Stuck? Sick? Hurt? Can’t Figure it Out? A Perspective to Consider to Move Forward

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So, we’ve definitely turned a corner…

I have to admit; I was a bit perplexed for a few days, coming into the new year… because as awesome as everything is, as important of a shift as we ALL made in December 2012, I’ve started seeing quite a few “crumble” in some very surprising ways. Many of those are some who have been on the ACTIVE spiritual healing and progression path – some REALLY ACTIVE, and some VERY adept practitioners themselves – and seemed to have fallen into a pothole on the road!

This “crumbling” typically isn’t even on “new” issues… it’s most commonly some deep-rooted stuff that the person had thought they had resolved and released; or, on another note, something that has been worked on arduously to be able to continue on their journey. This is all INTENSE, too – serious physical injury, sickness, and even seemingly out-of-the-ordinary emotional/mental “breaks.” And BAM… here it is, in many cases after the person being without anything of the sort for quite awhile (or almost no progress, even though the person might have been working and working and working on releasing the core underlying issues that cause it).

I was wondering about this sudden extreme pattern… because paying attention to it, I realized that it’s ALL OVER! So many have old injuries flaring up, massive infections, rashes, terrible flus or colds, incapacitating digestive sickness, and also just irrational anger and other resistant emotions/behavior. This has also come up with several clients; I wondered, “What’s going on here?”

Step One: Cleaning Out the Closet
So, the first part is that we’ve stepped from the “old world” into the next; even though it doesn’t FEEL like we have in many ways, that’s simply a mirage. Many feel relieved after “December 21st”… and feel as if “we’ve made it”… but my understanding is that the changes and the “new world’ is just beginning. It’s sort of the equivalent to a video game: After you’ve worked hard at defeating a key level, you start a new level, and the beginning of the next level starts out looking mostly the same; however, that’s not so, and becomes more apparent as the player continues on into that level.

First of all, for us to move forward, we have to let go of EVERYTHING that doesn’t serve us in the highest and best way. It’s like cleaning out the storage closet that we’ve just thrown junk in, one thing on top of another, for years… and we need to use that space now for something completely different. So we have to pull everything out of the closet into the middle of the floor and get rid of all the junk. Which is fine, except… if we try to procrastinate because it’s uncomfortable – and the ego doesn’t want to look at it – my understanding is that all of the junk will be taken out of the closet and dumped into the middle of the floor for us to clean up, regardless.

The primary way we’ve set up this process of “cleaning out the muck” is by manifesting sickness, injury, and/or discomfort in our bodies. AND… very often, we’ve even set it up so that as that muck is being looked at, processed and released, we often have OTHER kinds of sickness, injury, and/or discomfort (and HUGE part of these rashes, flus, and colds all over the place)… in some form of detoxification. Fun, right? Well, we CAN change that… a few days ago, I posted a clearing to help everyone clear out the requirement of processing the non-physical via the physical body (see the Clearings/Healings for You page).

Step Two… and This is the BIG One!
There are many who will be reading this, get to the Step One part, and say, “But I’ve DONE all of this, and yet it’s STILL come back around again!” Of course, that can be VERY disheartening… even for the most versed and advanced energetic healing practitioners!  However, THIS is what I received in a HUGE download:

We’ve done “the work”… in many cases, we’ve helped others do it, too. We’ve worked on ourselves and with others, clearing after clearing after clearing… and STILL seem to be circling back around. We get lost in it… and keep on wondering, “What have I missed?” Soon, doubt begins to creep in: “Can I REALLY do this, or is this all a farce? Have I been set up for failure?” And beyond that: “I’m stupid/a loser/worthless/helpless, because I can’t… shake… this…”

Oh, yes we can; don’t doubt that… the key is that we can ALL heal EVERYTHING. What we’re experiencing is a sleight of hand (what comes to mind is the quote from the Wizard of Oz, “Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain…”)!

We’re in the “new world”… a developing new dimension… and of course, there are levels of our consciousness that know fully well “where we are”… and that know the real fun is just beginning; that we’re turning a corner. As much as so many are putting in the effort to find our ultimate soul’s purpose, there’s a part of the ego going, “OMG! We’re REALLY doing this?!” Many, MANY of us have set ourselves up for some VERY BIG, magnificent climax as part of the finale/transition. The ego realizes this… and knowing where we are, it’s in a panic; it’s saying, “We can’t DO THIS! Why did we sign up for it? We can’t step into these shoes!” And guess what subsequently is happening? The ego pulls up the heavy duty stuff that has been plaguing the person… and in essence paralyzes them, gets them going “circular” so they don’t progress, they feel stuck, they feel stunted… and then they say, “I can’t get past this… why can’t I get past this?” It throws them for a loop, and then they get STUCK in it, working so hard to resolve it that they forget about moving forward (because often, they think – from the ego – “I can only move forward once I get this…”).

Case in point: The other day, I was working with a client who’s had this going on… round and round and round we’ve gone, and the more clearing work we do, the MORE she seemed to have this incessant chatter that was DETERMINED to stop her in her tracks.

This time, as we started, I heard, “Ignore the facade, because that’s all it is.” I waited, and that’s when this HUGE understanding came in, and I understood that the issue actually had nothing to do with all of this chatter… it was a diversion tactic! The longer this stuff stayed anchored in her reality, the crazier it made her feel, the longer it would delay her moving forward into what it is she ultimately came here to do! As that understanding came together, I understood the same thing was going on at different levels with at least a half dozen others I know. So, worked on things from THAT perspective… and she had some substantial shifts in that session; the first in awhile!

Wow; of course!

The key to getting past this – where it’s important to focus right now – is to release all of the fears about moving forward, about attaining our soul’s ultimate purpose, about our feelings of unworthiness in terms of stepping into the shoes that we’ve put out for ourselves. And trust me… they’re BIG (but THAT’S a story for another day)… beyond anything the imagination of the “old world” could conjure up. THAT’S where to focus our efforts!

Clearing/Healing Ourselves to Move Forward
If you’re a practitioner of any energetic modality, the key is to working on self healing with the intention of releasing the fear of moving forward, the fear of fully stepping into and attaining the soul’s ultimate purpose, and the fear of being all-powerful. Another very, VERY important aspect of this is doing as much group-level healing for the groups of collective consciousness that need these healings, too… so as much effort as we can give it, the better, more graceful, and easy it will be in resolving this!

If you’re NOT a practitioner and would just like to begin this clearing process, here’s one for you to do; you don’t have to be a practitioner of any kind; simply read through all of it, and then relax, take a deep breath, be open to receive, and say the “trigger words” at the bottom (see this and other healings/clearings on the Clearings/Downloads page). And then… pay attention… and journal!

Would you like all of the following to

    • be without trauma, drama, illness, or creation/re-creation of a situation or illustration, and WITH complete grace, ease, balance, harmony, joy, bliss, adventure, excitement, humor, fun, and love;
    • be for all versions of you, all times, all places, into the ever-expanding Universe, to infinity and beyond;
    • bring forward all requested information and understandings to you via instantaneous, comprehensive download with fully conscious understanding to the version of you, timeline, and place from which it is requested;
    • have Creator (of All That Is)’s* Truths, understandings, perspectives, definitions, discernments replace your own and become your own for Divine alignment;
    • provide the clearings/healings you accept to your Twin Flame/Twin Soul (if you have one) and offer the same to the Higher Self of all ancestors and descendants, whatever their version is, if they so choose to accept.

