Flowing Through to Your Spiritual Freedom

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(From Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Doug Adams, 1978)

Welcome to this amazing phase of transformation!

The end-of-year holidays were VERY different for me and in perceiving those around me in 2015; I felt like our HUGE shift came in November, and December was us “taking care of business” that became front and center, whether the ego wanted it to or would have rather let it go until after the holidays (and then diverted from something else).

Here’s the good news/bad news (because there is no difference): There is NO GIVE from the higher self anymore. Those of us who have been doing continuous self-focus and expansion – just as those of us who haven’t done anything – are all being hit with what’s the biggest, most pervasive and limiting behaviors, situations, and beliefs we’ve had left. These are the things that the ego has become MASTERFUL at hiding… these are the things that are so embedded into our identity (ego) that we often don’t even see them within ourselves because they’re like gravity – so there that they’re invisible. And we scratch our heads in consciousness, because we “think” we’ve taken care of “it” – we claim we have – but it persists, or often comes screaming out of nowhere, where we feel like we get blindsided upside the head… with a cast iron skillet.

However, it’s because of how deeply embedded in ourselves that these limitations exist that we can’t simply say “Shazam!” or wave our magic wand and they’ll go away… or ignore it anymore and blame our shortfalls on something else. This causes HUGE frustration and expectation by the ego, because the ego is now backed into the corner, with no way out, and it MUST at this point open its eyes and look in the mirror to move out of that corner… which is falling away… so time is short!

NO MORE, says the higher self. It’s game time; we’ve been screwing around with this long enough. Want to really hike up in vibration? THIS is how.

Time to go through than to try to circumvent (which we only do when it feels extremely uncomfortable, and it’s a HUGE HONKING NEON SIGN for us to look at straight on!)… the test for our self is, can we go THROUGH it, straight on, in FLOW? This is the muckiest part of who we are.

I’m not saying it has to be hard – nothing “has to be” anything, it’s the ego’s perception of something being hard that creates it – except that the ego most typically PERCEIVES it to be hard… because this is “the thing” that causes it to kick and scream and PANIC.

In the very, very wise words of Doug Adams: DON’T PANIC!

Flow.

Yet, whatever transpires is the last place that it seems to flow… and that’s why it’s so, so, SO important for us to allow that.

For some, it’s practiced now… I did it, and the present to myself for it? Seeing a bigger piece of the bigger, most out-of-this-reality vision than ever… because I could now look at it without fear, or with so little that I could mop it up easily as I go.

For many – even some of the most advanced practitioners I know – in denial (and there’s a LOT of denial, especially right before this) – the higher self is saying ENOUGH. TIME TO MOVE ON. And guess what? The very “explosion” – and often ensuing chaos – is put in place to FORCE us to let go of it. Our fingers are essentially being peeled back from the edge of the cliff… so we can finally allow ourselves not just to remember to fly… but to DO IT.

Here are some examples I’ve seen via friends, family, clients, and students:

  • Someone with deep, deep self-loathing issues that have been habitually masked throughout life via the attention gained from others finds themselves in a situation that pushes them to finally be on their own, with plenty of time for the mirror, to finally learn/remember how to love themselves;
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  • Someone with lifetime (and beyond) issues with self-sacrifice and an identity around over-responsibility crashing through a situation where no matter what they try to do to remedy a situation for others (having to do with spouse and children)… it all seems to get more and more mucked up, until they yell, “UNCLE” and have to fess up to the whole situation to allow everyone to help take their own responsibility in the situation, to free the person up to pursue their own true soul purpose;
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  • Someone with a lifetime (at least) of an identity and self-esteem built around being the leader in “knowing what to do” and counseling others… in a situation that is so uncomfortable because it shows their insecurity on actually standing on their own, in their own truth, until they can’t divert the attention of others away from it anymore… and are pushed to admit their own issues and do something about it, and even asking for assistance themselves;
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  • Someone stuck in a pattern of self-validation through sacrificing the self and instead distracting themselves with helping others to an extreme degree becomes inflicted with a chronic illness that prevents them from helping others at all, and in fact has to ask others to help them…

And it goes on from there (quite a number I could recount from conversations/sessions in the past month alone)… these situations cause us to feel as if our hand’s been forced to finally deal with these core parts of ourselves, because it all breaks and falls down around us… leaving us with our Truth, to look at, to accept, embrace, and love, once and for all.

 

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck.

The Tower card from Fifth Element Tarot Deck: As everything that doesn’t serve the individual falls away, the True self is free to emanate.

It’s powerfully transformational… and the equivalent of The Tower card in the tarot deck: All that doesn’t serve us is falling away… and it’s ALL that doesn’t serve us, whether the ego likes it or not, once and for all.

Through this process – leading up to the explosion (whatever it is for the individual) – there’s this preparation process, like the ego sees the huge, mammoth waterfall and realizes “I must let go of everything unnecessary to survive this” – so it starts letting go of stuff that it previously clung to, but is NOT actually the big cahuna. “See? I can throw this overboard… I don’t need this anymore… SEE? I’m better now… why can’t I steer away from that waterfall?!?!?! Here, I’ll look at these things now… throw THEM overboard, I didn’t really need them… How about now? Wait, WHAT? Am I going to survive? Wha…. AAAAAGGGGHHHH!”

SPLASH (or explosion)

And then – believe it or not – RELIEF.

So, some have already gone through that… many are going through the “lightening up the load” period… some are flat out in the freefall of the waterfall. My advice is to BECOME the waterfall. Surrender. Breathe. Stay centered. DO YOUR SELF-FOCUS (meditation and energy healing on yourself) EVERY DAY… There are so many AWESOME tools of remembrance to allow us to flow through it… learn how to use them, if you haven’t already… you deserve it!!*

There’s nothing to fear with this process; in fact, as difficult as it may seem when the ego is involved… it’s something for us to celebrate, individually and collectively! After the waterfall, we’re in a pool of beautiful, clear, calm water, where we can just flow with the current expertly and begin to remember how to enjoy the ride, even in new terrain. SO much easier!

