Traumatized? Downtrodden? Tired? A Love Note to You on What’s Crumbling Away…

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I’ve been working on another post about where so many are, in feeling like they’re going through their version, in some way, shape, or form, of “the dark night of the soul”… and other activities have precluded me from finishing it thus far.  However… this morning, ONE of my Facebook friends posted this quote that just sums it up right now; I can’t remember who posted it, and I can’t remember whose quote it was, either; however, I’d highlighted the text and copied it, walked away from the computer, and came back; luckily, it was in memory on my computer, so I at least have that… AND with the help of this, a short post that I can publish, because it’s obviously VERY IMPORTANT for as many of us to get this message out as possible right now!

The meaning is JUST PERFECT in so many ways, in terms of what’s going on:

“[I]f you know the wisdom of the dark night, then you are looking out for protection. You’re aware that through this terror, protection will be given. This is the universal testimony. They mystics have gone through this process. It’s the testimony of Rumi. It’s the testimony of the great shamans. You are given tremendous divine protection, because as the human is being destroyed, the divine consciousness comes up. So one side of you is being annihilated, but the other side is stronger than ever in the ashes. So great dreams will come and light will become more and more vibrant. The divinity of life will become more and more naked to you. Miracles will take place to protect you. To anybody who comes to this path, the divine is both extremely ferocious and extremely tender. Ferocious to destroy the illusions, but tender to give the human being the courage to hang in there and do the work.”

Now, that being said… some clarity from my perspective; words, no matter how well written, are simply filters of the understandings. So, as I infuse this post with the understanding behind the words, here are some words to clarify, too!

How we see what’s typically used as negative terms are only perceived that way because of the ego. For example, “ferocious” is a relative term, and the ego often perceives it with negative connotations. However, if you see the word as meaning “with incredible gusto”… LOL… this is how I see it, especially in this context!

The reason so many of us are going through some very, very trying times is because that which doesn’t serve us is falling away… whether the ego kicks and screams about it (and thus, the “terror” of the ego), or whether we surrender to it with grace and ease. What is meant by “that which doesn’t serve us is falling away”?  Just that… relationships, home situations, jobs, institutions, governments… you name it! Not only everything that limits us, but also everything that feels comfortable… and prevents us from pressing ahead, from stepping into the Divine greatness each and every one of us has to offer. So many are entrenched and love the drama addiction of the 3D world; the ego-driven part of us, individually and collectively, would rather just continue putting one Band-Aid on top of another because it’s a “known evil” – and the ego rationalizes that a known evil is far more “safe” than the unknown! However, we’ve completed these lessons in separation – and the Band-Aid tower is falling – because we’re done with this level of duality, and so it just doesn’t serve us anymore. So the Higher Selves of all are saying, “YAY! We’re finishing this up! Time to really clean house…”

Ultimately, we can experience/process lessons in terror and suffering, OR grace and ease. Yep, ALL of them. It’s a personal choice; we’re just remembering that! Personally, I prefer the latter (I’ve had my fill of suffering throughout this existence, and I’m GLAD to be DONE with it! LOL); however, I accept and honor that some prefer the former; though I also recognize that many don’t yet remember that we CAN change that; so I’m going to tell you here that it REALLY IS our CHOICE… I PROMISE!

When we go through a LOT of our old, comfortable reality falling away – as we are doing now – it can feel terrible and draining if we choose see/experience it that way. Why? Well, it depends on how hard the ego wants to hang on to what’s falling away… because if we hang on, it will get more and more and more traumatic until the situation just explodes/crumbles so we have no choice but to release it, once and for all. It’s important to remember that when we’re holding on to something, to some situation, and it tries harder and harder to slip away, and we try harder and harder to hold on… that we’re expending far more energy in holding on to it (and/or putting a Band-Aid on it) than if we’d just clear/heal what’s preventing us from letting go (because often we just forget that we CAN let go, and that it’s OK to do so!). Once we do… most of the time we look back and wonder why we held on for so long, why we wasted so much energy… because we’re exhilarated by SOARING in the freedom of releasing those burdens that were holding us down!

