The “Storm’s” Just Beginning… How to Smooth Out the Edges As We Go…

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WOW. This week has been a H-E-A-V-Y week energetically in all ways, shapes, and forms… and this goes WAY beyond those who have lost so much in terms of the storm called Sandy that ran up from the Caribbean, along the East Coast, and into the Northeastern United States… along with some other wild events around the world. There are quite a few I know who have contacted me – who had no real personal distress from anything of the sort – who asked, “What the HECK is going ON?!…” Followed by a number of issues that have come up personally. What’s happened physically has brought up MUCH to heal for us, collectively and individually, about what happens when the “old” falls away to make way for the new… and along with that, much resistance, fear, and even anger about change, and what that means for each of us.

When I had my Grand Awakening in 2009, it wasn’t too long before I was having conversations with Archangel Ezekiel (my bud LOL)… and he told me at that time that we’re coming upon a time of great change, in ALL ways… and he specifically told me that beyond the spiritual changes, there would be many physical ones, including many earthquakes, fires, and floods (I was actually “shown” this about a month before the Haiti earthquake in early 2010). Early last year or late the year before, he came to me and told me to remember to “be the calm in the storm”… and to share that with all of the others who have volunteered to be on the front end of “doing this work” during these times. At the time I understood what he meant, but I didn’t UNDERSTAND it as I do today.

We’re IN “the storm,” full throttle now. The shifting is happening faster and faster – we’re in full gear now – and it’s being reflected in our physical world in many, many ways (one BIG one was evidenced in this week’s big PHYSICAL storm).

For many it’s starting to feel out of control, like there is no ground under our feet… and it is because all that doesn’t serve us in some way, shape, or form is falling away, whether we want it to or not. The reality that is coming through is that there IS no ground under our feet; we’re in the process of creating a new, better one! This is completely without judgment; in releasing duality, there is no right and wrong… it is that the I AM self knows the plan; it knows what it is that doesn’t serve us and can look at it without the judgment and resistance of the ego… and the Higher Self is VERY tied into the various groups of collective consciousness, including that of being part of the organism Gaia… who is rebirthing herself into a new existence.

The key to remember is this: It’s OK to have moments when we’re sad, angry, upset, anxious, resistant… however, remember that part of the purpose of being on this active spiritual path is to LEARN how to DO IT DIFFERENTLY… which means not allowing ourselves to get lost in the mire, no matter HOW bad it looks; keeping the higher perspective, remembering to rise above the muck; and most importantly, keeping our center, to know that this is simply illusion. ALL of it.

I was also told several years ago to “STEP IN FAITH.” Three simple words I’ve learned have layers and layers and layers of meaning, with bigger steps – that become jumps and then huge, mondo leaps… the more I trust, the more I’m asked to trust. And I do. Does the ego have moments? Absolutely! But the more I’m shown that the more I trust the more I’m tended to… the more I trust. The more faith I have that my Higher Self has it all planned out, and that I can lose the resistance and simply be in the moment. Regardless of how much “work” we’ve done on ourselves, regardless of how far we’ve come, there will be days when something comes up and you think, “Where is THIS coming from? I thought I got rid of that a long time ago!” Or, something will come up that you had NO IDEA was resistant within you! The key is… CLEAR YOUR MIND, RELEASE JUDGMENT ON YOURSELF about it, and ask what the core underlying issue is, and ask what the specific lesson is there to learn. Then, if you don’t know how to release it… go to someone who can help you to (and then, learn how to do it yourself… because you CAN).

Also, any of us who know how to do healings to the various groups of collective consciousness, to mass consciousness, to Gaia… please do so, continuously! The more of us who can do that regularly, the more it actually helps us – and our version of it – individually. What I’m being told is that all of this has to do BIG TIME with the collective agreement to “rip off the Band-Aid”…and guess what? It’s time… and the ego is just as afraid of doing so as our Higher Selves anticipates it. So, the focus of the healings… to get the Highest Level of Divine Truth on the shifting and change, what that means for us, on how to release EVERYTHING except what serves us in the Highest and Best way… with the most grace, ease, balance, harmony, and joy. And how to be completely FLUID to change, accept and EMBRACE it…

Individually, the key is this: If we remain the calm in the storm (and, in the physical sense, the calm “after the storm”), we can be more productive in changing our perspective, which will, in turn, allow it all to flow through more quickly to a better place. There is a purpose for everything; even if we don’t see it in the moment. The key, again, is to rise above the resistance of the ego (which most often makes us blind to the bigger picture in the moment)… and know that the more fluid and positive and in love we remain, the quicker the situation and/or emotions will move on out… and we can get on to the much bigger and better things awaiting us!

Looking at What Weighs Us Down… So We Can Continue On WITHOUT the Weight!

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Most recently, I’ve been working on releasing “all that’s still weighing me down… and preventing me from attaining/maintaining the path of my ultimate soul’s purpose.” Funny, consistently, I’ve been getting clearings on my throat chakra (and I was thinking, “Um, yeah… because I don’t COMMUNICATE enough?!” LOL).

Yesterday, during meditation, while in the Trinity Energy, I had set the same intention, and was taken to an older looking ship, wearing this beautiful velvet cloak (and funny I’ve been seeing myself wearing such a cloak in meditation for the past few weeks… literal translation, “cloaking” myself with this beautiful adornment…as a distraction); I was walking along on the ship and saying to the crew, “Where is she… it’s time to let her out!” and I noticed that it changed to, “It’s time to let ME out!” I found this hatch, opened it, and there was a young woman, in her late teens/early 20s looking out at me, scared. I told her it was time, and she jumped into me… and then eleven others – other “parts of me” – came out and jumped into me, also ( (I’m pretty sure it was a total of a dozen, that 12 magical number). My light body EXPLODED…and I just sat and expanded, expanded, expanded.

