The Heart of World Matters

HeartWorldOver the past number of years, I’ve had repeated glimpses into what we’re creating in this world… and glimpses of what’s to come. I haven’t publicly spoken about it much in terms of the literal picture to more than a few others… because visions can be metaphorical, they can be representations, they can be from other timelines, and most of all, they can distract us from looking at what’s right in front of us, in this moment… because it’s this moment that’s what counts, what exists, what presence is all about.

Until recently, those who’ve asked me what I’ve “seen” of the future, and/or if what I see is the same as ____________ [insert any name here] who has published their own visions, have typically gotten a reply from me about THIS moment instead.

From the beginning of what I call my “Grand Awakening,” when being “reminded” of what I ultimately came here to do, I was shown – or rather, helped to remember – what we have planned here at this time… as we finally complete the cycle of peaking in remembrance without crashing from lessons of the ego (which we’ve done a number of times over the eons).

One of the most challenging things for the ego to allow is the remembrance that our entire existence, all that is around us, is our creation. It’s full self-responsibility – lucid dreaming on a Universal scale, that we are the Dreamer as much as the Dreamed. The Divine Consciousness (or any one of a handful of other names) expressed as who we are. More and more, we’re even creating discoveries in our sciences – particularly quantum physics – that show us this in a way that the analytical mind can better accept, including researched proof (over and over) that intention creates our reality, and that love within is THE healer and true, interminable power of all.*

We just forget that in the exploration of separation… especially when we’ve forgotten that we are the Dreamer, with many, many different dreams, simultaneously running within the larger ones (think about the movie “Inception” to the max!).

We are all One, split up into the innumerable facets of this amazing, Universal gemstone. Here, incarnate on Earth, the part of our individual consciousness that resides in the physical body forgets that… that’s been a part of the game, part of this experiment of extreme separation, of creation via separation.

We’re at the verge of the end of yet another cycle; and so, the question many who are consciously aware of it ask is, How do we do it differently this time, to finish this once and for all?

Some have believed that we wouldn’t need some sort of collective catalyst to help wake us up within the dream; my understanding has been that we would… it just depended on the size of the catalytic event or set of events that had to happen. AND – most of all – that to break the cycle, to complete this and move on, what would be different wouldn’t be to avert the catalyst, but simply to act differently through it.

Yes, some have chosen to “wake up” later on in the game, but we put the catalyst in place to ensure that the hangers on would have quite the loud alarm clock… and still have a chance to adjust and align all consciousness within the whole to move forward.

For the past several years, I’ve received the message, again and again, to remain the calm in the storm. I’ve had trial after trial around me, I’ve taught it (or reminded it) to others who’ve been waking up to who we all are.

That message has repeated itself to me again and again. The purpose? If one stays the calm in the storm, remembering that regardless of what we see around us is a dream, and we are all but one Divine Consciousness… then we can stay in a place of clarity, acceptance, and love… knowing that all is perfect, trusting that we know exactly where we’re to be, and when, to optimize what one would call the ultimate soul’s purpose. Ultimate attainment!

All that I’ve been guided to teach – connecting to one’s own Higher Self via quieting the chatter of the ego (which was created to explore separation and identity) – as simple as it is (meditate, meditate, meditate) is the answer… because it allows us to remember that we already have full access/remembrance to all of the answers within us!

Staying the quiet in the storm means allowing the stillness to remain within, always. Stillness allows us the conscious remembrance and connection to our Higher Consciousness, the Higher Consciousness of the Universe… and the higher in consciousness, the purer the answer comes in love, which in essence, is Truth.

For the past several weeks, the consistent message about staying the calm in the storm shifted slightly, to BE unconditional love, always… all thoughts, words, and deeds. And the only way to truly do that is to fully accept and embrace that each one of us is equally Divine, equally worthy, and equally a message – expressed as who we are and what we do – as a facet of the whole. Each of us has a very different reminder to bring to all of us, as the mirror back to what’s within, as the Dreamer. 

The more self-exploration, the more resolution, the more acceptance, peace, and love we can explore and employ within ourselves (some would call that healing, but I simply call it remembrance), the more that is reflected back to us from what’s in the world around us.

Hate doesn’t “cure” hate. Violence doesn’t solve anything; it creates more separation. The glorification and romanticism of militaries going off to kill one people in sacrifice for “protection” of another – because of a belief of what’s “right” and what’s “wrong” (including religious beliefs) – only ultimately grows separation and hate through killing; we’ve proven that again and again. I’ve worked with a number of military and ex-military with PTSD from the internal battle they have within themselves, because even though they’ve at some time bought the excuse and propaganda that killing some to “protect” others is right, there’s a part of them that knows they’re still killing others. So, then… why do we continue to perpetuate it? War will never be the answer to love and peace… we’ve repeated THAT lesson again and again! The way to truly shifting to a peaceful way is to remember that beyond these meat jackets we call physical bodies, we are all the same, that we are all of the Divine Consciousness, the Dreamer of the Dream… and even what the ego judges and considers the most despicable individuals are also a part of our Self. Time to embrace that, too.

Time to turn the tables, release the idea of victimhood, and ask ourselves, “If having is an indication of wanting (meaning I have something in my reality because I created it)… then why would I want to create this in my reality?”

THAT’S what’s for us to do differently!

From the higher perspective, we never just have a Game Plan A, B, and C… we actually have far, far more than that; more like down to and beyond Game Plan WWWW, XXXX, YYYY, and ZZZZ….and every step along the way that we ignore the messages, the bigger the reminder gets. It starts within each individual, then ramps up to groups, communities, and eventually the entire collective of Earth, and beyond. I don’t know about you… but I’d prefer the little reminders, myself, vs. what I call the explosions! Thus, the true importance of looking within to change all that is based in separation and resistance – fear, anger, regret, resentment, anxiety, guilt, doubt, sorrow, pain, judgment, shame, frustration – is vital, if we’d prefer to prevent the “big bang.” And, even though things are getting a bit heated on the collective level in the 3D, there’s always the opportunity to shift its volume and impact via what we do when we stop projecting what’s inside onto others, and instead looking in the mirror at ourselves, first and foremost.

So, many ask, “What you’re saying is that those who have died, those who are considered the perpetrators, volunteered to do this, created this themselves… and they are both the same?” Yes. They’re me; and they’re you. They are the pieces – the individuals – who stepped up and said, “Yes! If we get to Plan ______ and we need to start having collective reminders, I will be one who takes part in that play!” To them, we owe a mountain of gratitude and love… for taking on the role they agreed to take on.

The best way to honor them for their role is to turn our focus back in on ourselves; to shift from a place of separation to a place of perceiving the whole, and of coming from a place of love in knowing that, always. Accepting all as the crucial note in the symphony of this experience that they are, including your Self… and knowing for as many options to play out as there are in response via separation, that the one via unity – that of love – is far stronger, has more true impact, and essentially renders violence, hate, and fear useless, recognizing them as the illusion that they are.

Mari is the basic name of the goddess found throughout the Mediterranean region, and Isis-Mari is her Egyptian name. Like Mary of the Christian tradition, she is a vast cosmic sky goddess as well as an earth mother goddess. In the Egyptian tradition, she was associated with a star which was the source of love and light radiating from her heart.

Mari is the basic name of the goddess found throughout the Mediterranean region, and Isis-Mari, or just Isis, is her Egyptian name. Like Mary of the Christian tradition, she is a vast cosmic sky goddess as well as an earth mother goddess. In the Egyptian tradition, she was associated with a star which was the source of love and light radiating from her heart.