Through the “throwing stuff out of the boat” period, many will often go through any or all of the following (thanks to Laurel Ley of Dragonfly Unleashed for the list):

  • Uninspired and disillusioned/sick/loathing of the 3D
  • Judgmental of self and others (which, of course, is from self-judgment… all back to the self LOL)
  • Physically exhausted… OR having trouble sleeping – one extreme, the other, or one to the other
  • Rehashing and bashing the self for “past” issues
  • Sad, deflated, defeated
  • Trapped (again, around having to “be here”)
  • Hopeless
  • Ugly, fat, ________ (physical loathing)
  • Useless

For me, the last three weeks of 2015 was my “self test” of the waterfall, and I was flowing in it with/for the collective as well as for my self… for here and now and across the Universe, across dimensions, across many iterations. It was deeper and I peered directly into and sat in more darkness than anything I’d felt before, with no words, and yet was pushed to remember love there; I did. I followed my guidance, and for most of that period, I existed outside of space and time and just let it flow. It was a great time for my husband and kids to be home on vacation, because they kept me anchored here while I was predominantly “out there”… and I’m SO thankful, because with that, it was the only way so much could pass through for me in such an intensely short period, so I could see what I can see and am preparing for today. Every time I allowed my feet to “touch ground” here, I might experience a piece of the above, but only in moments… and then I’d take off, be in a place of observation again, and float through just fine. I finally “hit ground” on New Year’s Eve… in time for this next wave of visions to start. And thus, an ever bigger flow – because that’s part of my purpose – of this information coming in. My bandwidth has increased exponentially (including in the 3D changing our Internet provider and upgrading our connection on January 4th… how representative!), and now I’m figuring out how to allow it all in and still function here in what’s left of the 3/4D.

I feel like many may not have gotten there yet and will be getting there shortly, but I know for sure time here on this plane is SHORT for resolution! So, if it hits you upside the head – or rather the heart – like a cast iron frying pan… Surrender. Breathe. Allow. If all you do is sit and BE in meditation/self-focus time, that’s fine… and even if you don’t see or feel anything, YOU’RE DOING SOMETHING. I promise you, if you continue it consistently (by the way, the ego sometimes “turns off” or “blocks” feeling to then convince us that nothing is “happening”… so that we stop doing the self-focus, with the ulterior motive of continued avoidance, which ultimately makes it worse).

Why all of this? You might ask. So we can fully step up into WHO WE ARE and WHO WE CAME HERE TO BE, and truly SHINE! Because it’s time. There are some unbelievable things coming into play that I had visions about 3-4 years ago… I mean, really, truly unbelievable and just completely out of this reality. I thought at the time my mind was trying to decorate… I was working regularly together with a friend and we saw some really, really out there things. What came to me starting on New Year’s Eve was the realization that what we saw 3-4 years ago is in play; and what we saw – especially one truly, unbelievable thing – has literally shown up at my doorstep (no need to go looking for it), right under my nose. Never in a million years would I have really believed it to play out as we saw it, but I’ve been having very, very 3D experiences combined with non-3D that are just… incredible, for lack of better words. And like I said earlier, had I not gone through all of this with such tremendous fluidity over the holiday weeks preceding… I may have easily been paralyzed by the realization (yes, even a month ago). It’s THAT big. And now… since I’ve been the darkness with the collective, as the higher consciousness, and seen it all resolve there and within me, I’m accepting of it.

So… flow on. REALLY. Do SELF-FOCUS, EVERY DAY. Nourish yourself; love yourself. LET YOURSELF SEE – straight on – AND LOVE THE DARKNESS WITHIN (simply separation personified) AS PART OF THE WHOLE DIVINE YOU, because it’s only then that we can dissolve it in our embrace. You know all of these “special classes” with “activations” so many are talking about? Essentially, it’s already a natural part of this process, and it’s already inside of you, already accessible by you… however YOU let it play out. Let yourself come first; and realize that you’re worthy of that, just as you are! Things are changing, and it is SUCH a beautiful symphony playing out! Learn to really listen to your higher self… and to TRUST your own guidance, above all else.

Game on, everyone… I love you all! We’re being actively called on to a completely new playing field now, as leaders in the center of all of it! So OBVIOUSLY, is serves us to be as clear as possible, to best be able to flow through to help move to a completely new game! Boo-yah!

In love, laughter, magic, and the remembrance of ascension,
Angela

*There’s a 6-hour class I’m teaching ONLINE over three weeks (Monday, February 8, Monday, February 15, and Monday, February 22, 7:30-9:30ET each night), called Self-Development via Divine Consciousness, which gives you a number of useful tools to help you with all of this, and fully conscious creation of your reality. Follow the link for more information and sign up today! 

 

In the Dark, In the Light… Pluto’s Cave and Guidance!

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Looking back down the tunnel via flashlight, from the end. It might be challenging to see at this size and resolution… but the orb that clearly shows itself in the upper right, under the opening, presented itself to me as an elemental. What’s REALLY cool about this picture is in the upper right, OVER the doorway… there’s an outline of pretty much the upper half of a being showing it’s face… and I see several wispy others in here… can you?

I’ve been making a trip at LEAST once yearly to Mount Shasta since 2012; it’s now tied to me teaching the Instructor’s class of Trinity Energy Progression (for more on some of the reasoning for that, see the Trinity Website)

That’s my guidance.

Mount Shasta is… another world, another dimension entirely, if you allow it to be! I’ve written about it before (see the posts from my first trip – in this life – on my original Website, Road to Awakening, from 2012: Getting Lost to Find Our Way… (Mount Shasta Tales, Part One) and Journey Reflections from the Mountain (Mount Shasta Tales, Part Two).