Would you like to

    • Bring forward all situations, all experiences, all lifetimes throughout this existence that have caused you to fear moving forward; fear of stepping into and/or attaining the soul’s ultimate purpose; fear of being all-powerful; fear of being unworthy of attaining your soul’s ultimate purpose; fear of failing;
    • Get from Creator the perception of those situations as to what happened vs. Creator’s Truth on what happened;
    • Thank all parties involved; open the door to apology and forgiveness to/from all parties involved; download the feelings of apology and forgiveness to/from all parties involved;
    • Pull all of the related self-limiting beliefs, including: “I’m afraid of moving forward”; “I’m afraid of my power”; “I’m afraid of actually attaining my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I’m unworthy of what I’ve set myself out to achieve for my ultimate soul’s purpose”; “I’m afraid of failing at what I’ve set out to do”; “If I let myself reach the path to my ultimate soul’s purpose, I’ll screw it up”; “I can’t fill the shoes I’ve set out for myself”; “I don’t know how to fill the shoes I’ve set out for myself”; “My soul’s ultimate purpose must be painful and will cause me great pain”; “I will be unhappy if I attain my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “If I fully come into my power, I will misuse it”; “If I come fully into my power, others will misuse me”; etc.
    • Pull all related fears, anxieties, regrets, rejections, resentments, anger, guilt, doubt, sorrow, and pain; pull the memory and energy of all of that from the cellular level; pull related self-limiting thoughts, words, and actions from the cellular level; transform it all into Creator’s Light, send it all back to Creator;
    • Close those receptors, open new ones; saturate the cells and in between the cells with the purest vibration of Creator’s unconditional love;
    • Download Creator’s teachings on how to move forward with grace and ease, on how to step 100% fully into your Divine power with only unconditional love and the Highest/Best as your intention; how to trust yourself with that; what unconditional love is, perception vs. Creator’s Truth; teachings on your ultimate soul’s purpose and what that means to/for you; how the soul’s ultimate purpose will bring you great, immeasurable joy; how you purposely set yourself up to achieve your soul’s ultimate purpose, and how everything you have done and will do is the path to that; that you chose your soul’s ultimate purpose, and that you can and will reach it; that you are absolutely worthy of reaching your soul’s ultimate purpose; that you are worthy; that you can do all of this without trauma, drama, and/or illness, and with only grace, ease, balance, harmony, and joy; that you can have FUN with it, and enjoy every moment of it; that you have the full power to instantaneously eliminate all distractions, distortions, interference, and self-sabotage that attempts to prevent you from reaching your soul’s ultimate purpose; that you can attain your soul’s ultimate purpose in baby steps, and how to do that, how to see the next step every step along the way; etc.
    • Download the related beliefs, including “I am all-powerful, and I know how to use it only in the Highest and Best way, with unconditional love”; “I can achieve everything I set out to do with grace, ease, balance, harmony, and joy”; “I will enjoy attaining my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I embrace stepping fully into my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I am worthy of stepping fully into my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I know how to attain my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I can only succeed in achieving my soul’s ultimate purpose”; “I know how to take baby steps along the route to attaining my soul’s ultimate purpose, and I’m allowed to do that”; “Attaining my soul’s ultimate purpose will bring me immeasurable joy”; “I know how to move forward”; “I am fully ready and able to move forward toward my soul’s ultimate purpose, RIGHT NOW”; and anything else related; download the feelings, knowledge, and conscious understanding of how to do all of that, including that you’re ready, willing, and able to; that you’re worthy, deserving, and able to; that it’s allowed, possible, OK, and safe to; and that you have all of this in your life right now;
    • heal, resolve, and clear all timelines, in all directions, to infinity and beyond with the violet and platinum flames****;
    • write the experience off as completed in the Akashic Records***?

If you would like all of this, clear your mind, take a deep breath, be open to receive… and say, “Yes – Moving Forward.”

Thank you! It is done, it is done, it is done… and so it is.  🙂

 

* In this context, “Creator” refers to the Universal Oneness of which we are all a part and which is all as much within as it is without; it is another term as what is considered the Universal Oneness, Divinity, God, Spirit, Source, etc.

**Etheric binding agreements are any agreements between you and another soul that tie you into doing something in a certain way; this includes (but is not limited to) all stated or implied agreements, vows, oaths, blood oaths, promises, pacts, incantations, spells, curses, trades, agreed-upon expectations, vand all other types of binding agreements not specifically listed here.

***The Akashic Records are believed to be the “Universal Library” that keep record of every single experience of every single soul. “Writing an experience off as complete” in the Akashic Records is so you don’t have to have the experience again.

**** The Violet Flame basically is the mystical transmutative fire that consumes and wipes out all negative and old things, turning them into brand new and positive things, rejuvenating in this way all existing kinds of Life. The Platinum Flame is similar to the Violet flame, but additionally utilizes our new energies and focuses on emotional healing and clearing.

Leaping Forward…and (FINALLY) Being Ready to LIVE it ALL…

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The past three weeks have been just SO huge!

I’ve had no big external events to quantify that. However, every moment of every day, every part of me has been… shifting, for lack of a better word.

The experience on 12-12-12 at Pilot Mountain (read my blog post about that day) truly changed me in ways I can’t describe. I see everything – everything – differently, MUCH moreso than before. For the past three weeks, I’ve done the minimum of what I typically do in the public’s eye; I’ve skipped my Webcasts for the past two, I haven’t been as active in answering posts online or in email. I didn’t schedule any sessions between Christmas and New Year’s; I’ve stayed as close to home as much possible (which is very unusual for me), stayed completely in the moment… and simply sat in love and joy as much as possible.

On the front end, I didn’t have a clue as to why I was feeling the need to be so…quiet. Anyone who knows me personally would know how out of character that is for me! However, looking back over the past three weeks, I can see the shift that’s happened… and now, I understand it.

First and foremost, I released all residual resistance of the “old world” that remained within me. Some things came to light that truly surprised me… bits and pieces of deep, unhealed, unresolved parts of the “old” me. I stayed present… I watched it come up, process through, and release, without giving any of it any more energy, any resistance. That was a challenge for some of it… but I persevered, let go, let go, let go… and watched it flow away.

Secondly, I felt like it was important – REALLY important – to have this “quiet time”; to be completely present in the moment to spend it with my husband and children. Through that, there were some things that came up to resolve and flow away, as well.

Throughout this time, I’ve had many, many pieces to a puzzle I didn’t know was there start coming together. I can’t describe my understanding of the paramount importance of what’s going on with us, individually and collectively… and how little of what we waste so much time, energy, and drama on doesn’t serve us in the highest and best way! It’s like I’ve gotten a pair of glasses when I didn’t know I needed them; I thought I had seen things clearly before… and yet, everything has become far, far more crystal clear, with a different depth of understanding.