In backing up and looking at the much, much larger picture, I actually find it so incredible how we have this message smacking ourselves right in the face. How, you ask? Well… it is the TRUE energy of unification – the Oneness – that is represented by the Universal Divine Mother. It’s that energy within us and of which we exist that reminds us that the true answer is in unity, in looking within and remembering our Oneness and unconditional love. And here on Earth, we are at a point where we have SUCH a literal representation of the reminder of the Divine Mother via the name of the one of the currently prominent terrorist groups – ISIS – when the Ancient Goddess Isis is a representation of the Divine Mother in the form of a reminder (a big, honking mirror to us) of the importance of spiritual development within through the representation of such a lack of that. Could we be more literal???

The world events are just beginning to ramp up, as the alarm clock goes off; I understand this is just the beginning; it will get louder and more intrusive the longer we ignore it… and there’s no snooze button anymore!!! The resounding message: Do it differently; look within instead of projecting without. Remember that if we weren’t a part of this in some way… then it wouldn’t be created. Self responsibility is remembering that as we are the Dreamer as well as the Dreamed… and also that we CAN change the dream, at any time! First and foremost, our biggest priority is finding/remembering self-love, acceptance, and redirecting the ego’s job from that of separation and projection to one of ensuring that all thought, word, and deed support remembering, existing in, creating from, and emanating the Oneness in unconditional love while still maintaining the individuals that we are. Yes, it will take some focus; yes, it will take looking in the mirror at what the ego has formerly perceived as pretty uncomfortable stuff. Ultimately, it’s our quickest path to transcending this experience of such extreme separation, war, and (self-)destruction to take a new path – finally – and see what our new creation can bring in a much higher vibration!

 

Need assistance? It’s my life’s dedication to help others help themselves, to remember their Divinity, that we are ALL the psychic/intuitive and the healer… that we “heal” ourselves, that we create our own reality… and to help get past blocks based in traditional beliefs that limit our experience. Ready to change, to “get to the next level,” and explore the freedom of limitlessness? See my upcoming Self Development via Divine Consciousness class in January 2016,  packages and sessions pages… and get started today; I’d love to work with you! 

 

* There is a LOT of literature and research results around this; one such well-documented and discussed is The Intention Experiment, by Lynne McTaggart, and resulting research via the Institute of Noetic Sciences)

Just in the Nick of Time…

Let me start out at the end: It was an AWESOME day… and because of Nick, it was even better.

I love my work; I love helping others to find the power they have within. It’s beyond words – awesome and awe-inspiring – to watch as those with whom I work grow to remember their own Divinity, that they’re worthy, unconditionally loved, unconditionally powerful; and then, that they have all of the answers, they can do everything, see everything, understand everything… and it’s simply a matter of remembering how to do that and clearing out what’s blocking the way.

And then, it’s all even better when it comes to helping someone like Nick… because I could never even plan for something like that!

Now, let me go back to the beginning…

Last weekend, I was in Michigan to do a one-day presentation consisting of three talks pertaining to self-empowerment through energy work. It was hosted by my student, friend, and soul sister Nicole, who has an art and healing center where we were doing the presentation. Recently, she’d expanded her studio, incorporating space that had formerly been occupied by another professional. This was the space we were using for the presentation: comfy cushions and chairs, check; meditation music: check; incense: check; healthy veggies and other food for snacks: check. A group of people who attended with so much light and great energy to further fill the room with awesomeness: check!

As is typical, when I do a presentation, I set up the room energetically in a high vibration of healing, and do what many in the spiritual arena call “hold space.” The intention: To balance and harmonize all of us present throughout the day; also, to provide what is highest and best to help the individual journey of all who attend, with grace and ease, love, and joy (and a lot of humor).

And so, everything was set.

We were about to start, when a young man in his early 20’s walked in with a pile of papers in his hand. He had an unkempt, grungy appearance, and pulled tightly into himself. He came to the doorway where we were convened, and looked confused. I asked him if he was there to join us for the talk; he didn’t know what I was talking about… he said he was looking for the office that had been there before. Several in the group chimed in that they had moved; he half turned to leave. However, he hesitated; in the meantime, I (along with several others in the group) was nudged heavily to have him stay. I called after him, “Come and join us!” Another in the group said to him, “Yes… because if you’re here, you’re supposed to be here!”

He asked what we were doing – what we were talking about – and we told him we were talking about spiritual empowerment and energy work. He said, “Well… actually, it sounds kind of interesting…” He hesitated, then asked, “How much is it?”

I told him it was via love donation, with the recommended donation at $20 per talk. He sighed and shook his head. “I’m dead broke,” he said, and turned away again. Another in the group told him she would cover him; I, too, was feeling that it would really be good for him to stay, so I simply said, “Really… if you feel like you’d like to stay, then simply pay it forward somehow. That’s the ‘love’ part!”

He took a few steps away from the door, then turned back, hesitant. We further coaxed him to join us (obviously, others in the group felt the same pull); he finally said, “OK… why not?” Then he walked across the room, through the circle, and sat down on a cushion next to me.

He stayed the entire day.

Throughout the different talks and during the breaks, we learned that his name was Nick; that he considers himself a recovering drug addict, that he had done a variety of drugs, including heroin. Sitting next to him, I noticed he had scars that looked like cigarette burns up and down his left arm. He talked about wanting to “kick the habit” so he could talk to disadvantaged youths on steering clear of “the nasty stuff.” It was (of course) perfect that one of the participants who attended – close to his age – has been going to AA for several years, and she was able to give him many great suggestions to progress down that road.

He was quiet throughout much of the talks; in fact, in the middle of the first one, he fell asleep and started snoring. I was told to leave him be; that he was getting exactly what he needed. Everyone else understood, as well… and we let him sleep and absorb.

During the breaks, he ate voraciously… and it was wonderful that he was eating raw vegetables, healthy food.

After all the talks were completed and he’d received a Trinity healing session, he thanked everyone and left. He didn’t sign up for any email contact or anything. However, in cleaning up after everyone had gone, I realized Nick had left behind the pile of papers he’d had with him when he arrived. They were discharge papers from the ER that morning, with complaints of acute left shoulder pain from a pre-existing injury. There was also a prescription for Motrin. Nicole and I puzzled over these papers… neither of us had felt anything about shoulder pain; nor had he complained about it or brought it up. We both understood simultaneously that he’d been having a rough morning off the drugs and had gone to the hospital in hopes of getting some pain killers; when they just gave him the Motrin prescription, he went looking elsewhere. Through a whole series of connect the dots that just fell together, we realized he’d shown up at that office on a Saturday morning looking to meet someone there to possibly get some drugs to alleviate the rough patch.

Instead, he found us… to get what he REALLY needed: love, support, acceptance, and healing (and food, too).

The enormity of that synchronicity is simply astounding. The numerous amount of small details that came together just so the group of us could be there – that day, at that exact moment – to not only share and help each other, but to also support him and help him through a really, REALLY rough day… is mind-boggling. However, the heart just knows. It’s all perfect.

I wanted to share this story because often, many of us doing this kind of work question the purpose of certain situations, in certain places, on certain days. We ask, “Why am I here?” And sometimes we never know.


dreamstime_xl_1956932But sometimes we do
… and when an awesome situation like this comes together, it feeds another hundred moments or more of never knowing… so we can just trust that we’re ALWAYS in the perfect place, at the perfect time, even if the ego doesn’t see why.

My heart and love goes out to Nick, wherever he may be. And my intention for him… is that he found another perfect situation for himself the following day, to help him through… and that hopefully, every day it gets easier for him. And even if it doesn’t, I’m certain that whatever we provided will ultimately help him along on his path!

 

 

Seeing the Glass COMPLETELY Full, and Taking From It What You Will…

Twice in the past month, when doing an “energetic share” (where a practitioner and I will swap a session with each other), I’ve had two different spiritual practitioners tell me they’ve seen lightning bolts coming out of my hands. In one session, the practitioner saw me flying a Pegasus and then actually BECOME the one flying… and I was shooting firebolts at the masses, to help them heal in a very powerful way. I was told, at first, many looked scared, because it was so unusual, so “out-of-the-ordinary,” and so powerful… but then as they realized it was HELPING them, they embraced it. For the second session, the other practitioner told me he saw me pulling energy like lightning through my body, and out of my hands, and it was very powerful and very healing.

