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Are You “Going With the Flow”… or Using a “Spiritual Scapegoat”?

flow2Through our spiritual Awakening process, we spend a lot of focus on getting to a place with “going with the flow.” Sometimes that’s one of the most challenging lessons for us… to consciously pry the fingers of the ego/mind off of the controls, and let the Higher Self/Universe allow for what’s highest and best to come into play. Today, this is often most prevalent when presented with a shift in one’s reality… which is happening, a LOT, in where we are collectively.

“Yes, yes, YES!” One might be quick to respond. “After so much focus on this… I’ve done it!”

And yet…

I kept on looking around me and seeing others who had progressed and changed so beautifully for quite a clip, and then suddenly, it seemed they had started going in circles, regressing, or just treading water. The stop in momentum often came when a) reaching the foot of the mountain facing “one more big change,” and/or b) right after they went over the mountain of one (or a handful of) big changes… even with other changes on the horizon.

In discussion with others I know who’ve reached one of these points, most often, there are justifications via the “new, improved spiritual vocabulary.” After I heard them about a dozen times (and probably used them on some things myself) – and I felt a vague reaction of uneasiness in hearing or saying them – I started seeing the red flag… and looked inside to ask, “Is this actually the case?” In most cases, I heard a very clear no, which then directed me to look further into it.

I’d been looking for what to call this; I’ve been noticing it come up more and more. Then, on a Facebook group I frequent, the administrator, Emma Combes, used the term “spiritual scapegoating.” 

That was it! The perfect term! That’s why hearing the statements felt like an egoic rationalization!

How clever!

How to Identify Whether You’re “Flowing” or “Spiritual Scapegoating”
The following are the most common statements that CAN be authentic… and yet, be aware that they can very often be spiritual scapegoating.

  • “Oh, it’s ok. With all of the other stuff that’s already changed, I’m glad to have the breather…”
  • “I’m just ACCEPTING that if the momentum has stopp[ed, I’m SUPPOSED to stop here for whatever reason…”
  • “Since it seems I’m continuously being prevented from ___________, I’m just going with the flow and figuring I’m not supposed to take that route. It’s all perfect, right?”
  • “Wow, I’d really like to do that… but I just don’t have the money right now. I guess it’s not in the cards.” 

So, what to do?

  • First, be observant to these words. Be honest with yourself: Are you using them repeatedly as a rationalization for not getting something done or for not being successful in some efforts of creation you’re putting forth?
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  • Second, make sure the guidance to which you’re listening is from the Higher Self, vs. the ego. If you’ve come this far, then you’ve most likely had some kind of training on how to discern between the ego and the Higher Self. Here’s an easy guide: Does the inner voice come with emotion, like fear, anxiety, regret, resentment, guilt, doubt, obligation, sorrow, pain, judgment, shame, or expectation? That would be the ego. The voice of higher consciousness is calm, clear, and decisive, free of emotion, but with support. Also, there are simple exercises you can do to ensure the answers you’re getting are from higher consciousness.
  • Third, go within. Here are some conscious suggestions to consider if you hear yourself thinking or saying such statements:
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    • “Oh, it’s ok. With all of the other stuff that’s already changed, I’m glad to have the breather…” Yep, breathers are great… except at this point in our evolution, with things speeding up so exponentially, we know we’re just gathering up momentum, vs. slowing down; stopping for too long of a clip actually causes us to regress pretty quickly these days! So, of course allow yourself to take some breaths, ask guidance if there’s anything blocking the way to resolve/shift and allow forward momentum, and then proceed proactively… before the movement forward is a more “forced” experience (like an injury, accident, or something similar)!
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    • “I’m just ACCEPTING that if the momentum has stopped, I’m SUPPOSED to stop here for whatever reason…” Understood, except… if you were putting energy toward some end, and you were going at a good rate of change and then just stopped, did you ask your guidance why you stopped? Did you ask your guidance if it’s highest and best to proceed down this path, and/or if there’s another path to pursue? How about if there’s something blocking you from proceeding further down that path that’s for you to change to allow it to flow again? Or, is there something right in front of you to look at that you haven’t yet seen?
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    • “Since it seems I’m continuously being prevented from ___________, I’m just going with the flow and figuring I’m not supposed to take that route. It’s all perfect, right?” Yes, it IS all perfect… and sometimes, the perfection is that it’s all perfectly set up to help you to look at something that you’re avoiding for some underlying issue! See the bullet above. Also, it’s important to ask guidance why the continuous redirection. Questions to ask: Is it highest and best for me to be doing something different? If so, what IS highest and best for me to be doing? Is my desired end result highest and best for me and my journey at this point? If not, set yourself to have conscious clarity and understanding of what that would be, so you can align your energy to allow it all to flow.Hint: If something isn’t flowing for you on a regular basis, then these questions are pertinent!
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    • “Wow, I’d really like to do that… but I just don’t have the money right now. I guess it’s just not in the cards.” Money, money, money! We LOVE to use money (or lack of) as an excuse to limit ourselves! In spiritual remembrance, it’s one of the first things to remember: Money is just a thing, and only holds whatever energy we give to it. If we give it an inordinate amount of value that we don’t give ourselves, it will always “be more valuable” than us… and we’ll always be reaching for and in lack of it. When we realize we are Divine and complete and infinitely powerful and fully valuable already as we are, right now, then money and resources just flow to us effortlessly… because if we hold the energy of this from the inside, everything from the outside (as our creation) will be drawn to us to try and match the vibration… infinite abundance! Then, we have no excuses tied to money (and by the way, we LOVE to use lack of money as an excuse!). I’ve had some come to me to take classes or want some session work, and use the money excuse to prevent themselves from acting on it. As a “freebie,” I’ll talk about this… and in the conversation, I’ll say, “Ok, so if you really feel like you’re ready, willing, and able to step into your power, and you feel resonant with this (and/or if you’ve asked if it’s highest and best right now and get yes), then own it! Commit energetically! Say, ‘I’m doing this!’ And put some tangible energy into it… even if it’s a small deposit. Then put it out there to the Universe to bring you the resources, in full and on time, to be able to pay for it. And then, let it go and proceed as if it’s already done!”I can’t tell you the numerous miraculous situations that have come together in putting it out to the Universe in this way! How fun!

Have I done any of this myself? Of course! Whenever we have an energetic theme of repetition around us, there’s something reflecting back to look at within ourselves! The key is to remember that there’s nothing to judge ourselves about in any of this, just to observe, and change if it doesn’t serve us. It’s all a part of this amazing game we’ve created, and the most fun part is that we’re remembering and reminding each of all of this; we can change our reality as we go! My understanding is that where we are on collective and individual Awakening is that being 80, 85, 90, 95, or even 98.9% of stepping into our Divine Self and being fully who we came here to be isn’t enough anymore, and we know it (which is why we’re now continuously pushing ourselves off of the cliff); it’s time for us to be the full 100%, and shine… ALL of us!

If you need assistance in improving the connection with your higher consciousness and getting clearer on guidance – whether you’re just starting or you’ve been on the “active spiritual path” for decades – contact me, and we can discuss session/mentor work, and/or a variety of powerful classes and packages to help support this!