Then, part two of my meditation, I went to a remote healing/energy work circle that I’ve joined where we go to an etheric place that’s been created for us to “meet” to do work together every Wednesday. One of the women there looked at me, and I knew her as a sister… in the beginning of the session while I was there, she sighed, reached out, and said, “Here, let me remove that for you…” I was like, “Hunh?” And realized she was removing thread that had my mouth stitched shut.

Yesterday afternoon, I had an energy share with someone (when two practitioners get together and do a session on each other), and when I received, I set the same intention. THAT was where we got to the core of the matter! Both of us saw pretty close to the same thing: a part of me that I’ve yet to step into fully, because of fear, resistance, discomfort… and I basically had an argument with my Higher Self about it (“Isn’t this ENOUGH? What does it matter?” etc. etc. etc. – it sounded a lot like some of the arguments I’ve had with my teenagers! LOL). I was reminded of my soul’s purpose… of which this part is – I GUESS – pretty important. There was enough resistance that tears began to flow.

So, after that, a client came in for a session; I always talk about how AWESOME it is to do energetic healing facilitation work for a living, because EVERYTHING we do and have presented to us in our lives is a reflection in some way, shape, or form of something inside of us… and thus, I always set the intention that for whatever I work with clients to clear, to simultaneously give me the same, for whatever my version of that would be! Anyway, we went from some fairly topical clearings to diving off of a completely unexpected cliff into a HUGE core issue that hadn’t been uncovered for her before: All of her trust issues were based on a deeply covered belief that she had at some point been “abandoned by God,” as if God were separate from her, and as if there was a possibly of that… And this person had never consciously recognized that, but everything literally stopped short in the session until we uncovered, worked on, and cleared that.

It was huge for her – cleared a lot in her energetic field instantaneously, and subsequently, I was hit with a etheric 2×4 as I suddenly realized, OF COURSE. There’s been SO MUCH I’ve cleared over the past several years in relation to an understanding of part of my soul’s purpose that I haven’t shared (and it was much of what I was arguing with my Higher Self about)… I thought (always key: “thinking” vs. “feeling”) I had cleared everything around it. Nope; I skirted it! After the session, when I reflected on the resolution I had received myself, I could see the fingers of hesitation I’d had weaving through much of the history, the knowledge, what I’ve been told and what I’ve remembered about the story I’ve agreed to tell (which includes the book I’ve been getting pressed to write, since of COURSE it all ties together!)… and why and how that residual hesitation was based on a deeply embedded level of unhealed distrust. In that moment, I understood the need to be at the level of complete surrender – to my Divine self, to the Divine beyond that, and how I needed to be COMPLETELY resolved of this resistance to move on. I can now see all of the spots of distrust that existed, how cleverly I’ve masked it from myself until now, how I’ve gone about 90% of the way, but have held back on that other 10% – the MOST IMPORTANT 10% – and why. It was SUCH an incredibly powerful clearing for my client… and it turned out, for me, too! BEST part of the job! LOL!

Last night, I held an online Trinity Energy Progression share with some remote practitioners. Shared updates, questions, etc… and then broke off and did individual remote sessions together, one-on-one. When I received, I didn’t even set the intention I’d been using; I simply set it to receive what is highest/best for me at the moment. I didn’t share any of what had been going on with me with the person giving to me prior to the session. And yet… the practitioner saw me in this beautiful landscape, at the top of these humongously tall trees, at the edge of a bird’s nest… getting ready to “leave the nest”… and to fly. On my end, as I received, I saw a whole bunch of people in Halloween costumes, with masks and cloaks on (funny, about the cloak thing)… I was in the middle… and took my mask off, shed the cloak, and stepped away from the rest, forward, into myself fully… and expanded, expanded, expanded into this incredibly huge Light Being.

When I went to bed last night, I couldn’t remember the last time I had felt so completely nurtured and comforted as I fell asleep. I had some wonderful experiences in my dream state, and feel AMAZING today… and ready to take it ALL on, as I’m allowing it to all come together now… I’m pretty sure… I thought so before, but again, had masked it from myself.

The reason I’m writing this here is because it’s a perfect example of sometimes when we THINK (always the key, thinking instead of feeling) that we’ve reached an endpoint, a goal, etc… how there’s always more. If we’re still here in the physical, there’s ALWAYS more!  The further we go in releasing and clearing ourselves, the more skillful we can actually get at repressing and not looking at something that makes us uncomfortable, because it really, truly gets to the core stuff. However, regardless of how skilled you’ve gotten at NOT looking at something… you ALWAYS give yourself messages about that which you’re repressing/not looking at! With me, one of the keys has been additional physical weight on me that didn’t make sense as to why I’ve retained it, since I’ve been working out regularly, eating healthy, being healthy, etc. I kept on hearing the term, “weighed down” (yes, we do that, too… lots of “funny” puns in our physical stuff that comes up), and I’ve been utterly perplexed at to why… because I love what I’m doing, I love every day of the week, I LOVE my “work” (which is more like play to me)… but that weight has been my physical reminder that I was hiding something from myself, that there WAS something that was still “weighing me down” and preventing me from getting to the “next level”… thus, why I finally said, “ENOUGH of this… time to LOOK AT IT STRAIGHT ON, ALREADY!”

And I guess I’m ready now… forward movement again, out of the bird’s nest… deep breaths… one, two… soar!!!!

We’ve Got the Beat… So Time to Use It!

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There are multiple mythologies that state the Universe was created with sound; in metaphysics, there is also the mathematical concept of the Music of the Spheres… a representation that all of energy – which includes all of our Universe – has a tone related to it: matter itself, creation, expansion, existence, interaction, etc. There’s been plenty of research also showing how sound affects our energy in an infinite number of ways, including healing!

