We’ve Got the Beat… So Time to Use It!

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There are multiple mythologies that state the Universe was created with sound; in metaphysics, there is also the mathematical concept of the Music of the Spheres… a representation that all of energy – which includes all of our Universe – has a tone related to it: matter itself, creation, expansion, existence, interaction, etc. There’s been plenty of research also showing how sound affects our energy in an infinite number of ways, including healing!

Throughout my life, music has been instrumental (literally LOL) to me… from an early age, I danced, played multiple musical instruments… and when I was a teenager, the music I played was how I expressed myself. Angry? Heavy metal. Content? Upbeat music. Contemplative? Something entirely different. The list went on, including all different kind of music, all different eras, all different beats, tones, and lyrics.

That hasn’t changed in my adulthood. In fact, in my house, from the time when my kids were just past toddlerhood, we got into the practice of never even having the TV on during the day. The only time it gets turned on is later in the evening, typically about an hour or two before bed. But music? I have it playing ALL THE TIME… when I work out at home, I have music playing. My office is at home, and as I’m working, I’m almost always playing music. When I’m in a session with a client… yep. In the car… etc., etc., etc.

Have you ever had a day when something – some sadness, anger, whatever – welled up and wanted to come to the surface, but you just couldn’t find a way to do that? And, in a moment of reflection, you found the song to play (or the song gets played on the radio, funny how the Universe will do that for you) that brought it RIGHT UP THERE… and allowed you in some way or another to release it?

Do you think that’s coincidental?

This weekend, I watched the movie, “Rock of Ages,” which was a Glee-ish type of rock musical about the 80’s… exactly when I was first coming into myself, through teenage years and early adulthood. Needless to say, I have a lot of memories tied up in the music of that decade! The entire movie was a montage of memories for me… through so many variants of the music that I listened to during that period. I sang along through the entire movie, loved its campy-ness, its accuracy of the campy-ness of the time… and I noticed how easily memories popped up throughout – yes, some of it was related to the characters, but MOST of it was related to the music!

Yesterday, I hosted a class at my house on sacred tantric dance for women; I had seen this on the instructor’s Website  awhile back, and knew immediately it was something I wanted to try! To me, it felt like the perfect combination and a different way to “connect in” using music and the body. However, I really had no idea in what to expect (“Is it bellydancing? something else? ???”)…. and WOW. How amazing!

The best part: No need to be a dancer; no need to even have the FIRST IDEA of how to dance to do this!

We spent the day learning how to apply techniques to open ourselves up energetically… via music and the movement of our bodies. We all adorned beautiful coin scarves (dancing is SO much more fun when you can HEAR all of the movements!)… and we MOVED. Without any better words to describe it, by the end of the class, we learned how to allow the Divine express itself through our Self in the dance. It was truly fun AND profound… later in the day, we did “individual dances,” which translates to about 7-9 minutes of allowing the Divine to dance each of us, one at a time,  in the center of the room, eyes closed, while the others in the class held space for the dancer and watched. I know what you’re saying: “Dancing alone – freestyle – in the middle of a group of people as they watched?” – but you know what? We had bonded with each other through the day, we had left any judgment – for others and ESPECIALLY for the Self – at the door, and we all saw the absolute beauty and power – and Divine – in each other, and in our Oneness. In holding space and watching when it wasn’t our turn, we all BECAME the dancer, we all experienced the dance through each other as well as through ourselves… and we released and healed just as much by being the observer as in being the participant.

When it was my turn, as soon as I closed my eyes and allowed the music to take me… I was truly outside of space and time, and the illusion of the room and others there just melted away; I was in my completion, pulling through bits and pieces of other lifetimes, of certain energetic patterns, of what it was that was ready to be brought to the surface, melded, and/or released through that dance. It was freeing, expansive, and beautiful in ways that are challenging to explain in words… except that I knew ALL of me, in completion, in those minutes. And when it was done… I had no concept of how long it had been, because time wasn’t even a part of it!

I didn’t truly realize just how the class had shifted me until I woke up this morning, in the aftereffects of a day of such amazing grace, beauty, power… our eternal presence. Not only did we find parts of ourselves in the dance; we truly experienced our wholeness and our Divinity in ways that words could never describe.

As I’ve written this I’ve been playing one of the soundtracks that was played in class, now added to my already extensive collection of music… and my entire body is lit up, my chakras wide open in joyful anticipation, having recognized another open pathway to tap in… and thus, it wants to MOVE… and allow it through.

And so, my new coin scarf beckons to me from my meditation room…  😉

 

Journey Reflections from the Mountain (Mount Shasta Tales, Part Two)

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Twelve days.

That’s how long I’ve been on this personal retreat; first to the Vancouver, BC area… and then to Mount Shasta, CA – one of the key spiritual “energy vortices” of the world. I’ve been getting the calling to come here for the past 2.5 years. I was TOLD last December, under no uncertain terms, that I WOULD be coming here, by June latest.

So here I came… or should I say, to here I’ve returned.

The trip to White Rock/Vancouver, BC was a separate, awesome experience in itself… so foreign, and yet so familiar and comfortable.

But… heading into Mount Shasta, California…

I want to tell you: No matter what you read, or what you think you might feel before you “come to the mountain,”  it IS a different world here, and you can’t understand that until you’re here and can FEEL it. Seriously; at some point on the way in, I KNOW I must’ve moved through a dimensional doorway. After just three or four hours of being here… without a better way to explain it in words, I literally could FEEL every cell in my body spread out… and I could literally feel MORE SPACE in between every cell. Lots more! Which, in essence, allows a “living meditation”… because everything just IS here. What a lesson in BEing!

So much space… between cells, between words, between thoughts. Just SPACE. More than I’ve ever felt before. And thus, time actually feels like it’s slower (I could swear I’ve been here for a month… LOL), because every moment is SO FULL.