How cool is THAT?

Not too long ago, I was gifted with remembrance of a beautiful, powerful progression and healing energy to bring forward to as many as possible (see more about Trinity Energy). How much more powerful can you get than tapping into energy of the Divine Mother, Divine Father, and Divine Child – the Christ Consciousness – that’s within all of us?

So, some might ask, “What makes YOU so special? Why would YOU get that energy to share?”

And my answer is, “I am the Divine; why WOULDN’T I get that energy to share?”

OF COURSE I can do that… OF COURSE I can BE that… OF COURSE I deserve that…

The point is, we ALL can.

Throughout this existence, we’ve done such an awesome job convincing ourselves that we’re not “special”… we’ve disempowered ourselves to believe that power comes from outside of us, that the Divine is outside of us, that OTHERS are far more gifted than us, far more special, that there can only be “a few” special ones… and that it’s only a very, very, very special someone who can do certain “magical” things. So, we’ve pretty much decided that the glass is half empty as a human, and that being human is being “merely human”… and we’ve created the word “imperfect” in reflection of that. Look around you: Even supposedly inspirational quotes say, “I embrace my imperfections…” or “I accept that I’m ONLY human…” and other similar wording.  So, though that fills the glass a little more – with the positive intention – it still comes up a bit short.

It’s time for us to remember that we are all part of the Oneness; and in being part of the Oneness – whatever you call it, the Divine, God, Spirit, Creator, Universal Life Force, or about a dozen other names – we are all a part of the Divine.

Here’s how I understand it, in an extremely abbreviated Cliff Notes (or Wiki) version:

The Divine – Divine, Unconditional Love – is all-encompassing, eternal, and everlasting. And, just as part of BEING, we decided we wanted to EXPERIENCE. And so, we created the illusion of separating from the Divine. In doing that, we set up the concept of the individual soul – simply a partitioned part of the Divine – to pretend that we’re NOT the Divine (although there is no real possibility of NOT being the Divine, because we just ARE).  We set up the concept of splitting up even further – into “more parts within a soul” – forming soul families – and we decided what we wanted to experience, created the Laws to rule the concept of experience and how to experience (including, among a bazillion others, the concept of the Law of Duality and the Laws of Time), and then each “partition” – each soul, regardless of what  – decided on which experiences it wanted in this existence. In doing so, we created the “packages” and forms that we would take to be able to have certain experiences… then we created a whole bunch of different ways to pretend to break apart even further – into gender, into Twins – and even more ways to package ourselves differently to have the experiences we created.

It’s absolutely the most complex, multi-dimensional, holographic game of chess EVER! Only, we all “win”… we all get all the experiences we choose!

So, in setting out on our paths to experience, to create this existence, to create this dimension, this world, and our “Universe,” we – as whatever individuals and whatever parts of individuals and parts of soul families we’re pretending to be – decided all of the “packages” we’d have to create for ourselves to have all of those experiences. This brings about the concept of multiple lifetimes… being packaged EXACTLY the way we desire so we could have EXACTLY the experiences and lessons we desire to have. If we were packaged one way, in one situation, ever, how much would we ever really learn, as Divine Beings? Very little.

And, once we’re all done with our experiences, we start to remember who we are, we remember that we’ve never left, that we’ve ALWAYS been the Divine… that we are ALWAYS all-powerful and all-love, and we come back together in consciousness, each level in itself and then all of us together as One, to compare notes, to understand the experiences… and to create a NEW existence with NEW experiences (except, oh, yeah, there really IS no time, so we’re actually sort of doing ALL of it, ever, simultaneously, from the perspective of the Divine that we are).

Pretty big, hunh?

Don’t spend too much time (LOL) thinking too much about the details here… the point to considering this is simply to maybe provide a slightly different perspective on the way we look at things. Simply put: We are ALWAYS the Divine… we have never left, we have never separated… we’ve done this perfectly, as the Divine does. EXACTLY in the bazillion ways we planned. We’re starting to flex our muscles again, to wake up and realize, “Oh, YEAH… I AM all of this; I have it ALL inside of me, all the time… and it’s all mine to be accessed!”

And when you start to see things that way, you realize… well, the glass isn’t HALF full; it’s actually BRIMMING OVER THE TOP full, all the time, always… and we CHOOSE to be who we are, what we are, to do what we do, to experience and learn lessons the way we do, to SEE things through the filter of the experiences and lessons we’ve chosen… and then, as we resolve and finalize all of that, we can remember all that we’ve forgotten… and that every single one of us – EVERY SINGLE ONE – is just another part of ourselves.

If every single one of us is a part of ourselves, and we’re all a part of the Divine – well, we’re all Divine. It’s not that none of us are special… it’s that ALL of us are special, ALL of us are perfect… because we’re “doing” this existence exactly in the way we’ve chosen, as our part of the consciousness of the Divine. But, also, the more we remember our Divinity is within, the more we can realize that we all can do ALL of it… and better yet, we can access and use it in our very unique, exquisitely beautiful ways.

And then, the realization comes that we’re ALL perfect… just the way we are. Right now, this second. We’re taking the paths we planned to take, in the way we’ve planned to take them. All of a bazillion… or so. How incredible is THAT?

You might say, “If I’m perfect, then what motivation do I have to improve myself, to change, or to change directions/paths?”

Because we built ourselves to be that way, too! That’s a huge part of the ego’s role…  to keep us moving in one way or another through our lessons; plus, it’s a huge part of the “Laws” that we’ve created as part of this “game.” Don’t get me wrong: If you want to just be, you can just be… and, if your soul is completely done with its lessons in this existence, that might be all you need to do. If not, you’ll just be back around again in another package, in a different way. Your Higher Self is all about that!

So, the next time you say, “I’m only human…” or “I’m imperfect…” just remember that you’re only seeing the glass half empty because it’s been your CHOICE in the lessons you’re learning to see it that way. But that’s really the illusion… and if you brought that glass to your lips and took a drink of the Universe… you’d absolutely realize that the glass is completely full. Not only that, but you can change what kind of liquid is in there, as well as its color, its taste… well, you get what I mean.

Now…you can just repeat after me:

I AM PERFECT AS I AM.
I AM A PART OF THE DIVINE.
I AM THE DIVINE.
I AM.

In lak’ech ala k’in.  🙂

 

When the Walls Come Tumbling Down…

I’m a movie nut… and a bookworm. Generally, all kinds, depending on my mood. I’ve seen movie after movie, read book after book… so, when I say that one or the other has truly moved me and left an impression on my life… believe me, it’s an impressive thing.

The term “pay it forward” became popular from a movie of the same name that was released in 2000, with Kevin Spacey, Helen Hunt, and Haley Joel Osment (think, “I see dead people…” from another great one). It’s about a boy’s social studies project that quickly starts to change the lives of the others around him… and beyond.

The assignment: Think of something to change the world and put it into action. The boy presents the idea of paying a favor not back, but forward – repaying good deeds not with payback, but with new good deeds done to three new people.

I remember in the movie, that the boy explains that time to actually do something for someone else – to do this “favor” – is when you feel it the most… when it’s most difficult within the giver to do it.

The changes that start to fall into play – with people who have never even met him – are astounding.

This is such an awesome idea… so simple, yet so profound. However, it often seems that some of the simplest, most profound changes we can make to our world – and some that will simply tumble the facades we have built ourselves – are the ones we find the hardest to carry out. Why? I don’t know; probably because we’ve spent thousands of years in many different cultures building them up.