And through this new ability to see in such a different, clearer way, I’ve just been observing… and now I’m processing the world through a different set of eyes.

In releasing those final parts of me that held those last bits of hesitation and trepidation on committing all the way to what is to come for me – for what I’ve signed up to do, A to Z – I’ve finally arrived to a place of living fully in the moment; enjoying everything here and now, and seeing the beauty of all of it! I cherish what I have, who is in my life, all that has been provided… and I marvel at HOW MUCH has changed in this world in just the past 3 years; in 2012, it was like we finally reached the top of the mountain with the snowball, and somewhere along the line, we got over the peak, and started to roll downhill. Wheeeee…. things have been changing at an exponentially rapid pace; new understandings around the world, so many who are awakening spiritually to what is within (and what has always been), to our connectedness… and to the EXTREME SPORT that we’ve decided the “apex” of this existence would be! We’ve come to the Class 5 rapids… to the 40% downhill grade… to the point of jumping off the cliff into the clouds without clearly seeing what’s beyond. That’s how we decided we’d do it, collectively. Many of us have a piece of understanding of the big picture… but no one of us – no one – has conscious remembrance of all of it yet. My understanding is that the only way for us to get there – to remember all of it – is to work on ourselves, to clear our partitions within to see the whole of the self, so we could see our individual whole picture FIRST; until then, the context cannot be understood.

So many focus so much attention and energy on everyone else, on where everyone else is, what others think, what others say, what should be done for _______, and the victimhood existence of being helpless in what others “are doing to them” (or, in the equivalent, of what can/should be done FOR them) … that relatively little time and effort is being taken to focus on the Self. Along with that, what’s being avoided in such an existence is stepping fully into the Truth of WHO WE ARE… each and every one of us. Of taking the reins, and in doing so, taking full responsibility for our entire reality as it is, individually, and releasing the expectations that someone else has to “take care of” ANYTHING for us.

In the efforts of the lessons of duality for which this existence has been created (essentially boiling down to exploring the concept in a zillion ways, as the Divine, of what would happen if there could possibly be a “me” and a “not me”), we have done a stupendous job of disempowering ourselves … of believing that the answers, the solutions are outside of us, and in turn convincing ourselves and each other that some are less special/powerful/brilliant/magical/Divine than others. And the habit of that has become to depend on others… because the ego tells us that we couldn’t possibly have the answers inside of us! Even in what is considered the “spiritual world” (as if there’s ANYTHING that isn’t spiritual)… a vast majority still believe that getting the answers from what is considered to be an archangel, an ascended master, or even on this plane of consciousness someone who has been deemed a guru in some way, shape, or form is BETTER than getting the answers from within. Even more of a vast majority still believe that what is considered “God” – the Divine, Spirit, Source, etc. – is a completely external entity to themselves… and still disempower themselves to that external deity. So many spend so much time listening to what others have to say in what they “should” do, how they “should” act, and what they “should” believe, that they completely miss the point that what’s most important is to spend time clearing out the muck on the inside, release all the self-limiting thoughts, words, and actions that are holding them back (especially self judgment), and dusting off the mirror to look at themselves straight on to remember their own Truth. Once we have resolved all of that self judgment that limits us in every single way, we can finally realize the brilliance of what we actually are; and that ALL of us here are LITERALLY the angels, archangels, ascended masters… and fully the Divine.

My understanding is that we’ve come to a point in our progression where enough of us have started to remember that we are, each and every one of us, fully responsible for ourselves and for our reality; enough of us have started LIVING the full acceptance that each one of us is the Divine, and in doing so, have taken full responsibility for our own individual journeys. In reaching this “tipping point,” we’ve been able to slightly shift the inspired road ahead of us as we continue on into this “New Age.” We agreed to certain collective “checkpoints” on this timeline… and we’ve passed a major checkpoint over the past month that is now allowing us to  proceed with a far “lighter” version (though no less extreme) of the planned mass Awakening than the road we had previously been following.

I am honored to have “been there” consciously to understand this shift in direction; many have had an unidentified feeling of exuberance of “Whew, we passed THAT point…” and mistakenly credit that feeling to the seamless passing of the 12/21/12 date in the 3D reality to which so many gave so much energy! In fact, the acceptance of the shift came into this reality earlier than that.

Upon stepping back over the past month, I have observed the freneticism that still pervades our world. There’s still a LOT of work to do, and my understanding is that it will still be VERY uncomfortable for many who try to further delay that full self-realization and self-empowerment… because what we try to repress and/or ignore because it’s uncomfortable will quickly be PUSHED upon us, whether we like it or not (see my October ’12 blog, The “Storm’s” Just Beginning… How to Smooth Out the Edges As We Go…).

And just think… this is a far, far more easy and graceful way of progression (as I tell so many with whom I work, “easy and graceful” is all a relative thing)…

Upon realizing all of this, I’ve finally been able to embrace the full commitment of what it is I volunteered to do. Essentially, it’s quite a varied and inspired array of powerful ways to help others to look in the mirror, once and for all, so they will see the Divine within.

And when I say it’s inspired… let’s say I’m really taking the bull by the proverbial horns…  LOL!

I know my life is changing, and will transform even more radically as we move forward. I’ve joked over the past several years of remembering my Self that I’ve (re)discovered I’m apparently quite the audacious spiritual adventurer, in being reminded of what I’ve signed up to do. It will actually be that way for many of us in some way, shape, or form… some moreso than others, depending on what we’ve agreed to do during the climax of this magnificent symphony! So, part of my quietude over the past several weeks is the pervading feeling that I’ve needed this period to step back, take a deep breath, and prepare… to stay saturated in love and gratitude for where I am, RIGHT NOW, in every moment…as I prepare to take the leap off of the next cliff, even without having full conscious remembrance of what’s below… except that I’ve CHOSEN to go there!

So, no need for any “new year’s resolutions” – it’s more like a “new age pledge”… and that simply is to BE ME, the whole shebang, fully and completely! I will live every single moment beyond the scope of what we can imagine today, to live in faith and love at a much, much higher level than ever before, and to be ready to dive from a new cliff at every given moment! I accept, commit to, and embrace what my soul’s purpose is, to all of the elements for which I volunteered – regardless of what that might look like from the 3D level – even though I don’t even know the full scope of it yet. I accept and embrace not only pushing my boundaries, but in releasing boundaries (and “boxes”) altogether…

This is truly a new age… and the fun is just beginning. Change is how we CHOOSE to experience it.

How about you?

 

Journey Reflections from the Mountain (Mount Shasta Tales, Part Two)

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Twelve days.

That’s how long I’ve been on this personal retreat; first to the Vancouver, BC area… and then to Mount Shasta, CA – one of the key spiritual “energy vortices” of the world. I’ve been getting the calling to come here for the past 2.5 years. I was TOLD last December, under no uncertain terms, that I WOULD be coming here, by June latest.

So here I came… or should I say, to here I’ve returned.

The trip to White Rock/Vancouver, BC was a separate, awesome experience in itself… so foreign, and yet so familiar and comfortable.

