When it gets overwhelming, a little bird will tell you…

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The other day, a friend of mine asked me, “How is the world for you now, since you’ve discovered all of these Awakened abilities and done all of this work over the past year?”

My first thought: Huh? YEAR? Hasn’t it been DECADES?  LOLLOL

However, here was my answer: “It’s a completely different world – so much more beautiful and poetic, so MUCH MORE, period! But here are times when I just feel like there’s just SO MUCH for us to do, and on the fly, as things speed up faster and faster!”

At the onset of learning and fine-tuning energy and spiritual work on myself and others, I really thought that the more I learned, the more in control of the bigger picture I would feel.

I was wrong.

Today, there are days and weeks when I thankfully put it all aside for a breather, because I get…  well, overwhelmed. And I find that if I let that happen, it bleeds quickly from the spiritual level into the physical level, and then I get panicked about a million things (that don’t really matter).

The other evening, I had gone into one of those panic modes for a little bit. I ran to the store to pick up a few simple things, and in the store, it was like I suddenly had a whole bunch of stuff mucked up, and I started getting anxious. Thoughts, worries, and doubts that were really pretty ridiculous started running through my head; it only took a few minutes before I could disconnect, observe those thoughts, and think, “Wow. Chill out. It’s all fine and good!” That quieted the mind down for the moment, but I still felt like I just had the anxiety at bay – not eliminated.

When I got home, in the dark (this was at about 9:30pm), a young bird – which turned out to be what’s called a nuthatch (though I’d never seen this interesting looking bird before) – was “running” around right on the driveway, acting really strangely. It ran under the car, and then sat there, looking like it was hurt in some way.

My husband got it out; there was a thought about putting it in the bushes or something…but I said no, leave it there. So, he and my kids went in the house.

However, I couldn’t get myself to leave the bird.

Initially, I also didn’t want to get too close, so I stood about 3 feet away from it. I was still a little in panic mode, though I didn’t realize it at the time. The reason I didn’t want to get too close? I was afraid, though I recognized not of the bird. Once I realized that consciously, I decided to put the thought aside and study it later; then I tuned in, and got that it was hurt… but there was something else. It wasn’t necessarily going to die, though I understood it could choose to. It would look like it was asleep… then it rolled on its side. At a certain point, I even thought it was dead.

Without even thinking about it, I kicked in to Theta Healing mode, and started communicating through Creator – to the animal’s Guide. Next, it felt right to bring in some Arcing Radial healing – and next thing I knew, the center of my back was radiating coolness and love, and I could feel several of the archetypes of the Divine Feminine circle around the bird – Mary, Mary Magdalene, Quan Yin, Isis, Woman of the Woods (it IS one of her creatures, after all!). Almost immediately after I started the Arcing Radial, the bird suddenly righted itself and looked at me, looked up into the tree, almost backwards, then looked at me again. It walked backwards a little bit, forwards, looked normal, twisted its head oddly, and then sat down and went to sleep, right there in the middle of the driveway.

Suddenly, I did something that was the MOST interesting thing I’ve experienced thus far: It was like EVERYTHING came together at once! Arcing Radial, Reiki, Shamballa, Theta, the Violet Flame – it was ALL ROLLED TOGETHER, like there was this POWERFUL ball of energy coming out of my hands and projecting over to the bird, who still had The Ladies with it. I was simply the vessel; I could feel that energy pouring through me and then over and into the bird, while at the same time, I was observing the Arcing Radial and… just everything. For an undefined period of time, I realized the feeling of being All One… because there was no separation. The Ascended Masters, the bird, the energy, the driveway, me…. we were all the same.

I have no idea how long I was out there in the dark with that bird – maybe 30 or 45 minutes. Finally, I heard Mary say to me, “You’ve done all you can do; we’ve done all we can do. The rest is up to this beautiful creature, but it has shared its message.”

And then I was fine. I went into the house knowing the bird would be fine either way.

As I learned, nature speaks to us all of the time, sharing messages we can choose to understand or ignore. So, after going back into the house – my earlier angst almost completely forgotten with the wonder of what had happened on my driveway – I looked up nuthatch as a totem message, and here’s the message that nuthatches share with us:

The grounding of spiritual energies along with faith and trust in the spiritual and physical.

