Heeding My Own Words on My Journey…Listen, Listen, Listen!

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magicalbookSMDoing what I’ve volunteered to do as my life’s work is quite the incredible and magnificent journey! And yet… as magical as it is, as well beyond the day-to-day 3D, I still find I’ve had some very 3D fears, resistance, and experiences with which I’ve limited myself at some very crucial points.

One of my fortes is writing and communication; I find it easy and flowing… and I also know how to consciously incorporate the telepathic meaning/information well beyond the words I use. My calling to “write the books” about all of this – all of what I discuss, teach, experience in relation to helping others to remember the Universe in some ways very differently than we have previously – has been continuously pushing at me via Higher Consciousness for several years; I have far, far more to share than what I’ve even portrayed in many public forums!

However, I’ve procrastinated.

“Too much to do!” I would proclaim, again and again, every time it came through in meditation, or via message through others. Or, “It will be out of date as soon as it’s published!” Or innumerous other excuses! I would put time aside to write… and write something else (like a blog LOL), update my Website, make a few calls… well, you get the idea. I’ve written much of it in drawers full of journals, and… nothing yet has made it to the light of day beyond smatterings and discussion and verbal teaching.

I KNOW better; listening to guidance is what I teach as the CORE!

However, I’ve been putting off guidance, time and again… continuously on this for years. This is so funny, because I look back over it now, and laugh at myself (one the best tools for accepting ourselves).

What I continuously talk about and teach, all the time, is how when we ignore true guidance – that which comes from the Higher Self (vs. the ego) – it always starts with a little nudge – a little message, reminder, whatever you want to call it. The more we ignore those nudged, the little messages… the bigger they get. “Can you hear me now?” The Higher Self asks… and it doesn’t stop turning up the volume until the guidance/knowing is followed.

This is why we eventually manifest crises into our lives; we’ve ignored a nudge and the messages so much (typically because in some way, shape, or form the ego is uncomfortabe because of SOME resistance-based belief that it holds) that the Higher Self, the Universe, the Divine, however you want to term it, FINALLY has to kick you in the butt in a way that you CAN’T. DO. ANYTHING. ELSE.

Again, I know better.

I’ve gotten through gobs and gobs… and my experiences are truly miraculous and magical. I’ve started an amazing practice and modality around this – in accordance to HUGE guidance (see more about Trinity Energy Progression here); it never steers me wrong! All in all, I trust my guidance fully; it’s the waning ego’s moments of control that cause me to not DO something when I’m guided to do it.

And yet… here I am.

A pattern of limitation and blockades has turned up in my reality, regardless of all efforts to circumvent them. What started happening defies an explanation…. EXCEPT that I’ve finally gotten to a level of denial that I’ve been kicked in the butt! My ego… has been kicking and screaming and looking every which way but at the white elephant in the room, until now.

Enough screwing around with this, says the Higher Consciousness. Time to write, and REALLY share this Remembrance!

I had to look long and deeply at myself, and also simultaneously zoom out to the larger picture at the entire pattern. In doing that, I realized that this is ALMOST EXACTLY what happened when my guidance kept pushing me to close down my former business and do this work – my higher calling – in 2010. How could I have been so blind to it? I’m one of the most adept at seeing the messages, putting together the jigsaw puzzle! (Actually, I do already know that answer, and it’s a three-letter word: E-G-O.)

This is SO my heart; why would I deny this? Again, I had to look at whatever was left… because there really wasn’t much! And what was left was… this is the final layer; this is what’s completely inside. This is completely opening in full Truth, full vulnerability, full acceptance of me and my Remembrance. ALL of it! That’s the ONLY WAY for me to write this series of books that I’m to write, with a completely open, completely Divine heart. Put whatever excuse to it I want, this is IT.

Sounds simple, right?

So, last week I surrendered, after a number of fits and frustrations.

Whatever shifted caused me to look at this and say to myself, “WHY have I let this go so long? This is my heart…” And then I realized that the reason I did was BECAUSE this is my heart!

I’ve now blocked time to do it. Three days so far, one hour/day, 3,500 words. And, I have a LOT more time blocked to write this week… and moving forward.

I started four days ago.

I found my writing spot… at a lake near my home, quiet and a very, very nice vibration! For some reason, it all feels effortless there.

As I should have known, as soon as I started writing, I would receive such a show of support in multiple ways from the Universe and my Higher Self (in some very humorous ways, I might add).

Day 1:

The lake is about 2 miles around, and it’s rather cut off right now because there’s some extreme road construction going on right around it, so not a lot of car traffic goes in; I parked in the “far parking lot” (on the opposite side from the clubhouse/center), and made my way in. So, laptop in my backpack, off I went!

I found the PERFECT SPOT, in the shade of a bush at just the right angle at the waterside, with dragonflies dancing around me, about 1 mile from the parking lot.

It was SO EASY! (Again, more wondering on the way out as to why it had taken me so long to get to this point!)

Day 2:

On that morning, my intention was to go back to that same spot, because it was SO flowing and SO easy! As I came around the bend, there was a man in that EXACT SPOT (and I hadn’t seen anyone else until that point)… FISHING. Not only fishing, but JUST pulling up a fish as I walked up!

