilot Mountain in North Carolina, U. S. A, at the new Capricorn Planetary Node Point. It shall serve as an important KEY for unlocking both the Bimini and Uxmal (Temple of Iltar) Halls of Records, which according to Edgar Cayce are sister Halls to the one at Giza.

The INITIATION ESSENCE for the Capricorn Temple is: COMPASSION WITHOUT INVESTMENT IN OUTCOME, BLAME OR PITY.

In the Spiritual Realm, your All Self now takes you to the Sanctuary of TOPAZ, the gem of your new Third Eye energy center. The Temple itself is made up of six huge transparent topaz crystals, one turning inside the other. Each crystal has dozens of facets triangle-shaped and glowing in different topaz hues. A brilliant yellow gemstone slowly moves in the center surrounded by a rose stone, itself encased within a pink crystal that in turn floats within a light green topaz. These are all inside a blue topaz, and the final or outermost gem shimmers clear.

As these forms slowly turn inside each other the sunlight passing through them triggers a fantastic array of spectral colors. There are also flashes of static electricity flowing along the crystal edges which light up the symbol of Capricorn etched onto their outer surfaces.

Your All Self introduces you to the Temple Guardian, the Angel Capriel, who wears a stunning yellow topaz on Her forehead. She makes these comments…” (Go to the Website to see the whole text)

Further, just today, as I was just cutting and pasting this information into this blog, and re-reading it, I found yet another item in here that I didn’t notice before… the comment about unlocking Bimini. About a week ago, I received another “message” (from the entity that had been sitting next to me on that ledge that day) that had to do with similar information about Bimini… until then, I’d never even heard of it – I had no idea where on Earth it was, until I looked it up! Well, I guess THAT will be yet another post, on another day… [Back to the post…]

  • The huge wave and the “air wave.” During the week following this trip. I was having an email interchange with the awesome woman who has taught me Theta Healing – Linda Grimm (see her Website, she has classes coming up in January) – and Linda gave me exactly the right words for the light bulb to go off in my head. Here’s the quote from her email:

“Think about if you could teach someone else how to pull the energy of a sacred place at will. Somehow, that feels important. It’s like, if you needed the roots of a tree, could you pull that energy? If you needed the vision of the hawk, could you pull that energy? If you needed the ability to shift and change with the tides and wind like the sand, could you pull that energy? Connecting to these gifts that are available not only in certain places but in our stored mental images and records is powerful. It feels like some of your future students will be able to relate to that more than asking Creator to provide it… So, give that some thought and see if it resonates with you.  I just got… If you needed the fiery beauty of a maple tree in the fall, could you pull that?  If you needed the freshness of a daffodil after a long winter, could you pull that?  Oh so many!!!”

As I read her email, the BUZZ went off: “…If you needed the ability to shift and change with the tides and wind like the sand, could you pull that energy?…” The wave came back to me immediately, and the power of the wind that suddenly picked up was intense… and felt just like the power of the water that I’d felt inside of me at that exact moment. It was incredible and incredulous, but I realized that I had been shown exactly how to harness that energy, and I hadn’t even realized it!!!

Super cool, very overwhelming… and amazing. The next step: Remembering how to do just that, on command! 😉[Go back to the post]

  • Messages that the ladybug brings for us. In doing some shamanic work, I’ve found that the sudden unquestionable presence of any living being in my life typically has an appropriate message, with perfect timing! Therefore, upon my return home (more like the next day – I was WAY too tired to do anything that night!), I looked up the messages that we can get from the ladybug. Here’s what I found:

Resurrection!

The appearance of a Ladybug heralds a time of luck and protection in which our wishes begin to be fulfilled. Higher goals and new heights are possible; worries begin to dissipate; new happiness comes about. Their presence signals a time of shielding from our own aggravations and pests.

Some great resources for animal messages are several books by author Ted Andrews:

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  • Messages that the hawk brings for us. Likewise to the ladybug, I looked up the message from the hawk. I figured it wouldn’t would be too different from the eagle, which has been one of my life totem animals; though the message is close, I did find out that there is a slightly different message from the hawk:
Messenger, protector, and visionary of the air; this powerful bird can awaken the Visionary within you, and lead to your life purpose. It is the Messenger, and when it shows up, pay attention: There is always a message coming. Once Hawk shows up, it will stay with you permanently. This powerful bird can awaken your visionary power, open your higher chakras to hear the messages of the Universe and lead to you to your life purpose. Also look for the Raven to precede or accompany Hawk when it presents itself to you. (!!!!! How funny is that?!?!). The sky is Hawk’s realm, and through its flight it communicates with Heaven and the Great Creator Spirit, and conveys that knowledge to Earth: Hawk medicine unites Heaven and Earth.