The next morning, when my children, husband and I were leaving for the beginning of the work and school day, I looked up, down, and all around my driveway and even into the street, to see if that interesting and sweet bird had passed on during the night. However,  there was no sign of the nuthatch. I mentally thanked it for sharing such an experience and message with me and went on with my day.

A little later, I was reflecting on that entire evening, and  I realized that that my anxiety and initially not wanting to get too close to the bird was simply the fear of not being “good enough” to fix everything that can be fixed.

I realize I am. We all are.

THAT’S what we all need to remember… and practice.

What Still Triggers You?

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As many would probably agree, things have “sped up” even more… it’s amazing and very exciting to see how many people are Awakening now, step by step! People who don’t even realize it, but whose perspectives and experiences are becoming a lot more wide open because of a various number of reasons.

Three months ago, I’d posted a discussion on a Facebook group discussion board asking about what a person does when in the presence of another spiritually focused person who is unaware of an ego-based response that they emit.

The discussion was somewhat varied, but there was a point made to the “Law of Resonance,” which I find comes up sometimes in spiritual circles.

I’ve found that the “Law of Resonance” isn’t always quite right, because most people who use that use it in the context that “the reason it upsets you is because you have the same issue somewhere deep down.” However, what I’ve really learned and discovered is usually that a trigger is usually due to some sort of BELIEF you have that causes friction with the opinion/reaction of the other person within yourself.

Not quite the same thing.

Being irritated with someone who can’t accept others’ experiences can simply be because you have a belief somewhere deep down that your opinion or experience isn’t as important or valid as that of others… and that can come from a memory in the distant past (or even a past life) of a situation where you yourself were belittled, made fun of, or ridiculed.

Quite different than feeling like someone else’s experiences aren’t as valid as yours (which is typically to what the standard Law of Resonance would infer in this scenario)!

I will say to those just remembering our individual power and capabilities to BE CAUTIONED, as there are some in the spiritual world who have been working in it for many years who – though I believe are well intentioned – don’t realize that they themselves have a need to release some established beliefs and ego issues of their own, which in turn affects those around them. That’s usually because they’re still working from “the way it’s always been” for them, instead of adapting to the way it’s becoming… and that’s changing month by month, week by week, even day by day! That’s a really subtle thing, because once the ego gets inserted, it’s as simple as convincing someone that ONE way is right, and ANOTHER is wrong… which in the widely opening world of metaphysics, is simply incorrect if it’s done for the individual’s highest good and works for the person!

What’s important is to go back, realize where that comes from, and release it. You’ll also find that at some point, you realize that the other person is simply in need of releasing themselves… even though they might not even think they do. So, you might just choose not to be in their company anymore for the time being. Once you’ve released that history, you typically don’t need to be, anyway… because you find it was just a learning experience for you at this juncture.

I’ve found that the more layers you peel away, the more that is buried that can use a variety of different techniques, depending on the situation – because one way doesn’t always do the same job. Once getting down to the much muckier, more protected stuff, you just learn to immediately acknowledge it, and there are also some other ways of simply deprogramming and even reprogramming yourself in a more positive manner without needing to fully relive the buried emotions!

However, I will season that with the caveat that you STILL have to be able to acknowledge it, so you must be able to approach such memories without emotion and ego and be able to recognize the lesson/experience you gained, even from the most awful memory…and it’s not always due to the action of others!

I’ve found that even in just the past few months, I’ve become much more able to immediately recognize a trigger, find the reason for the trigger, release it, and then REPROGRAM it for my and the Divine’s highest good. For me, the reprogramming part is vital, because even when you release something, if it’s deeply ingrained – say, over lifetimes of experiences – it’s difficult for your being to know how to continue on in this experience and know how to exist without that belief!

I’ve had the grace to experience quite a bit of releasing due to several modalities, and use all of them for different circumstances… I actually often use more than one, integrated together!

Here are some recognition, releasing, and healing modalities I’ve learned thus far – and I will say, all the PERFECT time (as it typically is)! Many willy say, “I don’t want to learn to be a healing practitioner; I just want to know how to get rid of all of this gunk!” The important thing to remember is that in learning how to heal others, you first have to learn how to heal yourself, which is a good part of learning these modalities!