So, here I am, on my yearly excursion, here a few days before the class joins me. Again… guidance. I just knew it was important to be here alone up front, even if I didn’t know why, until a few weeks ago.

There’s been so much about accepting, embracing, and integrating the darkness, remembering it as part of the light; so when I was suddenly getting loud and clear that it was important for me to go to Pluto’s Cave – a mile-long, 190,000-year-old lava tube north of the mountain – I mistakenly believed it was in relation that. Sorta, kinda… not really.

Many believe this is one of the doorways opening into the underworld civilizations of Agartha and Telos. THAT’S what I was missing!

All I know was that my guidance was to GO. I read up on getting there, on recommended preparations (bring/wear a flashlight with extra batteries, good hiking/climbing shoes, a sweatshirt, water, and a partner). However, I was getting to just go… on my own. So… I trusted.

I tried getting there earlier; there were delays and redirects. I found the parking lot to the trail to the cave, and pulled in… just at the same time another group had just gotten there. I looked over… and there were twelve earthy, vibrant young adults in their late teens and MAYBE early twenties; and one man in my age group, maybe older. I thought, “Wasn’t I supposed to do this alone?” My answer, loud and clear: “This is who you’re to be with.” I hesitated at first, and asked, “Really?” Yes, absolutely… I felt it.

I admit, at first I was a bit standoffish, because in anticipation that I’d be alone, my first planned order of business was biological. I actually booked past the group, onto the trail, and instead of taking the turnoff to the cave… I continued on, until I’d seen they’d gone ahead… and, well… took care of business! (I know, TMI, right? There will be a little tidbit later about why I’m sharing this here.)

When I got up and turned around, I made my way to the caves. It took me a few extra twists and turns (basically it’s in a pretty remote, desert area), but I found it. As I walked up, I heard voices that sounded very obviously like the opening of a spiritual ceremony. As I approached, I recognized the older man was sort of a guide to the group. He looked up at me, and asked if I’d like to join them… to which I replied, “Of COURSE! We’re here together… it was obviously arranged, so I might as well!” Then someone in the group commented about “there’s the 13th person”… and that was that; I was smudged and welcomed! The leader talked about how the spirit of the owl guards this cave, and he pointed out an owl’s nest high in the rocks at the entrance. He told us that sometimes groups get blessed with the actual presence of the owl.

We began our journey in through the beginning, where there are a holes in the ceiling from collapses, providing beautiful beams of light in the contrast to the dark. As we walked toward the first one… a big, beautiful owl soared quietly over us! After we moved past the opening… it flew by again! Such magnificence!

Mostly, we were all in awe of the beauty and energy of the tunnel itself. It was definitely a rocky slope, up and down… and the deeper we got, the blacker it got. Yet, it felt nourishing, embracing… and I could feel the presence of many in the “non-physical” along with us! Also, what I often hear in high vibration places, I just knew, in my consciousness:  “It’s a little bit rough to discourage those who aren’t truly guided or ready…”

We pressed on, and I spoke with many in short spurts as we proceeded in the dark (save the single beams of the flashlights). I spoke quite a bit with the leader, nicknamed Bobbles (not sure of the spelling, but you get the idea). He started by asking me, “So what brings you here?” My answer: “Guidance.” He nodded, and said, “Good enough!” We talked about Mt. Shasta (he’s a recent transplant), about the synchronicity of us arriving together… and my half-joke was, “Yes… but I’ve learned to just allow it to happen here at Shasta… because it’s such an energetic home! I’ve never gone anyplace else where it’s so prevalent that I run in to people, we recognize each other (even though we haven’t previously met in this life), and can just say, “Hey!! Wow, it’s been LIFETIMES since we’ve seen each other… and know that it’s true!” That got a laugh of understanding from most of the group.

Bobbles said he’d intended to invite me to join them right in the parking lot, but I hurried off, and he figured I wanted to be alone… and then, when I veered off, he figured I wasn’t “taking that path.” I laughed… and told him why… and he laughed, too, and thanked me for telling him, because he’d been pretty sure I was to join them.

As we progressed in, something in me… changed. Energetically, whatever was flowing through me increased dramatically, the further we progressed into the cave. Bigger and bigger… the only thing that kept me focused in the 3D was climbing up and down somewhat steep inclines and declines, on mostly BIG rocks, in complete darkness with exception of the beams of the flashlights. I also noticed that I was unusually out of breath, and sweatier than I would typically be for this kind of climb. However, I knew somehow it was completely energetic.

About 2/3 of the way in, we got to quite an opening, and Bobbles told everyone present to find a rock for a meditation. He waited until everyone was seated, and then we all turned off our lights. Complete darkness!!!

I barely had time to “tune in”… when everything amped up energetically EVEN MORE for me… and I suddenly REMEMBERED… the “seed.”

pyramidcrystalLet me back up a moment: A month ago, I took the Trinity instructors on a retreat on an island off the southern coast of NC; a place where I had been shown there is a vortex off the end of the southeast tip… and in that vortex was the energetic presence of what I call a Lemurian crystal chamber, which is a huge crystal pyramid I’ve seen “coming up from the oceans” for several years now. We all connected with the pyramid; its presence became stronger and stronger through our energetic work throughout the weekend. The culmination of the group and the weekend was all of us had agreed to come together to energetically “activate” this particular pyramid, “when the time was right.” And so it was! In the process, I also gained remembrance – and strongly/clearly reminded – that I am energetically the Guardian of that pyramid. When the group of us activated it, I assumed some sort of energetic “seed” into my being; I understood immediately that it was to be “planted” when I came to Mt. Shasta. At the time, I didn’t know (remember) the “where” or “when”… just that I was to do that.

