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A Reflection from the Morning After (Elections)

reflectionsI know this morning that a majority of my awakened and intelligent soul tribe will be/are upset by the results the US elections. I was initially somewhat surprised myself…and yet, I understand; before projecting on to something “out there” (whether or not you voted for the elects), here’s a higher perspective on all of this to consider:

There was no “easy choice” on the presidential front… my understanding was that the easiest choice we had at doing this next phase of collective evolution was electing Bernie, and we threw that out the window in June. At that point, I knew that regardless of our choice moving forward, none of it would be what the ego considers “easy.” It was clear that whomever would prevail would be the one to allow the “tower” of our false reality to crumble. HRC really sort of did that when the DNC forced her in to the candidacy, and blatantly showed the public the manipulation and entitlement that goes on behind the curtain. And yet… so many went into an immediate case of amnesia about the whole thing,

For our accelerated rate of evolution, it was clear that we’ve decided to rip off the Band-Aid… and via the president elect (and a majority of Congress elects), collectively look directly into that which we deny still exists within ourselves, into the heart of the darkness we’ve been pretending for so long isn’t there anymore, bring up what remains of our collective self-loathing into the light, face it, to (hopefully) resolve it, once and for all.

No more hiding from ourselves; we’ve turned the mirror around, and there’s nothing there but us.

One part of this – and it’s a really crucial part – is whatever’s left of a continued and skillfully hidden and repressed resentment and fear of the power of Divine Feminine… including in some women themselves, who, though embodying the power of creation, are still ok with allowing themselves to be punished, martyred, and/or minimized into subordination for doing so. This would have been cleanly masked with the election of HRC (even though it was truly Bernie who represents that energy, moreso than HRC). So how to bring the remainder up to the surface and out in the open? Elect someone who appears to be a misogynist along with others who basically love to focus on efforts at controlling women and their bodies, who love the idea of controlling the half of the population (and the part within themselves) that scares them.

We have a long broken system that does NOT address ALL OF US as equally Divine individuals who are part of a unified whole – whether we’re from the US or elsewhere, male, female, black, white, orange, purple, green, LGBT, short, tall, big, small, rich, poor, and everything in between – so what better way to smack ourselves in the face around that but elect someone who appears to be openly exclusionist and biased?

In spiritual development, we recognize that we’re triggered (as in triggering fear, anger, etc.) by someone who in some way reflects something we judge about ourselves back to us. If we hide it from ourselves, we won’t look at it. Therefore, what this election says is that we’re apparently ready to look at all of this straight on, too. That’s been apparent from the beginning of when Trump made it to the forefront as a candidate.

In spiritual terms, many use the term “dark night of the soul” when referring to the journey of self-realization. In many ways, that’s what it might seem we’ve chosen as our next steps. However, how “dark” it is really only depends on how much we judge and are resistant to seeing what exists of this within ourselves. It’s when we can see this part of ourselves with acceptance and from a place of love that we don’t need to have it shown to us anymore… and/or when it’s reflected back to us, we have no reaction but acceptance and love.

No one can take our power away from us but what we allow; no one can take our happiness and peace from us but what we allow. It’s our Divine Right. We choose every day, every moment, in our reality… whether we live it in love, unity, and peace… or in anything else.

As for me, I choose love, unity, peace… laughter and fun… and from that, power. Not just with others in my community, state, and country… but around the entirety of the Earth/Gaia organism and the Multiverse of which we’re a part.

I know that many of us who do all kinds of spiritual work have been accelerated in such remembrance to now stand as a lighthouse during what can potentially be quite a “dark” period of realization for many. This is the message I’ve received for years now of the importance of evolving to be able to remain being “the calm in the storm.” Now’s not the time to disappear… but to shine brighter than ever before!

Guidance has also been for years to remember how to be fully “in-dependent” – to be completely dependent on and trusting inner guidance, REGARDLESS of what the eyes see – because that’s the way to navigate and FLOW through it all! This is what I devote my time to living and teaching(/reminding)… and where we have come to is exactly why.

So, the anticipation of our path of choice is done with; now, let’s regain our centeredness, peace, and love… and proceed. Time to consciously choose where we are vibrationally in EVERY MOMENT, and BE THE CHANGE… regardless of what it looks like around you.

  

In the Dark, In the Light… Pluto’s Cave and Guidance!

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Looking back down the tunnel via flashlight, from the end. It might be challenging to see at this size and resolution… but the orb that clearly shows itself in the upper right, under the opening, presented itself to me as an elemental. What’s REALLY cool about this picture is in the upper right, OVER the doorway… there’s an outline of pretty much the upper half of a being showing it’s face… and I see several wispy others in here… can you?