Throughout my life, music has been instrumental (literally LOL) to me… from an early age, I danced, played multiple musical instruments… and when I was a teenager, the music I played was how I expressed myself. Angry? Heavy metal. Content? Upbeat music. Contemplative? Something entirely different. The list went on, including all different kind of music, all different eras, all different beats, tones, and lyrics.

That hasn’t changed in my adulthood. In fact, in my house, from the time when my kids were just past toddlerhood, we got into the practice of never even having the TV on during the day. The only time it gets turned on is later in the evening, typically about an hour or two before bed. But music? I have it playing ALL THE TIME… when I work out at home, I have music playing. My office is at home, and as I’m working, I’m almost always playing music. When I’m in a session with a client… yep. In the car… etc., etc., etc.

Have you ever had a day when something – some sadness, anger, whatever – welled up and wanted to come to the surface, but you just couldn’t find a way to do that? And, in a moment of reflection, you found the song to play (or the song gets played on the radio, funny how the Universe will do that for you) that brought it RIGHT UP THERE… and allowed you in some way or another to release it?

Do you think that’s coincidental?

This weekend, I watched the movie, “Rock of Ages,” which was a Glee-ish type of rock musical about the 80’s… exactly when I was first coming into myself, through teenage years and early adulthood. Needless to say, I have a lot of memories tied up in the music of that decade! The entire movie was a montage of memories for me… through so many variants of the music that I listened to during that period. I sang along through the entire movie, loved its campy-ness, its accuracy of the campy-ness of the time… and I noticed how easily memories popped up throughout – yes, some of it was related to the characters, but MOST of it was related to the music!

Yesterday, I hosted a class at my house on sacred tantric dance for women; I had seen this on the instructor’s Website  awhile back, and knew immediately it was something I wanted to try! To me, it felt like the perfect combination and a different way to “connect in” using music and the body. However, I really had no idea in what to expect (“Is it bellydancing? something else? ???”)…. and WOW. How amazing!

The best part: No need to be a dancer; no need to even have the FIRST IDEA of how to dance to do this!

We spent the day learning how to apply techniques to open ourselves up energetically… via music and the movement of our bodies. We all adorned beautiful coin scarves (dancing is SO much more fun when you can HEAR all of the movements!)… and we MOVED. Without any better words to describe it, by the end of the class, we learned how to allow the Divine express itself through our Self in the dance. It was truly fun AND profound… later in the day, we did “individual dances,” which translates to about 7-9 minutes of allowing the Divine to dance each of us, one at a time,  in the center of the room, eyes closed, while the others in the class held space for the dancer and watched. I know what you’re saying: “Dancing alone – freestyle – in the middle of a group of people as they watched?” – but you know what? We had bonded with each other through the day, we had left any judgment – for others and ESPECIALLY for the Self – at the door, and we all saw the absolute beauty and power – and Divine – in each other, and in our Oneness. In holding space and watching when it wasn’t our turn, we all BECAME the dancer, we all experienced the dance through each other as well as through ourselves… and we released and healed just as much by being the observer as in being the participant.

When it was my turn, as soon as I closed my eyes and allowed the music to take me… I was truly outside of space and time, and the illusion of the room and others there just melted away; I was in my completion, pulling through bits and pieces of other lifetimes, of certain energetic patterns, of what it was that was ready to be brought to the surface, melded, and/or released through that dance. It was freeing, expansive, and beautiful in ways that are challenging to explain in words… except that I knew ALL of me, in completion, in those minutes. And when it was done… I had no concept of how long it had been, because time wasn’t even a part of it!

I didn’t truly realize just how the class had shifted me until I woke up this morning, in the aftereffects of a day of such amazing grace, beauty, power… our eternal presence. Not only did we find parts of ourselves in the dance; we truly experienced our wholeness and our Divinity in ways that words could never describe.

As I’ve written this I’ve been playing one of the soundtracks that was played in class, now added to my already extensive collection of music… and my entire body is lit up, my chakras wide open in joyful anticipation, having recognized another open pathway to tap in… and thus, it wants to MOVE… and allow it through.

And so, my new coin scarf beckons to me from my meditation room…  😉

 

“Ascension”? Really? With All of This Mess Around Us (and Within)? Some Thoughts to Consider…

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Have you looked around lately – within your own life and/or in those around you and the world in general and asked, “What IS this mess, anyway? How is THIS evolution and progression?!” Have you had hours, days, and/or weeks where you’ve started feeling extremely angry, fearful,  listless, like you want to crawl out of your skin… and yet have no specific cause for it? And what about being weighted down… have you had moments when you’ve felt as if you’re completely filled with lead, like you’re wearing a suit that makes you feel like you’re carrying an extra hundred pounds or so, and all you want to do is sleep, alternating with spurts of energy that you can’t seem to alleviate?

Yep… I gotcha. Been there, done that… and I do this EVERY DAY; I meditate, I clear, I heal… and I help others do the same, so I’m in the “heightened awareness” place most of the time. I do know how to observe the collective consciousness without becoming lost in it – I’ve become quite adept at it – and yet, a few weeks ago, POW! I didn’t know what hit me!

First a Moment About the Earth
The mind says, OK… we’re “supposed to be” evolving… progressing… getting ready for “Earth 2.0,” ascending… whatever you want to call it. Yet, on the surface, it seems we’re more of a mess than ever: extreme polarities in belief systems, politics, and many other areas; shootings in movie theaters, temples, and consulates; and drugs that produce zombie-like behavior, at the top of the list. Individually, many have the lives they worked so hard to create  just crumbling away no matter how hard they fight to preserve it… losing jobs, severing long-standing ties and relationships, succumbing to debt, and releasing much of the “picture” of the life many had thought was their dream. Earth herself has been tumultuous: global extremes in weather, earthquakes rumbling around the world, volcanoes that haven’t been active for decades or more coming back to life, tsunamis, polar ice caps melting away.