 

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A Reflection from the Morning After (Elections)

reflectionsI know this morning that a majority of my awakened and intelligent soul tribe will be/are upset by the results the US elections. I was initially somewhat surprised myself…and yet, I understand; before projecting on to something “out there” (whether or not you voted for the elects), here’s a higher perspective on all of this to consider:

There was no “easy choice” on the presidential front… my understanding was that the easiest choice we had at doing this next phase of collective evolution was electing Bernie, and we threw that out the window in June. At that point, I knew that regardless of our choice moving forward, none of it would be what the ego considers “easy.” It was clear that whomever would prevail would be the one to allow the “tower” of our false reality to crumble. HRC really sort of did that when the DNC forced her in to the candidacy, and blatantly showed the public the manipulation and entitlement that goes on behind the curtain. And yet… so many went into an immediate case of amnesia about the whole thing,

For our accelerated rate of evolution, it was clear that we’ve decided to rip off the Band-Aid… and via the president elect (and a majority of Congress elects), collectively look directly into that which we deny still exists within ourselves, into the heart of the darkness we’ve been pretending for so long isn’t there anymore, bring up what remains of our collective self-loathing into the light, face it, to (hopefully) resolve it, once and for all.

No more hiding from ourselves; we’ve turned the mirror around, and there’s nothing there but us.

One part of this – and it’s a really crucial part – is whatever’s left of a continued and skillfully hidden and repressed resentment and fear of the power of Divine Feminine… including in some women themselves, who, though embodying the power of creation, are still ok with allowing themselves to be punished, martyred, and/or minimized into subordination for doing so. This would have been cleanly masked with the election of HRC (even though it was truly Bernie who represents that energy, moreso than HRC). So how to bring the remainder up to the surface and out in the open? Elect someone who appears to be a misogynist along with others who basically love to focus on efforts at controlling women and their bodies, who love the idea of controlling the half of the population (and the part within themselves) that scares them.

We have a long broken system that does NOT address ALL OF US as equally Divine individuals who are part of a unified whole – whether we’re from the US or elsewhere, male, female, black, white, orange, purple, green, LGBT, short, tall, big, small, rich, poor, and everything in between – so what better way to smack ourselves in the face around that but elect someone who appears to be openly exclusionist and biased?

In spiritual development, we recognize that we’re triggered (as in triggering fear, anger, etc.) by someone who in some way reflects something we judge about ourselves back to us. If we hide it from ourselves, we won’t look at it. Therefore, what this election says is that we’re apparently ready to look at all of this straight on, too. That’s been apparent from the beginning of when Trump made it to the forefront as a candidate.

In spiritual terms, many use the term “dark night of the soul” when referring to the journey of self-realization. In many ways, that’s what it might seem we’ve chosen as our next steps. However, how “dark” it is really only depends on how much we judge and are resistant to seeing what exists of this within ourselves. It’s when we can see this part of ourselves with acceptance and from a place of love that we don’t need to have it shown to us anymore… and/or when it’s reflected back to us, we have no reaction but acceptance and love.

No one can take our power away from us but what we allow; no one can take our happiness and peace from us but what we allow. It’s our Divine Right. We choose every day, every moment, in our reality… whether we live it in love, unity, and peace… or in anything else.

As for me, I choose love, unity, peace… laughter and fun… and from that, power. Not just with others in my community, state, and country… but around the entirety of the Earth/Gaia organism and the Multiverse of which we’re a part.

I know that many of us who do all kinds of spiritual work have been accelerated in such remembrance to now stand as a lighthouse during what can potentially be quite a “dark” period of realization for many. This is the message I’ve received for years now of the importance of evolving to be able to remain being “the calm in the storm.” Now’s not the time to disappear… but to shine brighter than ever before!

Guidance has also been for years to remember how to be fully “in-dependent” – to be completely dependent on and trusting inner guidance, REGARDLESS of what the eyes see – because that’s the way to navigate and FLOW through it all! This is what I devote my time to living and teaching(/reminding)… and where we have come to is exactly why.

So, the anticipation of our path of choice is done with; now, let’s regain our centeredness, peace, and love… and proceed. Time to consciously choose where we are vibrationally in EVERY MOMENT, and BE THE CHANGE… regardless of what it looks like around you.

  

Some Lessons in This U.S. Presidential Election

PullingOutHairIn terms of the status of the U.S. Presidential Elections, my guidance has been – as challenging as it can often be – to stay beyond judgment, beyond ego… and to observe for the past several months, in terms of the political landscape here in the U.S.. I’ve been actively watching the posts, listening to discussions, participating to some degree… but even moreso, I’ve been LISTENING… beyond the individual, into the collective… and focusing from the higher perspective.

When I do that, the buzz of all of the chatter just falls away, and I have moments when I can see the bigger picture much more clearly.

The tidal wave of Bernie Sanders has been amazing! He’s taken the hearts of so many awakened, and awakened others to the remembrance that WE DESERVE TO BE SERVED, AND TO HAVE A GOVERNMENT THAT SERVES US; WE DESERVE TO HAVE THE BEST.

The U.S. was founded on the premise of equality, of the intrinsic right to happiness. So many seem to have forgotten that!

On the contrary, as far back as I remember, in my adult life, election after election has progressively become more and more an act of “which is the lesser evil”; on the occasion that’s not so on the presidential level, it’s definitely been so on the other representative levels in our government. This has chipped away at our resolution, and our unity. For many, religious belief system beliefs and government have mixed… although the need for separation of such was primarily another reason the United States was founded.

We’ve prided ourselves on unity; and yet we live in pretty much the opposite. One group or another? Military says we’re right and someone else is wrong; religious belief systems say one group is right and another is wrong; ignorance says one group is right and another is wrong.

What started out as an ideal of unity has become nothing but an inordinate number of levels of separation.

In the spiritual realm, so much of our shifting today is remembering our Divinity; stepping into our power; and remembering that we ARE ALL naturally amazing, infinite beings, worthy of the best of the best of the best!

When we look at the past several decades of Awakening, so much of what’s been going on is the energy supportive of breaking the habits of living in lack, depravity, and such separation, to remember the power of wholeness and unity/Oneness; that’s a large part of what this shifting has been about!

And so… in walks Bernie Sanders, the embodiment of such wholeness and unity, and strikes a cord in so many who weren’t even aware that’s what they’ve been waiting for (both on the positive and resistant fronts!). A movement for sure… to remembering we DO deserve the government to support US, to do for US… because that’s what we created it for!

It’s the first time I’ve been guided to REALLY back someone; not because they were the “least of all evils,” but someone who truly represents that I/we deserve to have the best, work together, and live in true equality!

As “the establishment” was surprised by this movement – or uprising – the bias by “the powers that be” toward HRC and the party itself was blatant. And yet… many took part; many more awakened to this. The wave became huge; and yet, those used to working behind the veil of secrecy to manipulate the plan just moved ahead, this time pretty wide out in the open, ignoring the tidal wave that was shifting the energy of the whole.

The tidal wave maintained, WE DESERVE BETTER. WE DESERVE THE BEST.

For moments, there were so many conscious and looking right at the Emperor without his clothes on… KNOWING it, and SPEAKING of it!

Those behind the curtains had to shift, and quickly, to maintain status quo.

While so much attention lay there… there became another uprising of a wild card in Donald Trump. In the energy of “something different,” similar to Bernie Sanders… but in almost everything else standing for the blatant opposite of Bernie Sanders.

We became bipolar.

With some gross manipulation, the powers that be managed to get HRC the nomination of Presidential candidate… and they stole so, so many words from Bernie Sanders in the effort to persuade the minds and hearts of those who have had the taste of such richness to “come over to their team.”