He was in scrubby clothing, sort of scrubby (as was I)… there was something different about him…and he looked me in the eyes, with a sparkle smiled and greeted me as I walked up. I returned the hello… however, in those first moments, I was pouting inside a little, with the thought, “REALLY? In the whole of 2 miles around the lake, this guy picked THIS EXACT SPOT from which to FISH?”

I kept going, trying to be a little bit irritated… but I felt this push to look at… something.

As I found another spot, just around the next bend, I was putting my little pillow on the ground to sit on when I GOT IT…

He was FISHING… and he’d CAUGHT A FISH. RIGHT in the spot from where I started my “official writing.”

One of the sayings I use ALL the time, repeatedly, with my students and clients is that my goal is to “teach one to fish instead of giving them the fish.” Full Divine self-empowerment! If I had a dollar for every time I’ve said it over the past five years… well, I could probably give the 1% a run for it!

SO FUNNY that this was the “support statement” from Higher Consciousness… and just on Day 2!

Day 3: 

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Part 1: When I first sat down, I did a meditation at the water’s edge, in the same place I sat yesterday. The Oneness was effortless; I could feel everything! After awhile, I noticed there was some odd thrumming sound that was unfamiliar to me – not to the left or right (or across the lake), but right in my vicinity. I opened my eyes, and there was a hummingbird, hovering over the water, about 2 feet in front of me and slightly to my left! It was really interested in me! We looked at each other for what seemed like 30 seconds… maybe less… but it was long enough that it was pointed that I notice the oddity of this… and then it flew away, soon to circle around and come back to the jewelweed in bloom around 6 feet from me.

There are SO MANY things about the symbolism of the hummingbird… something that occurred to me about it when we were looking eye to eye is this: Regardless of the flapping of its wings at such a tremendous speed, its head stays pretty centered and still while in flight. Pretty amazing. Staying the center of the storm – its OWN storm! There was far more…

Part 2: After I’d been writing, I packed everything back up in my backpack and was walking one way to leave, when a man who had passed by doubled back from the other direction and called to me. He asked me if I was an author; I smiled and said yes, I was writing a book. He pressed more and I realized he thought I was a published author he’d met in our area; he gave me her name (he said a book she wrote was At the Water’s Edge, which I thought was funny, given that I’d been sitting at the water’s edge when he’d first walked by). We talked for a few minutes, and he said, “I wish you much success and many blessings with the completion of your book…” I thanked him and turned to walk away, laughing to myself… with SO MUCH gratitude for the support… because really, I couldn’t make THAT up any better in my reality!

AND… things have started flowing again in multiple areas, just three short days of DOING this!

Now, I’m motivated. The writing itself is like a deep release that I didn’t realize I needed… it feels easy and freeing! And again, I ask myself… why was it that I put this off for so long? Could part of it be that I didn’t until now believe that something so profound and vulnerable and core to me could feel so good?

I recognize that it’ll come up to shift any grain of sand that’s left along the way that would allow the ego to block me; that’s why I feel like just three short days in, I’m receiving so much support from the aethers. However… the momentum’s started… and that’s all I really need; I’m READY!

 

Unpacking the Boxes of Our Perception

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weareone1In my household, we’ve always been purposeful in bringing up my two children (who are now on the cusp of 19 and 17) in an inclusionary way. We’ve stayed away from describing people via DIFFERENCES, and instead focused on celebrating our SIMILARITIES. We’ve stayed away from focusing on any perception of lack – from ourselves and/or others – and instead have mostly focused on the awesome things about everyone we know.

The other day, my oldest was talking about someone she knows, and started referring to the person via what she perceives is their parents’ income bracket. This was new, and a huge surprise to me, as we have friends from all throughout the spectrum of income, and it’s pretty much never before been a topic of conversation in our household. I asked her why it mattered and how she even knew any of that beyond her own supposition, and she said, “Well, it doesn’t matter… I’ve just observed this…” Without any qualifying reason for it to have been part of discussion. And then I realized, in her young adulthood, though she has a solid foundation from our household, she of course has influence via her access to the rest of the world, via college, work, and friends… and our household is STILL a rarity.

News flash: Our culture – and our experience through this experience of duality – has created an obsession with categories – what I call “boxes” – that limit us or others, that put us in an invisible hierarchy and perceptions of superiority and/or lack based on nothing but the illusions we create! And, BIGGER news flash: It’s time to let that go!

How much money someone makes, what kind of house someone lives in, what kind of car someone drives, what kind of clothes someone wears (and where they shop), what kind of food they eat, combined with hierarchies around gender, sexual orientation, ethnicity, age, political beliefs (by the way, typically based on all of the above), weight, hair and eye color, attractiveness, the list goes on and on… and on. We often categorize and judge someone (ourselves included) based on any or all of the above, and yet we judge it in comparison to our PERSONAL filters of judgment around each of those categories.

Why do we continue to judge ourselves and others in this way? From my perspective and understanding, our physical bodies, our physical circumstances, and everything around us is perfect for the lessons we, as individual souls, would like to complete. We write, produce, direct, and act in the play of our own device, as part of the same of the collective, bigger picture that we collectively write, product, direct, and act in.