I’d forgotten all about it.

When we were sitting there, I remembered hearing about being the Guardian of that pyramid, and getting “the seed.” And at that moment, I knew undoubtedly that as my part of this whole synchronistic event, I was there to “plant and activate the seed”… and receive something else, which I don’t yet consciously remember. However, it was JUST as BIG! And so I just sat in my Light… and I allowed it to happen.

I could see something spectacular happening, and simultaneously, I saw how everything had come together, so perfect, with this group, this guide, to be there in THAT moment! In the energetic hugeness of seeing that, I can’t tell you when in the timeline that Bobbles talked about how much work he and others had done to energetically clear the tunnel and get it “up to par”… and that somewhere in there, he’d understood that he is now the Guardian of the tunnel/cave! Guardian of that pyramid; Guardian of that tunnel/cave. The agreement we’d had was crystal clear – that he would be there to assist me in getting in to the point that was the most advantageous to do what I’d volunteered to do – because had I truly been alone, I’m not sure I would have ventured that far in on my own.

I was overwhelmed with the hugeness, as I saw a LOT that I didn’t consciously understand, but that my heart absolutely did. Quietly weeping in joy and gratitude, and being overwhelmed in the beauty of it, Bobbles rang a bell in the darkness several times. Moments after that, the entire group spontaneously began to tone; it was definitely otherworldly, and I knew and could see fully in that moment that those young adults in the group – pretty much the same age as my oldest daughter – are incarnate with a heavy piece of consciousness IN those higher dimension locations… because I know them THERE. The toning came from the higher dimensions… and it just got bigger and bigger.

After awhile, we were instructed to turn our lights back on, and we proceeded then to the end of the main tunnel. I could feel something just changing dramatically and it was affecting me physically; I asked if it was highest and best for me to continue to the end, and I basically understand at that point, it didn’t matter either way.

So i went to the end; we stayed there for awhile and then headed back.

I noticed increasing discomfort in my body; somewhere in there it started to feel leaden… and like I said, this was actually quite a moderate kind of hike that I’m typically very comfortable taking. I’d stopped for regular water breaks, and had been well nourished before I’d gotten there. This was different… and it grew and grew. I heard some pieces of my consciousness, pieces of my “higher memory,” saying, “We can let go of the physical body now…” and I said to them, in a commanding way, from an even higher place, “NO… CONTINUE ON. ALLOW, ACCEPT, EXPAND, ASSIMILATE…WE’RE DOING THIS DIFFERENTLY NOW!” And in another moment of great realization, I knew that the young adults in the group – these beautiful, gentle lights – had agreed to be there with me to HELP KEEP ME IN THE BODY, in support. Just when it would start getting unbearable, one of them would catch up (or vice versa), and would chat with me. At some point, my flashlight batteries went dead; as I said something to that affect and started digging in my backpack for my spare batteries, someone right behind me stopped and asked, “Do you need a light to help?” And then we proceeded together for awhile. One of them asked me, “So, you just came down here to do this by yourself?” My answer: “I was just guided to come.” A hesitation, and then, “Cool!”

As we got to back to the opening, I realized the tremendous discomfort I felt was such huge resistance at some levels of me, in keeping a physical body, AT THAT MOMENT. There was a tremendous fight going on in my consciousness! I would say I felt like I was going to throw up… but it was really the equivalent of feeling like I was going to throw up and my body was going to just dissolve.

So I just sat on a rock and breathed. I focused on my light, my wholeness, the Oneness… infinite flow, regardless of a physical body or not. And I felt… different.

After I thanked everyone and left, it still took me several hours of continuous conscious processing before I could function “in/with a physical body again” – I forced myself to eat a small amount of fruit, because I had to remind myself what that felt like to eat, I forced myself to drink water, for the same reason. I came back to the house where I’m renting while I’m here… just sat on the couch in the central meditation room… and just allowed.

And here I sit… and I will soon sleep, for tomorrow’s another adventure.

A side note: Something that stood out to me as indicative of whatever the multiple things the group did while we were in there (because it was everyone there with a different yet complementary purpose, even if not in conscious remembrance of it). When we went in to the cave, the sun was, in its typical fashion, out. When we returned to the mouth of the cave, it was raining… it stopped again briefly while we were outside, and as I sit here typing this, it’s raining again, more of a constant rain. Did we have an affect in opening this drought-ridden area? I know we were at least a PIECE of that!  😉

P.S. HUGE THANKS to Baubles… to everyone there… it was great seeing you “in 3D” again! Namaste!

AND… if you want to see more perspective on following guidance, see my Living the Shift GooglePlus Hangout/podcast from 7/7/15 (in the SAME DAY) on Allowing and Flowing With Change, Without Expectations.

Time for the “L” Word… (Ready for REAL Progression?)

(Reposted from the Trinity Energy Progression Website, 13 June 2015)

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Voldemort image from imgkid.com, giova94

Lucifer, that is. Yep… that’s right. “He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named,” I guess some would say (outside of the Harry Potter world, LOL)… ESPECIALLY in spiritual circles!

Did that make you squirm? It’s DEFINITELY something to look at, then…

It’s quite an interesting observation that so, so many who consider themselves “lightworkers” never, ever, EVER align or connect themselves in any way to what we’ve created as the personification of darkness. So many claim to have ALWAYS been a “lightworker,” ALWAYS helped other people, ALWAYS been a healer. in ALL of their many, many lives…  you get the idea.

Let me interject here, first, on this topic alone… because I’m calling it. Not so!