In the context of this quote, as I understand it, “Divine protection” is the realization that it’s ALL an illusion… and that actually, there’s nothing to be protected from; all we see, experience, is a play we have created to play out the lessons we’ve desired to play out. When we let the illusion fall away, and remember that we’ve not only been the puppets in the play, but also the Creator, writer, producer, AND stage director… we ultimately remember that we’ve ALWAYS been the Divine, we ALWAYS will be… and that everything else is simply a facade. Thus, “protection” is not as the ego perceives it – which is the need to put up a shield, only perpetuating the perception of separation – rather, it is simply realization of the Truth, which is that there is only unconditional love, and that we are One and always have been… and ALL OF THE REST is simply a dream. The “side that comes out of the ashes”… is simply full remembrance of all of this, in all-powerful, unconditional love of the Divine, AS the Divine expressed as who we are. SO beautiful!

So, on that, as we progress so exponentially through all of this shifting and evolving, here’s my love note to you:

I want you to know that no matter how lonely you may feel, no matter how solitary your journey may seem, that you’re not alone. We’re here to ALL BE IN THIS TOGETHER. There’s so, so, SO much love supporting you, at all levels, at all times… you’ve just forgotten how to feel it! You ARE worthy, deserving, and able to free yourself of the chains that bind you – regardless of what the ego perceives in the 3D reality – and we’re all here to support each other in this process of letting go of the illusion of separation.

We’re at the climax of this magnificent symphony… which we ALL ORCHESTRATED TOGETHER, as One. It’s the most beautiful, complex, phenomenal symphony imaginable… and we ALL have a very individual, VERY important role to play as a part of the whole. When you remember it, as I have, the beauty and enormity of it – of us – will bring freely flowing tears of  explosive joy and love!

I love you… yes, of course I do… as you are me, and I am you! As the Mayans say in greeting, “In lak’ech ala k’in”… or “I am another you.” It’s SO IMPORTANT for us to remember that!

Let go, accept all with love, and step forward, into your Truth, into the love of your Being… I am there with you, every step of the way. We are ALWAYS together, never apart; just open your heart, and you’ll know I am there. That’s where we ALL are.

Unconditionally,
Angela

P.S. I guess I got my blog done after all…

Stepping Through the Doorway at Pilot Mountain (and Beyond) on 12-12-12

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And so, it was time again!

My friend Phran (who I am now calling my “partner in flying”) and I love our periodic visits to Pilot Mountain! To begin with, our energy is amazing together… and we ALWAYS have some AWESOME messages and experiences when we take the 2-hour drive to this nearby spiritual energy vortex. We keep on THINKING (which is the issue) that we might try someplace else – such was the case when we decided to take a road trip together for the 12-12-12 meditation/celebration – but at the last minute, we KNEW Pilot Mountain was where we were supposed to go.

Early in the morning, before we left, I did a quick meditation to connect in (or really, simply just change my focus) to the “big picture,” mainly to see how everything felt; and WOW, the Light Matrix – or, actually, the overlay of the “new Earth” – was SO brilliant! When Phran arrived at my house, she told me she’d done the same thing… so our excursion started off with us already buzzing and giddy!

When we arrived at the mountain, there were maybe two other cars in the parking lot on the mountain. It was chilly… but pretty comfortable, especially once we got to the Big Pinnacle. Earlier this autumn, the mountain had been closed because of a controlled fire that got a bit out of control. As we followed the trail, we could see the soot and ashes from the fire everywhere; the stark black sootiness of the ground and base of many of the trees  contrasted with the brightness of the tan-colored pine straw that had fallen on top, drawing our attention to it. The air still had a smoky smell to it… it was really quiet except for the chirping of the birds.

All that ran through my mind was “rebirth.”

I could feel the serenity of the mountain, the simple acceptance of what is. I stopped and put my hands on a pine whose outer trunk was pretty scorched; I could immediately feel the fire, see the heat… I was just experiencing part of the tree’s experience. We came to a tree that had ashes under it; I was being – welcomed… beckoned…something of the sort – to take a handful of ashes (and of course I happened to have a little bag in my backpack!). Phran bent over, picked up a small piece of scorched wood from the ground and said, “Here… take this piece of burnt wood, too…” When she stood up and turned around to hold it out to me, I realized it was the EXACT same piece of wood I had been “guarding” in a dream several nights before! We stopped for a few moments and perched on a rock so I could tell her about the dream; in doing so, I noticed one lone ladybug crawling on the rock next to mine.