What’s surprising is that many, many are falling right in line; falling into the habit we’ve been so comfortable living with for so many years – fear- (ego-) based threats (“You HAVE to vote for this candidate, because if you don’t, look at how DANGEROUS the other candidate is!”), and prejudicial propaganda (“Oh, how monumental; a WOMAN up for the actual PRESIDENCY!”). And there we went… so much progress from the energy of being DESERVING of being served by our government (“by the people, for the people”)… straight on back into the mentality of fear and lack (“It might be bad, but not as bad as ______”). This actually goes both ways, within parties, and between them.

It’s like suddenly, we’ve forgotten what this year has been about… and the progress we’ve made.

In a conversation I had with a respected peer the other day (another previous Bernie supporter), I was asked if I’d seen the rendition of “Fight Song” that the DNC has put out as their theme for the election. I said yes; except that there’s no candidate that actually represents its meaning as their candidate. I was asked if I’d heard the wonderful, heart-based words about unity and equality that the DNC has been using, to parrot Bernie Sanders… I responded yes, except they’re empty words and have yet to show anything of the sort with their current representation. I’ve heard so much parroting about how amazing it is that there’s a woman up for president… and yet, if we truly believe in equality, then the meat jacket just doesn’t matter – whether it’s a man, woman, or a one-eyed, one-horned, flying purple people eater is completely irrelevant – in comparison to how well the individual fits the bill. What’s so fascinating is how many have almost immediately forgotten how much this woman has in the past bent to represent the elite in ways that are obviously not in the highest and best interest of 99% of the constistuents. So, then… it’s ok to tout one kind of equality to douse the power of another?

When I step out of my ego’s bias, I have asked my guidance again and again in the past several days, going through ALL prospective ballot candidates, considering every single one… and I get a clear “NO” when asking if it’s for our collective highest and best, most progressive and productive interest to vote for/elect that individual.

So, what does that mean?

This morning, I read an article by Rolling Stone magazine that was an awesome interview with Jane Sanders (Bernie Sanders’ wife). The title was, “Jane Sanders: Why Bernie Voters Shouldn’t Get Over It” (follow this link for the full article). In the article was the best, most succinct way I’ve seen it stated:

They shouldn’t just get over it! What do you expect? How do you turn on a dime? We understand that. We understand that we earned their support and their trust. Now Hillary Clinton has to earn their support and their trust. And we will hold [the Clinton campaign] accountable because we are endorsing her.

FINALLY… HERE’S the point!!!

The reason I fell so in love with Bernie Sanders is that he’s had DECADES in politics of standing for equality, fairness, and unity. DECADES. He’s ALREADY proven himself as by the people, for the people… ALL of them, together.

If we want to stick with the two major candidates right now, Hillary Clinton started out one way… and over the years and up until recently has more and more aligned with the “dark side”… separation, exclusion, and decisions that are NOT made in the interests that are highest and best for a majority of the constituents. Donald Trump… well, he’s had NO experience in working in national politics, only experience with himself, his business, and his own limiting interests.

darkside_fullpicI understand that supposedly, Bernie Sanders made the concession in agreement that Hillary Clinton would take up some the more progressive stances within Bernie’s campaign. However, what’s important for EVERYONE to remember is that all that’s been done to date is lip service and a great, big marketing campaign to persuade everyone over via those cookies.

It might seem like a short three months… but here’s the message: PROVE IT TO US.

  • Donald Trump, stop spewing out statements that mean nothing, that have nothing to stand behind them but separation and exclusion and that are self-serving… and remember that equality and unity were truly what made the United States great! Show us how your background as a businessperson helps in the situation we’re in… and HOW you will focus on changing it.
  • Hillary, convince us! Find a way to SHOW US that you’re WORTHY of representing us in a state of unity, worthiness, and equality! Your track record hasn’t always shown that (especially the more recent times), and it’s become more and more obvious that you play in the sandbox to abide by the will of existing 1% establishment and profitable corporate interests in sacrifice to the constituents, so… it’s going to be necessary to show us by doing something, for the rest us, NOW. No promises; but actions!
  • There ARE “other party” candidates who are promising; yet though they speak a great game, they do lack the actual how-to to pull it off within the walls of our government as it stands. It’s not enough to have gotten “the most votes for a Green Party candidate” or “the most votes for a Libertarian candidate”… what has been done, how do you see the possibility of it getting done? Though many poo-pooed Bernie Sanders’ plans, many never took the time to research and realize that he actually had a literal plan for every proposal he had out there… on how to realistically attain them. For ALL candidates… what’s YOUR plan? How do you plan to work with the structure of our government to achieve your platforms?

And, for the constituents, here’s what’s for us to do:

  • STOP going back to making default decisions based on the propaganda of fear (which is completely ego-based) and a good marketing campaign or “campaign song”; stand in our Truth, from a place of worthiness, and remember that we deserve the best, and we deserve a president who truly represents the people, in equality, unity, and worthiness… not having someone represent us – and throwing us a bone every once in awhile – who we abide by because we “feel safer” with than “the other candidate.”
  • Hold the intention in your meditation, energy healing, whatever you do – to help provide support of higher consciousness that will allow the candidates to be guided to act in support of unity, equality, and support of the whole as their intentions and actions, and to have clear guidance, transcendent of ego, as to who will truly be the highest and best, most progressive and productive candidate to vote for… not from others, but from you…and LISTEN to what you get!
  • Require ALL of the candidates to PROVE IT… to TAKE ACTION between now and November… not words and slanderous commercials, but ACTION. And KEEP WATCH of them doing it!
  • Do the same of ALL of those positions up for election in local AND at the U.S. House of Representatives and Senate! For these positions, it is so commong for many to just do an eenie, meenie, mynie, mo at election time… and go with a name they’ve vaguely heard of. Let’s do our homework… and ensure that ALL who represent us at the government level do so in a way that supports the energy of worthiness, equality, and unity… and who is willing to work with all other representatives of other parties to achieve that common goal!

togetherWhen we look at things from the larger perspective, EVERYTHING is possible. As quickly as we’ve been shifting, three months can be a HUGE amount of time today. So, I’m leaving it open… and following guidance. In my perception, today we’re at Ground Zero; I recognize that all candidates are in some way a facet of me and you (or they wouldn’t exist in our reality), are all representative of the Divine (as we ALL are), and all are equally possible. Currently, I’m awaiting the message of who is highest and best to help us collectively, who gets themselves together… and who TAKES ACTION, NOW. NOT in slanderous commercial and propaganda.

What if we all did that… REALLY paid attention… and LISTENED in this way?

You might ask me, “So, what if, in November, your guidance STILL maintains there’s no one who fits the bill of being for our collective highest and best, most progressive and productive in the whole interest for whom to vote? What will you do then?”

I trust… and a lot can (and most likely will) happen between now and then… so I’ll let you know.  😉

Flowing Through to Your Spiritual Freedom

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(From Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Doug Adams, 1978)

Welcome to this amazing phase of transformation!

The end-of-year holidays were VERY different for me and in perceiving those around me in 2015; I felt like our HUGE shift came in November, and December was us “taking care of business” that became front and center, whether the ego wanted it to or would have rather let it go until after the holidays (and then diverted from something else).

