Looking at What Weighs Us Down… So We Can Continue On WITHOUT the Weight!
Most recently, I’ve been working on releasing “all that’s still weighing me down… and preventing me from attaining/maintaining the path of my ultimate soul’s purpose.” Funny, consistently, I’ve been getting clearings on my throat chakra (and I was thinking, “Um, yeah… because I don’t COMMUNICATE enough?!” LOL).
Yesterday, during meditation, while in the Trinity Energy, I had set the same intention, and was taken to an older looking ship, wearing this beautiful velvet cloak (and funny I’ve been seeing myself wearing such a cloak in meditation for the past few weeks… literal translation, “cloaking” myself with this beautiful adornment…as a distraction); I was walking along on the ship and saying to the crew, “Where is she… it’s time to let her out!” and I noticed that it changed to, “It’s time to let ME out!” I found this hatch, opened it, and there was a young woman, in her late teens/early 20s looking out at me, scared. I told her it was time, and she jumped into me… and then eleven others – other “parts of me” – came out and jumped into me, also ( (I’m pretty sure it was a total of a dozen, that 12 magical number). My light body EXPLODED…and I just sat and expanded, expanded, expanded.
Then, part two of my meditation, I went to a remote healing/energy work circle that I’ve joined where we go to an etheric place that’s been created for us to “meet” to do work together every Wednesday. One of the women there looked at me, and I knew her as a sister… in the beginning of the session while I was there, she sighed, reached out, and said, “Here, let me remove that for you…” I was like, “Hunh?” And realized she was removing thread that had my mouth stitched shut.
Yesterday afternoon, I had an energy share with someone (when two practitioners get together and do a session on each other), and when I received, I set the same intention. THAT was where we got to the core of the matter! Both of us saw pretty close to the same thing: a part of me that I’ve yet to step into fully, because of fear, resistance, discomfort… and I basically had an argument with my Higher Self about it (“Isn’t this ENOUGH? What does it matter?” etc. etc. etc. – it sounded a lot like some of the arguments I’ve had with my teenagers! LOL). I was reminded of my soul’s purpose… of which this part is – I GUESS – pretty important. There was enough resistance that tears began to flow.
So, after that, a client came in for a session; I always talk about how AWESOME it is to do energetic healing facilitation work for a living, because EVERYTHING we do and have presented to us in our lives is a reflection in some way, shape, or form of something inside of us… and thus, I always set the intention that for whatever I work with clients to clear, to simultaneously give me the same, for whatever my version of that would be! Anyway, we went from some fairly topical clearings to diving off of a completely unexpected cliff into a HUGE core issue that hadn’t been uncovered for her before: All of her trust issues were based on a deeply covered belief that she had at some point been “abandoned by God,” as if God were separate from her, and as if there was a possibly of that… And this person had never consciously recognized that, but everything literally stopped short in the session until we uncovered, worked on, and cleared that.
It was huge for her – cleared a lot in her energetic field instantaneously, and subsequently, I was hit with a etheric 2×4 as I suddenly realized, OF COURSE. There’s been SO MUCH I’ve cleared over the past several years in relation to an understanding of part of my soul’s purpose that I haven’t shared (and it was much of what I was arguing with my Higher Self about)… I thought (always key: “thinking” vs. “feeling”) I had cleared everything around it. Nope; I skirted it! After the session, when I reflected on the resolution I had received myself, I could see the fingers of hesitation I’d had weaving through much of the history, the knowledge, what I’ve been told and what I’ve remembered about the story I’ve agreed to tell (which includes the book I’ve been getting pressed to write, since of COURSE it all ties together!)… and why and how that residual hesitation was based on a deeply embedded level of unhealed distrust. In that moment, I understood the need to be at the level of complete surrender – to my Divine self, to the Divine beyond that, and how I needed to be COMPLETELY resolved of this resistance to move on. I can now see all of the spots of distrust that existed, how cleverly I’ve masked it from myself until now, how I’ve gone about 90% of the way, but have held back on that other 10% – the MOST IMPORTANT 10% – and why. It was SUCH an incredibly powerful clearing for my client… and it turned out, for me, too! BEST part of the job! LOL!
Last night, I held an online Trinity Energy Progression share with some remote practitioners. Shared updates, questions, etc… and then broke off and did individual remote sessions together, one-on-one. When I received, I didn’t even set the intention I’d been using; I simply set it to receive what is highest/best for me at the moment. I didn’t share any of what had been going on with me with the person giving to me prior to the session. And yet… the practitioner saw me in this beautiful landscape, at the top of these humongously tall trees, at the edge of a bird’s nest… getting ready to “leave the nest”… and to fly. On my end, as I received, I saw a whole bunch of people in Halloween costumes, with masks and cloaks on (funny, about the cloak thing)… I was in the middle… and took my mask off, shed the cloak, and stepped away from the rest, forward, into myself fully… and expanded, expanded, expanded into this incredibly huge Light Being.
When I went to bed last night, I couldn’t remember the last time I had felt so completely nurtured and comforted as I fell asleep. I had some wonderful experiences in my dream state, and feel AMAZING today… and ready to take it ALL on, as I’m allowing it to all come together now… I’m pretty sure… I thought so before, but again, had masked it from myself.
The reason I’m writing this here is because it’s a perfect example of sometimes when we THINK (always the key, thinking instead of feeling) that we’ve reached an endpoint, a goal, etc… how there’s always more. If we’re still here in the physical, there’s ALWAYS more! The further we go in releasing and clearing ourselves, the more skillful we can actually get at repressing and not looking at something that makes us uncomfortable, because it really, truly gets to the core stuff. However, regardless of how skilled you’ve gotten at NOT looking at something… you ALWAYS give yourself messages about that which you’re repressing/not looking at! With me, one of the keys has been additional physical weight on me that didn’t make sense as to why I’ve retained it, since I’ve been working out regularly, eating healthy, being healthy, etc. I kept on hearing the term, “weighed down” (yes, we do that, too… lots of “funny” puns in our physical stuff that comes up), and I’ve been utterly perplexed at to why… because I love what I’m doing, I love every day of the week, I LOVE my “work” (which is more like play to me)… but that weight has been my physical reminder that I was hiding something from myself, that there WAS something that was still “weighing me down” and preventing me from getting to the “next level”… thus, why I finally said, “ENOUGH of this… time to LOOK AT IT STRAIGHT ON, ALREADY!”
And I guess I’m ready now… forward movement again, out of the bird’s nest… deep breaths… one, two… soar!!!!