I’ve been making a trip at LEAST once yearly to Mount Shasta since 2012; it’s now tied to me teaching the Instructor’s class of Trinity Energy Progression (for more on some of the reasoning for that, see the Trinity Website)

That’s my guidance.

Mount Shasta is… another world, another dimension entirely, if you allow it to be! I’ve written about it before (see the posts from my first trip – in this life – on my original Website, Road to Awakening, from 2012: Getting Lost to Find Our Way… (Mount Shasta Tales, Part One) and Journey Reflections from the Mountain (Mount Shasta Tales, Part Two).

So, here I am, on my yearly excursion, here a few days before the class joins me. Again… guidance. I just knew it was important to be here alone up front, even if I didn’t know why, until a few weeks ago.

There’s been so much about accepting, embracing, and integrating the darkness, remembering it as part of the light; so when I was suddenly getting loud and clear that it was important for me to go to Pluto’s Cave – a mile-long, 190,000-year-old lava tube north of the mountain – I mistakenly believed it was in relation that. Sorta, kinda… not really.

Many believe this is one of the doorways opening into the underworld civilizations of Agartha and Telos. THAT’S what I was missing!

All I know was that my guidance was to GO. I read up on getting there, on recommended preparations (bring/wear a flashlight with extra batteries, good hiking/climbing shoes, a sweatshirt, water, and a partner). However, I was getting to just go… on my own. So… I trusted.

I tried getting there earlier; there were delays and redirects. I found the parking lot to the trail to the cave, and pulled in… just at the same time another group had just gotten there. I looked over… and there were twelve earthy, vibrant young adults in their late teens and MAYBE early twenties; and one man in my age group, maybe older. I thought, “Wasn’t I supposed to do this alone?” My answer, loud and clear: “This is who you’re to be with.” I hesitated at first, and asked, “Really?” Yes, absolutely… I felt it.

I admit, at first I was a bit standoffish, because in anticipation that I’d be alone, my first planned order of business was biological. I actually booked past the group, onto the trail, and instead of taking the turnoff to the cave… I continued on, until I’d seen they’d gone ahead… and, well… took care of business! (I know, TMI, right? There will be a little tidbit later about why I’m sharing this here.)

When I got up and turned around, I made my way to the caves. It took me a few extra twists and turns (basically it’s in a pretty remote, desert area), but I found it. As I walked up, I heard voices that sounded very obviously like the opening of a spiritual ceremony. As I approached, I recognized the older man was sort of a guide to the group. He looked up at me, and asked if I’d like to join them… to which I replied, “Of COURSE! We’re here together… it was obviously arranged, so I might as well!” Then someone in the group commented about “there’s the 13th person”… and that was that; I was smudged and welcomed! The leader talked about how the spirit of the owl guards this cave, and he pointed out an owl’s nest high in the rocks at the entrance. He told us that sometimes groups get blessed with the actual presence of the owl.

We began our journey in through the beginning, where there are a holes in the ceiling from collapses, providing beautiful beams of light in the contrast to the dark. As we walked toward the first one… a big, beautiful owl soared quietly over us! After we moved past the opening… it flew by again! Such magnificence!

Mostly, we were all in awe of the beauty and energy of the tunnel itself. It was definitely a rocky slope, up and down… and the deeper we got, the blacker it got. Yet, it felt nourishing, embracing… and I could feel the presence of many in the “non-physical” along with us! Also, what I often hear in high vibration places, I just knew, in my consciousness:  “It’s a little bit rough to discourage those who aren’t truly guided or ready…”

We pressed on, and I spoke with many in short spurts as we proceeded in the dark (save the single beams of the flashlights). I spoke quite a bit with the leader, nicknamed Bobbles (not sure of the spelling, but you get the idea). He started by asking me, “So what brings you here?” My answer: “Guidance.” He nodded, and said, “Good enough!” We talked about Mt. Shasta (he’s a recent transplant), about the synchronicity of us arriving together… and my half-joke was, “Yes… but I’ve learned to just allow it to happen here at Shasta… because it’s such an energetic home! I’ve never gone anyplace else where it’s so prevalent that I run in to people, we recognize each other (even though we haven’t previously met in this life), and can just say, “Hey!! Wow, it’s been LIFETIMES since we’ve seen each other… and know that it’s true!” That got a laugh of understanding from most of the group.

Bobbles said he’d intended to invite me to join them right in the parking lot, but I hurried off, and he figured I wanted to be alone… and then, when I veered off, he figured I wasn’t “taking that path.” I laughed… and told him why… and he laughed, too, and thanked me for telling him, because he’d been pretty sure I was to join them.