In duality, we take pride in the “that” and “not that.” We’ve done boxes in an extraordinary way! However, it’s important to remember that when we’re done with a particular set, we throw the script away, take off the costumes, take off the “meat suits,” or whatever suit our consciousness has currently chosen… we are simply equally awesome parts of the Divine Consciousness. WE’RE ALL THAT! Then we progress to write, produce, direct, and act in yet another play for ANOTHER set of lessons.

In my practice, I see a full spectrum of income, beliefs, race, gender, lifestyles, backgrounds, you name it… I have friends across the spectrum, as well. Yet, none of that matters to me, in the least – if anything, it makes my experience all the more colorful with such a variety! What DOES matter to me the MOST is, are they unhappy or happy in their current experience? That’s all that’s my concern; underneath everything else, beyond all of the boxes, all I see is an incredible, Divine being that is also a reflection of me in some way, from some time. When I see everyone that way, how can I help but just sit in a space of love for everyone else?

My goal, in helping others, is to help them remember their happiness, how to live in bliss… whatever picture that paints for THEM. When we do that, our Divine Truth and ultimate soul’s purpose naturally comes through, regardless of what the 3D looks like to others! AND… ultimately, EVERYONE can achieve their own happiness, once they realize they’re allowed to in whatever picture THEY desire.

When we do that, we begin seeing our similarities, and honoring the color that our different journeys create. We enjoy ourselves and each other more fully, and reach out, heart to heart, in a much higher vibration, in pure connection. We share, rather than hoard; we love, rather than fear; we identify, rather than isolate.

I remember seeing somewhere one of the first astronauts who said that from outer space, the Earth is simply that… Earth. No political boundaries, no separation… just a beautiful planet, as part of this amazing solar system. Time for us to remember each other in the same way, in full acceptance as part of the magnificent, Divine Oneness that we are.

 

Time for the “L” Word… (Ready for REAL Progression?)

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(Reposted from the Trinity Energy Progression Website, 13 June 2015)

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Voldemort image from imgkid.com, giova94

Lucifer, that is. Yep… that’s right. “He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named,” I guess some would say (outside of the Harry Potter world, LOL)… ESPECIALLY in spiritual circles!

Did that make you squirm? It’s DEFINITELY something to look at, then…

It’s quite an interesting observation that so, so many who consider themselves “lightworkers” never, ever, EVER align or connect themselves in any way to what we’ve created as the personification of darkness. So many claim to have ALWAYS been a “lightworker,” ALWAYS helped other people, ALWAYS been a healer. in ALL of their many, many lives…  you get the idea.

Let me interject here, first, on this topic alone… because I’m calling it. Not so!

It’s actually rather limiting (and simply convenient to the judgement-based ego) to only ever want to look at the “light” side of ourselves. We did, as the Divine expressing ourselves individually, create the perception of separation. What we consider darkness is simply different levels of separation; the darker something is considered, the more based in separation the energy of it is. All of the energies of separation – also, all of the energies and emotions of the ego – are also a part of what we consider the darkness. Resistance, fear, anxiety, regret, resentment, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, anger/rage, shame… anything that has anything but the complete energy of Oneness is based in separation. And, the more extreme, the more “dark” we consider it. So the “darkness” and every part of those emotions/energies… are one and the same. And we’ve carried them out in every which way, whether a little or a lot.

It’s so, so easy for us to say, “I’m the embodiment of _______” – whether it’s the Divine Mother, Archangel Raphael, Ascended Master St. Germain (or countless others) – and in that, we typically stop the searching for our experience. However, these are also masks behind which we hide… even the brightest, most enlightened individuals in existence. Because, by the way… it is my understanding that anything with an individual identity has an ego… and it is also my understanding that the ego was created to explore individuality and separation.

Why would we have created an entire existence of the perception of separation – the infinite, Divine beings that we are – without exploring it to all depths, all possibilities?

We’ve ALL explored, ALL of it.

Our traditional stance on “the battle of good vs. evil,” in the energy of fighting/resistance – simply creates more separation… and darkness… and simply perpetuates its existence. It’s time to remember that in the perception of separation that we created, we created the darkness, and it’s that part of ourselves (often called Shadow Work in spiritual circles) that it’s most, MOST important to look at straight on, accept… and LOVE, if we’re really ready to dissolve it once and for all.

Enter Lucifer. Or, rather, as I call him as I’ve experienced, Archangel Lucifer.

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My active discovery, acceptance, and discussion of this topic – and the representation of this persona – started in a really, really unexpected way. Years ago, I was listening to a series of guided meditations that were put out by a group of lightworkers focused on helping all raise the vibration of the Earth for this “next phase.” I resonated with some of their meditations… I didn’t with some others. They had one called “The Resolution of Darkness”, and my guidance was to go through that particular one. So, I put my headphones on… and the guiding of the meditation took the participant to a cave, in which there was a burdened archangel in the darkness; one who had volunteered to take on the personification of the darkness, to be the reminder of what we have ALL created within ourselves, in creating ourselves. It’s been a huge job… and he was tired. The guided meditation went on – surprisingly, at the time – to thank Archangel Lucifer for taking on that role, and to release him of this duty, to bask in the light again.

Even more surprisingly – midway through this, I started sobbing uncontrollably. I felt this down to my very core… the gratitude, the love, and the wonderment of taking on the externalization of that which we have conveniently repressed away inside of ourselves.

What a healing that was!