If you follow the belief (which I do) that we’re evolving back towards remembering our interrelation as One, I’m reminded repeatedly how simple – yet profound – this evolution is.

“Tearing Down Walls,” by Gwen MeHarg, accessed at the heART gallery: http://www.drawneartogod.com

Here’s the simplest in description: Eliminate the walls.

Easy, right?

Several weeks back, my 9th grade daughter and I were talking in the car while I was driving her to school one morning. I have a great interest in the reiteration of some of the conversations she’s had with her friends; it surprises me how the teens and kids are evolving right under everyone’s noses, yet many don’t seem to notice!

Anyway, it seems she and her friends have had quite a few open discussions about different belief systems, and different religions. (This alone is amazing – when I was in 9th grade, most of our conversations centered around what was going on in the entertainment world, our visions for the future… what was in style, whether we were going to the mall over the weekend, stuff like that!). So, I wasn’t overly surprised when she said, “So, what are we, anyway? Are we Christian? Something else? What do I say when someone asks me?”

I was a little bit at a loss; since I don’t think of myself as any designation – and my husband and I have been insistent on teaching our children about all types of beliefs, all types of religions – we’ve purposely not limited ourselves to “being” something.

I didn’t know how to explain that in twenty words or less – which is pretty much the limit for a 9th grader.

However, as things tend to go, this topic has come up again and again over the past several weeks. And it came to me when I was enjoying the quick read The Third Coming, by Jim Rosemergy. There was a portion talking about Gandhi; once, when a reporter was interviewing him in his home, it was noted that even though he is purported Hindu, there was a picture of Christ on his wall. When asked about that, Gandhi responded, “I am a Christian, and a Hindu, and a Moslem, and a Jew.”

It also  reminds me of a message I received in meditation once, not too long ago: Watch the children and how they play.

Finally, in answer to my daughter, I came back to her and said, “You remember that discussion we had the other day? On how we’re not anything particular? I was thinking about it, and I think it’s best to just say we’re Universal.” She thought about it and nodded her head. “I like that, Mom…thanks.” and that was that.

It’s great seeing the rash of bumper stickers (I have one myself), t-shirts, and other paraphernalia with the term “Coexist” on it, made up of the symbols of many of the world’s major religions.

Is it really practiced, though?

How often do you think or say something along the lines of “Those people…” “They should…” “They can’t…” ? How many times have you said, “I don’t know… I’m not ______”?

It’s easy to lend a friend, a neighbor, a relative a hand… but what about a stranger? How many times do we come up with excuses on why we shouldn’t help someone we don’t know?

We put up walls, and more walls…

How many times someone is “afraid” to go to a different church than their own, because they’re afraid they’ll “get punished”? Why would that be… because the semantics are different from one denomination of church to the next, or even from one religion to the next?

If you stop listening to the politics of all of the walls that create differences between religions and spiritual practices – and instead, traverse the wall and listen from the heart about what they all mean, and then compare notes – guess what you’ll find for the vast majority? Semantics, cultural (yes, cultural) rituals somewhat different… but the meaning, pretty much all the same.

This is the same with _________ – you name it: gender, race, culture, religion, politics. Under the microscope, our genetic makeup is pretty identical, in terms of science. It’s like I always say – everyone has a different flavor of ice cream that is their favorite, yet most ice cream is really 99% identical in make up… with just the minor differences making up the different flavors and colors.

Yet, it’s still ice cream. One flavor isn’t “evil” (though I’ve tasted some quadruple chocolate flavors that would be close LOL), one isn’t innately “better” than the other, and one person isn’t better or worse than the next because of a particular flavor they enjoy the most – it’s simply a matter of personal preference, based on individual taste.

That’s the point of the “Coexist” campaign. We are all the same family, we are all a part of this organism we call Earth; all that separates us are the politics and cultural practices in our day-to-day lives. Underneath, we all have hearts, minds, and souls. These differences are what make us “different flavors,” and individual. Yet, we can’t lose sight that we are one and the same.

Another way I used to explain this to my children is via anatomy: Our bodies are made up of approximately 10 trillion cells at any given point in time. Every cell has its own function, there are some basic differences between different types of cells, BUT each cell has the full body’s blueprint embedded within it. Every single one. And every single one knows what job it’s chosen, what its function is. Though each cell might not have conscious knowledge of that, or of the comparatively huge Being of which it’s a part, if that type of cell is needed in a different part of the body, that’s where the cell goes. If a person cuts his/her left foot, and some harmful bacteria enter the wound, the cells at the wound site send out signals for phagocytes (white blood cells that specifically ingest and neutralize potentially harmful invaders). Say there are some of those cells up in the right shoulder… do they say, “Well, it’s just so FAR to that foot… and the kids have a soccer game tonight…”  or “Well, it’s the FOOT that needs our type of job; we’re SHOULDER type of cells…” ???  No; they go and do their job; whatever it is that is beneficial to the entire organism.

To “get to the next level” – or even get back to whence we came, to restore the Earth and humanity – it’s time to remember that we ARE all a part of the same organism – whether we are in North America, Australia, or Asia; whether we are Christian, Muslim, Hindu, Wiccan, or tribal; whether we are male, female, or in between; whether we are proverbially the shoulder, the elbow, or the nose. It is only then – once we’ve taken down all of these walls, labels, and separations that we’ve put up OURSELVES – that we will be able to truly function to our optimal potential as the whole of what we’re a part.

So, to circle back around, the reason I started this post with the mention of the movie Pay It Forward is because it is a perfect example of my point here: The idea has no boundaries, no limitations. It includes everyone… and it forces us outside of our comfort zone, makes us take down our walls, and to see each other – everyone – as equally important as the other, equally worthy, without prejudice and without  limitation.

And when we can do that… we’ll be able to accomplish anything, across the world!

Feeling Boxed In… and Remembering the Racehorse!

When I was a child, growing up on Long Island, my mother worked in the horse racing industry, and her significant other’s family was really in the industry… they bred and trained race horses.

I’ve always loved horses… and though I’m not a gambler in the least bit, I’ve always LOVED watching a horse race. What excitement!!!

However, I will say that they’re not topmost in my attention these days… until just recently.

Several weeks back, we watched the movie “Secretariat,” which brought back my memory of why I loved those races! But I watched the movie, enjoyed it, then put it away in the movie memory storage of my mind.

(I know, you’re wondering, “How the heck does this relate to the spiritual world?” Patience, patience… I’m getting there…)

A few days after I watched that movie, my friend Linda sent me an email with a bunch of releasing that came to her for me relating to a racehorse (this is a daily occurrence back and forth for both of us – sending releasing and clearing information back and forth, that is). How odd, I thought… it’s not something I talk about in conversation – I don’t use horses in metaphors much – so I found it particularly funny that she had termed the clearing “racehorses”… especially since she had no idea that I’d just watched “Secretariat.”

I did the clearing, but I remember I felt a little perplexed as to the relevance of what was on my mind that day.

Fast forward to this week: I had HUGE upheaval in the way I saw things. It’s hard to explain, so I won’t try to here, because it really did have to do with an “argument” I had with my Guides and C (my affectionate nickname for Creator/Spirit/Source/God).  Or, I should say, sort of a spiritual crisis… where I got very, very angry with them, and “turned off the faucet” most of the way for the day (now, THAT is a funny story for a blog in itself… but for another day).

Though I kept on clearing and releasing, I didn’t understand why I couldn’t get past a little bit of a funk… and it usually hit me in the morning.

So, this morning was exactly the same; I pondered on that, and through some further internal digging, I realized that all of it – even the little personal crisis I had this week – stems from the paradigm of being “shown” what is to be here on Earth on a large scale… and allowing it to unfold on its own. I’m excited for the awesome parts to begin; and I’m getting rather tired of waiting for it.