As we progressed in, something in me… changed. Energetically, whatever was flowing through me increased dramatically, the further we progressed into the cave. Bigger and bigger… the only thing that kept me focused in the 3D was climbing up and down somewhat steep inclines and declines, on mostly BIG rocks, in complete darkness with exception of the beams of the flashlights. I also noticed that I was unusually out of breath, and sweatier than I would typically be for this kind of climb. However, I knew somehow it was completely energetic.

About 2/3 of the way in, we got to quite an opening, and Bobbles told everyone present to find a rock for a meditation. He waited until everyone was seated, and then we all turned off our lights. Complete darkness!!!

I barely had time to “tune in”… when everything amped up energetically EVEN MORE for me… and I suddenly REMEMBERED… the “seed.”

pyramidcrystalLet me back up a moment: A month ago, I took the Trinity instructors on a retreat on an island off the southern coast of NC; a place where I had been shown there is a vortex off the end of the southeast tip… and in that vortex was the energetic presence of what I call a Lemurian crystal chamber, which is a huge crystal pyramid I’ve seen “coming up from the oceans” for several years now. We all connected with the pyramid; its presence became stronger and stronger through our energetic work throughout the weekend. The culmination of the group and the weekend was all of us had agreed to come together to energetically “activate” this particular pyramid, “when the time was right.” And so it was! In the process, I also gained remembrance – and strongly/clearly reminded – that I am energetically the Guardian of that pyramid. When the group of us activated it, I assumed some sort of energetic “seed” into my being; I understood immediately that it was to be “planted” when I came to Mt. Shasta. At the time, I didn’t know (remember) the “where” or “when”… just that I was to do that.

I’d forgotten all about it.

When we were sitting there, I remembered hearing about being the Guardian of that pyramid, and getting “the seed.” And at that moment, I knew undoubtedly that as my part of this whole synchronistic event, I was there to “plant and activate the seed”… and receive something else, which I don’t yet consciously remember. However, it was JUST as BIG! And so I just sat in my Light… and I allowed it to happen.

I could see something spectacular happening, and simultaneously, I saw how everything had come together, so perfect, with this group, this guide, to be there in THAT moment! In the energetic hugeness of seeing that, I can’t tell you when in the timeline that Bobbles talked about how much work he and others had done to energetically clear the tunnel and get it “up to par”… and that somewhere in there, he’d understood that he is now the Guardian of the tunnel/cave! Guardian of that pyramid; Guardian of that tunnel/cave. The agreement we’d had was crystal clear – that he would be there to assist me in getting in to the point that was the most advantageous to do what I’d volunteered to do – because had I truly been alone, I’m not sure I would have ventured that far in on my own.

I was overwhelmed with the hugeness, as I saw a LOT that I didn’t consciously understand, but that my heart absolutely did. Quietly weeping in joy and gratitude, and being overwhelmed in the beauty of it, Bobbles rang a bell in the darkness several times. Moments after that, the entire group spontaneously began to tone; it was definitely otherworldly, and I knew and could see fully in that moment that those young adults in the group – pretty much the same age as my oldest daughter – are incarnate with a heavy piece of consciousness IN those higher dimension locations… because I know them THERE. The toning came from the higher dimensions… and it just got bigger and bigger.

After awhile, we were instructed to turn our lights back on, and we proceeded then to the end of the main tunnel. I could feel something just changing dramatically and it was affecting me physically; I asked if it was highest and best for me to continue to the end, and I basically understand at that point, it didn’t matter either way.

So i went to the end; we stayed there for awhile and then headed back.

I noticed increasing discomfort in my body; somewhere in there it started to feel leaden… and like I said, this was actually quite a moderate kind of hike that I’m typically very comfortable taking. I’d stopped for regular water breaks, and had been well nourished before I’d gotten there. This was different… and it grew and grew. I heard some pieces of my consciousness, pieces of my “higher memory,” saying, “We can let go of the physical body now…” and I said to them, in a commanding way, from an even higher place, “NO… CONTINUE ON. ALLOW, ACCEPT, EXPAND, ASSIMILATE…WE’RE DOING THIS DIFFERENTLY NOW!” And in another moment of great realization, I knew that the young adults in the group – these beautiful, gentle lights – had agreed to be there with me to HELP KEEP ME IN THE BODY, in support. Just when it would start getting unbearable, one of them would catch up (or vice versa), and would chat with me. At some point, my flashlight batteries went dead; as I said something to that affect and started digging in my backpack for my spare batteries, someone right behind me stopped and asked, “Do you need a light to help?” And then we proceeded together for awhile. One of them asked me, “So, you just came down here to do this by yourself?” My answer: “I was just guided to come.” A hesitation, and then, “Cool!”