Fast forward, a few years later, after I had been gifted with the remembrance of this amazing practice of Trinity Energy Progression™ – coming back to the remembrance of our Divine Self – to pass on and help with the resolution of duality, separation, and externalization of the Divine. This was well underway. I was contentedly on my way to acupuncture one morning, looking forward to my “out there” time on the table. I was sitting at a traffic light on the way to my acupuncturist’s office, when I heard the voice of my Higher Self say to me, “Call upon Archangel Lucifer, and ask to do a Trinity session with him.”

My first response to that was, “Say, WHAT?”

I listened for more… but all I heard was the repeat of the pretty solid direction from the Higher Consciousness. So, I tried it on for size – and then “put it on the shelf” as I continued on.  I tried to just let that go.

When I was on the acupuncture table, on my “way out” (trying to ignore the request), the voice came in even louder and more insistent.

And so I did.

I remember asking permission, asking if we could do such a session in Divine Consciousness. And, though I felt what for lack of a better word felt like a little hesitation, I did get acquiescence. I remember the session… and the melding… and it was the equivalent of feeling like I was literally weighed down with tons of weights underneath craggy, hard, cold rock. And yet, once we were “there,” even with the heaviness, we became one in the light… and as the light was “turned up,” it felt like an innumerable number of rivers of light started flowing through the rock, first in little veins, and then expanding throughout, even if it was still a bit heavy. The amazing part: At the end of this, when I was guided to stop, I felt a wave of gratitude, coming from and to me!

Shortly after this experience, I was guided to do the same a number of times, and each time, it became easier and easier, brighter and brighter.

At some point, I started “seeing” Archangel Lucifer in “light form” on occasion. In fact, there have been a handful of times that this persona has shown himself to me – in his light form – in the middle of a session, typically when a client if ready, willing, and able to look at and finally embrace/love even the darkest depths of themselves. He has explained in these sessions the purpose of the creation of “the darkness,” and separation – and how with that, we’ve created feelings, textures, colors (like the prism), everything we’ve loved experiencing through this existence. To me, he has also become the representation of the acceptance of the whole – the Oneness – regardless of what that looks like. ALL is within the Light; ALL is part of the Divine.

I know some of the most light-emanating individuals who have discovered in their self-focused development a very personal, historical relationship with Lucifer (from very different levels of consciousness)… and, though typically starting out as a VERY heavy realization, it has allowed them the core of some of their MOST accelerated spiritual growth!

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Melek Ta’us, the Peacock Angel

If we look around, there are some interesting personifications of the resolution of the darkness. Not too long ago, in discussing this experience in a class I was teaching, I was provided with a reminder of the persona of Melek Ta’us (pictured here, with a name translated as the “Peacock Angel”); a prominent deity of the Yazidi pantheon. He is considered to be the redeemed/forgiven Lucifer.The story is that he cried and collected his tears for 7,000 years, and the tears were used to douse the fires of hell.

There is SO much more to share here… when you look closely throughout history, we have embedded within much of our mythology (including that within all belief systems) hints that this vital remembrance is crucial to our progresion, ascension… or whatever you want to call it. I’ll save that discussion for another day…

The point is this: As in Harry Potter… the fear of anything ebbs when we look at it and accept it straight on. Say the name out loud; remember that Archangel Lucifer is actually “He Who MUST Be Named” – accepting the whole of ourselves – as a part of our ascension, and  include just as much gratitude for this persona in the collection of those we’ve created for the whole of this experience! If there’s resistance and judgment on that… well, then you know what’s to be focused on within YOU. Because, when we begin to REALLY “walk the walk,” and TRULY live in the remembrance that we are all One, we are ALL Light and love – even the darkest parts of us and what we’ve created – we remember that we’re ALL just as connected with and a part of Lucifer as with Jeshua or any of the other personifications of pure, Divine Consciousness… and it’s time for us to remember, accept, and love that WHOLE within ourselves, so we can “game up”!

 

The Power of Your Words… and the Words in Your Power

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Do you fully pay attention to your words, to the reality you create in them? We are in such a habit of ignoring the power of our creation by the words we use, that even those of us who are very adept at doing so often have “blind spots” created by the ego that we can be challenged in noting (and changing)!

For example… do you say things like, “I’m too old to ____” “I don’t do well with a lot of other people…” “I’m getting old…” (implying you’re getting frail) “I can’t pull off something like that…” “I’m allergic to…” “I’m _______ (diabetic, bipolar, ADD, you name it)”? Often, we simply accept the limitations imparted to us by others (“you’re not ______ enough,” or “you’re too _______”), or we perpetuate cultural norms by accepting them and repeating them, again and again. We accept things that have limited us our entire lives… because we’ve let them limit us before.

We can change EVERYTHING. Yes, EVERYTHING… even what doctors, scientists, belief systems, institutions, and commercials tell us we can’t (an amazing story of an extreme example of this is Anita Moorjani’s book, “Dying To Be Me”). It’s been more of an exercise in duality… creating such disempowerment, telling ourselves – and each other – that others are more powerful, know more than we do, and that the Divine is outside of us, that it couldn’t possibly be within.