Don’t get me wrong; I haven’t continued on just WAITING; in fact, I have tried to move things forward in many parts of my life. However, it seems that the more I’ve been trying to move things forward, the more I feel like I’m banging up against a rubber wall. My whole household and my whole life feels like it’s at a standstill that I’m pushing to get out of: I’m trying to pull my husband by the hand through this exciting glimpse via the spiritual world (he nibbles, but as he terms it, I devour); I’m trying to counsel him through his dead standstill in his career at work; I’m trying to birth him out of his womblike “keep everything as it is” mode… and quite frankly, for a number of reasons, I’ve had the problems getting my non-spiritual work (I do have THAT business) done, so I’ve been stuck there, too, bouncing off the rubber wall I’m trying to circumvent and/or get past. And it seems that many people I know feel the same way, and have turned to me to help counsel them forward… which I do, and my counsel is rarely acted upon.

That in itself is all fine… but this big picture feeling – that I’m bouncing off a rubber wall, and can’t get out – makes me edgier and edgier…not just irritable; it makes me CRAZY.

And while I’ve been at this standstill, I’ve been getting in more and more information from our etheric brethren and C… more and more of the big picture. And yet, here I sit, in the rubber box.

I realized I’m getting tired because I don’t LIKE holding modes; I like moving forward. I DON’T want to be able to think that I will be doing the same thing, day in, day out, for every day, every week, every year. I love the excitement of the game, I love rollercoasters… that’s why I understand I’ve liked it here, through this existence on 3D Earth.

I was writing an email to my above-mentioned friend Linda… and before I knew it, I realized I was using the racehorse analogy! Funny, I thought… I haven’t even thought about horses much until suddenly over these past several weeks. Here’s what I wrote, barely even realizing what I was writing at the moment:

I’m like the racehorse at the starting gate. I can see the track; I’m pumped up to run, but I’m in the @#$#@ gate, just waiting for the bell to ring. And I’m getting really, really antsy, because I JUST WANT THAT @#$@ BELL TO RING AND THE GATES TO OPEN, ALREADY!!!

I stopped, my fingers paused over the keys, while I read that back to myself… and suddenly, everything started to gel together, to form a picture.

Then came that nudge… and so I just tuned in, and asked what it was I was trying to see. In C’s perfect, loving way, I saw the whole thing in a flash; here’s the translation, in the way I heard it:

This is the last stretch of wait for you; you’re in the gate, and the bell IS going to ring – at any moment, or you wouldn’t be in the gate. The race is taking you to the next existence – the trophy (for all to receive) – but it is so comparatively minute to the rest of the Earth existence that it will feel like the wind as it flies by.

The racehorse spends its whole life preparing for the race. It is fed the right foods; it is groomed a particular way; it practices and practices, exercising and running – on different kinds of tracks, in different types of weather, with different riders. The rider does the same – eats a certain way, exercises, rides different horses, learns the horse and how to merge with it. It’s all practice, so when that gate opens, the horse and the rider, as one, know EXACTLY what they need to do together to run the race. The race is merely seconds or minutes… but preparation for those seconds or minutes have taken the entire life of both… and when sitting in that gate, the horse is just raring to go, to let its body be the master of the wind as it has learned – practiced – to be, and its rider is strategizing the course, feeling the turns, considering the weather conditions, the track conditions, and many, many other considerations. This isn’t second nature – it IS their nature.

You have spent lifetimes upon lifetimes upon lifetimes – and versions of that through different planes, as well – through this existence. You have gathered such experience just for the last part of it all – the climax of the story, and opening the doorway to the next existence. You have been at the gate, remembering (after you made yourself forget) all you have done to prepare for these mere moments, the moments of the race. Yes, you love this part; you know it is worth it through every existence in which you partake, regardless of how many lifetimes, iterations, or whatever is the deciding measurement of the existence. You love the race; you are in the gate and want to utilize it all – all the preparation – for the thrill of those moments on the track, on the final stretch.

This is why you are antsy, irritable at what you perceive is your limitation – the gate – and you literally feel boxed in. You need to remember that it is because you are in that box that you are the most on edge… you know the exhilarating freedom – the run – all that you have been working for, is about to begin. You feel the anticipation in the air; the moments before the bell and before the gates open.

Instead of letting this take hold of you, you must take hold of it. You are in the final moments of remembering what you’ve done, and why you’ve done it. Instead of skipping through the gate, utilize it to the best and highest way. Make the gate – the holding period – an experience in itself. You can do that without laying down and going to sleep – without losing your focus and your drive – but while the anticipation grows and grows – just a bit more in these final moments – feel all of you. Feel your connection to it all; feel all – from your perception – that you have behind you and all that you have before you, above you and below you, inside and outside of you, as you perceive the apex of the moment it all melds together, to the moment when the gate opens through the moment when you cross the finish line – actually yet another starting line – to the next existence. And that will make the experience even that much more fuller, much more fulfilling.

What a beautiful – and perfect – picture! And it just feels right… enough so I can get my butt out of bed, go work out, and get on with my day!

Enjoy every moment, and appreciate the magnificence of it all today, every day. The bell is going to ring soon, and then the REAL fun is going to begin… and this next, awesome part is ready because of all of the preparation we have all done!  🙂

Take Two: SHOOTING through the door to an expanded reality on Pilot Mountain!

Lots of faces... since we didn't get much in pics (it obviously wasn't what we needed that day), these are pics from my 1st trip.

My second trip to Pilot Mountain was scheduled (read about the first trip in my previous post) right on the heels of finishing a 3-day class in Advanced Theta Healing. Needless to say, I was wide open to the Universe, that’s for sure! Throughout the weekend, had repeatedly questioned whether or not I’d really feel like going on the jaunt with my friend Phran after I was finished. I wanted to go, but fully knew how tired I typically am at the end of 3 solid days of energy and clearing work!

Midway through Saturday, in Theta mode, I asked if I should really go on this trip; without hesitation, and clear as day, I heard back YES! When I asked why, the response was, “Because NOW is the time for you to go.” (Nothing like having Creator say, “Because I said so!”)

So, I guess that set up my expectations!

On the Road Again!
The Voice…
The Earth…
The Water…
The Air (and I guess a little bit of Fire, too!)…
Post Scripts (Follow-up Notes and Explanations)

On the Road Again!
We drove up on Sunday evening; on Monday, we got up and were ready to go early in the morning. In getting ready, I realized something odd – the night before, when I’d gone to bed, my phone had been just about fully charged, so I hadn’t bothered to pull out my charger plug. However, in the morning, it was pretty much completely dead; pretty odd, since I’d turned the phone off altogether! I figured I could at least get a few hours of charging in before we left, but when I went into my bag, I couldn’t find the charger. I searched and searched – even went out to the car – because I remembered wrapping the charger cord up and packing it the night before, but it wasn’t there. Bummer, I thought – I was going to take pictures with it! After I’d been searching for 5 minutes or so, in my head I heard, “No pictures or phones today.” So I thought, “Well, OK, then.” I told Phran, and she had her digital camera with her, but she decided to bring it, anyway.

It was a brisk morning – when we left for breakfast, it was still in the 30s. However, by the time we got to the parking point on the mountain, it was about 40 – not too bad! Plus, the temperature was expected to go up to the 60s during the day, and we knew that once we started moving, we’d warm up.

Part of a BIG face… (again, from my previous trip)

So we went up to Little Pinnacle first, and then completed the trek to the Big Pinnacle – and that’s where the fun began!