So, you might ask, “What’s THAT about?”

Several months back, I was shown the bigger picture related to the evolution of Earth – of Gaia herself – and what that entails, as we stand on the ground, here, right now. As within our bodies, our skin, liver, heart, lungs, and all other organs and cells are a part of us (with their own consciousness as well), we are a part of the whole organism of the Earth. I was shown how throughout this existence, part of the exploration and experience of the lessons of duality and the ego have caused us to bleed, at one time or another, into every land of this world. We’ve had wars, we’ve hurt ourselves, we’ve hurt each other, we’ve hurt the other beings here, as well as played with creating imbalance in the organism as a whole. The result: This “blood” – both literal and metaphorical – has seeped into Earth, as so much seeps into our bodies through the skin and then incorporates into our systems.

Through all of this, she has adjusted as well as she could, realigned herself, so she could continue on. So WE could continue on, in some way, shape, or form…. to do the same thing again and again, over and over. To REALLY learn those lessons!

When our bodies do this – forget the unity, forget that all the cells, all the organs have to work together to function optimally – what happens? Disease; malfunctions and sometimes failure of entire organic systems within us. Cancer. Auto-immune disease. Allergies (“irritations”). Many other chronic conditions. And, as a collective part of the Earth organism, “as above, so below”… why do you think we have an overabundance of these types of diseases within our own bodies today?

When we get an overabundance of toxins within the body, what does our body naturally do to rebalance itself? Detoxify; it tries to push all of the dangerous toxins that have become embedded in the system to the surface… to release them and regain balance.

Guess what Earth’s doing? Except this is the BIGGIE… she’s detoxifying because it’s time to get to the next level of evolution, to complete this existence at this level of density, with these lessons of duality. And as a part of this organism, we’re along for the ride!

So what does that entail? Well… all of that blood, all of that disservice and ego-based separation that has seeped into her “system” is coming to the surface… while all of what we’ve done to disservice our own bodies is doing the same, which can exacerbate the situation. So, yes… a lot of rage, resentment, fear, anxiety, regret, guilt, doubt, sorrow, and pain coming to the surface now… to be healed, dissolved, and released, once and for all.

Needless to say, how that affects us is up to the individual. Can we release all of this productively, or will we allow ourselves to get lost in it?

From another, non-judgmental vantage point, there are many, many souls who have chosen NOT to be here during the peak of this and/or to see it through to completion from “ground zero”; they’ve come, finished the lessons they want to have here, and choose to do the rest elsewhere, outside of this 3D world. So, they are transitioning out; it is a choice they have made, and it doesn’t matter whether they’re home in the shower and fall and hit their head or in public where they get run over by a car or shot. And what this “gunk” coming to the surface does is also provide ample opportunity for groups of souls to go ahead and transition out en masse. Recently, a pretty awakened friend of mine was in a place where she was considering the choice of “walking out”… and she created herself a door where a truck came barreling down the road as she was crossing a busy street and could have easily provided the doorway for her to transition. She told me that she knew in that moment that no matter how it looked… she knew it would be quick and painless; in fact, she knew that her soul would leave her body before the truck ever hit. At that moment… she realized how easy it really can be, and she decided to stay.

I have been guided over the past several months to focus on healing at the collective and mass level… and I am shown, time and time again, how individual challenges and limitations are personal experiences that are directly related to the collective experience. The more we can sit in love and just douse Earth and the collectives and mass consciousness, the easier the transition and adjustments will be.

Now, On to That Leaden, Listless Feeling You Might Be Experiencing…
Since I’ve been guided to do collective clearing/healing after collective clearing/healing, there was a point, about a week-and-a-half ago, when I started thinking, “Were we CRAZY to plan all of this, to do all of this all at once… with so many here right now who haven’t even opened their eyes even a slit toward Awakening? This is nuts… how can we do this?” I could FEEL how many have no idea right now; I could FEEL the work yet to do. All I could think was, “I’m SO DONE with all of this!” (Note: I also actually, for the first time ever, asked for a “door to transition,” and was provided one by my ever-present guide, Archangel Ezekiel, THAT NIGHT… why I chose not to take it is a story for another day… 😉 )

I’ve been staying ever-present, calm, clear, and watching the growing freneticism of many… who are fighting harder and harder to hold on to that which doesn’t serve them, because they believe that’s what they’re supposed to do. I’ve been watching and helping others with their pain, anger, resentment, fear… and as much as I LOVE what I do, there were some days I was starting to get tired.

And then, last weekend… wow, the heaviness set in. I became distracted… I didn’t want to meditate, didn’t want to connect… and as much as I love to work out, I felt like I had lead running through my body! There were a few days when all I wanted to do was sleep (luckily over an uneventful weekend); and yet, I simultaneously felt like I was about to crawl out of my skin, uncomfortable, edgy… I started thinking, “What the heck is all of this about? I KNOW this feeling… but I can’t quite place it, either…”

I’ve had the blessing of having a steady stream of client sessions, so I set that up for myself well (from the Higher Self, along with my guide family, obviously)… because regardless of how I feel, I make sure I do everything I can to ensure that I’m open and clear for the work I do with others. So, I at least continued doing SOME self-work, which was helpful. One day, I didn’t have sessions until later in the afternoon; I had planned to go to the gym in the morning, didn’t make it. Then I thought I would hop on the elliptical at home; never made it. And I was feeling edgier and more impatient than ever. Finally, about midday, I heard, loudly, “GET OUTSIDE.” So I went out into my yard and sat in the grass. I actually started feeling EVEN EDGIER… and felt like I needed to get to a waterfront. So I took my dog, and we went to a nearby lake, to trot the 3 miles around the trail along the perimeter. As we progressed, I just practiced an exercise I suggest to quite a few clients – simply BREATHING into my heart, and expanding my light. Losing all thought… simply focusing on the heart. Expanding the light, connecting with the nature around me. Through this, there was an extraordinary number of dragonflies that were swarming around us the entire time – green, blue, white, brown, you name it, zipping right up to my face and then away, zipping around us, hovering nearby (for those who don’t know the “message of the dragonfly”… dragonflies help to bring in LIGHT).