Here’s the good news/bad news (because there is no difference): There is NO GIVE from the higher self anymore. Those of us who have been doing continuous self-focus and expansion – just as those of us who haven’t done anything – are all being hit with what’s the biggest, most pervasive and limiting behaviors, situations, and beliefs we’ve had left. These are the things that the ego has become MASTERFUL at hiding… these are the things that are so embedded into our identity (ego) that we often don’t even see them within ourselves because they’re like gravity – so there that they’re invisible. And we scratch our heads in consciousness, because we “think” we’ve taken care of “it” – we claim we have – but it persists, or often comes screaming out of nowhere, where we feel like we get blindsided upside the head… with a cast iron skillet.

However, it’s because of how deeply embedded in ourselves that these limitations exist that we can’t simply say “Shazam!” or wave our magic wand and they’ll go away… or ignore it anymore and blame our shortfalls on something else. This causes HUGE frustration and expectation by the ego, because the ego is now backed into the corner, with no way out, and it MUST at this point open its eyes and look in the mirror to move out of that corner… which is falling away… so time is short!

NO MORE, says the higher self. It’s game time; we’ve been screwing around with this long enough. Want to really hike up in vibration? THIS is how.

Time to go through than to try to circumvent (which we only do when it feels extremely uncomfortable, and it’s a HUGE HONKING NEON SIGN for us to look at straight on!)… the test for our self is, can we go THROUGH it, straight on, in FLOW? This is the muckiest part of who we are.

I’m not saying it has to be hard – nothing “has to be” anything, it’s the ego’s perception of something being hard that creates it – except that the ego most typically PERCEIVES it to be hard… because this is “the thing” that causes it to kick and scream and PANIC.

In the very, very wise words of Doug Adams: DON’T PANIC!

Flow.

Yet, whatever transpires is the last place that it seems to flow… and that’s why it’s so, so, SO important for us to allow that.

For some, it’s practiced now… I did it, and the present to myself for it? Seeing a bigger piece of the bigger, most out-of-this-reality vision than ever… because I could now look at it without fear, or with so little that I could mop it up easily as I go.

For many – even some of the most advanced practitioners I know – in denial (and there’s a LOT of denial, especially right before this) – the higher self is saying ENOUGH. TIME TO MOVE ON. And guess what? The very “explosion” – and often ensuing chaos – is put in place to FORCE us to let go of it. Our fingers are essentially being peeled back from the edge of the cliff… so we can finally allow ourselves not just to remember to fly… but to DO IT.

Here are some examples I’ve seen via friends, family, clients, and students:

  • Someone with deep, deep self-loathing issues that have been habitually masked throughout life via the attention gained from others finds themselves in a situation that pushes them to finally be on their own, with plenty of time for the mirror, to finally learn/remember how to love themselves;
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  • Someone with lifetime (and beyond) issues with self-sacrifice and an identity around over-responsibility crashing through a situation where no matter what they try to do to remedy a situation for others (having to do with spouse and children)… it all seems to get more and more mucked up, until they yell, “UNCLE” and have to fess up to the whole situation to allow everyone to help take their own responsibility in the situation, to free the person up to pursue their own true soul purpose;
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  • Someone with a lifetime (at least) of an identity and self-esteem built around being the leader in “knowing what to do” and counseling others… in a situation that is so uncomfortable because it shows their insecurity on actually standing on their own, in their own truth, until they can’t divert the attention of others away from it anymore… and are pushed to admit their own issues and do something about it, and even asking for assistance themselves;
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  • Someone stuck in a pattern of self-validation through sacrificing the self and instead distracting themselves with helping others to an extreme degree becomes inflicted with a chronic illness that prevents them from helping others at all, and in fact has to ask others to help them…

And it goes on from there (quite a number I could recount from conversations/sessions in the past month alone)… these situations cause us to feel as if our hand’s been forced to finally deal with these core parts of ourselves, because it all breaks and falls down around us… leaving us with our Truth, to look at, to accept, embrace, and love, once and for all.

 

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck.

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck: As everything that doesn’t serve the individual falls away, the True self is free to emanate.

It’s powerfully transformational… and the equivalent of The Tower card in the tarot deck: All that doesn’t serve us is falling away… and it’s ALL that doesn’t serve us, whether the ego likes it or not, once and for all.

Through this process – leading up to the explosion (whatever it is for the individual) – there’s this preparation process, like the ego sees the huge, mammoth waterfall and realizes “I must let go of everything unnecessary to survive this” – so it starts letting go of stuff that it previously clung to, but is NOT actually the big cahuna. “See? I can throw this overboard… I don’t need this anymore… SEE? I’m better now… why can’t I steer away from that waterfall?!?!?! Here, I’ll look at these things now… throw THEM overboard, I didn’t really need them… How about now? Wait, WHAT? Am I going to survive? Wha…. AAAAAGGGGHHHH!”

SPLASH (or explosion)

And then – believe it or not – RELIEF.

So, some have already gone through that… many are going through the “lightening up the load” period… some are flat out in the freefall of the waterfall. My advice is to BECOME the waterfall. Surrender. Breathe. Stay centered. DO YOUR SELF-FOCUS (meditation and energy healing on yourself) EVERY DAY… There are so many AWESOME tools of remembrance to allow us to flow through it… learn how to use them, if you haven’t already… you deserve it!!*

There’s nothing to fear with this process; in fact, as difficult as it may seem when the ego is involved… it’s something for us to celebrate, individually and collectively! After the waterfall, we’re in a pool of beautiful, clear, calm water, where we can just flow with the current expertly and begin to remember how to enjoy the ride, even in new terrain. SO much easier!

Through the “throwing stuff out of the boat” period, many will often go through any or all of the following (thanks to Laurel Ley of Dragonfly Unleashed for the list):

  • Uninspired and disillusioned/sick/loathing of the 3D
  • Judgmental of self and others (which, of course, is from self-judgment… all back to the self LOL)
  • Physically exhausted… OR having trouble sleeping – one extreme, the other, or one to the other
  • Rehashing and bashing the self for “past” issues
  • Sad, deflated, defeated
  • Trapped (again, around having to “be here”)
  • Hopeless
  • Ugly, fat, ________ (physical loathing)
  • Useless

For me, the last three weeks of 2015 was my “self test” of the waterfall, and I was flowing in it with/for the collective as well as for my self… for here and now and across the Universe, across dimensions, across many iterations. It was deeper and I peered directly into and sat in more darkness than anything I’d felt before, with no words, and yet was pushed to remember love there; I did. I followed my guidance, and for most of that period, I existed outside of space and time and just let it flow. It was a great time for my husband and kids to be home on vacation, because they kept me anchored here while I was predominantly “out there”… and I’m SO thankful, because with that, it was the only way so much could pass through for me in such an intensely short period, so I could see what I can see and am preparing for today. Every time I allowed my feet to “touch ground” here, I might experience a piece of the above, but only in moments… and then I’d take off, be in a place of observation again, and float through just fine. I finally “hit ground” on New Year’s Eve… in time for this next wave of visions to start. And thus, an ever bigger flow – because that’s part of my purpose – of this information coming in. My bandwidth has increased exponentially (including in the 3D changing our Internet provider and upgrading our connection on January 4th… how representative!), and now I’m figuring out how to allow it all in and still function here in what’s left of the 3/4D.

I feel like many may not have gotten there yet and will be getting there shortly, but I know for sure time here on this plane is SHORT for resolution! So, if it hits you upside the head – or rather the heart – like a cast iron frying pan… Surrender. Breathe. Allow. If all you do is sit and BE in meditation/self-focus time, that’s fine… and even if you don’t see or feel anything, YOU’RE DOING SOMETHING. I promise you, if you continue it consistently (by the way, the ego sometimes “turns off” or “blocks” feeling to then convince us that nothing is “happening”… so that we stop doing the self-focus, with the ulterior motive of continued avoidance, which ultimately makes it worse).