The Voice…
When we found first rock face area we decided to climb, I had to laugh – when I’d been there several weeks before with the family, I really hadn’t seen clear climbing patterns to get to some of the shelf areas. Yet, as I walked up this time, it was like there were clear and obvious footholds and steps to the ledge for us! So, we climbed up, and then I could suddenly feel a vibration. I had the urge to put my hand on the rock, and when I did, the vibration surged through my body, and then all I wanted to do was put my cheek on the rock and, for lack of a better explanation, give the mountain a hug! So I did rest my cheek on the rock, and closed my eyes, and the most peculiar thing happened: I felt like I was actually getting a hug from the mountain! Since it was so chilly, I’d fully expected the rock to just feel hard and cold to my cheek and touch; however, I felt nothing but the inner warmth of being loved. How strange, I thought! Something so hard and stark, yet so comforting and nurturing! I opened my eyes to see Phran actually doing the same thing… and from the look on her face, realized it wasn’t just me who could feel that. Suddenly, in my head, I heard, “This is just the beginning; do not doubt yourself, but step with faith.” I told Phran what I’d heard; at the same time, she was getting “Just BE.” (Note: We were thinking these comments were simply literal – because we’d been talking about getting down the rocks, then I got the “Step with faith” statement – but now I get it… much more to it than that! The same goes for the “Just BE” statement to Phran – such simple statements, yet so significant!)

It wasn’t too long afterward that we both felt like it was time to move on to our next destination around the Big Pinnacle… wherever that was going to be. Soon we came to another area that looked primed to climb… so we did, again finding “steps” in the rock to make our ascent pretty simple, even though on first glance, it would seem otherwise!>

This second stop was life-changing.

The Earth…
Phran told me she was getting we were supposed to stand at this particular shelf that we hadn’t even been able to see from the trail; it showed up to us  as we were climbing to another point we’d originally been attracted to. So, we climbed over, and she pointed for me to sit at one particular spot (so she was guided). She was quiet for a moment (listening), then said, “The student surpasses the teacher; the student is the one to receive…”

Side note…in case you missed it in the previous post, Phran is the fabulous soul who has helped me out since Day One of what I call my “Grand Awakening,” in 2009; not only has she been a great source of information and support – and has become a good friend – but as a Reiki Master, she’s the one who introduced me to focused energy work through teaching me Reiki, I and II so far. I remember her saying that and thinking, “I doubt surpassing is the right word… she’s been doing this for YEARS!” See her Website about some of the awesome work she does!

I just looked at her blankly for a moment, and she said, “I’m just supposed to be the antennae here; you’re supposed to get the message.” She held out her hand. “Chakra to chakra to connect…” I took her hand and closed my eyes.

Immediately, the MOST AMAZING feeling came over me. Without really having the words to describe it, it was the BIGGEST feeling I’ve ever felt! If you’ve seen the movie Hook, with Robin Williams (with Julia Roberts as Tinkerbell, plus an all-star cast), there’s a moment when Tinkerbell blows up to be a full-sized person; she just looks incredulous for a few moments, then says, “…this is the BIGGEST thought I’ve ever had…”  It was a lot like that… and that thought actually popped into my head for a moment, before I really sank in to the experience.

What I “saw” when I was being shown Awakening energy points around us (I doctored a pic so you could see it!)

It was like my whole being was plugged in… not just to the mountain, but also the entire valley around it! I didn’t just hear or see a message; I became A PART of it!!! I could feel and hear the consciousness, but I could also FEEL the rock as a part of me; I could feel the trees growing from me, but I also felt like my heart was beating AS Mother Earth, all at the same time. To say it was HUGE doesn’t even begin to cover it!!

At the same time, before one word started coming to me, I could see this column of violet light beaming down on Phran and me while we were standing there.

The consciousness from the mountain started showing me the movements of the earth, the ground moving, the faces in the mountain, the consciousness Awakening inside of the Earth, and then also the plants and trees, the dirt, the animals, and the other beings (devas, I fleetingly thought). I didn’t just see or feel them separately – I BECAME all of them at the same time, as if each part were my heart, my leg, my arm, my finger! I could simultaneously feel me on that ledge, but then I could also feel vague thoughts and feelings as all of those parts… one big, complex and wondrous network!

All of this came to me before one word popped into my head… but it wasn’t long until I heard a majestic but soothing voice, as well! As I’ve explained it since, it was the MOST balanced feeling of masculine and feminine that  I’ve ever experienced, and it was just beautiful (though that word really doesn’t reach the magnitude of how I felt).

“We are all waking up again…not just parts of us, but all of the Earth…

…here I could suddenly see energy points/ley points shooting up to/from the sky, and then I WAS up in the sky, looking down on the entire Southeast, at one of what I knew was many circles of those energy points…

“… those who survive and succeed will again remember how to use the Magic of the Earth; because together, as One, we are _________.”

…there was a concept I could understand, but there was no word I could summon for it – it was the idea of being “more powerful as an integrated entity than we are separate” – powerful isn’t quite the right word, though… somewhere to the next level? It actually added a piece to the puzzle that I hadn’t previously understood… and for the first time, I could FEEL Oneness…

“Like the birds, who fly by the natural mastery and integration of their wings working with and through the air currents…it is time to fly.”

…I was shown an eagle and a hawk flying together…

“Take this to others; all who remember must teach others about this. The time has come.”

I was so struck by the HUGENESS I was feeling that I was simultaneously processing everything all at once, and I just couldn’t speak much after that. However, at the end of the part about the birds, I suddenly could see two more beams of golden light beam down diagonally onto us, in conjunction with the violet beam that I continued to sense coming from directly above. I told Phran that we were supposed to stand there until the beam was broken, and so we did; but I knew exactly when we were done getting zapped with whatever it was, as did Phran, because we both opened our eyes and broke the connection at the same time.

I told Phran, “We’re done here. I heard, ‘On to your next point.'” She nodded brightly and said, “Yep. Heard that, too!” We just looked at each other for a moment, and I shared some of the visuals I hadn’t shared while they were coming in… I’d had to have them assimilate first! She was marveling at the energy she said she’d felt coursing through her, and how she now understood what she had heard during our first stop: “Just BE.” She was a conduit; she helped “jump start” the receiver and amplify the energy (which, by the way, is phenomenal and powerful in energy healing – and explains about how strong her abilities are in healing altogether)… and was very happy to get that message. I laughed, because I thought about how much of a conduit she’d been in getting me actively started in this world to begin with. How appropriate! “Rabbit ears!” I said to her… thinking of the old TV sets we’d had as a kid.

We realized it was time to move on; it was like we could feel the mountain waiting.

An example of this part of the Big Pinnacle… see how smooth the lines get, and the horizontal ridges. It’s amazing to think about how long ago this mountain would have been up against the ocean!!

The Water…
As we continued our way around Big Pinnacle, we suddenly came to a different feel to the rock altogether. Wavy, much smoother, and watery… we both put our hands on this rock, and could feel… the ocean. I could immediately feel the immensity of it, and it was like I was looking up from beneath the depths out into the sunlight sky, because I could see a large, whale-like creature swimming over me.<

I didn’t even realize I’d closed my eyes, until I heard Phran laugh with glee, and opened them up again. “We were dolphin-like creatures here, very intelligent, and chose to live in the water! How COOL!” I laughed, and then told her what I’d seen.

We got the message that this was another “spot,” so we did the same thing as before; both of us semi-sat on the rock next to each other, and she held out her hand to “connect.” I closed my eyes, and immediately, again I had this great, IMMENSE feeling – but this time, it was of the ocean. I couldn’t just feel the power of it; the power of the water was INSIDE of me.

“Child of Mu…you need to look for your information in the right place…”

…That initial comment jolted me, as I’ve had quite the experience this year recalling an IMPORTANT past life in Lemuria – aka “Mu” – yet something else in which Phran had assisted via hypnotherapy for a past life regression, when I’d tried for several months to get beyond the cocoon I’d wrapped around the memory of that lifetime… more on that one of these days! Anyway, I’ve yet to understand that comment on getting my information… I’m sure I will; it just hasn’t come to me yet.