The view of Mt. Shasta from the peak of Spring Hill

And the mountain… you literally feel the mountain welcoming you home. “It’s been awhile… welcome back…” And such a preponderance of being embraced with love.

From that feeling, everything moves so much more peacefully in this area. The experiences I’ve had here have been beyond amazing… how many people I’ve met that I feel like I’ve known forever (which, you know, of course I have); how many people I’ve met in passing that I end up HUGGING after our interaction… because it’s like being home. And I can’t even begin to explain how much “unexplainable” stuff in the rest of the world is commonplace here… and almost overlooked because it’s simply expected.

It IS home for me… an ancient, ancient one. The original one. There is far more to explain about THAT statement than I can cover in this one blog post. It’s a place about which I’ve been having visions for the past several years; above ground and below ground. It’s the place where the mythical Telos resides underneath and is superimposed over the mountain, in a higher frequency.

It truly is another world… and the moment I got here, my heart transported me immediately to another time, to the memories I’ve uncovered of being here way, way, way in the past… in the beginning, during Lemuria.

I know I’m typically very forthright about my spiritual experiences (of course, that’s the purpose of this blog, right?)… but for now, I’m holding many of the details close to me. This trip went far, far deeper than I ever could have anticipated, and it’s so intimate that I’m not ready to share the energy or some of the details of it. Yet. But I will say this: In the past 12 days, I have brought up and released some VERY deep muck that I didn’t even know I had. My heart has broken wide open and been healed and mended multiple times in the healing process… so much that for several nights, I had Archangel Ezekiel at my side, prominently residing at the side of my bed as I tossed and turned. One night, I had Ezekiel AND Adama (the head of the Council of 12 of Telos/Lemuria… aka Archangel Daniel – more on that later)  there, as I was being given some huge energetic download that lasted most of the night… and I was paralyzed with the intensity and brightness of it. However, in the morning… I became a new person… to get to the really, really core level to clear out the rest.

There is so much hiking, so many mountains and lakes and waterfalls in the area, that you can be any place in nature with a beautiful view within 10 minutes. And most of them all have their own energy.

Castle Lake

Castle Lake was my first jaunt on my own, shortly after I got to Mount Shasta. I hiked to two spots that were fairly secluded… sat on the water on rocks and had the most phenomenal time with elementals… completely audible and visible in plain sight (even though it took me a little while to tune in and realize what I was seeing/hearing). Such a huge healing there, and such a beautiful (and fun) spot!

I spent an afternoon with a friend at the nearby Stewart Mineral Springs… I don’t need to say anything more about that, beyond simple bliss!

One morning I climbed Spring Hill with a friend… a beautiful hike with yet more spectacular views of Mt. Shasta and surrounding mountains (including Black Butte and the Eddy Mountains).

And other moments at Lake Siskiyou, so quiet and contemplative…

I got lost on the bottom half of Mount Shasta, with my housemate here, A’shaya… and had a great time doing it (see my post, Getting Lost to Find Our Way, Mount Shasta Tales Part One)

What was truly amazing was my access to Panther Meadows, the most sacred site on Mount Shasta, near the peak. When I was talking about the dates for my trip plans, a friend I made who lives here in Mount Shasta kept on telling me that it’s unfortunate that I wouldn’t get there, because they NEVER open the road to Panther Meadows (closest to the top of the mountain) before July 1st. I just told her I was following guidance, because I had gotten very specific dates on when to come… and if it wasn’t meant to be, so be it. On Friday (June 15th), my housemate here told me she’d heard that Panther Meadows had been opened… and then I heard it again when I was shopping in one of the downtown shops by a local shopkeeper. Surprise all around… so… I was able to go after all.

Panther Meadow on Mt. Shasta... it might not look like much, but the photo can't capture the FEEL of this incredibly sacred space near the top of the mountain.

I’ve been up there three times in a two-day period, regardless of the snow up there. The first time was so profound and intense and personal that I choose not to share it… quite yet. Let’s just say I was “shown” where I would go the night before in my dreams… when we arrived there, I immediately recognized it… and I was instantaneously overwhelmed by the number of Beings present at the Meadows as I entered… it was jam-packed… because I realized that I knew all of them. My original soul family, there waiting… and at that overwhelming moment when I remembered all of them, the energy/presence of all of them, my heart just opened up with joy and love at being there, seeing them again, as though I’d never forgotten. What happened after that… well, let’s just say that Adama and St. Germain were there to help me clear out the REST of the muck that was under the layer that had been cleared out, in one fail swoop. It was so beautiful, so freeing, and so absolutely sacred… that I sat on my knees in the mud in the midst of the snow and sobbed. First from pain and sadness of so much realization… and then, as that all flowed out, from joy and the overwhelming love from all of it.

It was just beyond words.

The second time I went back was simply a solitary contemplation… more space… and the feeling of support from all around me, with some messages that were important to process.

The third time… I was shown another spot further up the springs on the Meadows – again in my dreams – and when I found the spot, I stood there and was saturated with the most brilliant light I’ve experienced. I felt so big, with so much space… that I still feel like I’m glowing.

And then I was done with Panther Meadows… so I departed with such huge gratitude and love for the acknowledgement and healing I had received.

Orbs and violet light at Ascension Rock... how incredible!

This evening – my last evening here – I had been reminded from another “new-old friend” I’d made here about Ascension Rock, up on the mountain. For some reason, I felt the pull to go back up, and this time find this spot. On the way, I was guided to stop in several other locations… and then I reached it. I sat in meditation, half aware, half somewhere far away… and I suddenly heard clearly, “Look up… look at where the sun shines through the trees…” I did and immediately saw the violet light and the orbs… and surprisingly, though my phone camera hadn’t done much to capture any of that for the rest of this trip, I actually got some amazingly cool pictures with it there.