Part of our shifting into a new paradigm is recognizing that the Divine is WITHIN us, that we have access to ALL… and that we are CREATORS of our reality. The “return to magic” is very largely remembering the power of our own creation via thoughts and words, via remembering our Divine abilities – and that we can release and change anything – yes, ANYTHING – that limits us, in ANY way! In fact, the key areas in which to start to focus are where you limit yourself by your words and beliefs (see the statements above). That’s what we do in what’s called “energy work” – start with the core underlying issues, the non-physical causes to the physical, whether it’s purely physical, emotional, environmental, spiritual, etc. Eventually, as we release those causes, many issues formerly plaguing us simply disappear entirely.

I’ve seen it, first hand… and I’ve EXPERIENCED it first hand. I’ve seen instantaneous healings… and I’ve experienced them… of all types!

I get it; it can be scary to the ego… because it’s used to projecting blame onto others… that’s the comfort zone! The realization of this is that we’re fully responsible for our entire existence; our entire reality. Once this is accepted, blame disappears… and all we realize we’re doing is looking at the mirror within. The best way to do this? Letting go of the limitations of duality, and thus, judgment… to be able to look at ALL that is within and accept it… embrace it with love… and let go of the manifested limitations.

So, where to start? Take a day and set your intention to notice ALL of your “I AMs” – spoken AND unspoken – and write them down. Do you say, “I can’t do that because I’m ______”? How many times do you say that, along with “I’m not” or “I can’t”? The biggest challenge is in being CONSCIOUS of the thoughts and words, before you can change them!

Once we can notice the limiting patterns… we can CHANGE them! There are many, many ways to do so: simply changing our thought and word patterns (which sounds easy but takes a lot of continued consciousness and patience with ourselves), affirmations, meditation, and – my personal favorite – energy work, among other possibilities.

Here’s a start: Start your day with standing buck naked in front of a mirror, looking yourself straight in the eyes, and saying a simple “I LOVE MYSELF; I AM LIMITLESS.” It may be uncomfortable at first (I always get an uncomfortable shifting from others when I suggest this)… but as you change and shift, you will remember your self love more and more. And then… the other efforts start coming more easily.

And then, one day… PRESTO… things have shifted, in leaps and bounds!

Take it one step at a time… have patience with yourself… and LAUGH! Just commit yourself to the “active journey”… take some baby steps… and the rest will follow!

Persevering to the Gold… and Then Getting Past the Void Within (to Get to the Gold)

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These past few weeks have had the energy of support to finally… get… to… the… thorn that’s been in our side (even if we were “ignoring” it until now). Many things are/have been coming to a head for many, and depending on our choices (graceful and easy, or not?), it IS finally erupting so that we can LET IT GO.

Myself included; there have been some things “in my face” and a part of my experience for so long (throughout most of this life, and I understand many others, as well) that I can’t believe it took so long to SEE it, and then finally release it… TOTAL “DUH moments”! And then, once the main one was released… WOW… other “big things” just started coming up and flowing, flowing, flowing out. The result: It’s been HUGELY productive and cleansing! It’s been such a huge release and shift that I found I temporarily felt a huge, empty hole in place of those energies, because they’ve been a part of me for so long (even though they didn’t serve me, except to learn the lesson). I focused my efforts on releasing the feeling of the hole, and now, in its place has grown blessed peace, love, and AHHHHHH….

During this period, I’ve seen SO MANY symptoms of this, within myself, with clients, students, friends, family… and also institutions, belief systems, collective consciousness, you name it! The result is that for many, it feels like the world (the personal world, the world itself) is crashing down around them. Paradigms are shifting… so much is falling away in more ways than could previously be imagined!

What’s important to realize is that when our world feels that way, the lynchpin is actually our Self. Sometimes it’s most challenging for us to see in ourselves the deepest pieces of what may be holding us back… because the ego says, “Unh-unh… this is WHO WE ARE… who would we be if we let this go?” And so… the ego takes on the job of BUILDING the identity around it, and it creates a zillion excuses to SAFEGUARD it. It becomes very adept at hiding this as a limitation, and when a situation comes up that you KNOW limits you in some way, the ego justifies it (often like a martyr), and says, “Oh, that’s just who I am…” and similar ideas. It will vehemently maintain the BEing in the limiting state, because it’s afraid of becoming nothing otherwise. And… sometimes we allow the ego to sabotage us by keeping us JUST SHORT of reaching our goal… because reaching the goal is actually the biggest fear. There will be a LOT of “almost” situations, to keep us going (and, of course, the identity can stay in the mode of “working toward the goal,” which feels far safer).

I see this in very 3D ways… and I see this in very spiritual ways. I’ve seen some very adept and advanced healers/metaphysicians suddenly have a crash of sorts – physical, emotional, spiritual, and/or environmental – which feels like it came out of nowhere… and suddenly, all of their practices stop working in the fashion they’d worked before; they experience one major blockage after another… and it seems that the more they try things to remedy the situation and keep moving – regardless of what it is – the worse things seem to get. Nothing makes sense in terms of the results of their efforts… and it keeps on holding them back until they retreat from their previous efforts and sometimes give up for a bit (retreats), or find a strategic way to get BACK to the “comfort zone” (which sometimes seems different, but it’s simply the same thing disguised differently). This is from the ego sensing major danger (“Danger, danger, Will Robinson!”) because the person was actually getting REALLY CLOSE to the point of releasing a MAJOR limitation that’s been holding them back, something they’ve had well ingrained and incorporated into their identity… and the ego pulls out all the stops to hang on to the old identity for dear life (since my understanding is that it’s the ego’s primary job to create an identity separate from “the whole”).