In the meantime, I was suddenly shown a lot of mathematical and geometrical equations that I didn’t quite understand, drawn in the air, showing relation to geography; like I knew what they were, but their meaning was just beyond my grasp. I explained that to Phran before I continued…

“…the waters will rise again…”

…Below me, I could see water rising up from the valley, from out of the ground. Odd, I thought – especially since we were several hours from the nearest shoreline!

The water soon filled the entire valley, and stopped not too far below where we were standing. In my mind, I was looking down, into the turquoise water, and I saw a golden, circular orb deep down water that was glowing and emanating sparkly golden rays away from itself, out into the water surrounding it, and it had a pinkish “aura”, for lack of a better explanation… that confused me, as I had no idea what it could be. However, I somehow knew that I was supposed to be paying attention to it…

I spoke some of the words I heard, but also told Phran I didn’t understand some of what I was being told. I also told her about the golden circular “thing” that was glowing in the water. (See Post-Script at the bottom of this page to see subsequent information I’ve found in regards to the golden orb I saw here…)

Then, while we were still connected, the MOST BIZARRE thing happened!

The actual air around us at the time was dead still; I could even feel the sun hitting us, against the rock. Suddenly, I felt like I was part of a big, huge wave, welling up and coming in from my right… and just as suddenly as I could feel the wave start coming in, the WIND picked up dramatically to my right, and rustled through the leaves in the trees, in a WAVE, up the mountain towards us. In fact, it was so strong that as it approached from the right, it startled me out of “the zone” into opening my eyes (to make sure a wave wasn’t actually coming – it was that real!)… and it STOPPED DEAD, right in front of us. I broke out of it and asked Phran, “Did you feel that? Did you hear it?” And she said, “Yes… the leaves rustling in a wave up the mountain, and it stopped dead right in front of us!”

Wow. It was immense.

I knew there was something I needed to get from that, but again, I couldn’t quite grasp it yet. I just stored it away for later use, as I usually do – I’ve found that days, weeks, and even months later, I’ll learn something that will allow a bunch of unused pieces to the jigsaw to fit together perfectly. It’s a really, really good reason to journal!!! (See the Post-Script section for more information about “the wave” and what happened later…)

Shortly after that, it was again time to move on.

The Air (and I guess a little bit of Fire, too)…
This was our final resting stop up on Big Pinnacle. Again, we stopped and looked up the column of rocks, and where we’d originally thought we wouldn’t be able to go very far, again, the “steps” came easily, and we actually found a great place… about 50 feet from the very top! We found a thin ledge, and just sat down to soak it all in.

Something similar to what we saw, sitting on the ledge.

An interesting thing to note: Just before we stopped at that ledge, while we’d been climbing and stopped on the way at a nice overlook, I had been standing there talking to Phran, I noticed a ladybug on my hand. I hadn’t noticed one insect since we’d been there, and I realized that just as I was thinking how odd it was to suddenly see it. Then, as we were talking for a few more minutes, I suddenly saw two more. When we continued on minutes later and found that ledge, it wasn’t very long before I suddenly realized that more than a dozen ladybugs again appeared, where we were sitting. I decided to make a mental note of that, and check my Animal Speak book when I got home. (See the Post Script section below for the message that ladybugs have for us…)

When we sat down, I didn’t get the feeling there was any message to bring in there; just that we were supposed to sit there and… for lack of a better word, charge. I could feel the sun indirectly slanting in towards us on that spot, and I vaguely noted that it felt much, much warmer than it should’ve felt, knowing the temperature of the day. In my head, I could see the mountain encased in a bubble of sorts – a bubble of energy – and we were inside of that bubble. We had some water and fruit; then I sat back, up against the rock, leaned my head back, and closed my eyes. I think Phran did the same next to me, because we were just quiet for quite awhile. Several times, we heard people coming up the trail beneath us, and I would open my eyes and watch them; only once did anyone even notice we were up there, and that was only because their dog  had sensed us, stopped, and looked up, causing the owners to look up, too. When I closed my eyes, I truly felt encased inside the warm, embryonic, loving bubble of energy on the mountain; in fact, I could see the energy swirling past us, in front of us, in a counterclockwise direction. At one point, in my mind’s eye, I could see a huge bird – resembling a huge phoenix – flying in the “bubble” too, around the Pinnacle; I could feel the shadow, and then it would be gone… and then a few minutes later, I’d feel it again, for it to continue on, etc. I felt like we were in a completely different reality, just on the other side of a veil from our 3D Earth; I felt even more so when people would come by, stop and look up, but never see us.

At some point, I opened my eyes, and my head was tilted up towards the sky. When I did that, I suddenly realized that there were about a half dozen hawks right above us, circling lazily in the geothermal currents. They were so close that we could really see them just ride the current, circle up, down, and back around again.

These are the kinds of birds we saw in flight, right over our heads, just under their nests - the red hawk and the raven.

I brought that up to Phran, and we just sat there and watched; at some point, by watching their flight pattern, we realized that we were almost directly beneath their nesting place! I could feel the beautiful, graceful hawks noting our presence there, but they didn’t seemed alarmed by our presence at all; we were simply “inside” the bubble. (See the Post Script section below for the message that hawks have for us…)

A little further off (not too far), there were some other birds that were large and playing in the air currents in the same fashion as the hawks; we couldn’t quite figure out what they were. I originally thought they were some sort of vulture, but that didn’t feel right; they weren’t quite large enough. Later on, after I was home, I found out that ravens nest there at Pilot Mountain, too, and another light lit up – yep, that’s what they were! (See the Post Script section below for the message that ravens have for us…)

Remember earlier on, in this post, when I said I’d gotten the message back at the hotel that we weren’t supposed to have phones or cameras on this trip? Well, as I said, Phran had brought her digital camera. She’d gotten a few pictures in the beginning of the climb, but here’s the funniest part: While we were sitting up there, on that ledge, probably 50 feet under the hawks nest, with easily a half dozen hawks circling around continuously, Phran tried 4 or 5 times to take a picture – every single one of the pictures she took came out with a beautiful, blank sky!! We laughed about that – I said, “I TOLD you we weren’t supposed to take any pictures!” She replied, “Yep; and what did I hear when we got here? ‘Just BE.’ Well, I tried, anyway…”

It was at some point that a foreign odor suddenly filled my senses; a fresh, lovely smell, but one I’d never sensed before. There was no one around right then besides us, and I could already distinctly smell the pines around, and the crisp, clean air…but this was completely different. I asked Phran if she smelled it; she didn’t (which surprised me!). It came only from my right, in a space that was about wide enough to fit one other person before the cliff face butted up against an endpoint of the ledge. It really felt like there was a person sitting next to me, but not quite…

I shrugged it off, and welcomed the presence, whatever (or whomever) it was. We figured it could only be a positive presence, since it was warm and within the bubble, along with us! (Note: It was just this past week that I’ve come to understand who was sitting next to me; but that’s another important blog, for another day… more to come!)

Shortly after that, we both sensed that we no longer needed to stay. We both experienced the oddest feeling as we climbed down, and started on the trail away from the Big Pinnacle: At one point, we both knew exactly when we’d broken away from that bubble, even though the scenery hadn’t changed in the least – there was nothing distinctly different in the landscape (no more trees, bushes, or shade – in fact, we were directly in the sun), but it was as if we’d walked through a membrane, to the “outside.” Just as I noticed it, Phran stopped, turned to look at me, and said, “Do you feel that? Suddenly, I feel cold and lonely, like we’ve happened upon some forgotten, enchanted forest!”

I laughed and agreed.

There were other parts of the mountain, other parts of the area we were drawn to explore; however, I distinctly heard, “Not today!”