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  • Messages that the raven brings for us. I’ve never been overly fond of the raven; I have to admit, it’s partially because they get a bad rap in contemporary literature. When my husband told me he’d decided his totem must be a raven, I was never really comfortable with it. I can’t tell you why, though several different reasons whisper through my head as I type this. Anyway, in deference to the raven, there are many very strong, positive points about its presence. In stride with the ladybugs and the hawks, I did look a little more deeply into its message, and here’s what I found:
Raven is the messenger of magic from the great void where all knowledge waits for us. He is also the symbol of changes in consciousness, of levels of awareness and of perception. He carries the mark of the shape-shifter, and carries healing energy from great distances… Raven medicine can give you the ability to get inside another’s head and heart, to feel true empathy, and to understand these people from the inside out, so to speak. Spiritual healers and counselors use Raven power, for they have a depth of understanding and empathy not shared by all. Because of this powerful medicine, they can often actually change another’s behavior and perception, to work real magic in bringing insight, peace, healing and understanding to others; to at least offer others a different and positive perspective of things, circumstances and people in life. This medicine must always be used in the Light for the highest good and best interests of others; and never for personal gain or dark reasons…like the Hawk, he is also the Messenger of the Great Spiritual Realm. With Raven, human, and animal spirits mingle and become as one to help you shapeshift your life or your very being. Raven has the knowledge of how to become other animals and how to spake and understand their language… This creative life force can and should be used to work the magic of spiritual law on this physical earth plane, to create the ethereal link between Body and Soul and God and the Oneness of the Universe. This is your path with Raven medicine; to always work your magic in the Light, to co-create with God, and to enlighten all those around you to the True Magic in life.



My added significance is the fact that one of my husband’s totems is the raven… so I knew I should meditate upon that some more. And I did. It wasn’t a week later when the answer came to me, from one of my Guides:



“Yes, the raven’s message is true for you; however, the added depth to that for you is that part of the agreement you and your husband made in the etheric realms had to do with your Awakening to pursue your highest path; it was partially being with him that helped to cause what you call your Grand Awakening so you can pursue this path.”

When it gets overwhelming, a little bird will tell you…

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The other day, a friend of mine asked me, “How is the world for you now, since you’ve discovered all of these Awakened abilities and done all of this work over the past year?”

My first thought: Huh? YEAR? Hasn’t it been DECADES?  LOLLOL

However, here was my answer: “It’s a completely different world – so much more beautiful and poetic, so MUCH MORE, period! But here are times when I just feel like there’s just SO MUCH for us to do, and on the fly, as things speed up faster and faster!”

At the onset of learning and fine-tuning energy and spiritual work on myself and others, I really thought that the more I learned, the more in control of the bigger picture I would feel.

I was wrong.

Today, there are days and weeks when I thankfully put it all aside for a breather, because I get…  well, overwhelmed. And I find that if I let that happen, it bleeds quickly from the spiritual level into the physical level, and then I get panicked about a million things (that don’t really matter).

The other evening, I had gone into one of those panic modes for a little bit. I ran to the store to pick up a few simple things, and in the store, it was like I suddenly had a whole bunch of stuff mucked up, and I started getting anxious. Thoughts, worries, and doubts that were really pretty ridiculous started running through my head; it only took a few minutes before I could disconnect, observe those thoughts, and think, “Wow. Chill out. It’s all fine and good!” That quieted the mind down for the moment, but I still felt like I just had the anxiety at bay – not eliminated.

When I got home, in the dark (this was at about 9:30pm), a young bird – which turned out to be what’s called a nuthatch (though I’d never seen this interesting looking bird before) – was “running” around right on the driveway, acting really strangely. It ran under the car, and then sat there, looking like it was hurt in some way.

My husband got it out; there was a thought about putting it in the bushes or something…but I said no, leave it there. So, he and my kids went in the house.

However, I couldn’t get myself to leave the bird.

Initially, I also didn’t want to get too close, so I stood about 3 feet away from it. I was still a little in panic mode, though I didn’t realize it at the time. The reason I didn’t want to get too close? I was afraid, though I recognized not of the bird. Once I realized that consciously, I decided to put the thought aside and study it later; then I tuned in, and got that it was hurt… but there was something else. It wasn’t necessarily going to die, though I understood it could choose to. It would look like it was asleep… then it rolled on its side. At a certain point, I even thought it was dead.