Again, I felt so surrounded, nurtured, and loved.

Beyond the spots, I have met a number of people I “already know”… and it’s amazing how quickly we connect. And, even more amazing is the string of people I’ve met who talk to me, give me the piece I’m to get from them… and then they forward me on to who has the next “piece” – “Oh, you HAVE to meet _________…. here’s their contact information, tell them I sent you…” And so on. If I stopped to think about it… it would make my head spin. But it’s really just how an entirely conscious environment allows manifestation to play out, so effortlessly!

So, I’ve packed my things to go home tomorrow, and am sitting here this evening, just soaking in every last moment at the house where I’ve rented a room, great energy in itself right on the lower part of the mountain. I’m so thankful for this, for my journey, for my path… and for the fun and incredible moments that are more and more common as I go along.

Part of my quest here was to determine whether it was a suitable place to hold some classes for the Trinity Energy I teach… well, it was never really a question… it was simply SEEING and FEELING how it would fit here. And, finding out how perfectly the Trinity Energy ties in to what others are understanding and experiencing in the same but different ways. Perfectly.

I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to try out Victoria Lee’s Trinity Table (even though I’ve tried the one in North Carolina before)… we’d had such a long and lovely conversation (someone else I’ve just met that I’ve known forever)… but as she said, “Well, next time… because you’ll be back…”

Absolutely. I’ll be back. Conscious memory is in my blood now… and it won’t be long.  🙂

 

 

Steps to Remembering the Spiritual/Intuitive Black Belt in ALL of Us…

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I remember, years ago, when I first started in Tae Kwon Do, I was a “no belt”… not even a white belt. I would look at the black belts and think, “Wow… what a long, long way to go. Can I do that? Really? Will I be able to break a cinder block with my bare hands… and all of those other things required?” And actually, I had moments of thinking, “Can I do really do that… ME?”

Once I stopped (or rather, my ego stopped) obsessing about that “long-off” goal – even though there were black belts present through the process to be a physical reminder of that goal – when I focused on what was at hand, one belt at a time – there were 10 belts in between no belt and black belt – I did eventually BECOME a black belt; actually, I went beyond that and later attained a 2nd degree black belt! And, because I had worked tirelessly through the basics, one step at a time, by the time I got there – to that first black belt test – it was second nature to me, because I had a strong command of the basics. Not only that… but I had a lot of FUN doing it!

Often, it’s no less overwhelming when starting out on the path to actively developing our spirituality and remembering how to tap in to our Divinity – or, in common terms, learning to regularly and accurately access our Higher Self, intuition, psychic ability – whatever you want to call it.

Now, I will say that I was sort of “thrown in” to doing this work… initially, it wasn’t something I consciously (knew that I) chose at the time. I fell open like a book when I had what I call my Grand Awakening… and had NO IDEA what was going on… besides wondering if I was going schizophrenic LOL! Though I had accumulated the uncovering of one natural Divine ability after another over my life before that time, I’d always looked at them as the equivalent of “parlor tricks”… fun and cool… but just something I could do, nothing more, nothing less. (For a more detailed account, see In the Rabbit Hole We Go.)

Since I’m a problem solver – I love puzzles – when the Grand Awakening occurred, of course I was voracious in finding out what was going on… and once I did, then concentrated on how to focus and funnel the menagerie of abilities I had naturally uncovered! However, I never stopped to think about it… never really thought about whether I could really “do it,” how long it would take… what it would take, and what that would mean. Essentially, I had set it up for myself to be so distracted that I circumvented having those same feelings I’d had when looking at the black belts at the onset of practicing Tae Kwon Do.

However, don’t get me wrong… I DEFINITELY know that feeling!

Often, when I work with clients and students on developing their innate intuitive abilities in one form or another (or many), I get the “deer in the headlights” look when we first start talking about developing their skills… especially when I get a specific message about a particular innate strength of the person, communicate it to them…and that person has no idea about the strength that lies within them. It’s largely because the ego starts projecting immediately – “I can’t do that!” “What if I can’t do that?” “Who… ME? Who am I to be able to do that?”

So, I tell them… STOP.

It goes back to changing our perception from the glass is half empty to the fact that the glass is ALWAYS full (see Seeing the Glass COMPLETELY Full, and Taking From It What You Will); we just have to remember that it is!

How different do you think it would be for those starting martial arts if they were told at the onset, “You already ARE a black belt… coming here and doing this is simply going to help you get back in to practice to remember that…and each belt level is another level of remembrance that you’ve uncovered…” Sounds a lot easier than trying to reach for something outside of you, doesn’t it?

It’s the same thing in terms of our intuitive, “magical,” Divine abilities… we’re ALL Divine, we ALL have ALL of those abilities (I promise), regardless of where you are right now… it’s simply a matter of getting back in to practice to remember how to access them. So, we break it down, and generally work on fluency in one ability or set of abilities at a time… and all we need to do is start with gaining command of the MOST basic, yet MOST important ones – such as simply quieting the chatter of the ego and remembering that fluid connection with the Higher Self to know whether what presents itself to you is for your Highest/Best, and whether it’s Truth for you.
Back in Tae Kwon Do, there were others who started around the time I did that became black belts more quickly than I did… and some did it more slowly. But you know what? We all got there in the end; how long it took and what we did to get there individually didn’t really matter. Again, it’s the same in terms of our spiritual/intuitive development: Some of us just take a blind flying leap off the cliff (sort of like I did)… some stop to look and test the air and then parachute down… and many decide to take the train down to the bottom (or simply walk) instead of leaping. That’s OK; everyone’s at their own pace… this is one thing that is definitely NOT a competition, and there is no one RIGHT or WRONG way or time frame in which to do it! It’s individual to each and every one of us. We’ll ALL get there, eventually… every single one of us.