Why all of this? You might ask. So we can fully step up into WHO WE ARE and WHO WE CAME HERE TO BE, and truly SHINE! Because it’s time. There are some unbelievable things coming into play that I had visions about 3-4 years ago… I mean, really, truly unbelievable and just completely out of this reality. I thought at the time my mind was trying to decorate… I was working regularly together with a friend and we saw some really, really out there things. What came to me starting on New Year’s Eve was the realization that what we saw 3-4 years ago is in play; and what we saw – especially one truly, unbelievable thing – has literally shown up at my doorstep (no need to go looking for it), right under my nose. Never in a million years would I have really believed it to play out as we saw it, but I’ve been having very, very 3D experiences combined with non-3D that are just… incredible, for lack of better words. And like I said earlier, had I not gone through all of this with such tremendous fluidity over the holiday weeks preceding… I may have easily been paralyzed by the realization (yes, even a month ago). It’s THAT big. And now… since I’ve been the darkness with the collective, as the higher consciousness, and seen it all resolve there and within me, I’m accepting of it.

So… flow on. REALLY. Do SELF-FOCUS, EVERY DAY. Nourish yourself; love yourself. LET YOURSELF SEE – straight on – AND LOVE THE DARKNESS WITHIN (simply separation personified) AS PART OF THE WHOLE DIVINE YOU, because it’s only then that we can dissolve it in our embrace. You know all of these “special classes” with “activations” so many are talking about? Essentially, it’s already a natural part of this process, and it’s already inside of you, already accessible by you… however YOU let it play out. Let yourself come first; and realize that you’re worthy of that, just as you are! Things are changing, and it is SUCH a beautiful symphony playing out! Learn to really listen to your higher self… and to TRUST your own guidance, above all else.

Game on, everyone… I love you all! We’re being actively called on to a completely new playing field now, as leaders in the center of all of it! So OBVIOUSLY, is serves us to be as clear as possible, to best be able to flow through to help move to a completely new game! Boo-yah!

In love, laughter, magic, and the remembrance of ascension,
Angela

*There’s a 6-hour class I’m teaching ONLINE over three weeks (Monday, February 8, Monday, February 15, and Monday, February 22, 7:30-9:30ET each night), called Self-Development via Divine Consciousness, which gives you a number of useful tools to help you with all of this, and fully conscious creation of your reality. Follow the link for more information and sign up today! 

 

The Heart of World Matters

HeartWorldOver the past number of years, I’ve had repeated glimpses into what we’re creating in this world… and glimpses of what’s to come. I haven’t publicly spoken about it much in terms of the literal picture to more than a few others… because visions can be metaphorical, they can be representations, they can be from other timelines, and most of all, they can distract us from looking at what’s right in front of us, in this moment… because it’s this moment that’s what counts, what exists, what presence is all about.

Until recently, those who’ve asked me what I’ve “seen” of the future, and/or if what I see is the same as ____________ [insert any name here] who has published their own visions, have typically gotten a reply from me about THIS moment instead.

From the beginning of what I call my “Grand Awakening,” when being “reminded” of what I ultimately came here to do, I was shown – or rather, helped to remember – what we have planned here at this time… as we finally complete the cycle of peaking in remembrance without crashing from lessons of the ego (which we’ve done a number of times over the eons).

One of the most challenging things for the ego to allow is the remembrance that our entire existence, all that is around us, is our creation. It’s full self-responsibility – lucid dreaming on a Universal scale, that we are the Dreamer as much as the Dreamed. The Divine Consciousness (or any one of a handful of other names) expressed as who we are. More and more, we’re even creating discoveries in our sciences – particularly quantum physics – that show us this in a way that the analytical mind can better accept, including researched proof (over and over) that intention creates our reality, and that love within is THE healer and true, interminable power of all.*

We just forget that in the exploration of separation… especially when we’ve forgotten that we are the Dreamer, with many, many different dreams, simultaneously running within the larger ones (think about the movie “Inception” to the max!).

We are all One, split up into the innumerable facets of this amazing, Universal gemstone. Here, incarnate on Earth, the part of our individual consciousness that resides in the physical body forgets that… that’s been a part of the game, part of this experiment of extreme separation, of creation via separation.

We’re at the verge of the end of yet another cycle; and so, the question many who are consciously aware of it ask is, How do we do it differently this time, to finish this once and for all?

Some have believed that we wouldn’t need some sort of collective catalyst to help wake us up within the dream; my understanding has been that we would… it just depended on the size of the catalytic event or set of events that had to happen. AND – most of all – that to break the cycle, to complete this and move on, what would be different wouldn’t be to avert the catalyst, but simply to act differently through it.

Yes, some have chosen to “wake up” later on in the game, but we put the catalyst in place to ensure that the hangers on would have quite the loud alarm clock… and still have a chance to adjust and align all consciousness within the whole to move forward.

For the past several years, I’ve received the message, again and again, to remain the calm in the storm. I’ve had trial after trial around me, I’ve taught it (or reminded it) to others who’ve been waking up to who we all are.

That message has repeated itself to me again and again. The purpose? If one stays the calm in the storm, remembering that regardless of what we see around us is a dream, and we are all but one Divine Consciousness… then we can stay in a place of clarity, acceptance, and love… knowing that all is perfect, trusting that we know exactly where we’re to be, and when, to optimize what one would call the ultimate soul’s purpose. Ultimate attainment!

All that I’ve been guided to teach – connecting to one’s own Higher Self via quieting the chatter of the ego (which was created to explore separation and identity) – as simple as it is (meditate, meditate, meditate) is the answer… because it allows us to remember that we already have full access/remembrance to all of the answers within us!

Staying the quiet in the storm means allowing the stillness to remain within, always. Stillness allows us the conscious remembrance and connection to our Higher Consciousness, the Higher Consciousness of the Universe… and the higher in consciousness, the purer the answer comes in love, which in essence, is Truth.

For the past several weeks, the consistent message about staying the calm in the storm shifted slightly, to BE unconditional love, always… all thoughts, words, and deeds. And the only way to truly do that is to fully accept and embrace that each one of us is equally Divine, equally worthy, and equally a message – expressed as who we are and what we do – as a facet of the whole. Each of us has a very different reminder to bring to all of us, as the mirror back to what’s within, as the Dreamer. 

The more self-exploration, the more resolution, the more acceptance, peace, and love we can explore and employ within ourselves (some would call that healing, but I simply call it remembrance), the more that is reflected back to us from what’s in the world around us.

Hate doesn’t “cure” hate. Violence doesn’t solve anything; it creates more separation. The glorification and romanticism of militaries going off to kill one people in sacrifice for “protection” of another – because of a belief of what’s “right” and what’s “wrong” (including religious beliefs) – only ultimately grows separation and hate through killing; we’ve proven that again and again. I’ve worked with a number of military and ex-military with PTSD from the internal battle they have within themselves, because even though they’ve at some time bought the excuse and propaganda that killing some to “protect” others is right, there’s a part of them that knows they’re still killing others. So, then… why do we continue to perpetuate it? War will never be the answer to love and peace… we’ve repeated THAT lesson again and again! The way to truly shifting to a peaceful way is to remember that beyond these meat jackets we call physical bodies, we are all the same, that we are all of the Divine Consciousness, the Dreamer of the Dream… and even what the ego judges and considers the most despicable individuals are also a part of our Self. Time to embrace that, too.