Shortly after, we were simultaneously pressed to move on… so we did. We were called to stop at another spot we’d never noticed/been to previously… I asked Phran if she knew what time it was, and she guessed around noon; I pulled out my phone, and it was 12:01… We stopped and found a place to sit at this spot, and we closed our eyes, connected with the consciousness of the mountain, and we could feel the water of old passing through, the shifts of the ages, and most recently the fire. We could feel the consciousness of the mountain, the consciousness of the integrated organism of the whole area, and how it was simply above the events, without judgment, without pain… with complete acceptance. I waited for the familiar loveliness that is what I consider “the voice” of the mountain… and I heard/understood, “All is a cycle of rebirth…and how rebirth experienced is completely up to the individual consciousness. There is a purpose for everything; an old cycle ends, and a new one begins… there is no sadness in releasing what has past…” So beautiful… and such a strong lesson to show us at this point in our progression!

We waited, and there was nothing more at the moment. We asked if this was the place at which we were to stop to do the 12:12 meditation… and we understood that it wasn’t; again, we were simultaneously pressed to move on. So we did.

We came upon a section of rock outcropping to which we’ve climbed on several previous visits to stop and meditate/eat; we hesitated, thought about going up to the ledge, and I’d just heard loudly, “Take the path to the right here…” when a moment later, Phran said, “Let’s take this path to the right…” So we followed it, around the rocks… and as I came around a rock to the cove that was obviously where we were headed, we came upon two women who were already sitting there meditating. One woman looked up and said, “We’re doing a meditation…” We smiled at them and said, “That’s we’re about to do..” and one asked, “Would you like to join us?” We immediately assented; the woman said, “Well, it’s 12:11… so get in place…”

Until that moment, we hadn’t seen ANYONE ELSE at the Big Pinnacle! And, as I find is happening more and more regularly when I “meet” someone, as soon as I saw them when I rounded the rock, I KNEW them; I REMEMBERED them from some other time, some other place.

We quickly found “our spots”… and the four of us formally connected in together. The connection was already there, just waiting for us to focus – I could feel us connecting in to the flow of energy through the mountain, “up” into the Light Matrix/New Earth Matrix… and with everyone else focusing in at that designated time. One of the women started speaking… but I was instantaneously gone, and the words at the moment became unintelligible to me. It was BRILLIANT and BEAUTIFUL and POWERFUL beyond belief… so I just sat there and stayed completely in the flow.

After several minutes, all of a sudden, something  having to do with the flow of energy through the mountain opened up WIDE and FAST; it was HUGE. I suddenly started seeing the mountain pull this heavy, dense energy out beyond and around us. It started to “close us off” energetically from what was around us… I knew that what I was being shown was the door/portal closing to the “old world.” I was guided to turn my attention to within and around the mountain, where there was this HUGE rush of brilliant, sparkling light running in a column down into the Earth and well up beyond the sky. I felt myself completely encompassed by the energy…and then I lost all consciousness of a physical body, because I was ONE with that flow of energy and simply became a part of it. I had this extraordinary wave of relief at the remembrance that all that I AM is this amazing energy! So I just stayed in that space, in the bliss of remembrance, and I would say the energy coursed through me… but there WAS no me… it was beyond words!

Next, I saw the equivalent of something else opening up. I understood it was a “new” doorway/portal… and I then knew what was happening. We were there at the moment of the door to one world closing and dissipating… and the opening of a new one in creation. The “next level”; the higher vibrations, the higher dimensions all melded into a new world… it was so overwhelmingly beautiful that I believe I cried (though I have no recollection of it, I just noticed afterward that my face was wet with tears). I was watching us step forward; after awhile, I heard that I needed to TELL THEM, to explain what was happening… and that I needed to SAY IT out loud to them, for us all to “formally” accept. So I had to come back to an individual body at least to allow my voice and mouth to function… and told them what I saw; it went something like this:

“I’m being shown a doorway coming out from the mountain, past us… it feels heavy… and it is a portal that is closing. It is closing the door on the paradigm of the old world once and for all; in being here and being witness to this, we complete all we have needed to complete in the past, with absolute certainty, and now turn to step forward and enter the new world. The energy portal at this mountain is a door opening to the new world; we are here today to step into this portal, and in doing so, the requirement is that we step 100% FULLY into our Truth; 100% FULLY into our Divinity. Once we commit, we are committed in this. There is no more deviation; no more regression. We step FULLY into this new world… and help others to do the same. That is why we are here together, right here, right now. If you acknowledge this and are ready for this commitment, say to yourself or out loud, ‘I AM THAT I AM.’”