It’s actually rather limiting (and simply convenient to the judgement-based ego) to only ever want to look at the “light” side of ourselves. We did, as the Divine expressing ourselves individually, create the perception of separation. What we consider darkness is simply different levels of separation; the darker something is considered, the more based in separation the energy of it is. All of the energies of separation – also, all of the energies and emotions of the ego – are also a part of what we consider the darkness. Resistance, fear, anxiety, regret, resentment, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, anger/rage, shame… anything that has anything but the complete energy of Oneness is based in separation. And, the more extreme, the more “dark” we consider it. So the “darkness” and every part of those emotions/energies… are one and the same. And we’ve carried them out in every which way, whether a little or a lot.

It’s so, so easy for us to say, “I’m the embodiment of _______” – whether it’s the Divine Mother, Archangel Raphael, Ascended Master St. Germain (or countless others) – and in that, we typically stop the searching for our experience. However, these are also masks behind which we hide… even the brightest, most enlightened individuals in existence. Because, by the way… it is my understanding that anything with an individual identity has an ego… and it is also my understanding that the ego was created to explore individuality and separation.

Why would we have created an entire existence of the perception of separation – the infinite, Divine beings that we are – without exploring it to all depths, all possibilities?

We’ve ALL explored, ALL of it.

Our traditional stance on “the battle of good vs. evil,” in the energy of fighting/resistance – simply creates more separation… and darkness… and simply perpetuates its existence. It’s time to remember that in the perception of separation that we created, we created the darkness, and it’s that part of ourselves (often called Shadow Work in spiritual circles) that it’s most, MOST important to look at straight on, accept… and LOVE, if we’re really ready to dissolve it once and for all.

Enter Lucifer. Or, rather, as I call him as I’ve experienced, Archangel Lucifer.

Image from TheGoldenAgeofAquarius.com

My active discovery, acceptance, and discussion of this topic – and the representation of this persona – started in a really, really unexpected way. Years ago, I was listening to a series of guided meditations that were put out by a group of lightworkers focused on helping all raise the vibration of the Earth for this “next phase.” I resonated with some of their meditations… I didn’t with some others. They had one called “The Resolution of Darkness”, and my guidance was to go through that particular one. So, I put my headphones on… and the guiding of the meditation took the participant to a cave, in which there was a burdened archangel in the darkness; one who had volunteered to take on the personification of the darkness, to be the reminder of what we have ALL created within ourselves, in creating ourselves. It’s been a huge job… and he was tired. The guided meditation went on – surprisingly, at the time – to thank Archangel Lucifer for taking on that role, and to release him of this duty, to bask in the light again.

Even more surprisingly – midway through this, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I felt this down to my very core… the gratitude, the love, and the wonderment of taking on the externalization of that which we have conveniently repressed away inside of ourselves.

What a healing that was!

Fast forward, a few years later, after I had been gifted with the remembrance of this amazing practice of Trinity Energy Progression™ – coming back to the remembrance of our Divine Self – to pass on and help with the resolution of duality, separation, and externalization of the Divine. This was well underway. I was contentedly on my way to acupuncture one morning, looking forward to my “out there” time on the table. I was sitting at a traffic light on the way to my acupuncturist’s office, when I heard the voice of my Higher Self say to me, “Call upon Archangel Lucifer, and ask to do a Trinity session with him.”

My first response to that was, “Say, WHAT?”

I listened for more… but all I heard was the repeat of the pretty solid direction from the Higher Consciousness. So, I tried it on for size – and then “put it on the shelf” as I continued on.  I tried to just let that go.

When I was on the acupuncture table, on my “way out” (trying to ignore the request), the voice came in even louder and more insistent.

And so I did.

I remember asking permission, asking if we could do such a session in Divine Consciousness. And, though I felt what for lack of a better word felt like a little hesitation, I did get acquiescence. I remember the session… and the melding… and it was the equivalent of feeling like I was literally weighed down with tons of weights underneath craggy, hard, cold rock. And yet, once we were “there,” even with the heaviness, we became one in the light… and as the light was “turned up,” it felt like an innumerable number of rivers of light started flowing through the rock, first in little veins, and then expanding throughout, even if it was still a bit heavy. The amazing part: At the end of this, when I was guided to stop, I felt a wave of gratitude, coming from and to me!

Shortly after this experience, I was guided to do the same a number of times, and each time, it became easier and easier, brighter and brighter.

At some point, I started “seeing” Archangel Lucifer in “light form” on occasion. In fact, there have been a handful of times that this persona has shown himself to me – in his light form – in the middle of a session, typically when a client if ready, willing, and able to look at and finally embrace/love even the darkest depths of themselves. He has explained in these sessions the purpose of the creation of “the darkness,” and separation – and how with that, we’ve created feelings, textures, colors (like the prism), everything we’ve loved experiencing through this existence. To me, he has also become the representation of the acceptance of the whole – the Oneness – regardless of what that looks like. ALL is within the Light; ALL is part of the Divine.

I know some of the most light-emanating individuals who have discovered in their self-focused development a very personal, historical relationship with Lucifer (from very different levels of consciousness)… and, though typically starting out as a VERY heavy realization, it has allowed them the core of some of their MOST accelerated spiritual growth!

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Melek Ta’us, the Peacock Angel

If we look around, there are some interesting personifications of the resolution of the darkness. Not too long ago, in discussing this experience in a class I was teaching, I was provided with a reminder of the persona of Melek Ta’us (pictured here, with a name translated as the “Peacock Angel”); a prominent deity of the Yazidi pantheon. He is considered to be the redeemed/forgiven Lucifer.The story is that he cried and collected his tears for 7,000 years, and the tears were used to douse the fires of hell.