Time to turn the tables, release the idea of victimhood, and ask ourselves, “If having is an indication of wanting (meaning I have something in my reality because I created it)… then why would I want to create this in my reality?”

THAT’S what’s for us to do differently!

From the higher perspective, we never just have a Game Plan A, B, and C… we actually have far, far more than that; more like down to and beyond Game Plan WWWW, XXXX, YYYY, and ZZZZ….and every step along the way that we ignore the messages, the bigger the reminder gets. It starts within each individual, then ramps up to groups, communities, and eventually the entire collective of Earth, and beyond. I don’t know about you… but I’d prefer the little reminders, myself, vs. what I call the explosions! Thus, the true importance of looking within to change all that is based in separation and resistance – fear, anger, regret, resentment, anxiety, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, judgment, shame, frustration – is vital, if we’d prefer to prevent the “big bang.” And, even though things are getting a bit heated on the collective level in the 3D, there’s always the opportunity to shift its volume and impact via what we do when we stop projecting what’s inside onto others, and instead looking in the mirror at ourselves, first and foremost.

So, many ask, “What you’re saying is that those who have died, those who are considered the perpetrators, volunteered to do this, created this themselves… and they are both the same?” Yes. They’re me; and they’re you. They are the pieces – the individuals – who stepped up and said, “Yes! If we get to Plan ______ and we need to start having collective reminders, I will be one who takes part in that play!” To them, we owe a mountain of gratitude and love… for taking on the role they agreed to take on.

The best way to honor them for their role is to turn our focus back in on ourselves; to shift from a place of separation to a place of perceiving the whole, and of coming from a place of love in knowing that, always. Accepting all as the crucial note in the symphony of this experience that they are, including your Self… and knowing for as many options to play out as there are in response via separation, that the one via unity – that of love – is far stronger, has more true impact, and essentially renders violence, hate, and fear useless, recognizing them as the illusion that they are.

Mari is the basic name of the goddess found throughout the Mediterranean region, and Isis-Mari is her Egyptian name. Like Mary of the Christian tradition, she is a vast cosmic sky goddess as well as an earth mother goddess. In the Egyptian tradition, she was associated with a star which was the source of love and light radiating from her heart.

Mari is the basic name of the goddess found throughout the Mediterranean region, and Isis-Mari, or just Isis, is her Egyptian name. Like Mary of the Christian tradition, she is a vast cosmic sky goddess as well as an earth mother goddess. In the Egyptian tradition, she was associated with a star which was the source of love and light radiating from her heart.

In backing up and looking at the much, much larger picture, I actually find it so incredible how we have this message smacking ourselves right in the face. How, you ask? Well… it is the TRUE energy of unification – the Oneness – that is represented by the Universal Divine Mother. It’s that energy within us and of which we exist that reminds us that the true answer is in unity, in looking within and remembering our Oneness and unconditional love. And here on Earth, we are at a point where we have SUCH a literal representation of the reminder of the Divine Mother via the name of the one of the currently prominent terrorist groups – ISIS – when the Ancient Goddess Isis is a representation of the Divine Mother in the form of a reminder (a big, honking mirror to us) of the importance of spiritual development within through the representation of such a lack of that. Could we be more literal???

The world events are just beginning to ramp up, as the alarm clock goes off; I understand this is just the beginning; it will get louder and more intrusive the longer we ignore it… and there’s no snooze button anymore!!! The resounding message: Do it differently; look within instead of projecting without. Remember that if we weren’t a part of this in some way… then it wouldn’t be created. Self responsibility is remembering that as we are the Dreamer as well as the Dreamed… and also that we CAN change the dream, at any time! First and foremost, our biggest priority is finding/remembering self-love, acceptance, and redirecting the ego’s job from that of separation and projection to one of ensuring that all thought, word, and deed support remembering, existing in, creating from, and emanating the Oneness in unconditional love while still maintaining the individuals that we are. Yes, it will take some focus; yes, it will take looking in the mirror at what the ego has formerly perceived as pretty uncomfortable stuff. Ultimately, it’s our quickest path to transcending this experience of such extreme separation, war, and (self-)destruction to take a new path – finally – and see what our new creation can bring in a much higher vibration!

 

Need assistance? It’s my life’s dedication to help others help themselves, to remember their Divinity, that we are ALL the psychic/intuitive and the healer… that we “heal” ourselves, that we create our own reality… and to help get past blocks based in traditional beliefs that limit our experience. Ready to change, to “get to the next level,” and explore the freedom of limitlessness? See my upcoming Self Development via Divine Consciousness class in January 2016,  packages and sessions pages… and get started today; I’d love to work with you! 

 

* There is a LOT of literature and research results around this; one such well-documented and discussed is The Intention Experiment, by Lynne McTaggart, and resulting research via the Institute of Noetic Sciences)

Higher Perspective for Politics, Considering Foundational Change that Serves Us

PoliticsFoundationI’ve been watching the upcoming U.S. Presidential election preliminaries with much greater interest than is typical for me, as the circus ring of politics has become so pretentious and truly  meaningless over the past few decades.

It’s time for REAL change; we’ve skated for decades now on principles, focusing on principled fights that hide the REAL underlying issues, and what has come up for change within us. This is from a much higher perspective of consciousness than U.S. politics has allowed for a very long time… if ever.

When we shift our focus to the essential remembrance that we are here to remember that we ARE always Divine, worthy, infinite, and equal in that – nothing to prove, nothing to earn, simply to EXPRESS this Divinity and worthiness – and we allow ourselves to actually attain our ultimate soul’s purpose, which will bring us the ultimate bliss and help us LIVE the natural unconditional self-love that our Divine Self actually is… then it allows us to look at all of what plays out in the 3D from a much different angle!

From this perspective, my understanding is that what’s most important is for us to have the opportunity to be the best of who we are – each and every one of us – and be adequately equipped to pursue our own heart’s passion without having to have an epic challenge in odds to overcome to do it (and thus the allowance of flow, grace, and ease). No one is more or less worthy than another – we’re all infinitely worthy, infinitely Divine. Money, position, “things” make absolutely no difference in true worth, as they’re simply part of the illusion we’ve created in the 3D.

So, if we started with that premise… we would stop trying to “fix” what’s old and outdated with Band-Aid after Band-Aid, and instead focus on the following, to rebuild the way we exist here:

1 – Readily available higher education for all (public college, like most other countries, would be fabulous), and better quality of primary education. When we bring our children up to be fully equipped to follow their passion, follow their dream… it’s important to have the tools to support and allow this to happen in an easier and more graceful manner. To me, THAT’S where it starts.

2 – A culture that promotes preventative health and the highest health of the constituent… which means the elimination of perpetuating GMOs as well as using harmful chemicals on most crops; taking focus away from fast food garbage and instead on healthier ways of life, building a better foundation for individuals… so they need LESS reactive and emergency health care; in turn, having a functional, integrative health care system that REALLY promotes prevention and THE CURE vs. putting a Band-Aid on the symptoms, and creating chronic physical system breakdown from that perpetuation.

3 – It’s time to remember that men and women are FULLY equal, and it’s time for us to acknowledge that and LIVE/ACT that way. Equal pay, equal opportunity, regardless of what they do… and that the pay is adequate to support them in a way that they can attain the basic fundamentals in life (and yes, that would include funding via taxes, too… and would be well worth it).