As we got to back to the opening, I realized the tremendous discomfort I felt was such huge resistance at some levels of me, in keeping a physical body, AT THAT MOMENT. There was a tremendous fight going on in my consciousness! I would say I felt like I was going to throw up… but it was really the equivalent of feeling like I was going to throw up and my body was going to just dissolve.

So I just sat on a rock and breathed. I focused on my light, my wholeness, the Oneness… infinite flow, regardless of a physical body or not. And I felt… different.

After I thanked everyone and left, it still took me several hours of continuous conscious processing before I could function “in/with a physical body again” – I forced myself to eat a small amount of fruit, because I had to remind myself what that felt like to eat, I forced myself to drink water, for the same reason. I came back to the house where I’m renting while I’m here… just sat on the couch in the central meditation room… and just allowed.

And here I sit… and I will soon sleep, for tomorrow’s another adventure.

A side note: Something that stood out to me as indicative of whatever the multiple things the group did while we were in there (because it was everyone there with a different yet complementary purpose, even if not in conscious remembrance of it). When we went in to the cave, the sun was, in its typical fashion, out. When we returned to the mouth of the cave, it was raining… it stopped again briefly while we were outside, and as I sit here typing this, it’s raining again, more of a constant rain. Did we have an affect in opening this drought-ridden area? I know we were at least a PIECE of that!  😉

P.S. HUGE THANKS to Baubles… to everyone there… it was great seeing you “in 3D” again! Namaste!

AND… if you want to see more perspective on following guidance, see my Living the Shift GooglePlus Hangout/podcast from 7/7/15 (in the SAME DAY) on Allowing and Flowing With Change, Without Expectations.

Time for the “L” Word… (Ready for REAL Progression?)

(Reposted from the Trinity Energy Progression Website, 13 June 2015)

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Lucifer, that is. Yep… that’s right. “He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named,” I guess some would say (outside of the Harry Potter world, LOL)… ESPECIALLY in spiritual circles!

Did that make you squirm? It’s DEFINITELY something to look at, then…

It’s quite an interesting observation that so, so many who consider themselves “lightworkers” never, ever, EVER align or connect themselves in any way to what we’ve created as the personification of darkness. So many claim to have ALWAYS been a “lightworker,” ALWAYS helped other people, ALWAYS been a healer. in ALL of their many, many lives…  you get the idea.

Let me interject here, first, on this topic alone… because I’m calling it. Not so!

It’s actually rather limiting (and simply convenient to the judgement-based ego) to only ever want to look at the “light” side of ourselves. We did, as the Divine expressing ourselves individually, create the perception of separation. What we consider darkness is simply different levels of separation; the darker something is considered, the more based in separation the energy of it is. All of the energies of separation – also, all of the energies and emotions of the ego – are also a part of what we consider the darkness. Resistance, fear, anxiety, regret, resentment, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, anger/rage, shame… anything that has anything but the complete energy of Oneness is based in separation. And, the more extreme, the more “dark” we consider it. So the “darkness” and every part of those emotions/energies… are one and the same. And we’ve carried them out in every which way, whether a little or a lot.

It’s so, so easy for us to say, “I’m the embodiment of _______” – whether it’s the Divine Mother, Archangel Raphael, Ascended Master St. Germain (or countless others) – and in that, we typically stop the searching for our experience. However, these are also masks behind which we hide… even the brightest, most enlightened individuals in existence. Because, by the way… it is my understanding that anything with an individual identity has an ego… and it is also my understanding that the ego was created to explore individuality and separation.

Why would we have created an entire existence of the perception of separation – the infinite, Divine beings that we are – without exploring it to all depths, all possibilities?

We’ve ALL explored, ALL of it.

Our traditional stance on “the battle of good vs. evil,” in the energy of fighting/resistance – simply creates more separation… and darkness… and simply perpetuates its existence. It’s time to remember that in the perception of separation that we created, we created the darkness, and it’s that part of ourselves (often called Shadow Work in spiritual circles) that it’s most, MOST important to look at straight on, accept… and LOVE, if we’re really ready to dissolve it once and for all.

Enter Lucifer. Or, rather, as I call him as I’ve experienced, Archangel Lucifer.