And all of that time, I thought, “This feels SO FAMILIAR…”

Shortly after that, the discomfort ebbed away, and I felt a LOT better… and able to attend to my sessions throughout the evening.

That night, I went to sleep with the intention of connecting to understand WHAT THE HECK was going on. In the dream, I was at my acupuncturist’s office, and she was talking to me about someone else who was being “pinned” on the table. She was telling me about how the person’s symptoms would flow and ebb… just like she was in labor to deliver a child.

In the middle of the dream, a HUGE light bulb went off for me… THAT’S IT! I remember thinking in the dream. It’s the Earth… she’s in LABOR!

When I woke up, fresh from that dream, I realized immediately that the stages of what I had been going through myself were JUST LIKE being in labor to deliver a child, without the pain (of course, I had forgotten… it HAS been more than 14 years since my last go of it! LOL)!

So… when you look back to the section I wrote before this, about Earth and her detoxification… let’s also add that she’s now at the equivalent stage of being in labor to “birth” a whole new version of herself. The part to be aware of is that since we are a part of this organism of Earth, guess what? We will all have our individual ways of playing that out. We’re all detoxing that which doesn’t serve us, and now we’re TOTALLY “ripping off the Band-Aid” to get to this next level of existence… but HERE’S THE AWESOME NEWS: That means we’re ALMOST THERE!

After considering all of this, you might ask, “Yikes! What does this mean for me? Does that mean that my life is going to implode? Is it all going to fall apart?” That’s a good question… are you willing to let go of that which doesn’t serve you and SEE it as what is Highest and Best… or are you going to try to cling to the familiar (regardless of how miserable it is) and make it a painful transition? Can you take some time out for yourself every day – yes, every single day – to simply get in 15 minutes of clearing the mind and breathing into you heart? Can you take some time every day to send love and healing to the Earth of which we’re a part? Can you go through one day – just ONE DAY to start – without judgment of any kind toward yourself and others? Can you stay completely fluid to what’s going on around you, without giving any energy to resistance? The more we do for ourselves, the more we practice acceptance and fluidity, the more we release that which doesn’t serve us with grace, ease, balance, harmony, and joy… and the more space we create for ourselves to let in what DOES serve us in the Highest and Best way, from the individual to the collective.

And the easier and quicker our “delivery” in to a new, fresh, higher vibration Earth will be.  🙂

 

 

Journey Reflections from the Mountain (Mount Shasta Tales, Part Two)

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Twelve days.

That’s how long I’ve been on this personal retreat; first to the Vancouver, BC area… and then to Mount Shasta, CA – one of the key spiritual “energy vortices” of the world. I’ve been getting the calling to come here for the past 2.5 years. I was TOLD last December, under no uncertain terms, that I WOULD be coming here, by June latest.

So here I came… or should I say, to here I’ve returned.

The trip to White Rock/Vancouver, BC was a separate, awesome experience in itself… so foreign, and yet so familiar and comfortable.

But… heading into Mount Shasta, California…

I want to tell you: No matter what you read, or what you think you might feel before you “come to the mountain,”  it IS a different world here, and you can’t understand that until you’re here and can FEEL it. Seriously; at some point on the way in, I KNOW I must’ve moved through a dimensional doorway. After just three or four hours of being here… without a better way to explain it in words, I literally could FEEL every cell in my body spread out… and I could literally feel MORE SPACE in between every cell. Lots more! Which, in essence, allows a “living meditation”… because everything just IS here. What a lesson in BEing!

So much space… between cells, between words, between thoughts. Just SPACE. More than I’ve ever felt before. And thus, time actually feels like it’s slower (I could swear I’ve been here for a month… LOL), because every moment is SO FULL.

The view of Mt. Shasta from the peak of Spring Hill

And the mountain… you literally feel the mountain welcoming you home. “It’s been awhile… welcome back…” And such a preponderance of being embraced with love.

From that feeling, everything moves so much more peacefully in this area. The experiences I’ve had here have been beyond amazing… how many people I’ve met that I feel like I’ve known forever (which, you know, of course I have); how many people I’ve met in passing that I end up HUGGING after our interaction… because it’s like being home. And I can’t even begin to explain how much “unexplainable” stuff in the rest of the world is commonplace here… and almost overlooked because it’s simply expected.

It IS home for me… an ancient, ancient one. The original one. There is far more to explain about THAT statement than I can cover in this one blog post. It’s a place about which I’ve been having visions for the past several years; above ground and below ground. It’s the place where the mythical Telos resides underneath and is superimposed over the mountain, in a higher frequency.

It truly is another world… and the moment I got here, my heart transported me immediately to another time, to the memories I’ve uncovered of being here way, way, way in the past… in the beginning, during Lemuria.

I know I’m typically very forthright about my spiritual experiences (of course, that’s the purpose of this blog, right?)… but for now, I’m holding many of the details close to me. This trip went far, far deeper than I ever could have anticipated, and it’s so intimate that I’m not ready to share the energy or some of the details of it. Yet. But I will say this: In the past 12 days, I have brought up and released some VERY deep muck that I didn’t even know I had. My heart has broken wide open and been healed and mended multiple times in the healing process… so much that for several nights, I had Archangel Ezekiel at my side, prominently residing at the side of my bed as I tossed and turned. One night, I had Ezekiel AND Adama (the head of the Council of 12 of Telos/Lemuria… aka Archangel Daniel – more on that later)  there, as I was being given some huge energetic download that lasted most of the night… and I was paralyzed with the intensity and brightness of it. However, in the morning… I became a new person… to get to the really, really core level to clear out the rest.