But… heading into Mount Shasta, California…

I want to tell you: No matter what you read, or what you think you might feel before you “come to the mountain,”  it IS a different world here, and you can’t understand that until you’re here and can FEEL it. Seriously; at some point on the way in, I KNOW I must’ve moved through a dimensional doorway. After just three or four hours of being here… without a better way to explain it in words, I literally could FEEL every cell in my body spread out… and I could literally feel MORE SPACE in between every cell. Lots more! Which, in essence, allows a “living meditation”… because everything just IS here. What a lesson in BEing!

So much space… between cells, between words, between thoughts. Just SPACE. More than I’ve ever felt before. And thus, time actually feels like it’s slower (I could swear I’ve been here for a month… LOL), because every moment is SO FULL.

The view of Mt. Shasta from the peak of Spring Hill

And the mountain… you literally feel the mountain welcoming you home. “It’s been awhile… welcome back…” And such a preponderance of being embraced with love.

From that feeling, everything moves so much more peacefully in this area. The experiences I’ve had here have been beyond amazing… how many people I’ve met that I feel like I’ve known forever (which, you know, of course I have); how many people I’ve met in passing that I end up HUGGING after our interaction… because it’s like being home. And I can’t even begin to explain how much “unexplainable” stuff in the rest of the world is commonplace here… and almost overlooked because it’s simply expected.

It IS home for me… an ancient, ancient one. The original one. There is far more to explain about THAT statement than I can cover in this one blog post. It’s a place about which I’ve been having visions for the past several years; above ground and below ground. It’s the place where the mythical Telos resides underneath and is superimposed over the mountain, in a higher frequency.

It truly is another world… and the moment I got here, my heart transported me immediately to another time, to the memories I’ve uncovered of being here way, way, way in the past… in the beginning, during Lemuria.

I know I’m typically very forthright about my spiritual experiences (of course, that’s the purpose of this blog, right?)… but for now, I’m holding many of the details close to me. This trip went far, far deeper than I ever could have anticipated, and it’s so intimate that I’m not ready to share the energy or some of the details of it. Yet. But I will say this: In the past 12 days, I have brought up and released some VERY deep muck that I didn’t even know I had. My heart has broken wide open and been healed and mended multiple times in the healing process… so much that for several nights, I had Archangel Ezekiel at my side, prominently residing at the side of my bed as I tossed and turned. One night, I had Ezekiel AND Adama (the head of the Council of 12 of Telos/Lemuria… aka Archangel Daniel – more on that later)  there, as I was being given some huge energetic download that lasted most of the night… and I was paralyzed with the intensity and brightness of it. However, in the morning… I became a new person… to get to the really, really core level to clear out the rest.

There is so much hiking, so many mountains and lakes and waterfalls in the area, that you can be any place in nature with a beautiful view within 10 minutes. And most of them all have their own energy.

Castle Lake

Castle Lake was my first jaunt on my own, shortly after I got to Mount Shasta. I hiked to two spots that were fairly secluded… sat on the water on rocks and had the most phenomenal time with elementals… completely audible and visible in plain sight (even though it took me a little while to tune in and realize what I was seeing/hearing). Such a huge healing there, and such a beautiful (and fun) spot!

I spent an afternoon with a friend at the nearby Stewart Mineral Springs… I don’t need to say anything more about that, beyond simple bliss!

One morning I climbed Spring Hill with a friend… a beautiful hike with yet more spectacular views of Mt. Shasta and surrounding mountains (including Black Butte and the Eddy Mountains).

And other moments at Lake Siskiyou, so quiet and contemplative…

I got lost on the bottom half of Mount Shasta, with my housemate here, A’shaya… and had a great time doing it (see my post, Getting Lost to Find Our Way, Mount Shasta Tales Part One)

What was truly amazing was my access to Panther Meadows, the most sacred site on Mount Shasta, near the peak. When I was talking about the dates for my trip plans, a friend I made who lives here in Mount Shasta kept on telling me that it’s unfortunate that I wouldn’t get there, because they NEVER open the road to Panther Meadows (closest to the top of the mountain) before July 1st. I just told her I was following guidance, because I had gotten very specific dates on when to come… and if it wasn’t meant to be, so be it. On Friday (June 15th), my housemate here told me she’d heard that Panther Meadows had been opened… and then I heard it again when I was shopping in one of the downtown shops by a local shopkeeper. Surprise all around… so… I was able to go after all.

Panther Meadow on Mt. Shasta... it might not look like much, but the photo can't capture the FEEL of this incredibly sacred space near the top of the mountain.

I’ve been up there three times in a two-day period, regardless of the snow up there. The first time was so profound and intense and personal that I choose not to share it… quite yet. Let’s just say I was “shown” where I would go the night before in my dreams… when we arrived there, I immediately recognized it… and I was instantaneously overwhelmed by the number of Beings present at the Meadows as I entered… it was jam-packed… because I realized that I knew all of them. My original soul family, there waiting… and at that overwhelming moment when I remembered all of them, the energy/presence of all of them, my heart just opened up with joy and love at being there, seeing them again, as though I’d never forgotten. What happened after that… well, let’s just say that Adama and St. Germain were there to help me clear out the REST of the muck that was under the layer that had been cleared out, in one fail swoop. It was so beautiful, so freeing, and so absolutely sacred… that I sat on my knees in the mud in the midst of the snow and sobbed. First from pain and sadness of so much realization… and then, as that all flowed out, from joy and the overwhelming love from all of it.

It was just beyond words.

The second time I went back was simply a solitary contemplation… more space… and the feeling of support from all around me, with some messages that were important to process.

The third time… I was shown another spot further up the springs on the Meadows – again in my dreams – and when I found the spot, I stood there and was saturated with the most brilliant light I’ve experienced. I felt so big, with so much space… that I still feel like I’m glowing.

And then I was done with Panther Meadows… so I departed with such huge gratitude and love for the acknowledgement and healing I had received.

Orbs and violet light at Ascension Rock... how incredible!

This evening – my last evening here – I had been reminded from another “new-old friend” I’d made here about Ascension Rock, up on the mountain. For some reason, I felt the pull to go back up, and this time find this spot. On the way, I was guided to stop in several other locations… and then I reached it. I sat in meditation, half aware, half somewhere far away… and I suddenly heard clearly, “Look up… look at where the sun shines through the trees…” I did and immediately saw the violet light and the orbs… and surprisingly, though my phone camera hadn’t done much to capture any of that for the rest of this trip, I actually got some amazingly cool pictures with it there.

Again, I felt so surrounded, nurtured, and loved.

Beyond the spots, I have met a number of people I “already know”… and it’s amazing how quickly we connect. And, even more amazing is the string of people I’ve met who talk to me, give me the piece I’m to get from them… and then they forward me on to who has the next “piece” – “Oh, you HAVE to meet _________…. here’s their contact information, tell them I sent you…” And so on. If I stopped to think about it… it would make my head spin. But it’s really just how an entirely conscious environment allows manifestation to play out, so effortlessly!

So, I’ve packed my things to go home tomorrow, and am sitting here this evening, just soaking in every last moment at the house where I’ve rented a room, great energy in itself right on the lower part of the mountain. I’m so thankful for this, for my journey, for my path… and for the fun and incredible moments that are more and more common as I go along.