  • Meditation, in whatever form works for you. It’s always where I tell people to start, because you can’t start knowing yourself until you quiet the mind of chatter;
  • Reiki (I’ve only taken I & II thus far, but there’s also Master and Master Teacher) – it’s a great way to be introduced into energy/healing work!
  • Crystal work, which doesn’t resonate with some, but I’ve personally felt a kinship with these wonderful beings of consciousness for a long time!
  • Lindwall Releasing (which is what was being referred to on the discussion board on that Group page);
  • Arcing Radial Light Healing – a very different feeling of energy from Reiki, but it can be very profound, and you gain the immediate presence and assistance of powerful archetypes of the Divine Feminine, Ascended Masters and the archangels in bringing the core issue to light, releasing it, and healing;
  • Working with shamanic energies via journeying, connecting in with nature around you to discover the reflection of yourself, as well as many other advantages such work provides;
  • Clearing yourself of the attachment of darker energies and entities, so you know when there’s something attached to your being that prevents it from clearing and releasing (and therefore, progressing);
  • Theta Healing – for me, THIS modality has been by far the MOST potent and powerful modality I’ve learned thus far, and integrates with EVERYTHING else to make them even more powerful! Theta allows the person to recognize and confirm THE BASE of underlying limiting beliefs (think of the bottom center of a House of Cards), teaches the person how to pull out that base (or as close to the base as possible), resolve clear the memory from all levels (physical, spiritual, genetic, and historical), all lifetimes of your being’s cells, transform it and send it straight back to Creator as Creator’s Light, and then reprogram your being’s cells to know how to exist with the opposite. It’s almost immediate, and it teaches you how to work with all other planes of existence for the Highest Good. The caveat I put in here is, be careful – you will get what you bargained for – meaning, I would recommended this modality only when the person is ready to face and honestly release some really, really old and ingrained beliefs.
  • Shamballa Healing – all I can say about this one is WOW. Lots more of opening, opening, opening to conscious awareness and connection to the different dimensions of your self – all the way up to your I AM self – and further connection to many beings of very high White Light. Much more releasing and healing, and multiple dimensions! This is yet another modality I would recommend for someone who has experience and some comfort in working in their own muck, because it’s very powerful (and this, in conjunction with Theta… triple WOW).

There are many others; I’m finding that many overlap. Quantum Touch, Matrix Energetics… I believe they all deal with similarly deep levels as Theta.

Anyway, not everything is good for everyone… which is why it’s AWESOME that there’s such a GREAT variety of different ways of recognizing, healing, and releasing.

The goal is healing ourselves, then healing each other (which ultimately, is healing ourselves, anyway)… and ANYTHING that clears the ego even ONE MORE iota more is good stuff for our development!

Munay!

Step 1/2: Figuring Out What’s Going Ohm, and a Meditation Primer

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So, I would say that waking up feeling like my entire body was vibrating at 4am that morning in November 2009 was my “rude awakening” – pun intended! LOL  That was probably the day that I would call my “point of no return” – or rather, the moment I was apparently meant to be vibrated (vs. shaken) Awake. It was electrical, and there was only one other circumstance in my life that had ever produced that current… but that’s just not the story for today. So bookmark it, and I’ll come back to it, when it’s important to tell. Not yet.

Anyway, as I lay there in the dark, wondering, “What the heck???” I was also needing to shake off the last night of one of my several day inter-dimensional episodes – which, by the way, I had no idea was exactly that. So, as I lay there considering that and the vibrations while I was laying there in the dark, I was thinking, “Am I going a little crazy or something?” I was wondering what to do; though my husband had always been kept in the loop about my various abilities, I didn’t want to talk to him about this. First I had to consider what this was.

While I was doing that, I heard a voice in my head tell me (very distinctly) to talk to a woman I really only knew predominantly as a client (though we’d had some good conversations on metaphysics). I considered it, thinking it was funny that we’d already had a meeting set up a few days afterwards. Since I couldn’t get back to sleep – internal vibrating is a little distracting – I crawled out of bed, went to my computer, did a little research, and then yes, I actually did send her an email.