Men can be nurturers if they so choose, and women can be leaders, free of being judged by outdated cultural expectations of “the women’s role.”

4 – This means quite a bit of restructuring of our “work system.” I’ve recently read that there are multiple countries that are going to or have gone to a SIX-HOUR work day (vs. the 8, 10, or more hour standard), to boost productivity, because studies have been done to show that in a shorter period, people are more apt to be more focused and productive… and then they have more energy for the rest of life and what else they’d like to pursue. The companies that do this don’t allow social media in the office or stuff like that… so employees do their jobs, get done, and move on with the day.

There is the situation like Denmark, which has something like an $18/hour minimum wage… and even though something like 40% of the pay apparently goes to taxes, it goes to fund free public education, free funded child care and health care, and a pension fund. So, guess what? Yes, they might have a far smaller take home pay percentage wise… but if I were getting paid minimum wage of $18/hour – at the “bottom of the barrel” – and only bringing home $10 plus change per hour because I was getting all of that from what was taken out – then I would be getting A LOT more intrinsically as a foundation in my life than say, American workers working at $8/hour PRE-TAX, because they have to use what’s left after taxes to pay for all of those things!

There are so, so many things for us to re-structure, reconsider, and renew!

4 – Time to let go of the belief that it’s a women’s/mother’s role/responsibility to stay home with the children; it’s still generally a culturally imparted expectation that the mother is the nurturer, and that “children will suffer” without that. Actually, I don’t believe it’s “innate” for a woman to want to stay with her children all the time… it’s a choice. This limiting cycle evolved so that a woman traditionally has been brought up believing that what primarily made her worthy to society was her role as a mother and a wife. So, to “prove herself worthy,” she HAD to sacrifice herself for her children and husband… so others would think her a good mother/woman, which then validated her (from the outside) as a person. This has been a self-sustaining cycle for a LONG time… and time to break THAT cycle! That role then exacerbated the validation that men were expected to work themselves to death, give up THEIR own interests, give up nurturing their own children to that of the mother, so they could focus “bringing home the bacon”… OR, the woman who works has often STILL taken on a majority of the “home roles,” working herself to death, without time for herself and her own enjoyment because she’s burning the candle at both ends.

And thus, such roles evolved to that… so that a woman often convinces herself that “what makes her happy” is her children. Since the ’60s, these have been the first several generations that have brought about a huge change in this… and we’ve been feeling around in it for awhile. I have a NUMBER of women as clientele, in their mid-adulthood, who are at a point of depression, anger, and resentment because they allowed that expectation to be imparted on them; they gave up a career that they loved to “stay home with the kids,” and eventually became resentful of their husband and the kids (and ultimately, themselves) because of it. Now, they’re fighting with themselves because their Higher Self is telling them they came here to do MUCH MORE than that… they really WANT TO and FEEL THE NEED TO do something more… and yet they stop and limit themselves in every which way because they hold a tremendous amount of guilt and internal conflict due to all of that.

Again, in our spiritual evolution, we’re remembering that we’re worthy from the getgo… there’s NOTHING to prove, and when we really remember and live that, and feel free to do so, then we make decisions on TRULY what makes us happy, vs. what we SHOULD DO because of the need for external validation of our worth (with the implication that we have to attain worthiness, vs. that we already intrinsically have it).

When we start from the above – from the support around us to pursue what it is that TRULY makes us passionate and in love with ourselves and our lives every day, from the INSIDE, without the happiness and worthiness being dependent on others (like children, spouses, family, peers, etc.) – then we make better decisions, truly honoring ourselves, and we can naturally live in a much higher level of happiness. We stop trying to impart influence and power over others to prove externally that we’re worthy (that one is “smarter,” “more powerful,” or overall “better”), because we’re supported in all ways that allow us to know this is already so… and it’s also true for all of those around us. When we make decisions based in existing self-worth and self-love, equality, and Divine power, then it’s easier to decide and to act from what we know is highest and best for ourselves… and this is imparted on all who are around us… ESPECIALLY the children we choose to have!

BY THE WAY… this would be natural and easy population control, because the need to validate ourselves by filling the role of having children and sacrificing ourselves to be what has previously been deemed “a good parent” would be eliminated, so fewer might have children, and those who do would most likely have fewer, with the perspective that we can freely love and support ourselves AND unconditionally love others around us, without sacrificing one or the other!

In such a world, we would culturally and sociologically support that by having support for that available… high quality education, AND high quality child care available, along with true consideration of the need for familial bonding for both parents when a child is born, thus providing them BOTH with an adequate amount of time to focus on the development of the family before returning to the pursuit of their other passions (job, or whatever). If there is attainable high-quality child care available, then the mother or father wouldn’t “feel guilty” about returning, in a career that makes them happy… and they would in turn be happier, more focused, interactive, and involved/engaged parents, again in turn teaching our kids to pursue THEIR own happiness and having that natural balance in THEIR lives as they mature, as well.

It’s NOT just topically addressing a few issues… it’s NOT sliding back in time so “mothers could stay at home with their children”… it’s completely evolving our world to a NEW place that TRULY supports the individual, all as equally Divine, all as equally and infinitely worthy… with all support focused on the attainment of REAL personal happiness… following one’s passion, which ultimately translates into a vast majority of the semantics that ail us going by the wayside. As personal happiness goes up, natural acceptance of equality would be the norm, crime would go down, individual connection would go up, quality of life would go up , and life becomes far easier and far more enjoyable… because it’s time for us to ENJOY the rest of the journey!

So, instead of voting for the same ol’, same ol’… going through the motions, as collectively we go through the motions, allowing ourselves to continue to be limited and minimized, while also INCREASING hierarchy and egoic differentiation… how about instead we see things in this new light and ENGAGE with the intention of rebuilding foundations based in empowerment, for the self and all? Time for us to take off the pre-defined, limiting labels – stop limiting ourselves to have to vote one way because of ______________ (it’s the political party of which we’re a part, it’s the way our spouse, kids, or family want us to vote, it’s how we’ve always voted, etc.), stop choosing the “least of all evils,” stop thinking “someone else will take care of it,” stop letting the media and others dictate what we believe so that a small group of hierarchy-focused, power-hungry individuals continue to manipulate the circus (who act as they do and as though they’re superior to others because of a deep, often subconscious self-loathing and feeling of just the opposite, with an egoic NEED to assert their power over others). It’s time to complete this lesson of perpetuating disempowerment and lack, and instead tune in to our Higher Self, accept our full self worth, self responsibility… and remember that WE are the ones we’ve been waiting for to truly shift this existence to it’s “next level”… which is to be incorporated into ALL areas of life! 

Heeding My Own Words on My Journey…Listen, Listen, Listen!

magicalbookSMDoing what I’ve volunteered to do as my life’s work is quite the incredible and magnificent journey! And yet… as magical as it is, as well beyond the day-to-day 3D, I still find I’ve had some very 3D fears, resistance, and experiences with which I’ve limited myself at some very crucial points.

One of my fortes is writing and communication; I find it easy and flowing… and I also know how to consciously incorporate the telepathic meaning/information well beyond the words I use. My calling to “write the books” about all of this – all of what I discuss, teach, experience in relation to helping others to remember the Universe in some ways very differently than we have previously – has been continuously pushing at me via Higher Consciousness for several years; I have far, far more to share than what I’ve even portrayed in many public forums!

However, I’ve procrastinated.