So, yes, though we should have an idea where we’re going and what our goals are in doing this work on ourselves, the key is to stop looking at (and comparing ourselves to) everyone else, note who’s present and who can assist us, and just simply BEGIN the journey…. do the work (or play, as I call it), at our own pace. Practicing – or, remembering – mastery of the very basics, one step at a time, also helps to remind us how to experience the joy and excitement of being present completely in the now, where we are as individuals today, as we allow every single beautiful petal of ourselves to open up, into the magnificent, brilliant, menagerie of the Divine that we all are!

Close Encounters… of the Pilot Mountain Kind…

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Over the past few years, I’ve written a few blog posts on visits to Pilot Mountain, NC (see Take One from Pilot Mountain… and Awakening Energy Center from 10/10 and also Take Two: SHOOTING Through the Door to an Expanded Reality on Pilot Mountain! from 11/10)… and I’ve had multiple other awesome experiences there that never made it as a blog post but are posted elsewhere on the site; particularly about receiving initialization to entrainment to the Trinity Energy I now use and teach (see Trinity Energy Progression and Healing for the whole story).

Suddenly, I’ve noticed a handful of people I know who have suddenly “just needed” to go to Pilot Mountain for a day (it’s a 2-hour drive from where I live)… one person I know just felt the pull one morning and went, on a VERY COLD winter day… I’ve had others ask me multiple times if I would go with them over the past month, and my initial reaction has been, “Um… no… it IS February, you know, sorta cold… let’s just plan for April or so…”

I should’ve known THAT would’ve come back to bite me in the butt!

About a week ago, I was in meditation, and heard, very distinctly, that I needed to go… ALONE (I’ve always had others with me before). I asked when… and understood it to be ASAP. Initially, I laughed, thinking about the recount of the client who went on that very cold day, and asked, “REALLY?” Yes… immediate and absolute, no questions asked. Later that day, I looked at the 7-day forecast for North Carolina, and saw that it would be spiking in temperature on Thursday (yesterday); I understood immediately that it was the day I was to go. So, I rescheduled my appointments/sessions, and cleared that day.

Several days before that came about, I’d been in a very active sleep state (common for me these days), and I knew I was doing some kind of energy work, talking with Guides, etc… when suddenly, I was half awake, and in my mind, saw an angel, very distinct, standing next to my bed. The angel leaned over and whispered loudly in my ear – as loudly as if a person here would have done – “OPEN YOUR EYES!” So, I did… lay there for a moment, adjusting my sight to the darkness, waiting to see something… and when I didn’t, I looked over at the clock… it was 3:33. I’m well aware of the multiple-number phenomena (Doreen Virtue has quite a bit on that, even if you Google it online), and how often non-3D Beings communicate with us here on the 3D via double, triple, and quadruple numbers… but I waited, and when I didn’t hear anything, thought, “Seriously? You WOKE ME UP to look at the clock at 3:33?” Then I rolled over and went back to sleep.

Within 24 hours, I was noticing double and triple digits almost EVERYWHERE… when I was working on something related to the Trinity Energy, I would see 3’s… needing some angelic support, 4’s… and a mix of 1’s, 2’s, and others. It quickly became really obvious that this was another way for me to receive guidance, sort of like the path was being shown to me. I had some rather amazing experiences “in the waking world” of synchronicity and just an amazing accuracy of details that would come in around that.  So, I realized that the “Open your eyes” message had to do with SEEING what was being SHOWN to me here… outside of meditation/connecting in or sleep.

So, fast forward to yesterday, and my trek to Pilot Mountain…

Every time I looked at the clock or something with numbers from when I woke up, there were doubles and triples in EVERYTHING. It was REALLY prominent… nothing I could just write off. In fact, I found myself laughing… because I felt completely accompanied! I could almost feel my “travel companions,” egging me on… “Let’s go! Let’s go!” I was gathering some hiking food, looked up at the clock… 9:33. Checked email; my main email account had 1122 messages (cumulatively)… I got on the road, and almost EVERY TIME I noticed the number on a license plate, there was a double or triple digit… I’d look over at a billboard on the side of the road; a phone number or some other number on the sign would have a triple digit. Seriously; by the time I was halfway there, I was laughing out loud in the car, feeling like I was being prompted again and again… playfully, like I could almost hear laughing. I would say, “OK, already! I’m going as fast as I can!”

Though it was due to be in the 70s, all morning and when I left, it had been dark gray, and it actually looked like it was going to rain. I never let if phase me. It stayed that way the entire trip… until I was about 15 minutes away. Then, the sky just parted, and the sun came out… and, just as I came around the curve where I could see Pilot Mountain approaching in the distance, there was one lone cloud left, and it made one of those odd shapes around Big Pinnacle on the mountain… which distinctly reminded me of many pictures I’ve seen of Mount Shasta, CA (a MAJOR energetic power center); I thought, “How odd…” and thought of stopping to take a picture… but I was being prodded on… so, this post has a picture that I created in PhotoShop, so you get the idea…

Anyway, got to the top parking lot, and noticed the temperature: 55 degrees. I pulled into a spot; it was 12:22. Seriously! I hesitated a moment at the temperature, though… I’d just worn jeans and a tank top with a thin button down open as cover. Hardly something for ’50s… but I just trusted I would be fine.

Feeling the welcoming energy of the mountain telling me, “Welcome home,” off I trod towards Big Pinnacle, where I love to climb up on the rocks, whichever way the mountain “shows me the steps”… no preconception in mind; hey, at the very least, I figured I’d get some AWESOME meditation and journaling time on the rocks! Something interested I’d noted: In the past, when I even got near the mountain, my back would “light up,” “go electric” – basically, a zap of energy to alert me to that power source. This time, I hadn’t felt that… however, I’d felt wide open from when I’d awakened that morning. Even as I approached Big Pinnacle, I was feeling pretty “normal”… but I knew there was something… slightly… different about that “normal” feeling.