There is SO much more to share here… when you look closely throughout history, we have embedded within much of our mythology (including that within all belief systems) hints that this vital remembrance is crucial to our progresion, ascension… or whatever you want to call it. I’ll save that discussion for another day…

The point is this: As in Harry Potter… the fear of anything ebbs when we look at it and accept it straight on. Say the name out loud; remember that Archangel Lucifer is actually “He Who MUST Be Named” – accepting the whole of ourselves – as a part of our ascension, and  include just as much gratitude for this persona in the collection of those we’ve created for the whole of this experience! If there’s resistance and judgment on that… well, then you know what’s to be focused on within YOU. Because, when we begin to REALLY “walk the walk,” and TRULY live in the remembrance that we are all One, we are ALL Light and love – even the darkest parts of us and what we’ve created – we remember that we’re ALL just as connected with and a part of Lucifer as with Jeshua or any of the other personifications of pure, Divine Consciousness… and it’s time for us to remember, accept, and love that WHOLE within ourselves, so we can “game up”!

 

What About These Earthquakes and Volcanoes?

volcanic-ring-of-fireI find this article really interesting… I’ve been watching this for the past 5 years, and so fascinating how things are playing out… 40 Volcanoes Are Erupting Right Now, and 34 of Them Are Along the Ring of Fire

First of all, before any of my comments, I want to preface with THERE IS NOTHING TO BE FEARFUL about. This is just observation… and we ARE in the midst of great change and shifting at ALL levels – yes, even our planet. The shifting itself and what manifests isn’t “wrong”; how we deal with it energetically is key – if we act with fear, then what we fear will manifest. If we continue to focus on raising our vibration and helping that of the planet’s, this will be as graceful and easy as possible… and regardless of what appears to be happening in the 3D, it will all flow.. if we let it.

Shortly after I first began REALLY “seeing” (in 2009), and my lines of connection really opened up to my/the Higher Consciousness, Archangel Ezekiel (Archangel of Transformation and Death) – one of my closest buds along this part of the journey, who’s been there from day one – “reminded me” what was to come. He was showing me in context to helping to “nudge” me (aka “the etheric 12×12 upside the head” LOL) into action, to “get it together” and get to a place of doing what I’m doing today, and FAST… because it was important for a number of us who had signed up to do so to “be in place” as this all started to accelerate. When I asked what “this” meant, he showed me… many visions of stuff like this picture, and told me, “There is a dramatic shift already started… and it will be fast, intense, and only as smooth as every individual decides to allow… on the physical plane, there will be many earthquakes and fires…”

Earthquakes and fires.

I remember asking how long this total transformation would take in this timeline; he told me that a majority of it would be over the next 10 years… and then continue on to be complete within 100 (which, by the way, is a VERY short time in terms of the “old” physical 3D plane).
I remember that was about a week before the Haiti earthquake in 2010; that seemed to really, really get the ball rolling.

All of this came back to me as I read this article… and it’s pretty cool how things have really, REALLY accelerated in the past several years, and how many of the visions/precognitive remembrances I’ve had have come to pass… although there are a number that are still “out there.” Is it bad? Absolutely not! However, it’s more important than EVER BEFORE to get in touch with inner guidance, with connection to your HIgher Self/Higher Consciousness… because my understanding is that the further we go, the more it’s important to depend on what’s WITHIN, vs. what the physical eyes see around us. Important to integrate all levels of consciousness (including the ego) for optimal experience. Shifting our experience this way with absolute grace and ease… and fun!

Yes, the Earth is shifting, too… and thus, she’s only doing what SHE needs to do. We perceive it as “bad” when we live in the path of that… but that’s our individual choice of experience, and simple the intertwined lesson plans that can be shifted for the more graceful, easy, and fun, too! We can simply honor her shifting – as part of the physical organism here – and focus on raising our own individual vibration as high as possible to help support the collective, the oversouls, the organism.

If you tend to use a lot of tools in your intuitive work, I will tell you that what I’ve seen consistently is the Tower card in the tarot deck… which is symbolic of the crumbling of that doesn’t serve us (the tower falling down around us). Many have fear of this, yet it’s truly cleansing and liberating… and it’s AWESOME… as long as we LET GO of that which doesn’t serve us!

So, if nothing has prompted you before… maybe this will… it’s time to LOOK WITHIN. Time to find peace within ourselves, to remember that the Divine Consciousness is just as fully INSIDE of us as outside of us… and to remember that WE are the Light; WE are the ones who volunteered to be here through this very unique, very powerful time… to be a part of the party through this experience!

This is really the core of what I do… I help others clear the way and then remember that all of the Divine Ability is within… and we are ALL psychics, healers… and we are ALL the Divine, expressed as who we are for the very individual, PERFECT purpose we have!

If you’d like assistance with this… contact me!

I also did a half-hour Living the Shift episode based on this on May 19, 2015; watch it now!

Spiritual Alchemy

How Do You Dream Big? Take the first step…

DreamBigWhat would you do if you knew you could not fail? What would you do if you knew you would be leaving this life or this existence next week? What would help you to live in THIS moment, and make the ABSOLUTE BEST of it as possible? What’s preventing you from doing that NOW?

As part of the Divine, we are limitless; yet part of the game we’ve created and played brilliantly in the 3D incarnation is the creation of and adherence to perceived limitations. Beliefs, soul agreements, disempowerment, you name it! Often, when one allows themselves to dream… they do so with limitations around it. WHAT IF you could surpass even your wildest dreams? (You can.) What would you do… do you even consciously know?

Start today! Here’s an exercise to try: With a journal and a pen, find a place where you feel unbound and you can sit uninterrupted for at least 30 minutes; nature is a great place to do so; especially an established old tree… the bigger the better (I’ve had some of the most awesome BEing lessons from huge, aged trees)! Close your eyes… clear your mind… take a few deep breaths… and just allow yourself to be for a bit. Become one with everything… feel/expand the light from your heart, then spread it out to encompass all around you, like a big etheric hug. Feel the ISness of everything. Just sit there for a few minutes; can you feel the peace? Can you feel the expansion?