When that happens… I’m telling you now: Know that YOU’RE ALMOST THERE. Know that obviously, there’s something in the vicinity of where you were when everything came crashing down that REALLY posed the release of this. That’s key!

So, we’re at the point in this Shift when it’s SO important that when we get to the “edge of the cliff” – even if we can’t see what’s beyond – that instead of staying at the edge indefinitely (or turning back), we TRUST and take a leap. We’ve come this far… might as well go all the way!

I know, I know, I make it sound so easy, right? I know it takes a lot of continuous effort; however, right now, this energy is so pervasive that the Higher Self isn’t giving us a whole lot of leeway… either we look at it ourselves or we manifest situations that will become so confining in some way, shape, or form that we finally have no choice but to be completely paralyzed, check out, or bust out of it, once and for all!

WOW… I promise you, the feeling of such deeply ingrained energies/limitations is EXHILARATING!

And then… the next part is really, really important to navigate in a very conscious way; after the release of such ingrained energies (habits and identity), the next typical reaction is a feeling of being lost, feeling sad, lonely… sort of like being in a void.

We don’t talk about this point beyond huge clearings much… but many don’t know how to get beyond that point; they don’t even know the words to describe what they feel. We think, WOW… I’m so glad I got rid of that/attained that/healed that… and then the ego scrambles and freaks out, saying, “NOW WHAT? WHO ARE WE NOW? WHAT DO WE DO?” If one doesn’t know what to do to move forward, sometimes they will slip backwards again and they will find a way to exhibit a different behavior that creates the same energy as what they just released… because that’s the “comfort zone” of the ego (it’s a “known evil,” and therefore, comfortable).

It’s SO perfect (of course) that these energies abound while the Winter Olympics in our 3D reality… because think about it: Many singularly train for the Olympics; for many, it’s been their entire life until now. So, say you win the gold medal, which was your ultimate goal, and you’re done with the Olympics now… what do you do next? Now what? Many go through a period of this “hole,” once the fanfare dies down… not knowing who they are anymore and where “to go” next. (And, by the way, that’s the period through which many fall into undesirable habits and “get into trouble”… because they don’t know how to “fill the hole” and simply find other ways to get the adrenaline of attainment going again.)

So…as we continue releasing such BIG stuff… there will be temporary periods of feeling a void… feeling lost… feeling like, “Good grief… this feels worse than I did before…” Sometimes, this provides feelings of isolation, loneliness, sadness (and tears), and/or fears of failure (because of releasing those energies in your life – which often sever relationships or situations that would perpetuate that “old energy”). This often exists in the gap of releasing those energies/behaviors from the identity and then expanding into our pure, undiluted, Divine self in that “space.”

First of all, recognize that this feeling of “the void” is simply the belief that you’ve lost an important part of you; and instead know that you’ve actually released a limiting part of you that will allow you to take another leap toward the full, Divine you and ultimate purpose that you came here to attain!

Well, there is meditation, of clearing the mind, focusing on the heart and the Divine light that you shine, and simply expand it out, out, out… (I have some basic guided meditations to do this available here on this Website). In doing so, you can set the intention/affirmation of releasing the “old identity,” and if you like, get conscious understanding of how this serves you in the highest and best way. If you’re a spiritual practitioner, focus your healing intentions on releasing the beliefs that you’re “less than” because of what you’re released, in any way, shape, or form. Whenever you’re feeling the heaviness, focus on expanding the light from your heart, brighter and brighter (and remember that the rest is all illusion).

If you feel like you need outside assistance in getting through this, you can talk to a practitioner of your choosing (I’d be glad to work with you... and there are many, many other spiritual mentors/advisors/healing facilitators available today who can help you – go by your inner guidance as to who will be best for you and your situation!). Do you have a spiritual discussion peer group, a place where you can talk about these feelings and the processing without judgment? This is a great forum to talk about it, and share your processing if you feel like you need outside support (for in person… if you’re in the central NC area, I moderate an open spiritual discussion group in three different Triangle locations monthly; see the Meetup; I’ve also built an interactive online spiritual community on Facebook; you can join here). Find a new hobby, do a hobby you enjoy more… remember how to ENJOY to space you’ve created, simply stay in the moment, and know/trust that now you’ve left space for something phenomenal to come in, in a way that DOES serve you in the highest and best way!

Right here, right now… if you would like a clearing that will provide assistance to allow you to resolve, dissolve, release, and clear the core underlying issues that would cause the feeling of a “void” after releasing prominent limitations in your life, remove the energy of that feeling of that void, and know how to allow your Self to positively and productively fill in the space left by the clearing in the highest and best way with the most grace and ease, just close your eyes, be open to receive, and say, “Yes – filling the void.”

Once we get through this… just know, we ALL get the gold!

Are You Here and Now? Do You Know How to BE?

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This winter in North Carolina, we’ve actually  had a “real winter”… for here, anyway.