Here’s the funny thing – I know I had done research on a lot of this stuff during previous multi-day episodes of those “alternate reality dreams,” – yet I’d always had trouble finding anything about it on the Internet. However, this time, I hit jackpot… and more! It was like I got the message, “OK, it’s time. Here’s the information you need!”

I spent a majority of the next day reading stuff, mostly online. It was later in the day when I got an email back from the woman I’d been told to talk to, and she said, “Just write it all down. We’ll talk about it when we meet.”

And so I did. The next couple of days worked out to be a great time of throwing up my life in an anonymous blog out on the Internet, so I could go back and read it… and start to make some sense of stuff I’d completely missed before. I guess I also felt that if someone came across the blog, they obviously needed to see it. But otherwise, I wasn’t sharing that… too many things that were too deep inside, and I’m VERY uncomfortable with things like that.

Things started to take shape.

I did a lot of digging online, and was able to find a handful of different Websites that offered discussion boards for Awakening Lightworkers (which is apparently a common term for those of us who are Awakening right now). The funny thing: Every single time I found one of those boards, I really hestitated to write something on them, because I wasn’t sure it meant me! But I did, and I read even more.

So, when I met with the woman to whom I’d sent the email at 4:30am-ish, it made a world of difference. She knew what was going on, with relatively little explanation from me. She explained about being able to move between dimensions, and told me that I’d obviously figured out how to do that… and that she did it quite often. She explained vibrational changes, and a bunch of other stuff.

I told her that several people online had told me to autowrite with my spirit/angel guides; she said that was a really good idea. Then she told me how to do it, and that I could probably even try “autotyping” too.

I had to digest that.

Before I’d even attempt anything, I needed to re-start meditating, from which I’d gotten away for several years. That seemed “right,” first and foremost. So I went online – great place to find lots of stuff, wouldn’t you say? – and found various different sites with some simple guided meditations. I had that “AUTOTYPE” thing hanging over my head, but I really felt I needed to introspect first.

Meditation – Basic (and Important) Steps
I’m going to stop here for a minute and talk a bit about meditating, because that’s important. It’s REALLY important, for everyone. I’d actually really started meditating back around 2001-2002, when I started using alternative therapies to treat migraines. Here’s the key: It’s different for everyone, because our minds are wired differently, with a ton of variable factors. So, for example, I like guided meditation every once in awhile, but I’ve found that I’m much better with some drum, angelic, or similar music in headphones, which actually keep me focused. Some people need absolute quiet. And jumping ahead a little here, now that my husband meditates, too, we’ve found that for the time being, guided Theta Wave meditation is the best thing for him (by the way, I LOVE unguided Theta Wave meditation, myself, for different reasons than my husband – mostly because it dramatically cuts the time it takes to get really focused – and allows me for even deeper meditation and quicker understanding with my guides). Some people use candles, crystals, a glass of water, or something else – but the important point is that you’re meditating, whether it’s five minutes or two hours. Even the Wii Fit video game has a meditation exercise, where you sit on the balance board and focus on a lit candle on the screen; the goal is to sit completely still for three minutes without flickering the candle out from movement. The game even attempts distraction! It’s a GREAT starter – the exercise is 3 minutes. I started at 3 minutes, and then worked my way up to do it three times in a row; it’s a fun and easy way to start on meditation.

Why, you ask, is this so important?

It’s simple: In today’s overpowering chatter, meditation quiets the incessant voice in your head, and allows you to stop and really look inside of yourself. It helps you stop thinking and allows you to feel. Then, once you make that shift, you can delve into the other aspects of the Universe, without the interference of your mind. And then you can realize that what’s in your mind is really just that – chatter!

So, try a few different types of meditation – guided, unguided, to music, to silence, theta/alpha/beta waves, group meditation, even yoga and/or Tai Chi (which is called a moving meditation), or any combination thereof. There are many choices out there, and more every day! You’ll know when you find the right way for you! Note: If you want to simply download something to use for meditation, http://www.itunes.com actually has a really nice variety; plus it’s reasonable, and you can get it immediately via download. All you need to do then is either a) download it to your iPod, or b) plug those headphones right into your computer, and just float away!