Part of my quest here was to determine whether it was a suitable place to hold some classes for the Trinity Energy I teach… well, it was never really a question… it was simply SEEING and FEELING how it would fit here. And, finding out how perfectly the Trinity Energy ties in to what others are understanding and experiencing in the same but different ways. Perfectly.

I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to try out Victoria Lee’s Trinity Table (even though I’ve tried the one in North Carolina before)… we’d had such a long and lovely conversation (someone else I’ve just met that I’ve known forever)… but as she said, “Well, next time… because you’ll be back…”

Absolutely. I’ll be back. Conscious memory is in my blood now… and it won’t be long.  🙂

 

 

Getting Lost to Find Our Way… Mount Shasta Tales (Part One)

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While visiting in this awesome area of Mount Shasta, California – one of the major spiritual “energy vortices” in the world – there is SO MUCH nature time to have here that I’ve been out to different places for hikes and meditation spots around town since I arrived. Today, it was time for the first experience ON this huge, imposing, and yet nurturing mountain of the core point of the ancient land of Lemuria, over the mythical underworld of Telos.

The house in which I’m renting a room is right on the bottom portion of the mountain. In fact, from the room I’m renting, there’s a sliding door right next to the bed, onto a balcony that looks right up to the peak. I go to sleep every night looking out into the darkness, feeling the pulse of the mountain… as well as MUCH else!

I have a housemate, A’shaya, who is also renting a room here,  in her last week after being here for 6 weeks (7 by the time she leaves).  She’s done a lot of hiking from the house (there’s a foot path into the thick of things here on the mountain just a block from here) with a former renter… so I mistakenly assumed she’d known all of the path markers.

That probably wasn’t a good assumption on my part… on a mountain that climbs to 14,400 feet above sea level (starting at about 4,000 feet) , with a circumference of about 70 miles.

We were chatting away… I’ve discovered that conversations during hikes with anyone you meet here in Mount Shasta are also quite different than those you’d most likely experience on most other mountains. A’shaya’s a massage therapist turned astrologer… and there was a lot chit chatting about this kind of chart, that kind of chart… what she’s experienced since she’s been here, where she’s going, and the spiritual/metaphysical experiences and practices I have and have had, as well.

So, we made it to the top of the trail we had aspired to climb… and took some time just laying on some beautiful layered rocks, enjoying the sunny, 80-degree, dry weather. Such peace and quietude; so much of nature! We had realized that it seemed we had a swarm of butterflies around us the entire time up the trail; their visits and frolicking continued around us while we sunned ourselves. Plus lizards, beautiful flowers in bloom around us… just pure beauty and quietude.

And just… space.

Typically, when I’m on a hike and find a spot like that, I really like to be still, listen, and FEEL… without chattering or much interchange (in fact, I often prefer to go alone); however, on Mount Shasta, with A’shaya happily chattering away, I found I could STILL enjoy the moment and the stillness while simultaneously engaging in the conversation without feeling like I was being interrupted. Again… so different than the “regular world”!

Once we’d gotten our fill of the spot we’d chosen, we started back. Yet, the paths seemed completely different; neither one of us could remember which way we’d come, through many forks and winding turns. We THOUGHT many of the choices looked familiar… for awhile. Then it seemed like the landscape had changed completely.

At some point, I started laughing and said, “Well… maybe we simply walked through a dimensional doorway, which is why it all looks different…” She laughed and agreed with me. Then we considered whether we’d really want to find our way back through… because it DID feel different. MORE space…  So, we decided to call on our friends, the elementals, to help guide us back to the house where we’re staying.

Right after we did that, we turned a corner, and there were two beautiful deer (shephards of the fairy realm) consorting in the wood… they jumped and bounded off in the opposite direction. So we followed…

The butterflies were still all around us… and yet, slightly ahead of us. We continued on their path.

Not to say we didn’t continue on in different twists and turns… we’d reinforce our request a few times (A’shaya had made the mistake of just asking for them to “lead us home”… I told her that was sort of a misleading request, since many would probably consider us home right there, on the mountain!)… and every time, a new path would light the way. And, as the trees are large on the mountain, there were times when we’d lose sight of the peak in the trees… and had to literally guess which was was down (because many of the paths led up).

Throughout this, we found we bonded. Neither of us ever got nervous, panicked, or upset about our predicament. In fact, the longer and further we went, the more fun we had with it. Yes, we got hot; yes, once our water ran out, we got thirsty (but I was VERY glad to have gotten a “nudge” in the grocery store last night to pick up a few protein bars for the hike, because THEY came in handy!)… but we just looked at it as a grand adventure, and pondered what we could learn from the experience. And we laughed… A LOT. We stopped saying that we might’ve taken “a wrong turn”… and just agreed that the many paths, regardless of which ones we chose, would eventually get us where we were going.

Our "Walking Staves of Light"

We picked out some great walking sticks, which we deemed our “Walking Staves of Light.” Though A’shaya was hesitant about using one in the beginning, she really bonded with hers when we started cutting through the hedge going downhill on beds upon beds of pine needles; they proved very useful.

At some point, we decided we must’ve been warriors in some indigenous tribe together in another life. It was then that we renamed ourselves the Warrior Goddesses of the Light… which of course worked well with our walking staff terminology! We even considered whether we should find some mud with which to paint stripes on our faces.

And, the butterflies led us on, staying around us… like we were in some sort of fairy tale.

Our variety of path choices became an exploration; a discovery of noticing when we could tell if a path that seemingly ascended actually turned into a descent; when we could start “reading” the mountain… and then we actually decided to start FEELING it, FEELING our way out.

After awhile I was really getting thirsty; I told A’shaya that it would be really, really nice if we could find a stream from which to drink… and then we could walk around for as long as we wanted without worrying about finding our way out. At some point, we started getting our bearings, and found the old railroad tracks that circle the mountain; since we had crossed the tracks in the beginning, we decided to just follow them until we saw a familiar spot. That never happened; what happened was that I finally spotted a paved road. So, we took a steep path down and came out into a park. We asked a few men who were walking across the manicured field where we were… we discovered we were a few miles from the house… one of the men looked at me and asked if we needed water, because there was a fountain from the springs right at the edge of our field. OK… so not a running stream… but the same meaning… and it was just as awesome (and absolutely refreshing)! What a perfect place to emerge from our play world!

After we explained that we’d sort of lost our way on the mountain, the passersby asked us if we needed a ride back to our house. We looked at each other, immediately understood without any words, and shook our heads, but thanked them for the offer. After they moved on, we agreed that we would see this adventure on foot, on our own, through the end… after all, we ARE the Warrior Goddesses of the Light!  🙂

And so, we made it back… in 5.5 hours instead of the planned 2… exhausted and dirty… but we’d never lost our sense of adventure and enjoyment of the journey, regardless of which path we took. We found humor and fun and playfulness in every turn… and we learned about each other; we learned about and celebrated our differences as well as our similarities, and we found that without any panic or sense of worry, that even though the path was longer than we had THOUGHT (even though my Higher Self obviously had it all under control… after all, I was at least prepared with those protein bars!)… we were given everything we asked for along the way.