After you’ve done this for a little bit (ideally at least 15 minutes or so), come back to yourself while keeping the connection. Ask yourself, if I could do ANYTHING, BE anything, unlimited by anything or anyone else (and without dependency on anyone else)… what would I do? What would I be? And note the FIRST THING that comes to your mind. DON’T filter it; don’t allow the ego to shoot it down… but WRITE IT DOWN. This is for you and you only… no one else needs to see it, so no holding back. Then ask yourself, if I were to entertain that, what would be very first step? Most often, it’s releasing beliefs that you can’t do that; sometimes it’s releasing fears that you’ll fail, that you’ll succeed (far more common than you might think), that you’ll be a “bad person” for some reason like changing your family/friends’ lives by you changing or doing something different. However… know that you CAN attain your passion… and know that ultimately, the only one holding yourself back is YOU! It’s acknowledging this, and then DOING something about it to step in that direction. YOU CAN DO IT!

If you don’t even know how to start… find someone outside of your existing circle to help you, ESPECIALLY to help you to release those beliefs, fears, etc. that are holding you back! Many don’t even KNOW what it is that ignites their passion and makes their own heart sing BECAUSE of all the beliefs in place that cause them to box themselves in to roles they were taught to fill, that they were told are their obligations, that “content is enough”… and in the process, they’ve forgotten what would make them wildly happy, in a place of love EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY.

I worked with a client in her mid-40s to help her release the multitude of tethers that caused her unhappiness, dis-ease, and limitations in her every day life; she had been tethered to filling the role of supportive mother and wife for years first and foremost; though she loved her family, she was literally withering away, like an unfed flower, because everyone else’s wants and needs came first. As we worked on releasing the beliefs, fears, and agreements around all of that… she started to see her own spark again. Finally, one day, I asked her, “If you could do ANYTHING with your life, what would you do? What would make your heart sing?” She hesitated… and I asked her to tell me what had come to mind BEFORE the ego had intervened (and thus the hesitation). She said that when she was younger, she’d wanted to dance; that dancing had been her dream, because she never felt as much in her element, as much herself, as when she would dance.

So I told her to dance.

At first, she balked, “How can I do that? I don’t have the right body; I’m not in good enough shape; I can’t ______________…” I explained to her that if that’s truly her passion, she could – and SHOULD find a way! I continued working with her to help her release all that kept her from that (including the fear that it would destroy her family/marriage).

And she started dancing.

This woman has become a dear, dear friend of mine… and I want you to know that only 3 years later, she has a successful business teaching Zumba and a variety of other dance workouts! She’s also practicing and teaching energy work, and hopes to incorporate both next… to teach a meditative dance class! She’s released her physical limitations (including a number of food allergies), she’s processed through shifting the dynamics of her relationship with her family to one that is far more integrative and supportive of herself … and she’s BLOSSOMED into her full, effervescent, beautiful self by stepping into her shoes and ALLOWING herself to do it! She DOES dream big now… expecting international visibility for wherever her passion brings her. Once we allow ourselves to do so, the doors just open wide and the awesomeness really begins to FLOW!

So, the first step is to start with looking at yourself; start with asking yourself, outside of your every day surroundings, and LISTENING to yourself in remembering your answer. KNOW you can DO IT… dare to dream BIG… and take the first step forward! You can do it!

This is my specialty; if you’d like assistance… as always, I’m here to help!

(P.S. This card drew me in in a tiny, beautiful store called Kizmit on Orcas Island, WA… because this woman felt like me… love such synchronicities! ♥)

Opening to Abundance

AbundancePossibleMany have constant complaints about lack of ________ – whether it’s money, love, happiness, peace, you name it – and yet, hold beliefs, agreements, and patterns that cause them to continuously live in lack.

Often I’m guided to ask, “Do you allow yourself to receive?” How many times does it happen that one complains that they don’t have this, they don’t have that… and yet, they won’t ask for it, and if someone else offers assistance to gain whatever it is, they won’t accept?

Here’s an easy affirmation for you to help start your day and remind you about ALLOWING; clear your mind and say to yourself (or out loud): “I invite, allow, accept, and embrace continuous, limitless and infinitely expansive benevolent abundance in my existence, in all ways, shapes, and forms with grace, ease, balance, harmony, and joy.” Then, close your eyes and envision yourself in a scene like this… I often see and feel golden, light/love waterfalls just streaming in toward me, flowing through me, being one with me… and sit with that for a few minutes. Lovely!

Knowing the NEW Door is Always Open…

“Listen: There’s a hell of a good universe next door…let’s go!” ~e. e. cummings

I have quite a connection with nature, and find it SO healing; in fact, recently, I’ve found that nature most often feels “more real” than the 3D world (what I now internally call “the old Earth”). Repeatedly, I’ve been guided to send people to commune with trees to help ease the gunk coming up in the healing/clearing process; I’ve had very powerful experiences in doing so myself… actually, MOUNTAINS and OCEANS and everything HUGE!

Yesterday morning, I felt quite the intense pull to get outside; I was being called. I typically take my dog with me on walks, but was guided to leave her behind. I didn’t even put on sneakers; my Nike flip-flips (with tread on the bottom) felt sufficient enough, because I didn’t even want to stop to tie my shoes!

It felt amazing to just get outside and connect/merge with the trees, the plants, flowers, animals, and nature… I was guided to take the path in the nearby neighborhood which crossed me through the elemental wooded area that I love so much but haven’t crossed through for MONTHS. Funny enough, as I was walking on the road through it, my attention was brought to an opening in the woods, which looks like a doorway in the thick brush on the edge. It was beckoning to me (shorts, tank top, flip flops and all), and it was simply outside my reality to pass it by. So I entered.