Also, there’s a huge misperception that you should meditate for  a set period of time – like a half hour or an hour. You know what? It’s a lot like exercise – every little bit counts! Any time when you can escape from our 3D world and just be, you’re moving in the right direction, even if it’s ten or fifteen minutes.

On Behalf of My Husband (Who Had Some Really Frustrating Meditation Beginnings), Some BASICS.
As I’ve been practicing one form of meditation or another for 25 or so years, I’ve developed a custom style that works really well for me – and I’m continuing to investigate different kinds and try them out, to further refine my practice. This will just naturally happen over time for anyone. However, my husband got really frustrated when he started the effort, because I forgot to explain to him some of what I would call the basics. I guess I assumed since we’ve been through 5.5 years of martial arts practice together, that he would at least know something about it.

You know that saying, about the word assume? Yeah, well, you got it. SOOO…. I guess it would be a good idea for me to put some basics on here, for the beginner. Anyone reading, please feel free to chime in under the Comments section! 🙂

  • Wear what makes you most comfortable. When you meditate, you’re completely leaving your bodily concerns behind. You can’t really do that if you’re wearing clothing that doesn’t fit well! Anything that is going to distract you isn’t good. So… pajamas, sweats, workout clothes, heck your birthday suit, if you prefer.
  • Pick a time to meditate when you’ll be able to relax, but not fall asleep. Depending on the type of person you are, pick the time of day when you’ll be able to zone out and focus without dozing off completely. For example, I’m definitely a morning person, so meditating is much more effective for me if I do it early in the morning, right after I wake up. If I do it later in the evening, it’s hard for me to relax without falling asleep. However, sometimes, a lunch break meditation works really well, too! Try out different times, get to know your body’s rhythms, so you can pick the best time possible for you.In my opinion, the goal to a good meditation is to clear the mind, quiet the voice, and just exist, so you can let the Universe flow…. I call that the “twilight” zone, in between being awake and falling asleep. If it’s done right, you come out of meditation completely refreshed and ready to take on the world! It’s difficult to find that zone at first, but once you get there a few times, it becomes exponentially easier. Don’t feel bad if it takes a few tries – it still happens to me every once in awhile! However, when you first start out, it’s easy to accidentally take that extra half-step and fall asleep. If you have insomnia and it’s the primary purpose of your meditation, that’s fine. However, if you are introspecting, working to calm physical functions, visualizing, manifesting, working on your non-physical/psychic abilities, or connecting with your guides, your higher self,or just connecting, the most effective zone is that “twilight zone”!
  • Sit someplace that makes you comfortable but not so comfortable that you’ll fall asleep. This was my husband’s toughest obstacle in the beginning of his meditation efforts. He’d sit in a plushy chair or lay down on the sofa. Guaranteed, within 15 minutes, he’d be snoring away!Some people can lay down all the way and meditate without falling asleep – I usually can’t do that, but I’ve found that I can – for some meditative purposes – incline myself back about 45 degrees and still stay awake. For me,the best position is sitting straight up in a comfortable (but not too comfortable) chair, with my feet flat on the floor or cross legged on the floor with my back up against the front of a chair or sofa.When I can, I love meditating outside – there’s nothing better than fresh air and smells surrounding you, especially at the ocean, in the woods, or some other inspiring scenery! However, most of don’t actually live in or near places like that, so we have to make do inside our home (or at some studio) when we can’t do that.
  • Make sure you won’t be interrupted during the time you’ve blocked off to meditate. If someone barges in on you, the phone rings, or the dog or cat decides to nuzzle or snuggle you while you’re meditating, it can blow the whole effort. I also find that I get really irritable when that happens – which again, defeats the purpose of meditating! So, wherever you decide to meditate, strategize about where you’ll be. I’ve literally gone into my bedroom and posted a paper sign on my bedroom door that says in big letters: “MEDITATING UNTIL ____; DO NOT DISTURB!” And when I do go in my room, I throw the cat out, shut the door, made sure my cell phone was either in another room or had the ring turned off, and and I’ve even pulled out the phone plug from the answering machine – because no one’s going to need you that badly that they can’t wait an extra half hour or hour to call you back (do you remember the days without answering machines or cell phones? People actually somehow survived back then!)