“Too much to do!” I would proclaim, again and again, every time it came through in meditation, or via message through others. Or, “It will be out of date as soon as it’s published!” Or innumerous other excuses! I would put time aside to write… and write something else (like a blog LOL), update my Website, make a few calls… well, you get the idea. I’ve written much of it in drawers full of journals, and… nothing yet has made it to the light of day beyond smatterings and discussion and verbal teaching.

I KNOW better; listening to guidance is what I teach as the CORE!

However, I’ve been putting off guidance, time and again… continuously on this for years. This is so funny, because I look back over it now, and laugh at myself (one the best tools for accepting ourselves).

What I continuously talk about and teach, all the time, is how when we ignore true guidance – that which comes from the Higher Self (vs. the ego) – it always starts with a little nudge – a little message, reminder, whatever you want to call it. The more we ignore those nudged, the little messages… the bigger they get. “Can you hear me now?” The Higher Self asks… and it doesn’t stop turning up the volume until the guidance/knowing is followed.

This is why we eventually manifest crises into our lives; we’ve ignored a nudge and the messages so much (typically because in some way, shape, or form the ego is uncomfortabe because of SOME resistance-based belief that it holds) that the Higher Self, the Universe, the Divine, however you want to term it, FINALLY has to kick you in the butt in a way that you CAN’T. DO. ANYTHING. ELSE.

Again, I know better.

I’ve gotten through gobs and gobs… and my experiences are truly miraculous and magical. I’ve started an amazing practice and modality around this – in accordance to HUGE guidance (see more about Trinity Energy Progression here); it never steers me wrong! All in all, I trust my guidance fully; it’s the waning ego’s moments of control that cause me to not DO something when I’m guided to do it.

And yet… here I am.

A pattern of limitation and blockades has turned up in my reality, regardless of all efforts to circumvent them. What started happening defies an explanation…. EXCEPT that I’ve finally gotten to a level of denial that I’ve been kicked in the butt! My ego… has been kicking and screaming and looking every which way but at the white elephant in the room, until now.

Enough screwing around with this, says the Higher Consciousness. Time to write, and REALLY share this Remembrance!

I had to look long and deeply at myself, and also simultaneously zoom out to the larger picture at the entire pattern. In doing that, I realized that this is ALMOST EXACTLY what happened when my guidance kept pushing me to close down my former business and do this work – my higher calling – in 2010. How could I have been so blind to it? I’m one of the most adept at seeing the messages, putting together the jigsaw puzzle! (Actually, I do already know that answer, and it’s a three-letter word: E-G-O.)

This is SO my heart; why would I deny this? Again, I had to look at whatever was left… because there really wasn’t much! And what was left was… this is the final layer; this is what’s completely inside. This is completely opening in full Truth, full vulnerability, full acceptance of me and my Remembrance. ALL of it! That’s the ONLY WAY for me to write this series of books that I’m to write, with a completely open, completely Divine heart. Put whatever excuse to it I want, this is IT.

Sounds simple, right?

So, last week I surrendered, after a number of fits and frustrations.

Whatever shifted caused me to look at this and say to myself, “WHY have I let this go so long? This is my heart…” And then I realized that the reason I did was BECAUSE this is my heart!

I’ve now blocked time to do it. Three days so far, one hour/day, 3,500 words. And, I have a LOT more time blocked to write this week… and moving forward.

I started four days ago.

I found my writing spot… at a lake near my home, quiet and a very, very nice vibration! For some reason, it all feels effortless there.

As I should have known, as soon as I started writing, I would receive such a show of support in multiple ways from the Universe and my Higher Self (in some very humorous ways, I might add).

Day 1:

The lake is about 2 miles around, and it’s rather cut off right now because there’s some extreme road construction going on right around it, so not a lot of car traffic goes in; I parked in the “far parking lot” (on the opposite side from the clubhouse/center), and made my way in. So, laptop in my backpack, off I went!

I found the PERFECT SPOT, in the shade of a bush at just the right angle at the waterside, with dragonflies dancing around me, about 1 mile from the parking lot.

It was SO EASY! (Again, more wondering on the way out as to why it had taken me so long to get to this point!)

Day 2:

On that morning, my intention was to go back to that same spot, because it was SO flowing and SO easy! As I came around the bend, there was a man in that EXACT SPOT (and I hadn’t seen anyone else until that point)… FISHING. Not only fishing, but JUST pulling up a fish as I walked up!

He was in scrubby clothing, sort of scrubby (as was I)… there was something different about him…and he looked me in the eyes, with a sparkle smiled and greeted me as I walked up. I returned the hello… however, in those first moments, I was pouting inside a little, with the thought, “REALLY? In the whole of 2 miles around the lake, this guy picked THIS EXACT SPOT from which to FISH?”

I kept going, trying to be a little bit irritated… but I felt this push to look at… something.

As I found another spot, just around the next bend, I was putting my little pillow on the ground to sit on when I GOT IT…

He was FISHING… and he’d CAUGHT A FISH. RIGHT in the spot from where I started my “official writing.”

One of the sayings I use ALL the time, repeatedly, with my students and clients is that my goal is to “teach one to fish instead of giving them the fish.” Full Divine self-empowerment! If I had a dollar for every time I’ve said it over the past five years… well, I could probably give the 1% a run for it!

SO FUNNY that this was the “support statement” from Higher Consciousness… and just on Day 2!

Day 3: 

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Part 1: When I first sat down, I did a meditation at the water’s edge, in the same place I sat yesterday. The Oneness was effortless; I could feel everything! After awhile, I noticed there was some odd thrumming sound that was unfamiliar to me – not to the left or right (or across the lake), but right in my vicinity. I opened my eyes, and there was a hummingbird, hovering over the water, about 2 feet in front of me and slightly to my left! It was really interested in me! We looked at each other for what seemed like 30 seconds… maybe less… but it was long enough that it was pointed that I notice the oddity of this… and then it flew away, soon to circle around and come back to the jewelweed in bloom around 6 feet from me.

There are SO MANY things about the symbolism of the hummingbird… something that occurred to me about it when we were looking eye to eye is this: Regardless of the flapping of its wings at such a tremendous speed, its head stays pretty centered and still while in flight. Pretty amazing. Staying the center of the storm – its OWN storm! There was far more…

Part 2: After I’d been writing, I packed everything back up in my backpack and was walking one way to leave, when a man who had passed by doubled back from the other direction and called to me. He asked me if I was an author; I smiled and said yes, I was writing a book. He pressed more and I realized he thought I was a published author he’d met in our area; he gave me her name (he said a book she wrote was At the Water’s Edge, which I thought was funny, given that I’d been sitting at the water’s edge when he’d first walked by). We talked for a few minutes, and he said, “I wish you much success and many blessings with the completion of your book…” I thanked him and turned to walk away, laughing to myself… with SO MUCH gratitude for the support… because really, I couldn’t make THAT up any better in my reality!

AND… things have started flowing again in multiple areas, just three short days of DOING this!

Now, I’m motivated. The writing itself is like a deep release that I didn’t realize I needed… it feels easy and freeing! And again, I ask myself… why was it that I put this off for so long? Could part of it be that I didn’t until now believe that something so profound and vulnerable and core to me could feel so good?

I recognize that it’ll come up to shift any grain of sand that’s left along the way that would allow the ego to block me; that’s why I feel like just three short days in, I’m receiving so much support from the aethers. However… the momentum’s started… and that’s all I really need; I’m READY!

 

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