In the southern United States, since we typically have something like 1-4 days per winter when we might actually have some snow or ice, we don’t have the budget in our town systems to do any extensive plowing or road maintenance when we do get the white/icy stuff. Plus, our roads really don’t get cold enough for it to stick for more than a few days. So… a few inches of snow does slow things down to a crawl very easily.

Right now, it’s the second week in the past three that we’ve had snow/ice accumulate on the ground. Yes, our schools are closed; yes, many are having a challenge getting to and fro because of the limited road clearing service. However, in listening to conversations, in watching the postings across the Internet… what is often prominent is what boils down to a) addiction to drama and discontent, and b) lack of presence that in so many ways pervades our society.

Here’s the lesson…

Listen to conversations… even those in which you’re engaged. How many times do you and others say things like, “This is a mess…” “I can’t wait until beach weather…” “How many days until spring?” “I really can’t wait to get back to work; I’m getting a little stir crazy being stuck in the house with my _______ (kids, spouse, etc.)…” And… if you pay attention, long term… at other times, how often do you hear, “It’s too hot; I can’t wait until it cools down…” “I’m really looking forward to getting some time away from the office…” “I’d love to be able to just stay home today…””I really just want to spend some time with my ______ (kids, spouse, etc.)…”

In all of the complaining… in all of the wishing to be someplace, somewhere else… when does the individual ALLOW themselves to enjoy everything that’s offered right here, right now?

The pictures featured on this post was taken by my 15-year-old this morning; she and her 17-year-old sister hurried to get up and dressed to go out and play in the snow… and to take pictures of the rare winter wonderland we have, which will only last here for a few days. The pictures she took were sublime, saturated with beauty, stillness… and presence.

Just… right… now.

In our society, we fill up our time with largely meaningless chatter and complaints that really have little truth to feel like we’re “one of the group.” How many times have you complained about your spouse, your kids, your house, your ______… when it’s really a vast over exaggeration so you don’t stand out from the crowd? How much time do you spend complaining about wanting something other than what’s right in front of you… whether it’s to be someplace else, to have something else, or to do something else?

Part of the process of awakening and enlightenment is to release living in duality and the perception of lack… in anything. It’s also letting go of the coulda, shoulda, wouldas, stopping the chatter of the ego and its role in duality, and simply accepting that the only reality is NOW… right this moment. The more we live in the moment… the more we find the beauty, the serenity, and the perfection of what the Universe/our Higher Self brings to us… no matter WHAT that looks like. Also, as the energies have shifted and are continuing to shift, the power of our thoughts and words become more and more powerful. Complain about something? That creates more of a situation of lack via thoughts and words. Instead, it’s time to change things around… start with gratitude.

Start with a journal – a notebook of any type will suffice. Every morning, take ten minutes (or less) and write down three things that you have gratitude for. EVERYONE can do this… it’s a matter of changing the way we see things. You can be grateful for getting up in the morning; for a beautiful, sunny day; for the unconditional love given to you by your pet; for having a car… it doesn’t have to be big. Do you think that three things are too many? Start with one per day. EVERY day. Before you know it, you’ll be LOOKING at the moment – the right here, right now – to recognize the gratitude you have for everything in it. I promise you… it works!

Eventually, when you get there. you’ll automatically see the positive in every moment; more and more, you’ll appreciate that which you have NOW… vs. what you “lack.”

So, in this week… I’ve found gratitude in the beauty of the snow… the ice on the trees… the quiet muffling of sound  when the snow was coming down… the fact that we kept our power on… that we had firewood for fires in the fireplace… and that my husband, children, and I spent some time together, without the hustle and bustle of the world taking us in different directions… and that my two children – my oldest being a senior in high school, my youngest a sophomore – still enjoy “playing” in the snow (albeit briefly), and in spending time together with my husband and me. Look at that: That was a list of SEVEN things to have gratitude for… with barely a thought. there are many, many more in EVERY moment!

So, for you… look around you! There is ALWAYS some beauty present… even in what we perceive to be the ugliest of situations. Expand your heart in gratitude and love… and you’ll be surprised at the different existence you begin to perceive!

NOTE: If you’d like to consider and take part in more discussion and practice of presence, join me via this link LIVE online Tuesday, 2/18, 4-5pm for my Blog Talk Radio show; the topic is “The Present of Presence” (and if you can’t make it live, you can listen to the recording via this link afterward, too!).

Traumatized? Downtrodden? Tired? A Love Note to You on What’s Crumbling Away…

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I’ve been working on another post about where so many are, in feeling like they’re going through their version, in some way, shape, or form, of “the dark night of the soul”… and other activities have precluded me from finishing it thus far.  However… this morning, ONE of my Facebook friends posted this quote that just sums it up right now; I can’t remember who posted it, and I can’t remember whose quote it was, either; however, I’d highlighted the text and copied it, walked away from the computer, and came back; luckily, it was in memory on my computer, so I at least have that… AND with the help of this, a short post that I can publish, because it’s obviously VERY IMPORTANT for as many of us to get this message out as possible right now!