Without even thinking about it, I kicked in to Theta Healing mode, and started communicating through Creator – to the animal’s Guide. Next, it felt right to bring in some Arcing Radial healing – and next thing I knew, the center of my back was radiating coolness and love, and I could feel several of the archetypes of the Divine Feminine circle around the bird – Mary, Mary Magdalene, Quan Yin, Isis, Woman of the Woods (it IS one of her creatures, after all!). Almost immediately after I started the Arcing Radial, the bird suddenly righted itself and looked at me, looked up into the tree, almost backwards, then looked at me again. It walked backwards a little bit, forwards, looked normal, twisted its head oddly, and then sat down and went to sleep, right there in the middle of the driveway.

Suddenly, I did something that was the MOST interesting thing I’ve experienced thus far: It was like EVERYTHING came together at once! Arcing Radial, Reiki, Shamballa, Theta, the Violet Flame – it was ALL ROLLED TOGETHER, like there was this POWERFUL ball of energy coming out of my hands and projecting over to the bird, who still had The Ladies with it. I was simply the vessel; I could feel that energy pouring through me and then over and into the bird, while at the same time, I was observing the Arcing Radial and… just everything. For an undefined period of time, I realized the feeling of being All One… because there was no separation. The Ascended Masters, the bird, the energy, the driveway, me…. we were all the same.

I have no idea how long I was out there in the dark with that bird – maybe 30 or 45 minutes. Finally, I heard Mary say to me, “You’ve done all you can do; we’ve done all we can do. The rest is up to this beautiful creature, but it has shared its message.”

And then I was fine. I went into the house knowing the bird would be fine either way.

As I learned, nature speaks to us all of the time, sharing messages we can choose to understand or ignore. So, after going back into the house – my earlier angst almost completely forgotten with the wonder of what had happened on my driveway – I looked up nuthatch as a totem message, and here’s the message that nuthatches share with us:

The grounding of spiritual energies along with faith and trust in the spiritual and physical.

The next morning, when my children, husband and I were leaving for the beginning of the work and school day, I looked up, down, and all around my driveway and even into the street, to see if that interesting and sweet bird had passed on during the night. However,  there was no sign of the nuthatch. I mentally thanked it for sharing such an experience and message with me and went on with my day.

A little later, I was reflecting on that entire evening, and  I realized that that my anxiety and initially not wanting to get too close to the bird was simply the fear of not being “good enough” to fix everything that can be fixed.

I realize I am. We all are.

THAT’S what we all need to remember… and practice.

What Still Triggers You?

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As many would probably agree, things have “sped up” even more… it’s amazing and very exciting to see how many people are Awakening now, step by step! People who don’t even realize it, but whose perspectives and experiences are becoming a lot more wide open because of a various number of reasons.

Three months ago, I’d posted a discussion on a Facebook group discussion board asking about what a person does when in the presence of another spiritually focused person who is unaware of an ego-based response that they emit.

The discussion was somewhat varied, but there was a point made to the “Law of Resonance,” which I find comes up sometimes in spiritual circles.

I’ve found that the “Law of Resonance” isn’t always quite right, because most people who use that use it in the context that “the reason it upsets you is because you have the same issue somewhere deep down.” However, what I’ve really learned and discovered is usually that a trigger is usually due to some sort of BELIEF you have that causes friction with the opinion/reaction of the other person within yourself.

Not quite the same thing.

Being irritated with someone who can’t accept others’ experiences can simply be because you have a belief somewhere deep down that your opinion or experience isn’t as important or valid as that of others… and that can come from a memory in the distant past (or even a past life) of a situation where you yourself were belittled, made fun of, or ridiculed.

Quite different than feeling like someone else’s experiences aren’t as valid as yours (which is typically to what the standard Law of Resonance would infer in this scenario)!

I will say to those just remembering our individual power and capabilities to BE CAUTIONED, as there are some in the spiritual world who have been working in it for many years who – though I believe are well intentioned – don’t realize that they themselves have a need to release some established beliefs and ego issues of their own, which in turn affects those around them. That’s usually because they’re still working from “the way it’s always been” for them, instead of adapting to the way it’s becoming… and that’s changing month by month, week by week, even day by day! That’s a really subtle thing, because once the ego gets inserted, it’s as simple as convincing someone that ONE way is right, and ANOTHER is wrong… which in the widely opening world of metaphysics, is simply incorrect if it’s done for the individual’s highest good and works for the person!