When I first got to the base of Big Pinnacle, I looked up… it has quite the beautiful rock face, with many faces in the rocks. I was taken aback for a moment; I’d just been there a little more than 3 months ago – on 11-11-11 – and as I stood gazing on the Big Pinncle today, it seemed that there were many, many more faces in view. I noted that and pressed on… waiting for the guidance as to where to stop.

As I walked on, I suddenly started getting BARRAGED… with the presence of multiple Beings. It was so much that it was almost a buzz in my head… and I realized somewhere in there that instead of getting “the buzz,” as I call it, I somehow “changed my reality” there. Does that make sense? It was like I was in a dimensional doorway, and my body just adjusted. So, though I didn’t feel any different than “normal,” I started hearing a LOT… “Welcome back…” “This way…” “We KNOW you can hear us…” “Look over here…” etc. Typically in a state park, I would have thought they were elementals (and I have a blog to write about THAT from about a week ago… first things first)… however, I immediately KNEW that they were Star Beings.

Which, looking back now, makes sense about that weird cloud around the Big Pinnacle, doesn’t it? Many say Star Being ships or whatever cause those weird clouds… but it feels right.

What was interesting was that it wasn’t just ONE kind of Star Being… there were MANY different kinds there… almost an overwhelming many! “Testing the doorway”… something like that. So full of love; so full of happiness that we are finally to be united in THIS consciousness, and able to work together for the Higher Good!

So, I found the first “stopping place” I was guided to stop at… and I climbed all the way up and just sat there. I felt comfortable and at home. Some of the rocks were wet – so obviously it had rained – but it didn’t phase me in the least; every place I was guided to stop was dry (of course, right?). I sat there, on the first rock cropping at which I stopped, and just waited. I sort of marveled at how “normal” I felt… without the extra buzzing… yet I knew it was DIFFERENT. I knew something had changed. So I just waited; and then I heard, “Remember how to physically SEE and HEAR Beings – with your physical eyes and ears – who are focused at dimension higher than the 3rd…” I was like, OK… yes, like DUH… why haven’t I thought of THAT before? I realized I had some fears to clear out related to that, so I did that first, and then I did what was suggested to me… ran through a clearing to remember how to do that without impeding my ability to see and hear at the 3D level simultaneously, and everything else related. When I was done with that, I was told to move on. So I did.

I found the next area at which I was supposed to stop… this was funny, too. I had climbed off the path onto a mini path to the rocks to climb, and I suddenly heard, “SIT DOWN!” And so, I just did, right there, just as I saw a park ranger, walking around the bend on the path. I hadn’t even looked at where I was sitting; I simply had been a little bit startled by that loud kind of command, so I just did it. I landed on a nice pile of pine straw that was warmed by the sun and dry. And apparently, that spot was just perfectly situated so the park ranger was able to just walk by and not see me at all… and I think there was something additional to that… like I wasn’t quite ALL dense, or something like that… but he literally walked right in front of me, about 5 feet away, and though he’d been looking up on the rocks, he never even looked in my direction, never noticed my presence. I was hidden in plain sight.

I was like, “Hmm… interesting…” and wondered why that would matter (and just as quickly remembered all of the signs up there that say NO CLIMBING ON THE ROCKS…). So, I waited until he was gone, and then I continued up.

I got to the ledge where I was supposed to stop next, and THAT’S where I spent a good portion of time; it was there I was guided to simply just BE a part of the mountain, to meditate in Trinity Energy and meld with the mountain, and other meditative exercises. I don’t know how long I was there – probably way longer than the physical time record of it! THAT was absolutely wonderful; even though I was sitting right around the corner to the sun, in the shade, I felt warm and embraced and nurtured… at one point, though, I was deep in meditation, and a stiff, cold breeze whipped up, encircled me, and seemed to go right through me – however, it felt REALLY cleansing, and really good! After that, I just started journaling. And journaling… much of it was a conversation with the Star Beings. Somehow, I understood that it was important for me to have “the signature” of Pilot Mountain energy as the energy that awakened me. I remember that much… and I puzzled over it a little bit, tried to get irritated about it a little bit, but it seemed right, even though I couldn’t figure out WHY it was important.

From my journal:

I hear there are many Star Beings here… they were delighted with me all the way, playing the games with the numbers… all the more delighted that I NOTICED.

I have done the clearings, and have told them to show themselves to me.

I keep on seeing flashes of silver that are liquid in the air, barely there then gone. There was a moment, coming to this spot, when I saw an interesting combination of the sun’s rays… and it looked like the rays had hit the edge of something almost directly in front of me, for a moment making the outline of a shape… and then it was gone. I’ve seen it just off of this ledge a few times, too. So cool!

I also feel like they’re telling/showing me that they’re superimposed on the mountain… the rocks… the trees… the wildlife. As I just wrote that, a raven flew by, close enough to startle me, and it made an interesting sound as it was passing me, as if it were speaking to me.

When I was sitting here with my eyes closed, and I was HEARING them speak to me, I opened my eyes and suddenly saw 3 ladybugs (of course 3!)… just 3. I closed my eyes and opened them again… and the ladybugs were in very different placement, like I had recreated the scene… or they moved so I would NOTICE that they’d moved.