The meaning is JUST PERFECT in so many ways, in terms of what’s going on:

“[I]f you know the wisdom of the dark night, then you are looking out for protection. You’re aware that through this terror, protection will be given. This is the universal testimony. They mystics have gone through this process. It’s the testimony of Rumi. It’s the testimony of the great shamans. You are given tremendous divine protection, because as the human is being destroyed, the divine consciousness comes up. So one side of you is being annihilated, but the other side is stronger than ever in the ashes. So great dreams will come and light will become more and more vibrant. The divinity of life will become more and more naked to you. Miracles will take place to protect you. To anybody who comes to this path, the divine is both extremely ferocious and extremely tender. Ferocious to destroy the illusions, but tender to give the human being the courage to hang in there and do the work.”

Now, that being said… some clarity from my perspective; words, no matter how well written, are simply filters of the understandings. So, as I infuse this post with the understanding behind the words, here are some words to clarify, too!

How we see what’s typically used as negative terms are only perceived that way because of the ego. For example, “ferocious” is a relative term, and the ego often perceives it with negative connotations. However, if you see the word as meaning “with incredible gusto”… LOL… this is how I see it, especially in this context!

The reason so many of us are going through some very, very trying times is because that which doesn’t serve us is falling away… whether the ego kicks and screams about it (and thus, the “terror” of the ego), or whether we surrender to it with grace and ease. What is meant by “that which doesn’t serve us is falling away”?  Just that… relationships, home situations, jobs, institutions, governments… you name it! Not only everything that limits us, but also everything that feels comfortable… and prevents us from pressing ahead, from stepping into the Divine greatness each and every one of us has to offer. So many are entrenched and love the drama addiction of the 3D world; the ego-driven part of us, individually and collectively, would rather just continue putting one Band-Aid on top of another because it’s a “known evil” – and the ego rationalizes that a known evil is far more “safe” than the unknown! However, we’ve completed these lessons in separation – and the Band-Aid tower is falling – because we’re done with this level of duality, and so it just doesn’t serve us anymore. So the Higher Selves of all are saying, “YAY! We’re finishing this up! Time to really clean house…”

Ultimately, we can experience/process lessons in terror and suffering, OR grace and ease. Yep, ALL of them. It’s a personal choice; we’re just remembering that! Personally, I prefer the latter (I’ve had my fill of suffering throughout this existence, and I’m GLAD to be DONE with it! LOL); however, I accept and honor that some prefer the former; though I also recognize that many don’t yet remember that we CAN change that; so I’m going to tell you here that it REALLY IS our CHOICE… I PROMISE!

When we go through a LOT of our old, comfortable reality falling away – as we are doing now – it can feel terrible and draining if we choose see/experience it that way. Why? Well, it depends on how hard the ego wants to hang on to what’s falling away… because if we hang on, it will get more and more and more traumatic until the situation just explodes/crumbles so we have no choice but to release it, once and for all. It’s important to remember that when we’re holding on to something, to some situation, and it tries harder and harder to slip away, and we try harder and harder to hold on… that we’re expending far more energy in holding on to it (and/or putting a Band-Aid on it) than if we’d just clear/heal what’s preventing us from letting go (because often we just forget that we CAN let go, and that it’s OK to do so!). Once we do… most of the time we look back and wonder why we held on for so long, why we wasted so much energy… because we’re exhilarated by SOARING in the freedom of releasing those burdens that were holding us down!

In the context of this quote, as I understand it, “Divine protection” is the realization that it’s ALL an illusion… and that actually, there’s nothing to be protected from; all we see, experience, is a play we have created to play out the lessons we’ve desired to play out. When we let the illusion fall away, and remember that we’ve not only been the puppets in the play, but also the Creator, writer, producer, AND stage director… we ultimately remember that we’ve ALWAYS been the Divine, we ALWAYS will be… and that everything else is simply a facade. Thus, “protection” is not as the ego perceives it – which is the need to put up a shield, only perpetuating the perception of separation – rather, it is simply realization of the Truth, which is that there is only unconditional love, and that we are One and always have been… and ALL OF THE REST is simply a dream. The “side that comes out of the ashes”… is simply full remembrance of all of this, in all-powerful, unconditional love of the Divine, AS the Divine expressed as who we are. SO beautiful!

So, on that, as we progress so exponentially through all of this shifting and evolving, here’s my love note to you:

I want you to know that no matter how lonely you may feel, no matter how solitary your journey may seem, that you’re not alone. We’re here to ALL BE IN THIS TOGETHER. There’s so, so, SO much love supporting you, at all levels, at all times… you’ve just forgotten how to feel it! You ARE worthy, deserving, and able to free yourself of the chains that bind you – regardless of what the ego perceives in the 3D reality – and we’re all here to support each other in this process of letting go of the illusion of separation.

We’re at the climax of this magnificent symphony… which we ALL ORCHESTRATED TOGETHER, as One. It’s the most beautiful, complex, phenomenal symphony imaginable… and we ALL have a very individual, VERY important role to play as a part of the whole. When you remember it, as I have, the beauty and enormity of it – of us – will bring freely flowing tears of  explosive joy and love!

I love you… yes, of course I do… as you are me, and I am you! As the Mayans say in greeting, “In lak’ech ala k’in”… or “I am another you.” It’s SO IMPORTANT for us to remember that!

Let go, accept all with love, and step forward, into your Truth, into the love of your Being… I am there with you, every step of the way. We are ALWAYS together, never apart; just open your heart, and you’ll know I am there. That’s where we ALL are.

Unconditionally,
Angela

P.S. I guess I got my blog done after all…

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