There is so much hiking, so many mountains and lakes and waterfalls in the area, that you can be any place in nature with a beautiful view within 10 minutes. And most of them all have their own energy.

Castle Lake

Castle Lake was my first jaunt on my own, shortly after I got to Mount Shasta. I hiked to two spots that were fairly secluded… sat on the water on rocks and had the most phenomenal time with elementals… completely audible and visible in plain sight (even though it took me a little while to tune in and realize what I was seeing/hearing). Such a huge healing there, and such a beautiful (and fun) spot!

I spent an afternoon with a friend at the nearby Stewart Mineral Springs… I don’t need to say anything more about that, beyond simple bliss!

One morning I climbed Spring Hill with a friend… a beautiful hike with yet more spectacular views of Mt. Shasta and surrounding mountains (including Black Butte and the Eddy Mountains).

And other moments at Lake Siskiyou, so quiet and contemplative…

I got lost on the bottom half of Mount Shasta, with my housemate here, A’shaya… and had a great time doing it (see my post, Getting Lost to Find Our Way, Mount Shasta Tales Part One)

What was truly amazing was my access to Panther Meadows, the most sacred site on Mount Shasta, near the peak. When I was talking about the dates for my trip plans, a friend I made who lives here in Mount Shasta kept on telling me that it’s unfortunate that I wouldn’t get there, because they NEVER open the road to Panther Meadows (closest to the top of the mountain) before July 1st. I just told her I was following guidance, because I had gotten very specific dates on when to come… and if it wasn’t meant to be, so be it. On Friday (June 15th), my housemate here told me she’d heard that Panther Meadows had been opened… and then I heard it again when I was shopping in one of the downtown shops by a local shopkeeper. Surprise all around… so… I was able to go after all.

Panther Meadow on Mt. Shasta... it might not look like much, but the photo can't capture the FEEL of this incredibly sacred space near the top of the mountain.

I’ve been up there three times in a two-day period, regardless of the snow up there. The first time was so profound and intense and personal that I choose not to share it… quite yet. Let’s just say I was “shown” where I would go the night before in my dreams… when we arrived there, I immediately recognized it… and I was instantaneously overwhelmed by the number of Beings present at the Meadows as I entered… it was jam-packed… because I realized that I knew all of them. My original soul family, there waiting… and at that overwhelming moment when I remembered all of them, the energy/presence of all of them, my heart just opened up with joy and love at being there, seeing them again, as though I’d never forgotten. What happened after that… well, let’s just say that Adama and St. Germain were there to help me clear out the REST of the muck that was under the layer that had been cleared out, in one fail swoop. It was so beautiful, so freeing, and so absolutely sacred… that I sat on my knees in the mud in the midst of the snow and sobbed. First from pain and sadness of so much realization… and then, as that all flowed out, from joy and the overwhelming love from all of it.

It was just beyond words.

The second time I went back was simply a solitary contemplation… more space… and the feeling of support from all around me, with some messages that were important to process.

The third time… I was shown another spot further up the springs on the Meadows – again in my dreams – and when I found the spot, I stood there and was saturated with the most brilliant light I’ve experienced. I felt so big, with so much space… that I still feel like I’m glowing.

And then I was done with Panther Meadows… so I departed with such huge gratitude and love for the acknowledgement and healing I had received.

Orbs and violet light at Ascension Rock... how incredible!

This evening – my last evening here – I had been reminded from another “new-old friend” I’d made here about Ascension Rock, up on the mountain. For some reason, I felt the pull to go back up, and this time find this spot. On the way, I was guided to stop in several other locations… and then I reached it. I sat in meditation, half aware, half somewhere far away… and I suddenly heard clearly, “Look up… look at where the sun shines through the trees…” I did and immediately saw the violet light and the orbs… and surprisingly, though my phone camera hadn’t done much to capture any of that for the rest of this trip, I actually got some amazingly cool pictures with it there.

Again, I felt so surrounded, nurtured, and loved.

Beyond the spots, I have met a number of people I “already know”… and it’s amazing how quickly we connect. And, even more amazing is the string of people I’ve met who talk to me, give me the piece I’m to get from them… and then they forward me on to who has the next “piece” – “Oh, you HAVE to meet _________…. here’s their contact information, tell them I sent you…” And so on. If I stopped to think about it… it would make my head spin. But it’s really just how an entirely conscious environment allows manifestation to play out, so effortlessly!

So, I’ve packed my things to go home tomorrow, and am sitting here this evening, just soaking in every last moment at the house where I’ve rented a room, great energy in itself right on the lower part of the mountain. I’m so thankful for this, for my journey, for my path… and for the fun and incredible moments that are more and more common as I go along.

Part of my quest here was to determine whether it was a suitable place to hold some classes for the Trinity Energy I teach… well, it was never really a question… it was simply SEEING and FEELING how it would fit here. And, finding out how perfectly the Trinity Energy ties in to what others are understanding and experiencing in the same but different ways. Perfectly.

I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to try out Victoria Lee’s Trinity Table (even though I’ve tried the one in North Carolina before)… we’d had such a long and lovely conversation (someone else I’ve just met that I’ve known forever)… but as she said, “Well, next time… because you’ll be back…”

Absolutely. I’ll be back. Conscious memory is in my blood now… and it won’t be long.  🙂

 

 

Getting Lost to Find Our Way… Mount Shasta Tales (Part One)

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While visiting in this awesome area of Mount Shasta, California – one of the major spiritual “energy vortices” in the world – there is SO MUCH nature time to have here that I’ve been out to different places for hikes and meditation spots around town since I arrived. Today, it was time for the first experience ON this huge, imposing, and yet nurturing mountain of the core point of the ancient land of Lemuria, over the mythical underworld of Telos.