I’m hearing “It won’t be long…” For what? “Before the changes…”

…Somehow, it was important to anchor my heart with the mountain… I heard so all know at which power point I was awakened. ??? Don’t know why that matters. I’m NOT big on “tagging,” but it does feel important somehow…

 THIS was a funny comment… and a funnier “answer” I received…

 Sometimes I wonder… if all of this is just in my head. The response I get to that, loudly, is “If it were only in your head, you wouldn’t be here…. You know it isn’t.”  ??? Somehow that makes sense, but it isn’t quite logical, is it? And as soon as I think and then write that, I hear that quote between Harry (Potter) and Dumbledore: Harry: “Professor Dumbledore… how do I know that this isn’t all just in my head?” Dumbledore: “Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry… but why on Earth should that mean that it is not real?”

It was a wonderful day… so beautiful, so peaceful… and besides everything else, being able to watch vultures, hawks, and ravens play in the current by their mountaintop nests, at eye level, far above the surrounding world was a wonderful respite!

I hadn’t taken my cell phone with me on the walk/hike… and was coming back down to Earth when I returned to my car. As I pulled off of the mountain and onto the highway I looked at the clock.. 2:22… by the clock, I was there EXACTLY 2 hours… though it felt MUCH longer! (Oh, and of course, the temperature? 66 degrees…)

Here’s what was really, really interesting on the way home…

I’m used to seeing tree auras, and it’s most prominent to me when I’m driving on the highway, probably because the trees line the road, and their auras simply meld and make these continuous “bubbles” in the air along the highway. I wasn’t even thinking about anything… I was still just enjoying the awesome weather, opened all the windows and just felt GOOD. Well, about 15 minutes after I left, I noticed… something. Movement in the air, where I would typically see the auras (however, they typically aren’t moving). So I looked up, and I realized that I saw this interesting movement throughout the entire sky… it was circular, and sort of shimmering, almost like I was SEEING a VIBRATION. I didn’t have to really do anything with my eyes – you know, like with the Magic Eye pictures, where you have to really relax the eyes to see the 3D picture –  it was easy for me to see with my “normal” vision. I wondered if it had to do with the clearing I did at the mountain…

It feels like it was some part of the “veil” (for lack of a better word) between the overlays of the dimensions that are coming together! I suddenly knew why so many are seeing “scenes” and “pictures” in the clouds, so clearly… because that’s the easiest place for us to SEE through the doorway! When I was on open road (no cars too close to me in case I drifted a little LOL), I looked at the movement thing (whatever it is), into the clouds, and I knew I could… just… about… see… through… it… so interesting!

I’m just amazed at how this journey continues to morph and develop… and the understandings I’ve “remembered” over the past several years are actually starting to happen, here in the physical world! When I was on the mountain yesterday, I suddenly remembered, seemingly out of the blue, how when babies are born, it takes their eyes around three months to focus in  on anything more than a few inches in front of their faces. And somehow that’s connected; will it take around three months for my “sight” and “hearing” to fully adjust? Who knows?

What I DO know: Three months takes me to the end of May… and it’s June when I’m being guided to take my trip to visit Mount Shasta… so very, very interesting…and the journey continues…  🙂

If you’d like to receive the downloads so that YOU can see Beings 3D and higher… see the Clearings/Downloads page…

On Coming Out of the Closet (Spiritually)…

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This year, I’ve finally stepped into the shoes that have been waiting for me and began to walk in them… after a long, internal struggle of having to come to terms with what started out as what I affectionately call my “Grand Awakening” in 2009. I’ve come to fully accept this, allow it, and I’m finally able to embrace myself and what I understand I came here to do. Once I realized how much it would ultimately make my heart and soul sing, I was able to stop caring about what others thought about me and about this choice, which on the surface might seem like a complete about face in my direction, and in my life.

The most interesting part in doing this has been observing the reaction of others in my life – whether the relationship was short or long term, casual or intimate – and how or whether they’ve accepted it!

Of course I’ve had some relationships fall away… I’ve had some prominent characters disappear out of my life, and others dissipate more slowly. But once I released my own fears and demons and chose to stand firm in self love, respect, and confidence, I found that many relationships mainly just shifted, along with me. The others? Well, for the time being, I understand that the relationship didn’t serve us both, and so it wasn’t necessary any more. But there are still others with whom I know do or will serve me and them in the future… even though they haven’t been in my day-to-day life for awhile. Having that understanding is truly the coolest part!

Losing the camaraderie of loved ones is also typically one of the greatest fears of many of my clients and students, who are tapping into themselves, allowing and embracing not just their empowerment but also tapping into this world of what I call the “expanded Universe”…which often means deviating from traditional belief systems that might be accepted by their family and/or friends. Mostly, the initial fear is one of “going against the flow” and being ridiculed, judged, outcast… and unloved. I understand this, and understand the root of this. Been there, done that!

However, I stand strong by a statement I heard earlier this year and seem to reiterate over and over and over: “It’s none of your business what others think of you.” What I’ve added on is also “…because what they think of you has solely to do with THEIR issues.” And that’s Truth. But because of how we operate, how we’ve evolved in a culture of having others’ opinions of us often matter more than our own – and/or allowing others telling us what’s best for us – that it’s sometimes challenging to overcome.

So, when I first “came out of the closet,” leaping fully into the spiritual and metaphysical world, I’m sure it was quite equivalent to the process of “coming out of the closet” in the commonly understood context! However, instead of the “hot topic” being my gender/sexual preference, it was instead my spirituality, “hoo-doo-voo-doo,” and “woo-woo” practices… which can easily be just as sensitive a topic, ESPECIALLY since many with whom I’ve been close over the long term have been a) very analytical and black and white, and/or b) very set in one path of traditional religious practice, typically passed down by their family.

Instead of worrying about it, I decided to simply be me.