We realized the amazing and wonderful messages that had come through for us on the journey… and how the real, all-encompassing message really was that it’s ALL about the journey itself.

After her 7-week period of solitude in Mount Shasta, A’shaya is moving to Florida in a week… and is seriously considering sending off her walking staff to Florida ahead of her, and then getting it sanded with just that engraved on it: “It’s ALL about the journey.” Because it really is.

How awesome is THAT?!

 

 

 

 

On Humor… Connecting In… and Punch-Buggies

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I love the punch-buggy game.

In all reality, I’d completely forgotten about it, until one of my kids picked it up from one of their friends… and it’s been a family-wide “battle to the death” in my family ever since!

So, for those who are un-enlightened on this game, here’s a simple explanation: While in the car, whenever you see a VW Beetle on the road – driving, parked, in a parking lot, etc. – you get to (playfully) punch someone else in the car, while simultaneously yelling, “(The color) punch-buggy… CAN’T PUNCH BACK!” Because, of course… you don’t want to get a punch back from anyone else in the car! We’ve also added some odd nuances… 2 punches for a convertible, 2 punches for a “classic model”… and I’ve actually added in the rule that car dealerships aren’t allowed (so there aren’t 20 punches going around when passing a VW dealership! LOL).

Such an odd game that’s been around for YEARS… but yet, no matter what’s going on in my family – whether someone’s irritated at someone else, or simply in a cranky mood – a simple “punch buggy” passing by sends it all to the wayside, and before you know it, we’re all smiling and/or laughing.

I love humor – jokes, laughter, light-heartedness, playing – and that’s carried over into working in the spiritual world. From the beginning, I’ve communicated with my guides as they are my sisters, brothers, best friends – which they are – and in turn, they’ve communicated in the same manner with me. In fact, it was made clear to me early on in my active spiritual quest that in actuality, humor and playfulness actually opens up the channels even wider… because it provides additional means to receive messages and understandings from “the expanded Universe.”

Humor and playfulness also relaxes us. In its pure form, it comes from love… and if love is the only true Absolute in the Universe (which I’ve been made to understand/remember), then OF COURSE it fits into expanding our connectedness and spirituality! Now, I won’t go into the whole line of “humor” that’s been displayed by my guides and higher self in terms of puns and duplicitous meanings – it’ll be some other time that I’ll tell you more about a 3-week sudden infestation of tiny ants in my house that ended abruptly right after a visit from one of the archangels, who said to me, “About those ants… feeling a bit ‘antsy’ lately?” followed by a burst of laughter that was simply pure love…. and the absolutely amazing and witty banter that I’ve had on occasion with Jeshua and Ezekiel and others (and for those who don’t think that Jeshua would be witty and funny… think again, he’s got THE BEST sense of humor! LOL)… and how much I love, love, LOVE it when I’m talking out loud with a friend, and a witty or snarky comment is made, and I suddenly hear this thunderous laughter by one or more of my (or the other person’s) Guide family. It’s during THOSE moments when I sometimes feel like my heart is going to burst from the love that comes through from that. It’s such a HUGE feeling… there’s no real word for it, but to say it’s MAGNIFICENT and AMAZING is barely touching on the feeling of it.

Now, though my norm is a very laid-back, light, and fun approach to all of this, what I do as part of my “job” is connect with many others and work with them through their blocks, ailments, and other limiting thoughts, words, and actions. And because I care so much about those with whom I’m working, because I’ve come into the habit of connecting with them heart-to-heart, sometimes there are moments – most often, when I’m alone and “in between” activities – that I reach out to seek what it is we haven’t touched upon, what it is that we’ve “missed,” when I’m working with someone (or myself) to get past a particularly stubborn piece that doesn’t want to be released. And, sometimes those are the moments that provide concern and a little stress.

Well, back to my punch-buggies. It was funny; for several weeks, I was consciously noticing that though I might see 1 or 2 punch-buggies while someone was in the car with me, it was during the times when I was alone with my thoughts in the car that I’d suddenly see 3 or 4 in a row. I even commented to my husband about it in jest… asking if I could just make a list and get everyone later on, because it just wasn’t fair! LOL Then, one day, I was driving alone along an open stretch of road, focusing intently on some issues related to a client and a few friends, when I briefly snapped out of my distraction because I saw a bright orange punch-buggy, sitting at the corner of an intersecting road. And I swear, I heard some laughing. It was then, I thought, “Really? It’s the lot of YOU playing punch buggy with me?” I laughed out loud, and then thought, “Well, then… if that IS the case, then… hmm… OK, when I come around this next bend, there will be another one…” A few seconds later, when I got to that bend, wouldn’t you know that there was a black punch-buggy, right there, coming the other way? I laughed again, and thought, “OK, one mo’ time… at the next intersection…” Do you have to wonder at this point? Of course there was one sitting at the light at the next intersection!

At first, I was wondering how the heck playing a form of punch-buggy with my Guides made any sense whatsoever… and I immediately heard, “Lighten up! We’re here with you, you’ve got it covered… no worries!” It was then that I realized that I saved much of that kind of intense “thinking” for driving alone in the car… and it was my Guides’/Higher Self’s playful way of pulling me away from bringing myself down, getting sad or sometimes frustrated, unnerved, or doubtful…

So now, when when I’m driving alone in the car and get lost in thought, and suddenly a bright-colored punch-buggy suddenly pops into view (and really, they don’t typically let it ride with just one punch-buggy; typically I’ll suddenly see several in a span of a few minutes when this happens), I GET IT – I let it go, let it flow, and get back “in the game.”

Because the BEST part of all of this is really knowing how much support and how much love we ALL have in every moment of every day… and that the more we lighten up, the more fun we can have with our journey… and the more we can see things without bringing ourselves and our vibrations down.

So, take note the next time a pattern of “strange humor” pops up in your life… and use that as a nudge to remember, allow it to flow, allow it to be joyful, fun, and adventurous… and you’ll be helped to keep it there, all the way!

 

 

Reminiscent of Close Encounters… (NM Road Trip Revelations I)

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From the movie "Close Encounters of the Third Kind"

There’s just SO MUCH to cover about my road trip to New Mexico, that I COULDN’T WAIT to get started! This topic is VERY important for many, soooo, here I go; but first, a couple of things that are relevant to this posting, so bear with me…

Throughout my life, I have had cumulative but gradual experiences of opening up spiritually and intuitively… while I was working in the very left-brained corporate world, and then developing my own business. It was much like the exponential curve on a graph… a new type of “ability” here, a new one there…wait for it… wait for it…and then BAM! In 2009, I fell open like a book. Seriously! I tried to keep it separate from my professional life, but the more I went on and explored it… the further I opened up… and the more keeping those two parts of my life separate clashed and caused conflict. Consequently, I’ve finally accepted the inevitability… and this is now the focus and calling to which I’ve submitted, and enjoy it very much!