Image from TheGoldenAgeofAquarius.com

My active discovery, acceptance, and discussion of this topic – and the representation of this persona – started in a really, really unexpected way. Years ago, I was listening to a series of guided meditations that were put out by a group of lightworkers focused on helping all raise the vibration of the Earth for this “next phase.” I resonated with some of their meditations… I didn’t with some others. They had one called “The Resolution of Darkness”, and my guidance was to go through that particular one. So, I put my headphones on… and the guiding of the meditation took the participant to a cave, in which there was a burdened archangel in the darkness; one who had volunteered to take on the personification of the darkness, to be the reminder of what we have ALL created within ourselves, in creating ourselves. It’s been a huge job… and he was tired. The guided meditation went on – surprisingly, at the time – to thank Archangel Lucifer for taking on that role, and to release him of this duty, to bask in the light again.

Even more surprisingly – midway through this, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I felt this down to my very core… the gratitude, the love, and the wonderment of taking on the externalization of that which we have conveniently repressed away inside of ourselves.

What a healing that was!

Fast forward, a few years later, after I had been gifted with the remembrance of this amazing practice of Trinity Energy Progression™ – coming back to the remembrance of our Divine Self – to pass on and help with the resolution of duality, separation, and externalization of the Divine. This was well underway. I was contentedly on my way to acupuncture one morning, looking forward to my “out there” time on the table. I was sitting at a traffic light on the way to my acupuncturist’s office, when I heard the voice of my Higher Self say to me, “Call upon Archangel Lucifer, and ask to do a Trinity session with him.”

My first response to that was, “Say, WHAT?”

I listened for more… but all I heard was the repeat of the pretty solid direction from the Higher Consciousness. So, I tried it on for size – and then “put it on the shelf” as I continued on.  I tried to just let that go.

When I was on the acupuncture table, on my “way out” (trying to ignore the request), the voice came in even louder and more insistent.

And so I did.

I remember asking permission, asking if we could do such a session in Divine Consciousness. And, though I felt what for lack of a better word felt like a little hesitation, I did get acquiescence. I remember the session… and the melding… and it was the equivalent of feeling like I was literally weighed down with tons of weights underneath craggy, hard, cold rock. And yet, once we were “there,” even with the heaviness, we became one in the light… and as the light was “turned up,” it felt like an innumerable number of rivers of light started flowing through the rock, first in little veins, and then expanding throughout, even if it was still a bit heavy. The amazing part: At the end of this, when I was guided to stop, I felt a wave of gratitude, coming from and to me!

Shortly after this experience, I was guided to do the same a number of times, and each time, it became easier and easier, brighter and brighter.

At some point, I started “seeing” Archangel Lucifer in “light form” on occasion. In fact, there have been a handful of times that this persona has shown himself to me – in his light form – in the middle of a session, typically when a client if ready, willing, and able to look at and finally embrace/love even the darkest depths of themselves. He has explained in these sessions the purpose of the creation of “the darkness,” and separation – and how with that, we’ve created feelings, textures, colors (like the prism), everything we’ve loved experiencing through this existence. To me, he has also become the representation of the acceptance of the whole – the Oneness – regardless of what that looks like. ALL is within the Light; ALL is part of the Divine.

I know some of the most light-emanating individuals who have discovered in their self-focused development a very personal, historical relationship with Lucifer (from very different levels of consciousness)… and, though typically starting out as a VERY heavy realization, it has allowed them the core of some of their MOST accelerated spiritual growth!

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Melek Ta’us, the Peacock Angel

If we look around, there are some interesting personifications of the resolution of the darkness. Not too long ago, in discussing this experience in a class I was teaching, I was provided with a reminder of the persona of Melek Ta’us (pictured here, with a name translated as the “Peacock Angel”); a prominent deity of the Yazidi pantheon. He is considered to be the redeemed/forgiven Lucifer.The story is that he cried and collected his tears for 7,000 years, and the tears were used to douse the fires of hell.

There is SO much more to share here… when you look closely throughout history, we have embedded within much of our mythology (including that within all belief systems) hints that this vital remembrance is crucial to our progresion, ascension… or whatever you want to call it. I’ll save that discussion for another day…

The point is this: As in Harry Potter… the fear of anything ebbs when we look at it and accept it straight on. Say the name out loud; remember that Archangel Lucifer is actually “He Who MUST Be Named” – accepting the whole of ourselves – as a part of our ascension, and  include just as much gratitude for this persona in the collection of those we’ve created for the whole of this experience! If there’s resistance and judgment on that… well, then you know what’s to be focused on within YOU. Because, when we begin to REALLY “walk the walk,” and TRULY live in the remembrance that we are all One, we are ALL Light and love – even the darkest parts of us and what we’ve created – we remember that we’re ALL just as connected with and a part of Lucifer as with Jeshua or any of the other personifications of pure, Divine Consciousness… and it’s time for us to remember, accept, and love that WHOLE within ourselves, so we can “game up”!