What was pretty amusing was how those who were a little uncomfortable talking about spirituality and my latent uncovered abilities were oh-so-very-cautious in the beginning!  The best would be when someone I hadn’t seen for awhile started drilling me about what I was doing… I could just tell the first questions they would silently ponder, as they shifted a little uncomfortably:

  • “Can she read my mind?” FYI, yes, I technically can – we ALL can, with a little practice – but really have no interest in doing so and generally choose to block it out and not focus on THAT right now, until our telepathic abilities ALL open up; but more on that later…
  • “Does she really communicate with other Beings, or has she simply lost her mind?” Hmm, went through THAT question myself, back in 2009; and if I have lost my mind, well, I’m happy and (mostly) harmless, so what does it matter? 😉
  • “Is she going to start preaching or pushing her beliefs on me now?” Absolutely not; everyone’s path is their own, and what works for me and what works for you, though possibly very different, is both right, if it’s right for us individually
  • “Is she going to be all serious and pious and distant all the time now?” Another negative here! I teach others to get in touch with their Higher Selves, how to get on the path that is highest and best for them… and I LOVE to teach the fun, adventure, and excitement that can come along with that! In fact, I’m probably more laid back, adventurous, and humorous than I’ve EVER been before… because it’s ALL awesome!  🙂
  • “What hoo-doo-voo-doo is she into?All I practice is based in Oneness, love, and healing; connectedness and the natural Divine abilities we all have… so, no sacrificial virgin, first born, or household pet blood offerings… and no, I don’t dance naked in the woods… not that there’s anything wrong with that… and hmmm… maybe not so bad on a warm summer’s night…  LOL
  • “Has she really changed a lot? What will we talk about?” Well, DUH… I’m STILL ME!

 After awhile, I guess they realized just that: I’m still me… only better.

I’m far happier, more at peace, and can do some really, really neat, fun, and amazing stuff… every day’s being on the playground to me these days! I’m even more inclined to try new things (HAH… and you thought I was adventurous BEFORE? LOL), and do something completely foreign on a whim (ditto the previous statement)… However, if that neat, fun, and amazing stuff isn’t your cup of tea… that’s fine. I don’t bring anything up that I do during the “workday” unless a) I know that you’re comfortable with it, and b) you ask me to or bring it up yourself.

Not that I’m hiding my spirituality or who I am, but that’s the point: it’s simply assimilated with who I am, and there are so many things to talk about that don’t include needing to focus on that one particular part of me… 🙂

The message here is for anyone and everyone who is actively exploring a “new” spiritual path, one that is unique to them (as it should be), and not necessarily “in line” with what was “expected” of them in the past: Stand in your Truth, and follow your heart – yours and yours alone – because anyone who loves you will only be happy for you if you are truly coming from a place of love and happiness within yourself; and if they have an issue with it, it truly is THEIR issue… not yours! If a relationship falls away because of it… it didn’t serve you in the highest and best way to begin with; OR, sometimes there just needs some readjustment time… and/or the relationship will resume at a later date, when it does serve the both of you in that way.

In fact, doing this one simple thing can set you up as an example for others around you. Just think, when we all just doing that, how different this world will become!

“Mates vs. Twins,” Part 2 – Twin Flames/Twin Souls

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“I feel like my soul  has just been split in half!”

In 2010, I went to a hypnotherapist* to have a past life regression, which took me back to the ancient land of Lemuria… from my current understanding, our “initiation” into this existence, and our fast drop in density. How I got to the point that I felt like I needed that regression is a story for another day… but what still rings in my memory is “that me” yelling this bizarre statement at the hypnotherapist – not even understanding what I was saying – while recalling a huge, cataclysmic explosion at the end of that lifetime. And then I cried and cried, still there, feeling like I wasn’t… right.

At the point I had gone to that regression, I knew the term twin flames/twin souls, but never knew any theory on the origin of them. It wasn’t until months later that I realized this was the point – the fall of Lemuria – when twin souls – often called twin flames – were supposedly created.

This topic has come up more and more… and I see these terms being used more and more. I’ve gotten quite extensive guidance on the topic from my Guides on it, as well, for specific purposes… so again, this is all how it is from my understanding/perspective.

Also, just an FYI: Moving forward in this post, I’m simply going to use the term twin souls… I’ve never taken much to the term “twin flames,” because it almost feels tacky, like I should hear some cheesy porno movie music playing in the background LOL!

If you pay attention, you’ll realize there are quite a few myths and stories about twin souls. They’re entrenched in our literature, movies… in fact, to my surprise, a few days ago I watched a movie that I had originally seen years ago, The Butcher’s Wife (before my awareness so drastically changed), and in that movie, they told a story about “splitaparts” that sounded very, very familiar. One of the characters told it as a fable told to her by her grandmother; another said it actually came from Plato.  After the movie, I was intrigued… Plato? Really? It really didn’t take much at the Google prompt to find more information, either. And, yep… Plato did actually have a version of this story!

So, regardless of which theory you might come across, the main idea is the same: Those of us part of the “planning committee” for this Earth existence agreed to the experience of forcibly splitting our souls in half – after we initiated the existence. The goal, from my understanding, is literally to divide and conquer; to go about, complete a set of desired experiences throughout the existence, each twin becoming whole and fulfilled in themselves, but still carrying the energy of the other at the core; and then, at the time of readiness for ascension, the twins find each other again, reunite, and eventually recombine as a part of their ascension.

So, what does this mean?

Going back to our discussion on soul mates… we chose our soul family from the beginning; we have like vibrations, attract to each other, and most likely have many lives together. Can we have intense, undying love for them? Absolutely (but remember, they can cause quite the opposite reaction, too)! In fact, as a friend of mine so often says… during this path to ascension, the true goal is to come back to pure love, meaning that we should let go of the egoic creation that we’re only allowed to love one person, and embrace the idea that we should be absolutely crazy in love with everyone around us, every day… because what is around us is a reflection of ourselves, and we should be competely crazy in love with ourselves. So beautifully said!