When I say opened up, it’s really an understatement. I started “hearing” thoughts, knowing the complex line of events to be in a moment’s contemplation, found it very easy to learn and practice energy healing, and also connected very easily to ascended masters, angels, archangels, and others of the Light (and then directly with Creator, especially once I learned ThetaHealing). About 6 months ago, I also started “connecting in” with other Beings – those who many might call “aliens”… but I simply call them Star Beings or Beings.  Those with whom I’ve connected are truly of some of purest love I have ever experienced. Regardless, here’s the thing: No matter how fantastic or out there something seemed when I was “told” it was highest Truth, it has always come to pass, in one way or the other.

Then, though I honestly never asked, last year I started receiving images and snip its of things to come, not only regarding the role I “signed up” to play, but also regarding Earth-level humanity.

Contrary to what many of the fatalists seem to want everyone to believe, it’s not about Doomsday at all…it’s absolutely phenomenal and beautiful! Is there drastic change involved? Absolutely… but change is how you want to perceive it; it can be your personal hardship or it can be your liberation! Much is very foreign as to how we’re living today… so I’ve been very reticent to share much of the insight I’ve received, except with those closest to me (though I admit, I’ve even held back some of the information from my husband – one of the most open-minded people I know – and I’m just finally feeling comfortable to share it with him NOW) . It was because of this that regardless of the amount of self clearing and healing I did, the fear of being considered a freak or judged obviously remained.

It also seems that often when I’m speaking with someone about this, and tell them that EVERYONE can do this, EVERYONE has the same ability, it just needs to be remembered… that I feel the person’s retraction, that the smile they give me is empty (“Yeah, sure…”).

So, it’s been only very, very recently that I’ve started becoming more comfortable openly discussing and utilizing my uncovered “abilities”… though there has still been some reticence unless it’s in discussion with those I know are already comfortable with the topic. However, in regards to some of the “bigger ticket” items – the humanity stuff, how I’ve “seen” the world in 1 year, 2 years, 5 years… I’m still very hesitant to share some of the details.

I was introduced to the messages of Kiesha Crowther (aka “Little Grandmother) in early 2010; hers was one set of many different visionaries and metaphysical presentations to which I had become exposed. Though I absolutely agreed with much of what she said, I never felt much of a “pull” to meet her in person or anything… until I kept on getting guidance in meditation (and then my friend got the same message to give to me) that I was to meet her. Without more of the story, all ended up pointing  right now to this workshop/retreat last week that ultimately decided my road trip to New Mexico.

Besides it feeling right, I had no idea why I was going. I was assured in meditation that it was important for me to go to this; I had to trust and accept it. I was also guided into deciding to drive the trip… because I was assured that it was all as much in the journey as the destination.

I figured, “OK, then. I guess I’m going.”

Though all of this processing happened three weeks before the event, and seemed impossible to pull off, it was amazing how easily and relatively perfectly everything fell into place, how the pavement in the road just became laid out before me. I was assured that if I just jumped off the cliff and TRUSTED, I would fly.

And so I did.

There were just so many things that worked out perfectly: when the 2-day retreat fit in, how long it would take me to go and get back… and how that fit in to the only week that I could possibly have done this in the entire month, how the weather was PERFECT the entire trip (sandwiched into difficult weather patterns and issues around the country right up until the week right before I left), how all the plans that I almost made blindly worked out perfectly in synchronicity. Too much to explain here, but you get the idea…

I had NO idea what to expect when I got to that 2-day retreat in Santa Fe… but I was definitely in for the ride!

So. To the point: It was fabulous. Beyond belief. First of all, for all of my neutrality about her beforehand, I will say this: Kiesha Crowther is the most heart-centered person I have met. She is completely, 100% dedicated and authentic to what she’s doing… and she FEELS it completely. As soon as I was in the same room as her, my heart chakra just naturally spread wide open, beyond measure!

Also, what was absolutely amazing: She covered topics that connected the dots to much of the “further out” information I have received and didn’t quite understand previously. The funny thing: I didn’t even realize that was happening until the end of the 2 days; then it was like a barely audible “click, click, click, click…” going on, and I was amazed… because this was information I had barely shared with more than one or two people. Yet it seemed to come out of her mouth so naturally, and confidently. And suddenly, so much I had seen and had previously been puzzling over made sense…. just from her filling in some of the gaps.

In discussing all of this, she felt it important to impress upon us that it’s time to be brave; to overcome your fears about what other people think about you. Let that go; be your authentic self, proudly, 100%… because it is time to spread the news of good tidings and love in contrast to so much of the doom and gloom that’s out there. If your calling is to help others on their spiritual path, then embrace it boldly, fulfill your heart’s purpose… and don’t worry about others; because (as her tribal grandfather would tell her), “It’s none of your business what other people think about you.”

In attendance was somewhere between 80-100 people – it was definitely a full room! What was absolutely amazing, and the ultimate purpose of this post: In talking to those around me, during breaks and during lunch, I found that my co-attendees had traveled from Canada, Europe, Hawaii, Japan and the four corners of the country to attend! Many had the same “pull” as I had – and had allowed the journey to flow, as I had, as well. I met one man who had left his job in Quebec and had been traveling around the country, visiting and exploring, for about a month, figuring out where he was going to settle. I met another woman who packed a tent – like me – and had camped her way from southern California. Yet another had just gotten to the United States from Sweden – by herself – and after the retreat, was going on to spend 2 weeks exploring… and playing it all by ear.

I felt like almost everyone I met was in one form or another a reflection of me.

Another woman I met had been in the same career as me – corporate marketing – for 20 years, and had just quit “that world,” because she’d felt this one pulling at her. Right now, she was looking to move, to start a new life, and move over into the spiritual realm because it had been a growing part of her life. It was funny I had just randomly decided to sit down next to her, in a small circle of people, during lunch one day! Yet another was still coming to grips with her “Awakening,” because she had been a Math teacher, and a very black-and-white person… until she started “knowing things” that just came to her, along with a huge slew of abilities at once. She still had a challenging time talking about it without tears coming to her eyes… she’d tried to ignore it until a car accident put her out of commission for a short period of time, during which she started seeing a psychotherapist… who, after several months of therapy, told her that she was simply going through a spiritual Awakening.

Another woman, from Long Island, NY, was going through a transition period and deciding her direction. Several men I met were still trying to figure all of this out in their lives, too.

Many, many had been getting guidance to move to another location, including specific areas on where to move… coincidentally (though there are no coincidences), Kiesha had mentioned several times during the 2 days that if you learn to put the ego aside and truly listen to your I AM self, that it will always steer you in the highest and best direction… because it’s there for YOU. So, the point she made specifically: All of your answers are within YOU. If you’re guided to move elsewhere, then do it. If you’re guided to change your vocation, do it. Even if it might seem surreal and out there, if you’re sure it’s from your higher self, then TRUST in yourself. You will understand the rest as it plays out. Now is the time… follow your guidance!

See the pattern?

When we talked to each other, we just started blurting out things that many of us had largely kept to ourselves… because we were getting the same messages, seeing the same things. I found by the second day that I was speaking comfortably and openly about topics that I hadn’t been able to even approach with most closest to me.