I heard all whisper it to themselves as I agreed. It was beautiful; HUGE isn’t even close to the description. I BECAME the doorway, the portal… and I don’t know how long I just stayed there, like that… I knew that nothing would ever be the same again… because I’m different in a way I can’t explain; I’m in a different place altogether now. It felt like the residue of any lagging issues simply dissolved away… and in one instant, I could see how everything I’d been working on, every step along the way, had all been absolutely paramount to that moment, for me being able to simply accept that and embrace it without a hesitation.

At some point, I started “coming back into my body”… and I was physically SHAKING. REALLY shaking. I basked there for a little while longer; at some point, I gained the consciousness of Phran leaning on my right leg on the ledge below me, and a part of me smiled inside and almost had me say, “Hold on to my leg… we’re taking off!!!” LOL! It took a little bit longer, but I came back.

After that, we spoke with the two women for awhile; during the conversation, the women told us that they hadn’t even known until I’d mentioned it that Pilot Mountain is an energy portal/vortex! SO FUNNY… that they were guided to go there from out of town for that moment regardless! The conversation flowed as if we’d already known each other (which, you KNOW, of course we did!).

Then, after a bit, again Phran and I looked at each other simultaneously and said, “We’re done here!” Shared our information with the women to stay in touch… and we departed. It was just SO amazing, how when I turned that corner and saw them, there was only a moment’s hesitation… and it clicked in that we were RIGHT ON TIME for us to MEET UP, as ” was allotted.”

We went back to the car… and JUST when we got on the highway leaving the mountain, I looked up… and the car just ahead of us in the left lane had a license plate that said “KARMA10”… we had a good laugh at that!

Later on in the evening, I had a session with a friend, and afterward, I was guided to offer to do a 12/12 meditation with her… and take her back to that point earlier in the day, at the mountain at 12:12 (since you KNOW there really IS no time or space… and we can “step out” of it any time we so choose). And… ANOTHER wow! We were back there instantaneously; I “waited” for her as she committed and walked through… and then we walked forward into the higher dimensions; I was suddenly inside of a tree, traveling up, became the leaves… and then became a wood nymph… then I transformed into an air sylph… splashed into a waterfall and became a water sprite… and jumped into a campfire to become a fire salamander… and then back to my light being. Yes, I’ve had plenty of those visualizations before… but it was DIFFERENT. It felt REAL. REALLY, REALLY, REALLY real. And… we were there for awhile… before I lost track of my physical body again, I felt my heart/chest open so much I thought it would explode!  I lost complete consciousness of a physical body… and EXPLORED! The feeling was, “It’s so nice to be BACK…” BUT in that thought, I was made to understand that there wasn’t any “back”… this was a culmination of a number of other dimensions melding together… it’s NEW… and I knew there was a LOT to explore… SO MUCH BLISS!

I don’t know how long we were there, but there was a point when I heard… “If we don’t return now… we just might not do so…” And even after that… I stayed for awhile! When I brought us back, my friend told me she’d felt the EXACT same way… that she hadn’t wanted to return, there was so much bliss and excitement around her!

When I slept, I had quite a few VERY vivid dreams… early this morning, I had one where I was a part of a HUGE party… what a great, fun time…

And the fun is REALLY just BEGINNING!  🙂

Note: You can join us at that portal, at the doorway, and step forward to make the same commitment… simply go into meditation with the intention of joining us there at the “changing of the worlds” at 12/12/12 at 12:12… as I said… there really IS NO time and space… so it’s just a matter of stepping outside of time and space and going to THAT MOMENT. See you there!