Back to twin souls: Though soul mates have vibrations that are very close, very resonant… twin souls have the exact same core energetic vibration…similar to identical twins, they can have very separate lives, very separate experiences, yet they will still have the “same language” and understand each other down to the very core. Often, twin souls typically won’t come together incarnate before their spiritual journey for this existence is almost complete, because the resonance is far deeper than any soul mate relationship, and can be very, very uncomfortable if both aren’t ready… and the relationship in itself can be far too distracting if there are still 3D Earth lessons to be learned. When in close enough proximity for a period of time, twin souls want to come back together in a very strong, magnetic way that is intensified even further in the 3D Earth density. Therefore, before incarnate readiness, if the twins have met up earlier in their lives, often they will find a way to push each other away, and/or some circumstances will prevail that dictate a significant physical distance, so they can be pretty far apart from each other – sometimes even on opposite sides of the world – until the “other” lessons are complete.

It’s my understanding that due this magnificent period of time just at the beginning stages here on Earth, for the first time, there are many twin souls incarnate here together. Yet, with so much romanticism out there regarding the term, what many have lost sight of is the fact that our higher selves are still scurrying around, hurriedly completing our list of desired experiences before that reunion takes place here. And, many of our Higher Selves have the final stages of completion planned together with our twin soul… but there’s still much to do beforehand!

Intense and positive soul mate relationships are often misunderstood to be twin flames/twin souls.

Etherically, there’s actually quite the difference: Our soul family has typically been with us for many lifetimes. As for the twin soul, we most likely haven’t had many lives incarnate on 3D Earth together… though I understand that often, twins come together for some of the most short-term but ENORMOUS lessons during a small number of lives before they’re actually ready to recombine. Otherwise, either they are incarnate in very separate, very far apart lives, or one becomes incarnate and the other one stays on a different plane for the time being.

Some argue that twin souls would be mirrors of the other in terms of personality and experience; others say they would be complete ying/yang. However, if we’ve completed all desired lessons, wouldn’t it make the most sense that both will be completely balanced and fulfilled within themselves? Then, the basis of the attraction to the other is simply the identical vibration calling out to the other, in perfect resonance… like coming home.

Giving Fluidity and Acceptance a Little Weight

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Yesterday, I went to the gym to attend a barbell strength training class I’ve been frequenting every Saturday for awhile now. I love the class, I love the teacher; she’s a stickler for keeping proper form to prevent injury, and she has teaching the class down to a science. Though she always drives the class to push harder and to go further, she rotates focus on different muscle group areas throughout the class, so we can rest each set of muscles and have enough strength left to do another round for those muscles later in the class. It’s a well-rounded practice… and it feels balanced to me.

Upon entering class this week, I discovered that the instructor was absent, and the instructor for the class was someone I had yet to experience. Very different demeanor, VERY different approach. Instead of the workout I expected, she worked each muscle group for an extended period… until half the class couldn’t even do the exercises any more, in desperate need of a rest.

I have to admit that about 20 minutes into the class, I was a bit irritated.

But then – through what felt like the hundredth set of lunges, with the weight of the barbell making my leg muscles scream – I had an epiphany about the situation. (I understand that often happens when the body is completely depleted of sweat and then brings on the onset of a little delirium from discomfort…  LOLLOL!)

Fluidity and acceptance.

Instead of rearing up to “battle” it – the irritation and resentment that the instructor wasn’t running the class the way I’ve come to expect – I had to take away that expectation box, do it differently, and gain from it whatever I was to gain from it, in the highest and best way. From the instructor’s perspective, she was running the class in perfect balance… focusing on each muscle group, in one rotation.  In reality, was one way right and one way wrong? No; I accepted that each approach was right… just different. Both accomplished the objective of the class, and though this approach was out of my comfort zone, I finally decided to simply accept what this instructor was doing.

I eventually made it through the class… even though there were several times when I just thought certain muscles wouldn’t work at all anymore. However, instead of getting irritated, I laughed at myself a little, took some deep breaths, zoned out into a semi-meditative state, tapped into my Higher Self, remembered to become more fluid, and pressed on.

Now, I could have decided that the primary instructor’s way is the “right” way, and this fill-in instructor’s way is the “wrong” way…and I could have walked out in the middle of class, or lost my focus on what I went there to do by getting so irritated at this different approach that I couldn’t perform the exercises in class. Instead, I became fluid… and decided to use it as a learning experience. Is it my personal preferred method? No. However, it did give me the chance to look at that class from a completely different perspective, and how to do that workout with a completely different approach. Overall, my muscles probably benefited,  as well.

In further processing all of this later on, I realized how the experience definitely provided a mirror into remembrance. I understand the importance of fluidity in our consciousness, and in doing this work, I am very mindful of walking the walk as much as I talk the talk. So, there are three very important lessons that surfaced for me:

  1. On our spiritual journey to enlightenment, each individual path is “right,” regardless of how different each is from the other;
  2. Every time we experience something new and different that is apart from what we expect, instead of rejecting it without exploration, it’s advantageous to look for what it is we can learn from it;
  3. That it is beneficial – and much more “in the flow” – to accept change with fluidity and grace, while also discovering what the change can actually provide for us as a learning experience.

These messages have been coming to me more and more… now even including something as purely physical and grounded as an intense strength training workout at the gym!

As we experience exponential changes in ourselves, in our consciousness, and in the physical world around us, it’s important to remember that the only constant is change. Change is happening, whether we fight it or not… faster and faster, as we go along during these magnificent times! So, remembering to stay conscious, fluid, and without judgment through every challenge, every change in direction, and every experience that comes our way – expected or unexpected – is the key. Because then we will find equilibrium in everything… or we’ll stop feeling like we need to have it altogether.

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