Meaning, of course, that we’d be back there again another time…I’m looking forward to it!  🙂

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Post Scripts (Follow Up Notes and Explanations)

  • The golden, glowing orb in the “water.” Previous to my first trip to Pilot Mountain, I had done a Google search trying to find any information about the mountain being a vortex of any kind. I found a site by a man  named Joseph Robert Jochmans researching and discussing his experience with Reawakening energy points throughout the world, as well as many other very, very interesting and timely topics in the world of energy and metaphysics. Though I had the site bookmarked, I know I had seen a page talking about his experience on Pilot Mountain; however, I somehow missed the page that contained his discussion about the Etheric Gemstone Temples (it’s worth the read, and fascinating!). I came across this other page with information that included Pilot Mountain on his site after the trip, when I went back to read about his experience again, compare notes…and see what else he’d found on his journeys. I was blown away by his report entitled, “A Journey Through the Thirty-Three Etheric Stone Temples,” which includes yet another whole section about Pilot Mountain… and wondered why it was I had totally missed this in the first place! Here’s an excerpt:

“The anchoring in of the TOPAZ Sanctuary will occur above Pilot Mountain in North Carolina, U. S. A, at the new Capricorn Planetary Node Point. It shall serve as an important KEY for unlocking both the Bimini and Uxmal (Temple of Iltar) Halls of Records, which according to Edgar Cayce are sister Halls to the one at Giza.

The INITIATION ESSENCE for the Capricorn Temple is: COMPASSION WITHOUT INVESTMENT IN OUTCOME, BLAME OR PITY.

In the Spiritual Realm, your All Self now takes you to the Sanctuary of TOPAZ, the gem of your new Third Eye energy center. The Temple itself is made up of six huge transparent topaz crystals, one turning inside the other. Each crystal has dozens of facets triangle-shaped and glowing in different topaz hues. A brilliant yellow gemstone slowly moves in the center surrounded by a rose stone, itself encased within a pink crystal that in turn floats within a light green topaz. These are all inside a blue topaz, and the final or outermost gem shimmers clear.

As these forms slowly turn inside each other the sunlight passing through them triggers a fantastic array of spectral colors. There are also flashes of static electricity flowing along the crystal edges which light up the symbol of Capricorn etched onto their outer surfaces.

Your All Self introduces you to the Temple Guardian, the Angel Capriel, who wears a stunning yellow topaz on Her forehead. She makes these comments…” (Go to the Website to see the whole text)

Further, just today, as I was just cutting and pasting this information into this blog, and re-reading it, I found yet another item in here that I didn’t notice before… the comment about unlocking Bimini. About a week ago, I received another “message” (from the entity that had been sitting next to me on that ledge that day) that had to do with similar information about Bimini… until then, I’d never even heard of it – I had no idea where on Earth it was, until I looked it up! Well, I guess THAT will be yet another post, on another day… [Back to the post…]

  • The huge wave and the “air wave.” During the week following this trip. I was having an email interchange with the awesome woman who has taught me Theta Healing – Linda Grimm (see her Website, she has classes coming up in January) – and Linda gave me exactly the right words for the light bulb to go off in my head. Here’s the quote from her email:

“Think about if you could teach someone else how to pull the energy of a sacred place at will. Somehow, that feels important. It’s like, if you needed the roots of a tree, could you pull that energy? If you needed the vision of the hawk, could you pull that energy? If you needed the ability to shift and change with the tides and wind like the sand, could you pull that energy? Connecting to these gifts that are available not only in certain places but in our stored mental images and records is powerful. It feels like some of your future students will be able to relate to that more than asking Creator to provide it… So, give that some thought and see if it resonates with you.  I just got… If you needed the fiery beauty of a maple tree in the fall, could you pull that?  If you needed the freshness of a daffodil after a long winter, could you pull that?  Oh so many!!!”

As I read her email, the BUZZ went off: “…If you needed the ability to shift and change with the tides and wind like the sand, could you pull that energy?…” The wave came back to me immediately, and the power of the wind that suddenly picked up was intense… and felt just like the power of the water that I’d felt inside of me at that exact moment. It was incredible and incredulous, but I realized that I had been shown exactly how to harness that energy, and I hadn’t even realized it!!!

Super cool, very overwhelming… and amazing. The next step: Remembering how to do just that, on command! 😉[Go back to the post]

  • Messages that the ladybug brings for us. In doing some shamanic work, I’ve found that the sudden unquestionable presence of any living being in my life typically has an appropriate message, with perfect timing! Therefore, upon my return home (more like the next day – I was WAY too tired to do anything that night!), I looked up the messages that we can get from the ladybug. Here’s what I found:

Resurrection!

The appearance of a Ladybug heralds a time of luck and protection in which our wishes begin to be fulfilled. Higher goals and new heights are possible; worries begin to dissipate; new happiness comes about. Their presence signals a time of shielding from our own aggravations and pests.

Some great resources for animal messages are several books by author Ted Andrews:

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  • Messages that the hawk brings for us. Likewise to the ladybug, I looked up the message from the hawk. I figured it wouldn’t would be too different from the eagle, which has been one of my life totem animals; though the message is close, I did find out that there is a slightly different message from the hawk:
Messenger, protector, and visionary of the air; this powerful bird can awaken the Visionary within you, and lead to your life purpose. It is the Messenger, and when it shows up, pay attention: There is always a message coming. Once Hawk shows up, it will stay with you permanently. This powerful bird can awaken your visionary power, open your higher chakras to hear the messages of the Universe and lead to you to your life purpose. Also look for the Raven to precede or accompany Hawk when it presents itself to you. (!!!!! How funny is that?!?!). The sky is Hawk’s realm, and through its flight it communicates with Heaven and the Great Creator Spirit, and conveys that knowledge to Earth: Hawk medicine unites Heaven and Earth.

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  • Messages that the raven brings for us. I’ve never been overly fond of the raven; I have to admit, it’s partially because they get a bad rap in contemporary literature. When my husband told me he’d decided his totem must be a raven, I was never really comfortable with it. I can’t tell you why, though several different reasons whisper through my head as I type this. Anyway, in deference to the raven, there are many very strong, positive points about its presence. In stride with the ladybugs and the hawks, I did look a little more deeply into its message, and here’s what I found:
Raven is the messenger of magic from the great void where all knowledge waits for us. He is also the symbol of changes in consciousness, of levels of awareness and of perception. He carries the mark of the shape-shifter, and carries healing energy from great distances… Raven medicine can give you the ability to get inside another’s head and heart, to feel true empathy, and to understand these people from the inside out, so to speak. Spiritual healers and counselors use Raven power, for they have a depth of understanding and empathy not shared by all. Because of this powerful medicine, they can often actually change another’s behavior and perception, to work real magic in bringing insight, peace, healing and understanding to others; to at least offer others a different and positive perspective of things, circumstances and people in life. This medicine must always be used in the Light for the highest good and best interests of others; and never for personal gain or dark reasons…like the Hawk, he is also the Messenger of the Great Spiritual Realm. With Raven, human, and animal spirits mingle and become as one to help you shapeshift your life or your very being. Raven has the knowledge of how to become other animals and how to spake and understand their language… This creative life force can and should be used to work the magic of spiritual law on this physical earth plane, to create the ethereal link between Body and Soul and God and the Oneness of the Universe. This is your path with Raven medicine; to always work your magic in the Light, to co-create with God, and to enlighten all those around you to the True Magic in life.



My added significance is the fact that one of my husband’s totems is the raven… so I knew I should meditate upon that some more. And I did. It wasn’t a week later when the answer came to me, from one of my Guides:



“Yes, the raven’s message is true for you; however, the added depth to that for you is that part of the agreement you and your husband made in the etheric realms had to do with your Awakening to pursue your highest path; it was partially being with him that helped to cause what you call your Grand Awakening so you can pursue this path.”