The house in which I’m renting a room is right on the bottom portion of the mountain. In fact, from the room I’m renting, there’s a sliding door right next to the bed, onto a balcony that looks right up to the peak. I go to sleep every night looking out into the darkness, feeling the pulse of the mountain… as well as MUCH else!

I have a housemate, A’shaya, who is also renting a room here,  in her last week after being here for 6 weeks (7 by the time she leaves).  She’s done a lot of hiking from the house (there’s a foot path into the thick of things here on the mountain just a block from here) with a former renter… so I mistakenly assumed she’d known all of the path markers.

That probably wasn’t a good assumption on my part… on a mountain that climbs to 14,400 feet above sea level (starting at about 4,000 feet) , with a circumference of about 70 miles.

We were chatting away… I’ve discovered that conversations during hikes with anyone you meet here in Mount Shasta are also quite different than those you’d most likely experience on most other mountains. A’shaya’s a massage therapist turned astrologer… and there was a lot chit chatting about this kind of chart, that kind of chart… what she’s experienced since she’s been here, where she’s going, and the spiritual/metaphysical experiences and practices I have and have had, as well.

So, we made it to the top of the trail we had aspired to climb… and took some time just laying on some beautiful layered rocks, enjoying the sunny, 80-degree, dry weather. Such peace and quietude; so much of nature! We had realized that it seemed we had a swarm of butterflies around us the entire time up the trail; their visits and frolicking continued around us while we sunned ourselves. Plus lizards, beautiful flowers in bloom around us… just pure beauty and quietude.

And just… space.

Typically, when I’m on a hike and find a spot like that, I really like to be still, listen, and FEEL… without chattering or much interchange (in fact, I often prefer to go alone); however, on Mount Shasta, with A’shaya happily chattering away, I found I could STILL enjoy the moment and the stillness while simultaneously engaging in the conversation without feeling like I was being interrupted. Again… so different than the “regular world”!

Once we’d gotten our fill of the spot we’d chosen, we started back. Yet, the paths seemed completely different; neither one of us could remember which way we’d come, through many forks and winding turns. We THOUGHT many of the choices looked familiar… for awhile. Then it seemed like the landscape had changed completely.

At some point, I started laughing and said, “Well… maybe we simply walked through a dimensional doorway, which is why it all looks different…” She laughed and agreed with me. Then we considered whether we’d really want to find our way back through… because it DID feel different. MORE space…  So, we decided to call on our friends, the elementals, to help guide us back to the house where we’re staying.

Right after we did that, we turned a corner, and there were two beautiful deer (shephards of the fairy realm) consorting in the wood… they jumped and bounded off in the opposite direction. So we followed…

The butterflies were still all around us… and yet, slightly ahead of us. We continued on their path.

Not to say we didn’t continue on in different twists and turns… we’d reinforce our request a few times (A’shaya had made the mistake of just asking for them to “lead us home”… I told her that was sort of a misleading request, since many would probably consider us home right there, on the mountain!)… and every time, a new path would light the way. And, as the trees are large on the mountain, there were times when we’d lose sight of the peak in the trees… and had to literally guess which was was down (because many of the paths led up).

Throughout this, we found we bonded. Neither of us ever got nervous, panicked, or upset about our predicament. In fact, the longer and further we went, the more fun we had with it. Yes, we got hot; yes, once our water ran out, we got thirsty (but I was VERY glad to have gotten a “nudge” in the grocery store last night to pick up a few protein bars for the hike, because THEY came in handy!)… but we just looked at it as a grand adventure, and pondered what we could learn from the experience. And we laughed… A LOT. We stopped saying that we might’ve taken “a wrong turn”… and just agreed that the many paths, regardless of which ones we chose, would eventually get us where we were going.

Our "Walking Staves of Light"

We picked out some great walking sticks, which we deemed our “Walking Staves of Light.” Though A’shaya was hesitant about using one in the beginning, she really bonded with hers when we started cutting through the hedge going downhill on beds upon beds of pine needles; they proved very useful.

At some point, we decided we must’ve been warriors in some indigenous tribe together in another life. It was then that we renamed ourselves the Warrior Goddesses of the Light… which of course worked well with our walking staff terminology! We even considered whether we should find some mud with which to paint stripes on our faces.

And, the butterflies led us on, staying around us… like we were in some sort of fairy tale.

Our variety of path choices became an exploration; a discovery of noticing when we could tell if a path that seemingly ascended actually turned into a descent; when we could start “reading” the mountain… and then we actually decided to start FEELING it, FEELING our way out.

After awhile I was really getting thirsty; I told A’shaya that it would be really, really nice if we could find a stream from which to drink… and then we could walk around for as long as we wanted without worrying about finding our way out. At some point, we started getting our bearings, and found the old railroad tracks that circle the mountain; since we had crossed the tracks in the beginning, we decided to just follow them until we saw a familiar spot. That never happened; what happened was that I finally spotted a paved road. So, we took a steep path down and came out into a park. We asked a few men who were walking across the manicured field where we were… we discovered we were a few miles from the house… one of the men looked at me and asked if we needed water, because there was a fountain from the springs right at the edge of our field. OK… so not a running stream… but the same meaning… and it was just as awesome (and absolutely refreshing)! What a perfect place to emerge from our play world!