It reminded me of the movie Close Encounters of the Third Kind… with so many people getting the same message, heading in the same direction (though no one I met – to my knowledge – had been sculpting landmarks in their mashed potatoes or sculpting mountains out of mud in their living room… but then, I never did ask! LOL).

I felt more comforted and supported – and felt the most camaraderie – with this group of people I met in 2 days, halfway across the country, than I have with many of those I’ve known and who have been in my life since what I call my “Grand Awakening,” in 2009.

I finally found my footing.

Upon the closure of the retreat, many of us chatted and hugged… and surprisingly few of us shared contact information. You might think it’s strange, with us all having so much in common, but it didn’t feel that way in the least… because it truly felt like we would find each other again, at the right time… and we knew we filled the purpose we were supposed to with each other, for the moment.

Times are changing… more and more quickly. This world is morphing into something even more phenomenal than it is… and now I’m FINALLY in full acceptance of me and how I can help.

If you’re reading this, and have felt uncomfortable with remembrance of your natural abilities, of your Divinity, and your calling during this awesome time in the history of our world, then here’s my message to you: You’re not alone; far from it! In fact, you’re in great company…there are many of us, in rapidly increasing numbers, stepping out, remembering who we are, accepting a “new” reality, a “new” way of doing things, around the world. I promise! I’ve seen it; I now see it happening, all around us.

So, let’s go! Geronimo! 🙂

Reflections at the Fishing Pond (aka, Returning Home from my Cross-Country Road Trip)

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My campsite by the pond in Crossville, TN...

Here I am, in Crossville, Tennessee, listening to the bullfrogs talk to each other, the tree frogs chirp, and various insects and even birds in song as the moon comes out  over the fishing pond in one of the most beautiful campgrounds I have ever visited.

It’s the last night of the phenomenal solo road trip that I took from North Carolina to New Mexico and back.

Now, I have a LOT of blogging topics that will be covered from this trip, but tonight… well, one thing stands out as I reflect on the past week.

Many people I know and have met were surprised that I would venture to drive 2/3 of the way across the country by myself, camp by myself… and enjoy it all the way.

Every time, my question back to them was, “Why?”

Besides the typical, “Aren’t you scared to camp by yourself?” (No) “What if something happens to the car?” (I have a cell phone and AAA, and I’m not afraid to use them) and those other menial questions, there were the ones that perturbed me a bit, like, “What are you going to do with all of that time?” and “Don’t you think you’ll get bored?”

Every time, though I didn’t reply this way, what I WANTED to say was, “Are you KIDDING me? Me, all to myself, for a WEEK?! Hallelujah!”

Today, we are so overwhelmed with electronics, with being connected 24/7/365 – having to check email every 5 minutes, having to have the cell phone on all the time – that part of the challenge is that it’s like we don’t know how to be alone with ourselves anymore.

The campgrounds just after sunrise the morning after I wrote this… gorgeous!

I have embraced this trip like the highly treasured gift it is… because instead of going straight from A to B in the shortest and quickest way possible (which is what I usually do), and inserting work somewhere along the way, instead I’ve truly stopped to smell the roses, figuratively and literally (though the literal part would more likely be that I stopped to smell the honeysuckle… fully in bloom in many places this time of year). I can’t tell you how many times in the past week I simply pulled over to the side of the road to get out of the car to soak in every bit of a view or a place… whenever and wherever I felt the need!

Besides the 2-day retreat I attended in Santa Fe, New Mexico, I also visited friends and relatives along the way, and I got to see, experience, and celebrate parts of the country I have previously only flown over or through without taking the time to celebrate the nuances of each area.

I checked in once a day with my husband and family at home, but the rest of the time… well, I was exploring me, without distraction. I only checked Facebook last thing before bed and first thing in the morning, and I didn’t even look at email at all. Instead, I really looked around me, connecting with and marveling at the absolutely magnificent beauty our planet provides for us every day (which we very often ignore) …and most importantly, I looked inward, at myself.

It was the most enjoyable week I’ve had in I don’t know how long… and the most enlightening. I can’t even begin to tell you how many synchronicities I’ve realized, and how many dots have connected that I didn’t even know were supposed to connect… and the funny part is, I know they’re not done connecting yet! The after effects of this trip will continue on well after I return home tomorrow, of that I’m sure.

And for those of you who will read this and say, “I just don’t have the time to do something like that…” “I don’t have the money…” or a hundred other similar reasons NOT to do something along these lines for you… guess what? Neither did I… but I CREATED it (and actually was Guided to). It was the best thing I ever did.

Part of the purpose of this blog is to help people unfold what’s within them, to rediscover themselves and realize how fully powerful and divine each and every one of us is. However, if we can’t just turn off the computer and put the cell phone on vibrate or turn it off completely… and if we can’t take a few days on our own, while also trusting ourselves to be capable enough to take care of ourselves, no matter where we are… then how can we know, love, and explore ourselves and what’s inside of us?

The 2-day retreat I attended in New Mexico was with a woman called “Little Grandmother”; her name is Kiesha Crowther, and as much as I’ve “seen” in terms of visions, I was amazed at how much of what she said was exactly what I needed to fill in some gaps and tie some of those pieces together. However, one of the many areas in which she and I already seem to be very synchronized is the importance of all of us remembering how to live from the heart and from love instead of from fear and anger. And where that all starts: By fully accepting and loving ourselves…as we are, as we are happy within ourselves, and not by dependence on others, including the opinion of others. Kiesha had a great quote she used on this topic that she attributed to her “tribal grandfather”: “It’s none of your business what other people think of you!” I LOVED that, because how true it is! Let people think what they think; all that matters is that YOU are defining yourself, without judgment and with full acceptance and love.

I can’t even remember the last time I had a FULL WEEK to myself… to plan as I wished, to go with the flow, to explore new places and people. In the process, I had a wonderful time… and as much self-work as I have done, I actually learned a LOT about myself, as I am today, right now. And I have come to terms with some parts of me that I didn’t even know I still needed to come to terms with.

In return for my exuberance about the entire trip, like attracts like: I have met only the friendliest and most helpful people throughout the duration, regardless of where I have been (more on THAT later…). Also, in one week, I have driven through, seen, and stopped at amazing and absolutely breathtaking places in our country, including Hot Springs Mountain in Arkansas, the cattle ranch plains of Texas, the various types of mountains from Western North Carolina and Tennessee to those in New Mexico abd Colorado (including the AWESOME Great Sand Dunes in southern Colorado), the grassy plains of Kansas, and a mixture of everything in between. I have felt the distinctly different energy in different towns and different areas… and I have enjoyed every single moment as a moment in itself.

So, tonight, as I sit in the quickly encompassing darkness while gleefully listening to the symphony of nature going on right outside of my tent, at the pond, I realize I’m simultaneously a little sad and happy to be returning home tomorrow… but of everything, I realize that this week’s experience has been the perfect exercise in living moment to moment, completely in the now, and taking time out to enjoy every bit of it… and every bit of me. In preparation of returning to the “every day” life, I am bound and determined to remember to enjoy and savor every moment as I have done in this past week, because it’s those joys that allow us to fully blossom into all of who we really are… which is what the Road to Awakening is all about.