  • If you get distracted easily, use headphones, guided meditation, and/or at least some relaxing music or nature sounds to prevent noises that will cause you to lose your focus. At first, you might even prefer to do guided meditation, which is when someone else actually guides you through the meditation. This allows you to focus on the practice of not getting distracted until you get used to getting into your “zone.” Plus, guided meditation is great when you’re learning the basic rhythm of meditation, and how to go about it. Try different people/guides, either in groups, classes, and/or DVDs/downloads! I’ve included some great resources to use at the bottom of this blog.Since I do get distracted easily – and because I have a noisy household, with 2 tween/teen kids, a husband, 2 dogs, and 2 cats – I usually listen to meditative music of some sort, with stereo headphones on my head, plugged into my laptop or iPod. Earplugs don’t do it for me – I’ve yet to find a pair that don’t always feel like they’re falling out of my head!Another great tool I’ve recently discovered is Theta wave meditation. When we meditate, we typically aspire to reach theta waves for optimal results (here’s a good basic explanation of the different brain waves we have). After you’ve been meditating for awhile, you know how to get there; however, until you mapped the route, it helps to have a guide! Theta wave meditation gets you to the optimal brainwave level for the best results from your meditation. Even when you’re more practiced, this is helpful – I love it because it gets me there very quickly, and I can get down to business – and get to the focus of my meditation.
  • Sit with your back straight, unemcumbered. Whether you’re inclined or sitting up, you need to keep your nerve and energy flow pathways as clear as possible when meditating: no slouching, crossed legs (though cross legged is fine), crossed arms, or twisted body.
  • Starting the meditation.
  1. Close your eyes and take 7-10 deep, intentional, cleansing breaths. This helps the process of slowing your heart rate, “centering” you, and it also helps you to clear your head and take your focus away from the outside world. Do it in sets that are easy for you – 5 breaths to a count of 5 (breathe in for a slow count of 5, hold it for a count of 5, let it out for a count of 5, hold it for a count of five, and repeat it 5 times), 7 breaths to a count of 7, etc. Usually, it’s best to do at least 5 repetitions of this type of breath. Also, if you can do “heart breathing,” even better – imagine your heart had a nose, and the air you breathe is being inhaled and exhaled from a “nose” in your chest. You can also do diaphragm breathing.
  2. Focus. For some, all you need to do is close your eyes and think of a blank, black wall, or some method to think of “nothing.” Others can’t clear their mind that way; in that case, you can use a piece of paper with a dot in the middle, light a candle and focus on the flame, or another similar method.
  3. Evoke the White Light of positive energy. That’s what I call it, though others use different terms, such as White Light of protection (I’m trying not to use words that would imply an negativity), White Light of Christ Consciousness, and other similar terms. Here’s an easy, quick way to do that (extracted from Inspiring Energy):Step one: As you take in your next breath, imagine that you are drawing in energy from from the heavens, from the sky, through your 7th chakra, on the crown of your head.Step two: As that powerful energy enters you, imagine on your exhale that the energy, the breath comes out from your heart.

    Step three:
    As you continue to breathe in through the crown of your head and out through the heart, imagine, visualize that breath, that energy forming a white light bubble around you. See the bubble of energy, of light, of breath completely around you, like you are in a ball of universal energy, where nothing can get through, unless you let it.

    Step four : Sit with that bubble visual for a minute, feel it fully.

  4. Set your intention. State specifically – whether out loud or in your head – what you intend to accomplish in this meditation. Need to focus on health? relaxation? The answer to a problem? Want to use manifestation techniques? Improve self love? Do you want to meet your spirit/angel guide? Do you have a specific question you’d like to have answered? Any of these are good intentions. If you state the intention at the beginning like this, it immediately connects you with your “higher” self, and puts you on a mutual concentrated path. Believe me, it works!

Now you’re on your way! This is a great start… for some good resources, see the section below. And if you have some great resources to add, please do so, in the Comments section!

Meditation Resources

Some of my faves for meditation:

Non-Guided (sound/music only)

Theta/Alpha/Beta Waves (sound/music only)

Guided