An aside: There’s a lot of interesting interaction I’ve had with faie beings in this particular wooded area over the past several years… including a tremendously powerful and yet kind presence named Lodis (as I’ve seen and heard the name in my head) who is what the faie consider the deity of the doorways between the worlds. Lodis’ presence has transcended this wooded area for awhile. I remember the first time I sensed Lodis, about two years ago; I felt such a huge presence as I was running through that day that I just HAD to come to a dead stop there, in the middle of the road with my dog, to close my eyes and “see” who it was who was so huge that they were hovering over the trees, at the same time encapsulating all of them. There it was; and though I didn’t have conscious remembrance of this entity in the moment, I knew the FEELING of it (I don’t say he or she because it was both), and automatically briefly bowed my head in respect and opened my heart even further in greeting. I received the same in return, heard the name, and understood in moments that it was overlooking the development of “the doorways” between dimensions/worlds within that woods.

I’ve been patiently awaiting those “doorways” being “complete”… and I’ve asked almost every time I’ve been through there over the past few years if they’re done yet!

Anyway, as is my habit – and since I haven’t been that way for months – I connected in automatically with the woods as I approached, and asked about the doorways. As I’d seen the physical doorway at the edge of the woods to enter (one that has appeared to me in the past, but not for at least a year), I heard, “Why, yes, they are…” and I thought, “Well, THIS might be an adventure!” LOL!

And so I entered.

I shrugged and simply thought, OK… guide me. On the ground, I sensed a clear path in (even though there are no walking paths in there). So I followed it. I looked around, being aware of the possibility of poison ivy/poison oak (being in shorts and flip flips and all)… and yet, the path I was guided to take was free and clear of such plants, and I knew I would be OK.

The path I’d followed stopped at this huge, aged pine tree. This was the tree for me to connect through, I understood. And so I did.

Immediately, the colors brightened and sharpened tremendously, and I saw everything around me SO CLEARLY… in a completely different fashion, with my eyes closed. And yet… what I saw with my eyes closed felt far more real than with my eyes open!

I realized that I could FEEL the colors… which startled me a little. I was wondering upon that (which, of course, comes from the ego)… what does it MEAN to feel the colors in what I’m seeing?

I’ve had some really different perceptions of the world lately, and the little ego voice in my mind was totally baffled. So I thought, “OK… well… if I’m REALLY perceiving this… show me some way in the 3D (“old Earth”) reality…”

Until that point, I hadn’t even realized I was standing in complete stillness; complete silence. The only reason I realized this is because almost instantaneously from when I had that thought, something came crashing through the woods, seemingly out of nowhere. It was CLOSE, and moving fast. Staying in my melded state, I calmly opened my eyes, to see three deer – two young stags and a doe – chasing each other. Two continued the chase, but one stag stopped dead, no more than 20 feet from me, looked right in my eyes, and connected with me. I lost time and space, and felt a greeting from the heart… and then like I could hear some thoughts coming through from another level of consciousness; something along the lines of “Yes, it is known you are here.” That connection lasted for about 5 seconds; I closed my eyes to “see” the stag in my mind, saw him in more of a much different form, and he then bounded away to continue the play with his mates.

I continued the expansion of my merging (by way of Trinity Energy Progression) and gave gratitude for this place, for this energetic sharing… and just observed the feeling of the colors around me… the feeling of everything around me.

When I felt that was done, I opened my eyes. There was a tree I’d found on one of my few other jaunts into these woods, and I hadn’t been able to spot on my way in… it’s one of those trees that had fallen across the small creek running through the woods when it was younger and had re-rooted and grown up toward the sky, so the trunk part from when it had fallen runs on its side along the Earth, and then it makes a sharp turn upward. It’s a great place to sit in the thick of this beauty and meditate! As soon as I refocused my attention on finding it, I realized it was only about 50 feet from where I was already standing. That was my next stop! I made my way over and found a seat with gratitude on this lovely being.

I sat there for a short while with my eyes open, visually exploring what was around me; I realized that, though in the thick of the woods, I could see through to the road, probably no more than several hundred feet away. As I was considering this (that I was ultimately still on the outskirts of this wooded area), I noticed a man walking by with his dog on that road, while I sat there, completely unnoticed in the woods. I realized that not only did I FEEL like I was in a completely different world, even being so relatively close, but that I actually was in a different world.

After a few minutes, I again closed my eyes, expanded my consciousness in there even more, and reveled in the peace and beauty, while I was guided to do some pending healing work.

It wasn’t too long until my attention was pulled to the energy of some powerful entity in the woods with whom I was unfamiliar. I could suddenly feel its presence as plain as day… there was no missing it; as I was merged in with the energy of the woods and all within, it was just as much a part of me as a separate presence. As I honed in on the identity of this presence, I was taken aback… what I saw, in my mind’s eye, was the equivalent of a magnificent Sasquatch-sized being covered in leaves, with this vibrant consciousness of all that surrounded me. The Green Man! This was a first for me… I’d known OF the Green Man mythology, but had never encountered or really known much about him!

He was there to greet me; to welcome me into the doorway. He showed me a number of things of which I presently only have vague recollection … including paths ahead, changes ahead, for me and the world. But, most of all… he let me know that I am welcome, that I am connected to that doorway, and that when I am ready to actually walk through it, vs. just sit “at the edge“… it is there, he/they is/are there, ready and waiting.

We communicated telepathically for some period of time outside of 3D Earth’s time and space… and then I realized it felt like I should get back. I opened my heart in gratitude, thanked him, thanked all around me… and opened my eyes. I breathed in the beautiful, sweet smell of nature, stood up, and found a path back to the physical doorway that had been open to me in the 3D, physical world. The Green Man stayed with me, stayed connected to me as I departed; I felt him watching me from his version of the woods, in a pleasant parting wish… and I felt a wisp of his presence follow me all the way back home, as if he were noting that path.

As I walked off, I heard him send me the thought, “Until next time… soon…”

Can’t wait!

 

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