After we explained that we’d sort of lost our way on the mountain, the passersby asked us if we needed a ride back to our house. We looked at each other, immediately understood without any words, and shook our heads, but thanked them for the offer. After they moved on, we agreed that we would see this adventure on foot, on our own, through the end… after all, we ARE the Warrior Goddesses of the Light!  🙂

And so, we made it back… in 5.5 hours instead of the planned 2… exhausted and dirty… but we’d never lost our sense of adventure and enjoyment of the journey, regardless of which path we took. We found humor and fun and playfulness in every turn… and we learned about each other; we learned about and celebrated our differences as well as our similarities, and we found that without any panic or sense of worry, that even though the path was longer than we had THOUGHT (even though my Higher Self obviously had it all under control… after all, I was at least prepared with those protein bars!)… we were given everything we asked for along the way.

We realized the amazing and wonderful messages that had come through for us on the journey… and how the real, all-encompassing message really was that it’s ALL about the journey itself.

After her 7-week period of solitude in Mount Shasta, A’shaya is moving to Florida in a week… and is seriously considering sending off her walking staff to Florida ahead of her, and then getting it sanded with just that engraved on it: “It’s ALL about the journey.” Because it really is.

How awesome is THAT?!

 

 

 

 

Steps to Remembering the Spiritual/Intuitive Black Belt in ALL of Us…

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I remember, years ago, when I first started in Tae Kwon Do, I was a “no belt”… not even a white belt. I would look at the black belts and think, “Wow… what a long, long way to go. Can I do that? Really? Will I be able to break a cinder block with my bare hands… and all of those other things required?” And actually, I had moments of thinking, “Can I do really do that… ME?”

Once I stopped (or rather, my ego stopped) obsessing about that “long-off” goal – even though there were black belts present through the process to be a physical reminder of that goal – when I focused on what was at hand, one belt at a time – there were 10 belts in between no belt and black belt – I did eventually BECOME a black belt; actually, I went beyond that and later attained a 2nd degree black belt! And, because I had worked tirelessly through the basics, one step at a time, by the time I got there – to that first black belt test – it was second nature to me, because I had a strong command of the basics. Not only that… but I had a lot of FUN doing it!

Often, it’s no less overwhelming when starting out on the path to actively developing our spirituality and remembering how to tap in to our Divinity – or, in common terms, learning to regularly and accurately access our Higher Self, intuition, psychic ability – whatever you want to call it.

Now, I will say that I was sort of “thrown in” to doing this work… initially, it wasn’t something I consciously (knew that I) chose at the time. I fell open like a book when I had what I call my Grand Awakening… and had NO IDEA what was going on… besides wondering if I was going schizophrenic LOL! Though I had accumulated the uncovering of one natural Divine ability after another over my life before that time, I’d always looked at them as the equivalent of “parlor tricks”… fun and cool… but just something I could do, nothing more, nothing less. (For a more detailed account, see In the Rabbit Hole We Go.)

Since I’m a problem solver – I love puzzles – when the Grand Awakening occurred, of course I was voracious in finding out what was going on… and once I did, then concentrated on how to focus and funnel the menagerie of abilities I had naturally uncovered! However, I never stopped to think about it… never really thought about whether I could really “do it,” how long it would take… what it would take, and what that would mean. Essentially, I had set it up for myself to be so distracted that I circumvented having those same feelings I’d had when looking at the black belts at the onset of practicing Tae Kwon Do.

However, don’t get me wrong… I DEFINITELY know that feeling!

Often, when I work with clients and students on developing their innate intuitive abilities in one form or another (or many), I get the “deer in the headlights” look when we first start talking about developing their skills… especially when I get a specific message about a particular innate strength of the person, communicate it to them…and that person has no idea about the strength that lies within them. It’s largely because the ego starts projecting immediately – “I can’t do that!” “What if I can’t do that?” “Who… ME? Who am I to be able to do that?”

So, I tell them… STOP.

It goes back to changing our perception from the glass is half empty to the fact that the glass is ALWAYS full (see Seeing the Glass COMPLETELY Full, and Taking From It What You Will); we just have to remember that it is!

How different do you think it would be for those starting martial arts if they were told at the onset, “You already ARE a black belt… coming here and doing this is simply going to help you get back in to practice to remember that…and each belt level is another level of remembrance that you’ve uncovered…” Sounds a lot easier than trying to reach for something outside of you, doesn’t it?

It’s the same thing in terms of our intuitive, “magical,” Divine abilities… we’re ALL Divine, we ALL have ALL of those abilities (I promise), regardless of where you are right now… it’s simply a matter of getting back in to practice to remember how to access them. So, we break it down, and generally work on fluency in one ability or set of abilities at a time… and all we need to do is start with gaining command of the MOST basic, yet MOST important ones – such as simply quieting the chatter of the ego and remembering that fluid connection with the Higher Self to know whether what presents itself to you is for your Highest/Best, and whether it’s Truth for you.
Back in Tae Kwon Do, there were others who started around the time I did that became black belts more quickly than I did… and some did it more slowly. But you know what? We all got there in the end; how long it took and what we did to get there individually didn’t really matter. Again, it’s the same in terms of our spiritual/intuitive development: Some of us just take a blind flying leap off the cliff (sort of like I did)… some stop to look and test the air and then parachute down… and many decide to take the train down to the bottom (or simply walk) instead of leaping. That’s OK; everyone’s at their own pace… this is one thing that is definitely NOT a competition, and there is no one RIGHT or WRONG way or time frame in which to do it! It’s individual to each and every one of us. We’ll ALL get there, eventually… every single one of us.

So, yes, though we should have an idea where we’re going and what our goals are in doing this work on ourselves, the key is to stop looking at (and comparing ourselves to) everyone else, note who’s present and who can assist us, and just simply BEGIN the journey…. do the work (or play, as I call it), at our own pace. Practicing – or, remembering – mastery of the very basics, one step at a time, also helps to remind us how to experience the joy and excitement of being present completely in the now, where we are as individuals today, as we allow every single beautiful petal of ourselves to open up, into the magnificent, brilliant, menagerie of the Divine that we all are!

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