What’s important is to go back, realize where that comes from, and release it. You’ll also find that at some point, you realize that the other person is simply in need of releasing themselves… even though they might not even think they do. So, you might just choose not to be in their company anymore for the time being. Once you’ve released that history, you typically don’t need to be, anyway… because you find it was just a learning experience for you at this juncture.

I’ve found that the more layers you peel away, the more that is buried that can use a variety of different techniques, depending on the situation – because one way doesn’t always do the same job. Once getting down to the much muckier, more protected stuff, you just learn to immediately acknowledge it, and there are also some other ways of simply deprogramming and even reprogramming yourself in a more positive manner without needing to fully relive the buried emotions!

However, I will season that with the caveat that you STILL have to be able to acknowledge it, so you must be able to approach such memories without emotion and ego and be able to recognize the lesson/experience you gained, even from the most awful memory…and it’s not always due to the action of others!

I’ve found that even in just the past few months, I’ve become much more able to immediately recognize a trigger, find the reason for the trigger, release it, and then REPROGRAM it for my and the Divine’s highest good. For me, the reprogramming part is vital, because even when you release something, if it’s deeply ingrained – say, over lifetimes of experiences – it’s difficult for your being to know how to continue on in this experience and know how to exist without that belief!

I’ve had the grace to experience quite a bit of releasing due to several modalities, and use all of them for different circumstances… I actually often use more than one, integrated together!

Here are some recognition, releasing, and healing modalities I’ve learned thus far – and I will say, all the PERFECT time (as it typically is)! Many willy say, “I don’t want to learn to be a healing practitioner; I just want to know how to get rid of all of this gunk!” The important thing to remember is that in learning how to heal others, you first have to learn how to heal yourself, which is a good part of learning these modalities!

  • Meditation, in whatever form works for you. It’s always where I tell people to start, because you can’t start knowing yourself until you quiet the mind of chatter;
  • Reiki (I’ve only taken I & II thus far, but there’s also Master and Master Teacher) – it’s a great way to be introduced into energy/healing work!
  • Crystal work, which doesn’t resonate with some, but I’ve personally felt a kinship with these wonderful beings of consciousness for a long time!
  • Lindwall Releasing (which is what was being referred to on the discussion board on that Group page);
  • Arcing Radial Light Healing – a very different feeling of energy from Reiki, but it can be very profound, and you gain the immediate presence and assistance of powerful archetypes of the Divine Feminine, Ascended Masters and the archangels in bringing the core issue to light, releasing it, and healing;
  • Working with shamanic energies via journeying, connecting in with nature around you to discover the reflection of yourself, as well as many other advantages such work provides;
  • Clearing yourself of the attachment of darker energies and entities, so you know when there’s something attached to your being that prevents it from clearing and releasing (and therefore, progressing);
  • Theta Healing – for me, THIS modality has been by far the MOST potent and powerful modality I’ve learned thus far, and integrates with EVERYTHING else to make them even more powerful! Theta allows the person to recognize and confirm THE BASE of underlying limiting beliefs (think of the bottom center of a House of Cards), teaches the person how to pull out that base (or as close to the base as possible), resolve clear the memory from all levels (physical, spiritual, genetic, and historical), all lifetimes of your being’s cells, transform it and send it straight back to Creator as Creator’s Light, and then reprogram your being’s cells to know how to exist with the opposite. It’s almost immediate, and it teaches you how to work with all other planes of existence for the Highest Good. The caveat I put in here is, be careful – you will get what you bargained for – meaning, I would recommended this modality only when the person is ready to face and honestly release some really, really old and ingrained beliefs.
  • Shamballa Healing – all I can say about this one is WOW. Lots more of opening, opening, opening to conscious awareness and connection to the different dimensions of your self – all the way up to your I AM self – and further connection to many beings of very high White Light. Much more releasing and healing, and multiple dimensions! This is yet another modality I would recommend for someone who has experience and some comfort in working in their own muck, because it’s very powerful (and this, in conjunction with Theta… triple WOW).

There are many others; I’m finding that many overlap. Quantum Touch, Matrix Energetics… I believe they all deal with similarly deep levels as Theta.

Anyway, not everything is good for everyone… which is why it’s AWESOME that there’s such a GREAT variety of different ways of recognizing, healing, and releasing.

The goal is healing ourselves, then healing each other (which ultimately, is healing ourselves, anyway)… and ANYTHING that clears the ego even ONE MORE iota more is good stuff for our development!

Munay!

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